At the beginning of 2006, there were no mobile phones and computers at home, only some simple furniture and two wooden beds that looked uneven on all sides, and the only household appliance that seemed to be extravagant was a small 21-inch color TV that my mother bought from the second-hand market. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 infoI had just turned 16 when I dropped out of school, and I spent my days drunk and dreaming of fooling around with some idle people in society.

One day, and the most memorable day, the events of this day left an indelible shadow on my life. At night, the moon was setting over the boundless west, and I was drinking in a bar with a few idle friends, intoxicating beer pouring down my throat and a few bottles of yellow intestines. Gradually, my consciousness began to become a little blurred, my eyes began to fog, and I twisted my head outside the window to take a few deep breaths of fresh air.

In the foggy vision, I seemed to see a very familiar figure outside the window, this figure was very familiar, depending on the figure that I could see every morning when I just woke up from my sleep, it was getting closer and closer to me, and my heart involuntarily began to be afraid, and my first reaction was to dig a hole and hide. The familiar back grew closer and closer to my sight, and my heart beat faster and faster until this figure appeared in front of me.

What makes me feel creepy when I see it, that is, since the day I stepped into school with a brand new little schoolbag, new scars will be added to my body every three or five days, big scars, small scars, small scars, big scars, new scars cover old scars, scars are fatal, and I have been beaten and abused endlessly for many years, and often a thought will pop up in my head, whether I am his own or not.

At this moment, I felt a violent blow to my head, and my vision suddenly went white like a mobile phone, until I slowly woke up and saw a person standing in front of me, holding a steel bar from an unknown construction site, and some yellow dirt on it. At this time, a familiar voice appeared in my ears again: "You stinky boy, you don't study well, you don't study well, you spend all day with these indiscriminate people, it's easy to make money as a gangster, right, all this money is borrowed from ghosts, and no one will collect your body for you when you die on the street one day." Seeing my father scolding me unscrupulously in the bar, I suddenly felt that I had no face at all.

At that time, I couldn't help but cry down, I knew very well that what my father said was right, but I felt that he had been indiscriminately punched, kicked and added with sticks for a long time, and I seemed to think that he was too much, I had never felt father's love since I was a child, and even asked him for a dime to buy a pack of popsicles to eat, he would feel very luxurious, thinking of this, my heart was even more on fire.

I staggered up and walked to my father, still exuding the pungent smell of alcohol, drunk and angry and shouted at my father: "Get out of here, when your son is really the biggest failure in his life, I feel ashamed and blush." ”

As soon as the words fell, the creepy steel pipe beckoned to me again, this time the whipping never stopped, only felt the severe pain in the body, the back of the head has been completely numb, I don't know how long it took, I only know that the body seems to be about to lose consciousness, I can't feel the existence of the body at all, the scene in front of me is white, it took a while to feel the pain in the body, I slowly opened my eyes, and found that my father had disappeared from the surrounding vision, Broken beer bottles were smashed everywhere, tables and stools around me were presented in front of my eyes, and I was surrounded by dense people, and it felt like a fierce skirmish had just erupted. I slowly got up from the ground and sat on the stool, about a minute or two, when I suddenly rushed in from the crowd with an unfamiliar face, ran directly to me and asked, "Are you seriously injured?" Do you want us to take you to the hospital:"

The man I was talking to was a big brother in his 20s, wearing a yellow T-shirt and a white apron around his waist. Only then did I realize that I must have been stopped by someone when my father was ruthless and pulled the steel bar on me. But at that time, I didn't have much strength anymore, and I didn't want to talk at all, but at that time, when I was beaten and said, many people would think it was a very shameful thing, even if it was my parents. And at that time, a large group of people surrounded me, and some indifferent and bad laughter of chickens and dogs could be heard in the crowd, and I tried my best to save my face, and it took a lot of effort to barely send out some masculinity and say to the big brother in his 20s: "Cut, this little injury is fine, I used to fight with others when I often disagreed with others at school, and the fight made the chickens and dogs jump and people turn over on their backs, ouch, you don't see it." "I also admire myself, I can still pretend to be so good at this juncture.

"Oh, then I'll help you out!" Although the injury is more serious, but more is better than less, this big brother must be thinking in his heart that nothing is of course the best.

"It's okay, I can go by myself, thank you." After saying that, he got up and limped out of the crowd and slowly walked out of the bar, and all the people in the bar who surrounded me to watch the excitement slowly made a gap for me when they saw me standing up.

As I walked out of the bar, the moon began to set in the west, the sun was about to rise in the east, and the vast starry sky shone in the night, presenting me with a beautiful scene. In a bustling city, under a faint street lamp, there was a miserable green boy with a sad fate standing on the street, raising his hand to look at the electronic watch in his hand, it was already 5:50 in the morning.

Walking on the deserted street, there was a rustling sound of sweeping the floor on the side of the road, and my nervous heart began to slowly fear everything and everything in the house. As soon as I think of these images in my mind, I will tremble and tremble.

Sometimes I even wonder: why is my fate so bitter. Every day my pockets are so poor that I jingle and this dress all year round, yes, I only have one set of clothes, the clothes are washed at night, worn during the day, and basically don't wash clothes when it's too cold in winter. Every meal is basically white steamed buns, and there is not a drop of oil in the dish. On the other hand, other children, what brand-name clothes to wear and throw away, every morning is either KFC or hamburger, and when I take it out of my pocket, it is a red one, which makes me envious, jealous and hateful.

Forget it, it feels a bit nonsense to think about this, and it's more practical to buy some delicious food to treat yourself.

Then he took out a crumpled five-yuan coin from his pocket, endured the injury on his leg and walked to the barbecue stall under the street lamp "quickly", I don't know what happened, the mood at this time made me particularly want to eat something delicious, and saw the fragrant kebabs on the road stall, and I was so hungry that my saliva was going to be left.

"Boss, ten skewers of barbecue, put more chili noodles, less pepper, more soy sauce wine, less monosodium glutamate, by the way, as long as it is medium-cooked."

"Emma, you should eat steak, it's still medium-rare, why don't you put you in it too.?" Although the barbecue boss at the street stall felt a little fierce when he spoke, he still reached out and helped me get ten skewers of barbecue meat and roasted them on the iron rack.

"The red water malt wine produced by this road stall, a whole glass?" The boss frowned, a strange smile on his face.

"Red water ale wine? What is this thing? "I especially like to eat something spicy, no matter what I eat, I will add some chili peppers to it, and the spicier the better."

"Have a drink, it's free, it's delicious." The barbecue boss gestured to the tables and stools neatly arranged on the side of the road, a night market stall.

I limped and was about to sit down on a bench by the side of the road, but at that moment a string of sounds came from my trouser pocket. I clutched my injured left leg with my right hand, and with my left hand I pulled out the worn-out PHS from my pocket, and there was a paint that had fallen from thousands of holes, and the color was no longer so bright.

I remember that this PHS was I used to "play" with my friends in the garbage station (picking up cans), turned out of the garbage heap, when I saw this PHS, I took it out and tried the pilot and it could still be used, except for the screen a little flower, there was no other problem to use normally, at that time the mood was unusually excited, but there was no phone card, after returning home, I pestered my mother to let her spend money to help me buy a phone card, after all, it was the first mobile phone in my life.

Having said that, when I opened the cover of my PHS mobile phone, a string of familiar numbers appeared in front of me, and I was very tired of seeing this string of numbers, and I was afraid to see this string of numbers. After a few seconds of hesitation, I couldn't help but press the connect button with my thumb. When he handed PHS to his ear, a desolate cry came from the earpiece. When I heard this, my mood suddenly calmed down. This was followed by a hoarse sound of intermittent weeping.

"Little Wei... Your dad just rode home... Handful... Ran away... He ran. Listening to the intermittent crying of the voice, the voice became fragmented, but I didn't hear what was going on, but I could feel in my heart that something must be something wrong at home.

Hearing these news, the mood became both cheerful and angry, and there was a feeling of joy and sadness. The reason why I feel this way is because my mother has cared for me since I was a child, and my father has treated me very badly!

Suddenly, I didn't know how to reply to this sentence, one moment I could make the emotions in my heart go to heaven, and the other time I could go down, I didn't know what kind of situation to use to answer my mother, and my mind was in chaos. After thinking about it, I hesitated for a few seconds before I simply replied a few words.

"Got it, I'll go home right away." At this time, there was a desolate cry from the earpiece.

After saying that, he immediately hung up the phone, got up and walked in the direction of home. I wanted to go home as fast as I could to comfort my mother, but I was also very afraid to see the situation at home and let myself remember the hateful past of the past.

"Hey, little ghost, do you want your barbecue." I was hurriedly getting up and walking a few steps when the owner of the barbecue suddenly stopped me.

Hearing this, he immediately realized that there were still a few skewers of meat that had not been roasted, turned around, and said as he walked: "Oh, I'm sorry, I was in a bit of a hurry just now, I almost forgot, try to be as fast as possible, I still have something urgent." ”

Then he continued to sit down and wait for the fragrant barbecue to be cooked. Think about it carefully: I haven't eaten meat for a long time, I remember the last time I ate meat was half a year ago, that time my mother paid more bonuses when she paid her salary, so I went to the vegetable market to buy a chicken for me and my sister to eat, our family of four ate stewed chicken in the pot, my mother and father were reluctant to eat more, basically my sister and I ate it all. I remember that at that time, my father kept shouting to eat less and save it for tomorrow, which made my mother cry and laugh.

"Xiao Wei, Xiao Wei, Xiao Wei, Xiao Wei." .................

Then I sat on a stool on the side of the road, watching intently at the barbecue boss on the kebab, the fragrance rushing towards me, and swallowing my saliva greedily. In the process of intoxication, I vaguely seemed to hear someone calling my name constantly.

"You're here, Xiaowei, why did you come here, we've been looking for you for a long time."

The voice was getting closer and closer to me, and it was about a few seconds before I could clearly hear someone calling my name behind me. When I looked back, I saw that about seven or eight meters away from me, there were three or four sixteen or seventeen-year-old boys walking towards me, calling my name as they went.

They walked towards me step by step, and slowly saw their appearance clearly under the dim street lamp. These are the same fox pack of dogs who just had a drink with me at the bar.

"Where did you just run, running faster than a dog, and when you woke up, you were all gone, so unrighteous, you didn't come up and pull me when you saw me being beaten like this." When I saw them coming, I angrily pointed my finger at them and scolded them loudly.

At this time, their expressions instantly became very helpless, one of the buddies sighed, came over to me and quickly explained: "Alas, we all rushed up to stop you when you were beaten by your dad just now, but your dad is too perverted, I really can't stop it, and then your dad is even more animalistic, and began to beat us together, holding steel bars to us for a crazy dance, we have no choice but to run, but your dad still chases after us, chasing us from the bar like a cow a hundred meters away, we can only keep running and running, We didn't stop until we got rid of him completely, you really misunderstood us. ”

Hearing this explanation, it immediately dawned on me, and thought about it carefully: That's right, my father is as powerful as an ox, they are just children, how can they be stopped, it is completely the rhythm of hitting a stone with an egg and making death.

After that, he immediately stood up from the stool, and quickly apologized to them with a smile on his face: "Ah, so that's the case, I'm really sorry, you see that I really am, I started to blame you without asking, I thought too hastily, and it affected you, oh yes, what about Xiaohu and them?" "There were six people with me who had just been drinking and I was there, and now I only saw three.

"I don't know, maybe we ran away when we just ran, when we rushed out of the bar, we were divided and looked at each other, I don't know which direction they ran, now we should go home." At this time, Licorice was still panting in place, explaining to me what had just happened.

Licorice is a good friend of mine, we used to play together, although we were poor, but we would enjoy it, and I remember that I used to bring beach chairs, tents, and swimwear to the pond for a bath, just like traveling at the beach.

"Oh, I hope they're okay, I'm really sorry, see me hurt you so much, one by one like Hanako, come and I'll treat you to fragrant kebabs." I turned my head and glanced at the boss who was grilling the meat, and quickly asked, "Is the skewer ready, boss?" ”

But the boss didn't reply to me, but continued to grill his skewers there, okay, maybe the street was too noisy, and he should have brought it directly when he finished grilling, so he didn't bother with the boss.

At this time, Licorice came over and put her hand on my shoulder and said to me with a smile: "Haha, we are all brothers, what are you talking about, how difficult it is for us to play together since we were children, of course, we must share blessings and difficulties." ”

Seeing that these good buddies cared for me, a bright smile instantly appeared on his face. At the same time, he put his hand on his shoulder and replied: "Well, we are all brothers, of course we are blessed and shared, and you should be in trouble." He breathed a sigh of relief and continued: "But just now my mother called me, talking a little weird, maybe something big happened at home, I have to go back quickly, I can't continue to go crazy with you today, licorice Azuo Yinuo, you go home first." ”

The next second after speaking, the three buddies showed frightened expressions on their faces one by one. Ah Zuo reached out and touched his head, his two eyes stared straight at me, and the licorice on my shoulder with his hand also retracted his hand. The three of them looked at me with incredible eyes, as if they had something to say but didn't want to say.

Ah Zuo is also an iron buddy of mine, his hobby is bragging, he used to brag to us that he was reborn from the last century, the design drawings of aircraft carriers were drawn by him, the theory, design, construction, the whole plan was thought up by him, he is the aircraft carrier of aircraft carriers, it can be said that without him there would be no aircraft carriers, hearing this, I don't know if you have a feeling of taking off your pants and farting.......

Then again, as I watched them dumbfounded, the situation was at a stalemate for about a few seconds, and Licorice gritted her teeth and finally spoke.

"You...."But Licorice stopped talking, and swallowed back the words that had just been spit out.

"Oh, what the hell are you trying to say, say, it's like having hydrocephalus." I really couldn't stand it, and in order to break this deadlock, I took the initiative to ask them why they looked at me with such strange eyes.

"You... You don't want to die. Licorice finally uttered a complete sentence "painfully......

I was confused when I heard this sentence, and I quickly asked, "What do you mean?" ”

At this time, Ah Zuo, who was standing on the side, put on a worried expression, immediately came over and reached out and patted me on the shoulder, and replied: "You forgot that you were in the bar just now, your father beat you up and down, you go back now and your father has to skin you alive, what can I do if you die, I was reborn to save you, cough cough, why don't you go to the Internet café with us today." "Ah Zuo's style of speaking has always been like this... It's both underwhelming and humorous.

At this time, Licorice, who was standing on the side, also came up and hurriedly answered: "Yes, yes, it's better not to go back, if you go back now, if your father is in a beastly hair, put you to death, that tragic and violent picture, I can't even imagine it, I don't want to lose your good friend......."

"Stop! Stop! Stop! Why is it that the more you say it, the more outrageous it becomes, curse me to death, this is—" I immediately interrupted what they were saying. With a sad expression, he walked to the stool and sat down, holding his head in his hands, looking down at the bumpy road on the ground, pondering for a while, and then said dejectedly: "My dad may never come back, he is gone." ”

"Huh?" The three of them let out a surprised voice in unison, and they all felt incredible, and suddenly they all fell silent again.

"Your kebab is ready, do you want to add some red water ale?" The boss put the kebabs on the plate, turned his head and asked me.

When my mood fell to a low point, I didn't hear the boss's question, and strangely enough, they didn't hear the boss's voice either.

Licorice came over and patted the dust on the stool, sat next to me, and asked me puzzledly, "Your dad was alive and well at the bar, how can you say that he passed away?" "Actually, licorice is a central point among several of us, similar to our boss, but at that time we didn't have the concept of boss in our heads, in short, we would not hesitate to adopt his words and opinions, and would do what he said.

Hearing Licorice's words, he almost spurted blood, turned his head to Licorice and replied, "Bah, I didn't say my dad died, I mean he may have run away from home." ”

"Hey, little ghost, don't you want your barbecue, don't want me to give it to others, you're deaf." The boss walked towards me with a skewer in his hand.

When I saw the boss walking towards me with a skewer, I found that the skewers had been baked, and quickly replied, "Yes, yes, I didn't pay attention just now, I'm sorry."

As he reached out to take the boss's skewers, he stuffed the last five dollars he held tightly in his hand to him, and he was so distressed at that time.

But how do you feel that when I stuffed the money to the boss, the boss suddenly looked a little unpleasant, but he still turned around and left, it couldn't be that the money given to him was too old, it was indeed a little wrinkled.

Licorice was stunned for a moment when she saw my actions, her eyes widened at me, and she stammered, "Xiaowei, who are you talking to?" ”

With 6 skewers of barbecue from his hand, he handed them one by one, to be honest, he was really a little reluctant in his heart, and he really wanted to eat all the skewers in his hand alone: "Come on, eat meat skewers, two skewers per person, your mouth is really a thief." ”

Licorice saw me holding the barbecue and handed it to him, the expression on his face became even more panicked, a trace of cold sweat broke out on his forehead, and the expressions of the two iron buddies next to him, Ah Zuo and Yinuo, were exactly the same as Licorice at this time, "Ah, ghost, run." I heard Licorice shout, and the three of them turned around and ran away like rabbits.

"Hey, where are you going?" No matter what they called, they didn't look back, they ran as fast as they could, and soon they were gone.

Seeing them running away for their lives, I was confused, what happened to them, how could they be scared like this, turned their heads and looked around, there was no ghost, there were a few pedestrians walking around, and they would not be scared like this.

Whatever, if they leave, the skewers will be their own, and when they see the fragrant kebabs in their hands, they begin to devour them.

It's spicy, numb and fragrant, and the taste is so beautiful! But there seems to be another taste hidden in the taste of the meat skewers, which is a sour smell, because the peppers are put too much and eaten very quickly, I didn't eat this taste when I entered the mouth, and subconsciously picked it up and looked at the skewers in my hand, and found that what I was holding in my hand was no longer the skewer just now, but a bloody section of the tongue, skewered on a bamboo skewer.

Seeing the bloody tongue in his hand, he was so frightened that he threw it a few meters away, at this time the scalp at the back of the head was completely numb, the heart began to beat violently, the stomach felt very nauseous, and the throat vomited out all the things he had just eaten, vomiting out a lot of black liquid, and the liquid also emitted a fishy smell, and it took a while to ease up.

Looking at the licorice, they walked away early and disappeared, and subconsciously looked back at the owner of the stall, and found that the boss suddenly disappeared, leaving only the barbecue table on the side of the road.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt incredible, what the hell was going on, I looked back at the boss's barbecue table, and vaguely saw that there were drops of red liquid left in the cabinet under the table, and at this time I seemed to smell a trace of fishy smell in the air, looking at the red liquid that kept being left, I was afraid and puzzled, I really didn't know what disgusting thing I just ate, and why there was an indescribable strange smell in my mouth.

Suspicious, he slowly approached the barbecue table step by step, his eyes fixed on the red liquid flowing from under the cabinet, wanting to go over and find out. I don't know what's wrong, I didn't go to the street in time to find someone for help, but wanted to see what was under the cabinet, maybe the curiosity was too strong, although the pedestrians on the street were not crowded, but I could always see a few people in the field of vision going back and forth, maybe this gave me enough courage.

The smell is getting stronger and stronger, as if it was the smell of the skewers just eaten, and now I can clearly smell that smell, Tianna, I really don't dare to open the storage cabinet under the barbecue table to see, if I see something disgusting, I think of the meat skewers I just ate, maybe I will vomit again immediately.

A crack under the cabinet kept flowing out of the red liquid, the color was purple and purple, more like blood was flowing out, and my heart instantly became more frightened, my body kept trembling, and I didn't have the courage to continue looking, and suddenly an idea came to my mind, to go to an adult on the street for help.

Just when I was about to turn around and look for someone, the boss who sold kebabs actually appeared straight behind me, his stiff body did not move, and a white apron hung on his body, and the apron was stained with black blood.

"Ouch!" I fell to the ground and screamed.

At the same time, the barbecue boss stretched out a hand and rushed over and grabbed my neck fiercely, grabbed my neck with one hand and lifted me up, I don't know where such a powerful force came from, it was so big that it was lifted up in an instant, and I was caught and hung in the air in the dying air, and I wanted to shout for help, but my neck was too tight, and I couldn't shout out.

There are so many people passing by on the street, no one even glances at this corner, as long as they can shout for help, the sound is not too loud, they must be able to hear, the crowd passing by the street is too close to me, so close that it is only a few meters away, but I just don't look at this corner, I feel that I am about to suffocate, I really can't struggle, if the licorice they go later, how good, in despair, I closed my eyes, no longer struggling.

"It turned out to be the same kind." With a bang, the boss let go of his hand and slammed me to the ground.

Then, as if nothing had happened, the boss continued to go back to the barbecue station to barbecue the meat, and didn't care about me at all.

I slowly stood up, quickly took a few deep breaths, I felt almost out of breath, as I patted the dust on my pants, looked up, and saw that the boss of the barbecue actually ran to the barbecue again, and didn't care about my position at all, and just now I seemed to hear the boss say something to me. He was still using violence against himself just now, constantly pinching himself, why is he running back to barbecue so calmly now, does he really act as if nothing has happened? It's too much, what do you think of me, anyway, I'm going to have to call the police first, he just hit me, and I'm sure there's some secret under his barbecue cabinet.

It's strange to say, how has it been from just now to now, except for myself who bought barbecue at his stall, why no one else has come to buy barbecue, it stands to reason that there should be a lot of people here in this lively urban area to drink and eat supper, and licorice they have just come.

Don't think about it so much, let's go to passers-by for help first, the most important thing at the moment is to arrest this hateful boss, he is definitely not a good person, I was angry when I saw him just beat me, and now he is going to the stall to continue to barbecue meat as if nothing happened.

But just when I was about to turn around and look for someone, there were about a dozen police uncles running from me, and my mood suddenly became very excited. It didn't seem right, but I was saved.

"Uncle policeman, there are bad people here, come and help me."

shouted loudly at the police who ran in front of me, but no matter how they shouted, they ignored me, only to see them running towards the intersection in front of them, not looking back at me at all, at this time the mood instantly fell to the bottom, which was too much, so I looked back at it, and completely ignored me.

It's embarrassing, there's no way, I can only follow up first, see where they are going, what makes them so nervous, and they use so much police force at once, they don't care about me at all. After all, with them, at least my life will not be threatened, in case the perverted barbecue boss suddenly comes up to scold me again, they can't care, so I subconsciously glanced back at the perverted boss who was still there, and the special meow was still grilling his meat skewers with peace of mind, not caring about my existence at all, and his barbecue looked so weird, it didn't look like he was barbecing at all, that technique was more like whipping the corpse, why was he so calm, wasn't he afraid that I would call the police?

The policeman who had been running in front of him stopped all of a sudden, and I kept chasing after them, trying to go up and ask them for help, but when I saw them turn around and enter a bar, the Galaxy Bar, isn't this the bar where I drank with Licorice just now, what are they doing here? How could an ambulance be parked on the side of the road, and who had an accident?

"Hey, have you heard? There was just someone dead in this bar, so pitiful, only one was a sixteen or seventeen-year-old baby. ”

"I heard that he was beaten to death by his father, and he really did it, hey."

Behind me, two young people were sitting on a stone bench on the side of the road, talking to each other about what had just happened in this bar, and when I heard their conversation, I immediately reacted, wasn't that the person they were talking about was me? I'm dead?

At this time, I felt a little unbelievable, it was impossible if I died, how could I get a call from my mother, how could I chat with Licorice and them on the side of the road, although I thought so in my heart, but I still didn't dare to go into this bar to watch, I was afraid that I would be the same as the plot in the movie, and I would see my body as soon as I entered, which was the most terrifying.

Several police cars came over at the intersection one after another, and it seemed that someone was really dead in such a big show. But when I thought of the conversation between the two young people on the side of the road, I didn't have the courage to face it at all.

"Look, they're carrying the body out." The two youths behind him began to speak again.

There were indeed two doctors who came out of the bar on stretchers, and there was a man lying on them, but it was covered with a white shroud, and it was impossible to see if it was my body.

Now there is only one way to prove that I am not really dead, and that is to turn around and rush over and punch the two young men behind me who are talking about me in the face, if they fight back, it proves that they can see me, they can feel that I hit them, then it proves that I am not dead, so I can do it.

So, he turned around and rushed towards the young man in the face with a left hook.

"Ouch hey, who's going to hit me?"

Seeing that he felt pain, my mood suddenly became excited, and I thought that he was going to fight back and hit me, but his next move made my emotions fall to hell in an instant

I saw that the young man who was beaten covered his face and looked left and right, turned around and looked behind him, looking everywhere, as if he didn't see anything.

(To be continued)