After a few days, the pain slowly disappeared from my body and my mental condition improved. Dad returned to Ting Nan early due to work reasons, while Mom stayed behind to continue to take care of her uneasy daughter.

Guoguo came to see me in the hospital, and she was really a rabbit, jumping into the ward. rushed to my hospital bed and blinked her big eyes and smiled at me and said, "Sister Xiao Lu, Sister Xiao Lu, I just saw a doctor so handsome!" I saw that his name on his badge was Wu Qingfeng! It's the same as the name of a Taiwanese singer, and it's different! What a nice name. ”

Wu Qingfeng! Isn't that Dr. Xiao Wu! I smiled and nodded to her, then raised my hand to signal her to be quieter.

She was noisy, laughing, and telling me like a little nymphomaniac how she felt when she first saw Dr. Wu. I looked at her, and suddenly I was in a good mood with her. At that moment, I seemed to see myself standing in front of Shao Yang.

Slowly, a ten-centimeter scar grew from the place where the lancet had been cut. Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, I could clearly see the red chasm when I lifted my hospital gown. The doctor encouraged me to get out of bed and walk around more, saying that it would help me heal the wound. Most of the time, I would walk down the long hallway to Dr. Wu's office and look inside to see if he was sitting at the window. I know it's a kind of lovesickness, looking at one person lovesick for another. I tried my best to control and suppress it, but I still missed it. That kind of longing cut me like a halberd. The wound on my lower back is slowly healing, but it seems that I have been left with an eternal scar in my heart that cannot be healed.

What I didn't expect was that one afternoon, Shen Qi appeared at the door of the ward. I looked at her, and my eyes passed through her, as if there was some kind of expectation in the depths of my heart, expecting Shao Yang to stand there, but then I thought about it, even if he stood there, what could I do, the story about me and him might not end like this. When love leaves, entanglement is just more pain for the person who loves deeply.

Seeing me lying on the bed, Shen Qi ran over quickly. I smiled and sat up sideways and asked her, "Why are you here?" ”

She reached out to help me sit up, but she was afraid that she would hurt me with the wrong force, so she didn't dare to step forward.

I watched her laugh, but she looked like she was about to cry, "You're still laughing, why did you do this!" I'll look at your waist. ”

I reached out to stop her hand and smiled bitterly, "Don't look at it, it's wrapped in gauze, you can't see it." ”

I joked, "How? Do you want me to wrap this steel plate waist guard to be your bridesmaid? ”

Shen Qi finally smiled and sat down on the chair: "You better take care of it, I can't afford to be a bridesmaid." ”

I bowed my head and was silent for a long time before I asked her, "Shaoyang, how is he?" ”

"Not good!" Shen Qi replied without thinking, her expression was serious, as if she was stating an extremely painful fact, "We don't know what happened between you and Shao Yang, and he didn't say anything when I asked him, at first he just often went to Shao Tailang Noodle Restaurant to eat noodles alone, sat alone in the house you renovated, and looked at the house where you wrote down in a daze, he was looking for you all the time, looking for you in Tingnan, going to the house you rented, going to your house and not finding you or uncles and aunts, you are like the world has evaporated, the phone can't get through, No one can reach you. We're all worried about you, but we don't know where to go to find you. Shao Yang called Zhang Teng a few times, at first no one answered, and later, after Zhang Teng finally answered the phone, I don't know what they said, but I saw Shao Yang's expression solemn, he seemed to pray again, but received infinite disappointment. Now he hasn't been to work for days. I know that he came to Jiangcheng, and he is looking for you from one hospital to another. That's when we found out you were sick. I received a call from Zhang Teng, who said that if I really care, don't tell Shaoyang your information. Xiao Lu, can you tell me what happened between you and Shaoyang? I care about you, but I really don't want Shao Yang to continue like this, he will go crazy! ”

He's going to go crazy! Will he? He won't! Sun Yingke's departure didn't make him crazy, and what can I count as to him!

I just felt so tired, the strength in my lumbar spine could no longer support my upper body, so I slowly lay down. The evening before dark in winter is surprisingly quiet and cold. The door was hidden, and a deliberately muffled voice came in from outside the suite.

"I'm married."

"Hmm. Listen to what Xiao Lu said. Zhang Teng's reply was not emotional, like a simple response.

Shen Qi sneered, "Zhang Teng, do you know why you and Xiao Lu met first, but the person she has loved for so many years is Shaoyang?" ”

"Why?"

"You are completely different from Shao Yang, you will only care about the people you want to care about, no matter how good other people are to you, you don't care, you don't take it to heart, and you won't even feel a little ashamed after hurting others. You are only good to Xiao Lu alone, except for her, you are like a cold-blooded animal to others, and you have no feelings. Xiao Lu knows that you are good to her, and she can also see your attitude towards others, which makes her depressed, and she can only accept your kindness to him. Shao Yang is different, he is sunny and positive, he is warm to everyone, and Xiao Lu loves that warmth. When she was with Shao Yang, Xiao Lu was like a little nymphomaniac, she paid in this relationship instead of blindly accepting someone's kindness to her, and Xiao Lu was happy in a fight.

I don't know what happened between them, and he didn't say anything when I asked Shao Yang. But I'm sure no one deliberately doesn't love someone, because that kind of intentionality can't be done. ”

As if he knew I was eavesdropping on their conversation, Shen Qi deliberately raised his voice so I could hear it.

Then she followed with a sigh, "Unless time, no one can make themselves deliberately not love someone, unless time can do it." Her voice sobbed, a nostalgia for her own past.

"Are you happy now?" Zhang Teng suddenly asked.

Then, for a long time there was silence.

"Happiness." When Shen Qi finally spoke, his voice was firm and thick.

"I'm sorry, Shen Qi, back then, I'm sorry."

I know that in fact, for Shen Qi, she should have already been relieved, the joy that Zhipeng brought to her was so full and enough for her, she just waited for Zhang Teng's word of sorry, but it was just a little bit of his guilt, but it was just to prove that all the love she had given existed.

Shen Qi suddenly cried "woo", and then she began to scold Zhang Teng fiercely, scolding her for being stupid, scolding him for not knowing that the person he cherished and waiting for was me, she said that it was impossible for me to forget Shaoyang, he couldn't wait for me, and he scolded Zhang Teng for not being happy for the rest of his life.

My tears flowed disobediently, no one would deliberately not love someone. And Shao Yang and I are deliberately not loving each other! Is it that hard not to love someone on purpose?

It didn't take long for Shen Qi to cry tired, she told Zhang Teng that she was hungry and noisily asked Zhang Teng to take her to dinner. In a few moments, their voices were gone.