The reason why Ke Xucheng became such a person started when he was born. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

His materialistic, self-motivated, and comparatively good parents were his nightmare for a while.

When he was seven or eight years old, if a relative came, he needed to perform a show, because he was good-looking, he had to put blush on his cheeks, wear a girl's red dress, dance a girl's dance, dance the eyebrows and dance, and the buttocks twisted, and the guests would applaud, saying that this doll was a real suona, and he would definitely be out in the future, and then his parents would look at him with joy, so that he could eat what he liked, and enjoy his parents' love unscrupulously......

So in his childhood, his understanding of gender was not very good, and in the budding stage of consciousness, he pulled a male classmate who slept in a bed, learned the picture on the TV, and treated him as a girl, kissing and touching him.

It may be an exaggeration, but the reality for him is so blinded.

So when he knew his gender, the nightmare changed from the earnest eyes of his parents to the lips of male classmates, "terrible same-sex flesh", which haunted him until adulthood, he began to reject dialogue, and his connection with all people was cut off, locked in his own narrow world, and others just thought that this was the conceit of a good-looking child, and didn't care, think about it this way, if someone found out about his abnormality, there wouldn't be so many broken things about tangerine peel and pockmarks.

Sometimes, the kisses of those children become less scary, as ordinary as the oxygen they breathe, the water they drink.

When I dream of a child's soft body, I will touch the air, as if he is there, and the saliva as sweet as marshmallows, like a baby lamb that is born, delicious and ignorant, feeling that everything is beautiful, and when I "merge", I am also contaminated with a simple breath.

In order to live up to his parents' expectations, he studied hard, crawled hard, and hid his mutated dependence on children in his heart, and finally rose to the top and became an ordinary employee of Bearfish TV, and as the small tree of the live broadcast industry became stronger and stronger, when he became a towering giant tree, his worth was also high, and he became the existence of governing others.

A section chief with an annual salary of 780,000 yuan, in the East Fifth Ring Road, where every inch of land is valuable, there is a two-bedroom and one-living room, which may be something that ordinary people can do with hard work, and it can be imagined, but for the place where he was born, it is something worth singing.

He took his BJ-speaking parents from the small county town of HB and became their pillars and waist poles. You don't have to look at their eyes anymore, you can throw away your suit as soon as you get home, expose your upper body, and eat the watermelon dug with a spoon on the table, while your parents will look at their eyes, that taste, how to say, it's not comfortable, but the reversal of attention makes him feel the refreshment brought by the change of status, and he is never tired of it.

What kind of experience is it for a man to suddenly have money, Ke Xucheng may be able to make the best example, first of all, how to prove that he is rich, buy valuable things, or have a beautiful woman that makes people enviable.

But I rarely have a different ** flow, how is it good? He began to learn the British gentleman's style, from the way he wore a suit, the shirt should have a small half of the sleeves of the suit, or the fabric of the lining, the exquisite and so on, from the wear, to the conversation, he tried his best to learn, whether he learned the essence or not, there may still be some traces of the cat and the tiger, and there is also a sense of low of the little citizen, and when she met the fledgling young Zhao Nianci, she had just the right male charm.

They are naturally together, sometimes liking is so simple, you are beautiful, I am golden and gentle and look very talented, it should be a pair of "talented women".

At that time, he found out that he still had a lingering servility to his parents, a marriage that swallowed dates, without an auditorium and a white dress, so he hastily started oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, why do you want those who don't? If you marry and have children, why don't you find a wife?

The mother of the same woman said this in front of herself and Zhao Nianci, and at the same time announced the end of the wonderful empathy with adult women for a short time.

Under their "hard work", they gave birth to a little angel, with fleshy little hands and long eyelashes, which looked like a beautiful embryo and inherited the advantages of their parents.

She was not taken seriously, and because of the burden of childbirth, his wife decided not to be a tool for giving birth to children, and to give all her love to this girl.

Having a beautiful wife, the original intention of proving his worth, since he began to have children, has become blurred, and even dissipated, they began to stop talking, he is no longer elegant and gentlemanly in front of her, once he returns to the home where only abuse and accusations are left, he leaks out his original bad self, but as soon as he goes outside, he has to bow his head and smile, showing his white face.

Between the two completely different attitude changes, he began to be moody and emotionally disturbed, and then, naturally, blamed everything on someone else, and that other person was his closest wife, Zhao Nianci.

At first, it was just a trivial matter in life to vent her anger, anyway, she always endured it without being humble or arrogant, but under her acquiescence of not resisting, Ke Xucheng intensified her efforts, and even treated each other with drunken fists and feet, and after she had a day of housework and raising children, she had to bear the inexplicable anger that he had nowhere to put it.

But she still endured it, although the level of education is not high, and the awareness of society is not very deep, but in order to become an excellent mother, all hardships are regarded as things that must be faced in life.

What a stubborn strong, this woman.

High pressure, but there is always a fresh temptation of the workplace, let him indulge in, do not ask about family affairs, in the broken daily life that hides dangerous information, he faces growing assets, as well as the envy of his hometown, car, house, wife, he began to be empty.

I dreamed again about the kiss I had with a male classmate when I was in kindergarten.

He began to face the dark corners that he had never dared to face, but he was extremely identified with in his heart, the emptiness of money accumulation, and the unbearable reality, as well as the cowardice that he never tried to change himself, made him want to find a place with a soft and immature and ignorant body, to hide, to lick the sweet saliva of the milky fragrance wantonly.

He was tortured by himself and almost lost his confidence, and numbed himself with alcohol again and again, trying to stifle the love for children in his dreams.

One day two years ago, he woke up from his study in the middle of the night, and his sloppy beard, unkempt hair, the foul stench of wine when he breathed, and the kisses that were entangled in his dreams and kept repeating them, really dominated him.

Ke Xucheng stood beside his daughter's wooden bed, and found that this was the peach blossom fragrance he had been pursuing, the soft flesh was close at hand, and the milky fragrance condensed around his rotten nose.

"Ah, it's terrible," he even exclaimed.

He kissed it nervously, and even greedily stretched out the tip of his tongue to lick his daughter's sleeping saliva, and at the same time felt terrible, and Zhao Nianci, who had hit him right and should have had enough.

It was a night like usual, his parents were sleeping in the next room, and he crept through the dark room looking for candy.

There always seems to be a trace of human evil, and guilt cannot be forgiven by a dream.

Demons, mostly lonely.