Catherine took a deep breath, "But ......"

"But you can't help but have pity on them," said Sasha softly, his fingers relaxed, caressing Catherine's golden fleece-like curls, then letting his thumb run over her forehead, sliding along the contours of her face, and finally fixed behind her ear, and holding her head with the other fingers—the boy's nails were always unusually well-trimmed, neither above the fingers, nor "shaved" and flat like some careless people, but with a beautiful curvature, a healthy pink color, and a smooth surface, The nails are clean, the palms of your hands are dry, and your fingertips are cold: "You can't turn a blind eye, you can't hear it, although you know that they have wanted to hurt you, are hurting you, and may want to hurt you in the future, but when they are at a disadvantage, in that miserable situation, you can't be as indifferent as other people—you may have warned yourself, and because of this temperament, you have suffered, sinned, and broken your heart, but you just can't change it, you can't do anything, anyone, Nothing can affect you on this—I don't know how it came to be, Catherine, but I do know that it's ingrained in the marrow. I can't help you, no one, because you don't want to. ”

The boy's fingers were long, but he was still a minor, and Catherine's hands were big enough to cover them, and she held them silently, the palms of her hands were always warmer than the backs of her hands, and she thought she could warm them, but a voice in her heart told her that it was futile.

Sasha waited for a while, the ice in the juice had completely melted, and he tried to pull his hand back, but Catherine strengthened, and she almost sobbed and began to speak—at first, Sasha couldn't understand what she was saying.

“…… I...... It's just an ordinary person......" she said vaguely, "normal people, do you understand? Sasha ...... No, maybe you don't understand. Because of you...... You're surrounded by those people ...... 'ghouls'! She whispered resentfully, "Look, look! What are they? Gamblers, liars, thieves, murderers! Each deserves to go to hell 10,000 times! It's they who influence you! They are the ones who make you so ruthless, cruel and selfish! You don't even know what a normal person should be......"

"If you mean mercy, and love......" Sasha said calmly, "I think I have, but not much, at least not to the point of throwing it at will, especially mercy." Of course, it is also possible that it is because I never take a person lightly, whether it is an enemy or a loved one. Or a friend. "He moved his fingers, easily escaping Catherine's grasp." All men are equal, Catherine. Whether it's from the ** or the spirit, when you show mercy to a person, you put yourself in a position above him, especially when you know exactly what you are doing, and he knows it - this is a usury that works together with the spirit and **. What you give is only a small amount of care and affection, and he wants to repay it with his freedom and dignity—a high interest, and something you force him to accept, no better than stealing and robbing, or worse, to be exact. Because you're always so justified when you ask for the price. ”

"I didn't," Catherine retorted, "I never ......"

"You have," Sasha interrupted, "for example." I. He quickly continued, "Needless to say, you love me, but you also have compassion on me, deep pity." Because you think I'm incomplete and distorted. You snatched me from my father and took care of me according to your way. Mentor me and hope that I will be able to live like a normal person in the future - this is what you want me to pay," he smiled and shook his head, "You have never consulted me about this, let alone changed your own practices or changed my ...... You didn't think of any of this at all, you were blindly stubborn like a donkey with a blindfolded head, and you were so determined to follow the path you thought you were going on, without even thinking about the future...... If I really become an ordinary person as you think, an ordinary person with the optimism of a baby's ignorance and the compassion of a virgin – God willing, even if we do find a paradise as you imagined, and then hide the difference in ourselves like the Jews hide their money boxes, we will really be able to live in peace and carefree like ordinary people?"

"I'm Anthony. Hopkins son," Zipkins said calmly, "even if I drained all the blood in my veins, replaced all my organs, stripped off my skin, and shaved my hair, that fact would not change." One day, those people will find me. And before they found me, as a 'normal person', I was very likely to be insulted, hurt, murdered, and most likely tortured and killed by other people, and see, many sex criminals and perverts love such targets to death, especially if he is not strong enough, weak temperament, unresponsive and naïve enough - no, don't say you will protect me, I believe you will protect me, but unfortunately, your protection is weak and full of loopholes, from 'small town' to 'Tower of Babel'...... Eight years ago, you went to great lengths to prove my original vision with all kinds of facts. Sasha just held out a finger to Catherine's lips, "No, I don't mean to blame you, Catherine, although it is true that I have very little contact with the so-called 'ordinary people', I can get to know them in other ways - and I know you."

"The object of your pity also includes yourself, you despise and hate yourself—you envy those who have a rich childhood and a warm family, those who are 'normal'—but you are special, you are a stranger, you feel that you must be superior to others—the distance between the two is like a pair of scissors that cuts you into two people, and you feel pain because of it, and they torment you so that you can't sleep all night, so you can only have mercy, even if you know very well that those people are not worthy of pity, but when you pity them, You are invisibly in the position of a giver, you are a nobleman, you are a queen, you are an omnipotent god, and you are satisfied from this...... But when you find that you can't get what you want in return, you get angry because you feel like you've given enough. ”

"That's why you're accusing me of being ungrateful—by your standards, yes."

"I'm not going to do what you ask, it's ridiculous. And wrong. Sasha said, "But as I said before, I will not blame you, for you are so weak, poor Catherine, you can be strong and glorious, but your mind is too small and insignificant to match your body and abilities, and they are a true tragedy." With that, he fell silent, his fingers removed from Catherine's lips. Rubbing against her thin neck, where veins and bones could be felt clearly, Pkins recalled what he had seen when he walked into the kitchen—Catherine leaning against the window, the smoke spitting out of it wrapping around her like an artificial morning haze. She wore nothing but tiny suspender pajamas, and her bare shoulders looked like a rack of clothes wrapped in flesh-colored leather—she was terribly thin.

"Our blood ties are destined that I can't treat you like anyone else, and I'll help you as much as I can—just like now. Catherine, you don't have to worry about the guests in the Celestial Sphere anymore - because that's my fault, my crime. Sasha whispered, "Push everything on me." Children, and old people - you used your powers, but you just wanted to silence them, you didn't want them to hurt themselves, and it was me who ultimately led to their deaths, it was me who strengthened them - Catherine. That way maybe you'll be able to get a good night's sleep. He said, and stood up, Sasha had been growing taller for nearly two years. He had to lower his head to see Catherine's face when he was standing.

Catherine raised her head, her face was blank, she moved her lips, and the voice she made was very weak, as if it would disappear into the air at any moment: "...... I didn't mean that...... I...... It's not ......"

"It doesn't matter if it's yes or no." Sasha said nonchalantly, "Someone has to take responsibility, not you." That's me. ”

Sasha walked out of the kitchen, and he did not go back to the room he shared with Beelzebub. Hopkins was waiting for him in his room.

"Finished talking to your aunt?" I don't know when I got up, but the big Hopkins, who was already fully dressed, said happily, "How did she react?"

"It hurts." Sasha said.

"Excellent." Big Hopkins said he returned to his previous seat and intently fiddled with a model of a wooden church organ, "and I think she's going to be quiet for a while." ”

"Maybe she'll change." Sasha said, "I just don't know which way to go."

"It doesn't matter which way she goes, she's already too bad to be worse." Anthony. Hopkins flipped a switch, and the organ model raised a small antenna, and he made several movements in the air around the model, and an indescribable monotone voice came out: "A Taylor from the forties, Sean. A small gift from Battier. ”

"I thought Sean. Battier will be busy. ”

"He's a polite and thoughtful guy," Dr. Hopkins lazily plucked the strings invisible to the naked eye, the Taylor Ming had a peculiar sound, sounding like someone was hitting your heart with a small hammer, and they were often used to dub science fiction films: "If you're worried about the guests of the 'Celestial Sphere,'" he muttered for a moment: "'The 'North Yankee' Ivan and Greeneye** are the culprits, and the 'Agency' will settle the remaining half for him, and the last little tail can be relied on money and other ...... Some ways to solve it. ”

Sasha made a little grimace: "If the people who win today are Ivan and Greeneye**, then the culprit is Sean. Battier and 'red-haired' Judas. ”

"Absolutely right."

Hopkins said.

A deck of disassembled cards is casually thrown on the carpet – no matter what kind of gambling it is, cheating is the only way to guarantee victory – Anthony. Hopkins has always been a master cheater.

ps:

There are drastically deleted modifications, so it's slow...... I'm sorry.

Thanks to the many rewards of the Lord of the Corrosive Heart, the flowers and rabbits, the brilliant de fire, and the rewards of the wild people in the mountains.

Thank you for the pink ticket of Lord Red Crisp Hand, Lord Yuxi, and Lord Red Bean, and thank you for the sachet of the big cat adult

Thank you vingnir-sama, Rennie-sama for the mooncakes.

If there is any omission from the above, please help remind me in the book review, thank you!

((One second to remember)