Since I was a child, I have been a thorny bird that has fallen on a spiky branch and has to sing in spite of the pain.

My father gave me life, but I was born to see his violence, and for countless days and nights, my frustrated father beat my mother to vent his resentment.

I remember all this, and although I was not yet four years old at the time, I can clearly remember my father's crazy eyes and my mother's terrible screams.

At that time, we lived in the countryside, in a very remote place, full of fields, and I can't even name that place now.

When I was three years old, my mother became pregnant again, which did not attract any pity or tenderness from my father, and when my mother was six months pregnant, my father's alcoholism worsened.

Once he was drunk and had to drive his mother out of the field, at that time there was no more than half an acre of land at home, and everything that could be sold had been sold by my father, so in order to avoid being beaten again, my mother was forced to go out of the house with a thin blanket, and I always followed behind her.

My mother didn't know where to go, and she had no direction at all, because there were other people's fields everywhere she looked. We walked for a long, long time on the narrow country road until the cloth vamps were covered with mud, and that was the most desperate time for my mother.

In the August weather, I saw my mother shivering all over. Now that I think about it, maybe it was from that time that my mother really made up her mind to separate from her father.

The only thing I remember is when we just left our father, and when we were about to give birth, our mother was lying on the table and writing letters to someone. She kept crying as she wrote, tears melting on the paper, like little flowers in ink.

Before I met my stepfather, my name was Sister Fei, and when I was born, no one seriously named me, and when I heard my mother, my father only glanced at me and said casually: "It's a sister!" And then the word sister became my name.

However, the younger brother was named before he was born, and it was his mother who came up with it after she left his father, and he was called Fei Yong.

Our stepfather was very different in appearance from my father, skinny, always smiling at us siblings, and I once thought that the thorn bird had finally escaped from the hut of misery and could usher in a happy life.

But dreams are beautiful, but reality is more cruel than people say. I was abandoned again, although I didn't think it was abandoned when I was young, but I felt that I was too stupid to find a stepfather who went out with me.

For the next few days, I desperately searched for my stepfather, until I became a little beggar in rags, and I couldn't find any clues, and the place where I went with my stepfather that day was so far away that I didn't even know where the direction of my home was.

Yes, I knew and remembered all of this, and I was not as stupid as people imagined, and I was only four and a half years old at the time, and I quickly understood a little bit of it, and I also had a vague resentment for the first time, because this time I couldn't even see my mother.

After being taken to the aid station by a well-wisher, someone asked me if I remember where my home was. Do you remember what your parents looked like? Do you have a phone at home?

At that time, telephones were not so common, so no one would ask if they could remember their home phone number, only if they had a phone.

For all the questions, I chose to shake my head and remain silent. He didn't even want to say his own name. Having said that, what can it be? I can't find my way home? Will they be able to find it?

So after trying many ways to find my parents for me to no avail, the aunt of the welfare home sent me to a nearby orphanage, which at that time was called S City.

Two years later, I was adopted by a couple who had worked hard in the city, and they renamed me Luo Yun, and in the new home provided by my adoptive parents, I met for the first time the person I loved with my life - Luo Yifan.

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Luo Yun sat alone on the hospital bed, she stared out the window blankly, the night had covered the entire sky, and even the street lamps looked dim, but Luo Yun didn't feel the slightest sleep.

Every night, thoughts come like a tidal wave. What Luo Yun thinks about the most is the time when she lived with Luo Yifan, although she was full of hesitation, she was also full of sweetness and happiness.

Since knowing that Luo Yifan gave up on himself and became addicted to drugs, Luo Yun's heart hurt again and again so much that she couldn't breathe, who could know this?

I didn't see him because I wanted to see him leave and cheer up, so many years have passed, the hatred in my heart has long been wiped out, what can be better than seeing the person I love rise step by step?

Lu Huimei's appearance, as well as his father's help to Luo Yifan, Luo Yun knows. I once thought that the love of my youth would be gone, but now......

Luo Yun couldn't think any further, she sighed heavily, held the windowsill with her hand and tried to prop up her body, feeling the leg bones of the plaster start to hurt again, Luo Yun did not stop the movement in her hand.

"Sister"

A call came, and Luo Yun's body instantly fell into a warm embrace.

"What are you doing?" Although it is a very light sentence, it reveals the anxiety in the heart of the speaker.

After being stunned for a moment, Luo Yun's stiff body relaxed, sat back on the bed, and gently pushed away the big hands that were holding her waist with her hands.

"Yifan, how is the case going?"

"You always dodge questions! What does the progress of the case have to do with you, sister?!! I just want you to go back in time, and it's all about me! ”

Suddenly, a strong anger came from nowhere, occupying Luo Yifan's entire body and mind, and he was unwilling or unwilling to delay the happiness of his life like this.

"I love you, I've only loved you from beginning to end, since I was a child, sister, do you understand? No matter how many mistakes I made in the past, no matter how much you hated in the past, I tell you now, I will always love you alone, I want you to answer me positively, your mind! Luo Yifan grabbed Luo Yun's shoulders, forced her to face him head-on, and said loudly.

"Yifan...... You love me, so what about Emmi? Without his father's help......"

"No, no, no! I don't need to! Emi will treat her like a sister, you don't have to worry about it, I just want you to stay with me like you used to! ”

"Like a porcelain doll? Like a toy? Or like a fool who can only keep quiet? Luo Yun also raised her voice unconsciously, her eyes were already full of tears.

"I ......"

Luo Yifan was speechless for a while, Luo Yun turned his head away from him, and continued: "I'm not a burden, not a dispensable tool, I don't want you to have a second woman by your side, I want to stand by your side, just like Lu Huimei...... But I can't do all that, you know? Looking at the 'Oni God' who belonged to me, and the whole world was announcing that he now belonged to another more beautiful woman, my heart felt like it had been cut by a thousand knives......"

"I know that I shouldn't be jealous and resentful, and fate can't stop anyone. When you are covered in darkness, it feels like the world is about to collapse, and even though I have done my best, there is still very little I can do for you. But her appearance brought you light all of a sudden, and I ...... I can't be so selfish, even if my heart is ...... A thousand cuts, and I don't want you to lose your ....... ”

The tone became more and more excited, but Luo Yun's whole person was paralyzed, and when she said these words, it was like a pair of invisible hands pouring salt on the wound in her heart, and the pain of not being able to breathe became more and more intense every time.

didn't speak again, Luo Yifan fiercely hugged the lover he had missed for ten years into his arms, as if blending into the bones of the hug made Luo Yun also quiet, and the nurse who wanted to walk in outside the door saw this scene and gently opened the door of the ward for them......