I ran out of the village, ran far away, and finally I was tired and exhausted, and sat on the ground, panting for breath. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

What am I going to do? He still cares about having my son, but I really can't cross the hurdle in my heart and reconcile with him.

But even after escaping, my heart is so tormented, and I am still so sad. I sat on the ground in confusion, go back? I can't go back like this, but once I'm gone, maybe he's even more upset! But wasn't I sad when he lost me? I've suffered so much outside over the years, and I've suffered so much, shouldn't I? Isn't he the culprit of everything?

Is it that without him there would be no me in this world, but what? What is the difference between his actions and taking my life?

After a long time, I slowly got up, and I wanted to go back.

Just one glance, just one look at him, and if he eases up and doesn't feel so uncomfortable, I'll leave immediately.

By the time I got back to that yard, it was already dark, I was blending my body into the night, and he couldn't see me.

The man sat on the bed in a daze, and he didn't know what he was muttering, but looking at him, it was clear that he was sad and desperate.

I stood outside for a long time, but he didn't go to sleep until midnight, and there was no light in the room, but it was not difficult for me, who had practiced "Centennial Yin and Yang", to see him clearly.

Under the moonlight, his old face twitched, and finally, he cried.

"I'm sorry, Xiaolian, you are right not to forgive me. Who fooled me in the first place? ”

"But, Xiao Lian, Dad really knows that it's wrong, can't I be good to you if you come back soon?"

"It's Dad who is not good, Dad apologizes to you, admits your mistake to you, you can scold me and beat me if you are angry, can you come back and let me take a good look at you?"

"I know you hate me, I don't want you to be by my side forever, you just let Dad take a closer look at you, okay? Just at a glance! Let me see what you've grown up and become like! Good no good? ”

"Just let me see you happy and then I'll disappear, forever, without getting in your way, can't you?"

"I beg you, where the hell have you gone? I miss you ......."

The man, who was alone in the house at this time, began to cry again, bursting into tears.

Sadness, despair, guilt, these emotions are intertwined, and he is apologizing to his son. This son is really a big unfilial person, and let his father apologize to himself so humbly. Then, still standing outside motionless.

And I am this unfilial and unkind child.

Suddenly, the man in the room began to slap himself, whipping him hard, and the sound of each blow was so crisp, but it was so harsh.

I was completely panicked, what was he doing? I know he regrets what he did, but those actions completely broke off our father-son relationship and made me disheartened. But now, from the perspective of a sin atoneer, he keeps slapping himself, and the loud slaps are like pumping on my heart, which hurts very much.

My cultivation of "Hundred Years Old Yin and Yang" was extremely painful, and every time I absorbed the power of yin and yang to cultivate, I almost had to endure the pain like a hundred insects devouring my body, so that I became numb and accustomed to pain. But at this time, this pain is far stronger than that of a hundred insect phages.

My eyes also began to be hazy, and the crystal flashed, are they tears?

I shed tears because of this man I hated to the core, I kept reminding myself that I hated him, and then, when I met today, I hated nothing, I was sad to see him, I was also sad, I was heartbroken when I saw him, I was also heartbroken, and now I saw him tormenting himself, and my heart was also like a knife.

He kept slapping himself, and finally, as if I had lost consciousness, I rushed in frantically, grabbed his hand, and choked up and said "Don't hit ......"

"Xiaolian? Have you forgiven me? "He had joy in his voice, he was excited, and he really cared about me.

His questioning silenced me, and he seemed embarrassed to see that I was silent, and looked around to turn on the light.

"Turn on the lights, let me see you, take a good look at you!" But the lamp was broken.

"This lamp is broken, why is it broken? It's all my fault, and I don't fix the broken light...... "He began to whimper again, like a child who had done something wrong, and now he I really can't hate him."......

I look at his gray hair and wrinkles all over his face, he has also been tortured all these years!

Maybe he sold me on a drunken impulse, and then he regretted it, he was sad, and he may have looked for me, but I had left the city, and he couldn't find me, and he began to blame himself, cry incessantly, give up his dignity as a man, and began to beg God to let me come back to him. He still loves his child, he prays day and night, when he misses the child, he takes out the photo, swaying, crying, tears dripping, wetting the photo, he feels sorry for the photo, he is afraid of destroying the photo, and then nervously wipes away the tears, carefully wiping the photo.

He was alone every day, in this dilapidated house, thinking about his children, repenting in his heart, and constantly apologizing to the children in the distance, hoping that he could come back.

Then, promise, it will be good in the future.

This is a father, a lost man, a prodigal father. Maybe he'd done too many jerk things wrong, but when he lost his child, he woke up to it too late.

He lowered all his posture and apologized to his child.

He cried and said why he hadn't fixed the lamp earlier, he wouldn't be able to see me right away.

Then he took my hand and tried to see me in the dark, but his cloudy eyes could not see even if they narrowed.

"I'm sorry, I know you won't forgive me, but this is where you were born, can you stay one more day? Please! So saying, he was about to kneel down to me.

I hurriedly held him, not to mention that I can't hold up my hatred now, even if I still hate him now, how can I make him kneel down to me? Regardless of the relationship, he is my father. A father is not allowed to kneel down to his child. This is no longer just a question of filial piety and unfilial piety, it is the basic nature of human beings.

No matter how wrong my parents were, he was the one who gave me life.

"Don't do that! I'm not going! ”

"Really?" He was excited again, like a child.

"Kid, you're hungry! What do you want to eat, will I make it for you? He looked at me wistfully.

"I'm not hungry...... "I am not hungry, and if I say I am hungry, I will never be hungry." I have no vital signs, and even if I am a professional doctor here now, with the most accurate instruments, I will not think that I am a living person. Of course, they don't check the life or death of a person with normal speaking activity for no reason.

"Oh don't eat, then you...... Can you talk to me? "He tempted me, me.

I choked up: "Good ......"