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Zhong Xian was carried into the villa by Deng Yi. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

The peak of fluoxetine's strength weakened, and Zhong Xian's mood gradually calmed down. Memory is also back to normal. He was embarrassed by his strange performance. Didn't drink though. It's worse than being drunk. Gaffe to the point of almost insanity. What is the difference between schizophrenia?

Especially the fact that he cried bitterly in front of Deng Yi made him want to find a crack in the ground to get into. It's a shame for a man to cry like this. He didn't shed a tear in front of others. It is really stupid to face Deng Yi to show such an unusual situation and always expose his bad side to this person. But what to do, if not, the other party will not become a person who is different from him.

After seeing him so many times, maybe Deng Yi's good impression of him has weakened a lot.

Otherwise, this guy wouldn't have looked at him with such lukewarm eyes.

Half lying on the sofa in Deng Yi's villa, looking at Deng Yi's eyes, Zhong Xian had already begun to regret it.

"I just took my medicine." Zhong Xian tries to save his image, hoping to retain his position in the hearts of the other party through explanation. "You've seen what this medicine does for me." He tried to be as chic as he could, making sure that his face didn't leave too haggard marks. Smile calmly. "You don't want to see me, do you? Hopefully I'll disappear immediately. Even I think it's really annoying. The more Zhong Xian said that he felt bad, and he even began to feel unconfident. Every time I feel this way, I wonder in my heart, he has no place to be inferior, whether it is intelligence, demeanor and appearance, he can be called outstanding. There is absolutely no reason to look down on yourself. However, when he is confronted with certain people, he does have this unwarranted uneasiness.

In the face of Deng Yi, it should not be so.

He quickly found the answer. It's not because the other party is better that he feels that even if he is friends, he can't climb high. It was because of the other party's indifference at this moment that stimulated the nerve in his heart. He didn't believe that anyone really cared about him and really cared for him. What people ask for from him is the unreal beauty and the thrill of the moment.

He can't explain it clearly, he doesn't believe in human nature. He tried to make himself give up thinking about it. It's just a waste of brain cells.

No matter how uneasy Zhong Xian was, Deng Yi just kept silent, and after a while, he stood up and turned around and walked away.

Zhong Xian saw him go to the kitchen, and after a while he returned and handed Zhong Xian a hot towel. "Wipe your cat's face."

Zhong Xian took the towel and covered his face with the hot towel. I don't know if it's because of the heat on my face, or because of Deng Yi's concerned behavior. His uneasiness faded quickly. Suddenly he remembered, "Didn't you say you had a cat?" Said it last time in the hospital. In your room I only see pictures of dogs. ”

"Hmm. Meatballs, did it go with Mixiu? ”

"Meatballs are the name of cats? It's also old and dead? ”

"Poisoned. It never catches mice. I caught one in my life and poisoned it. ”

Zhong Xian took the towel off his face and looked at Deng Yi in a daze. Deng Yi still looked at him so lukewarmly. "Are you sad? It seems that there is no Michau to make you uncomfortable. ”

"Do I look uncomfortable?" Deng Yi said. "Meatballs though my cat...... Actually, it wasn't with me for most of its life. My mom hates cats. I didn't insist, I only raised it for a year, and before it reached adulthood, I gave it to a fellow student to raise. It became my classmate's cat. Later, a classmate called me to say that it was poisoned and that her parents were trying to save it, but it didn't know where to run while they weren't looking. When I found it, it was already unconscious. I desperately fed it the antidote. Actually, it's not an antidote, it's my mom who lied to me and said it was the antidote. It died there. Deng Yi pointed out the window. Before it died, it was outside my house, with its four legs stretched straight...... On the grass at the doorway. ”

"You can cry."

Deng Yi paused: "Why should I cry." I regret it. I shouldn't have sent it away - if I knew, it would have only treated me as its master. Who said cats are disloyal. It knew it was going to die...... It somehow ran out of its classmates, through the 10 houses in front of it, just to see me or if it wanted to call me for help. I still don't understand. When I found it, it was lying there straight. I buried it with Michaeu. ”

"How old were you then?"

"I don't remember, less than ten years old. At that time, Mixiu was still alive and young. ”

"You've only ever had this one cat and one dog."

"Yes."

"I won't have a second one."

"No, it won't. That was when I was a kid. There was a time when I was a child and I had a lot of autism. My parents often took me to see the animals to treat me. My mom hates keeping small animals, and she's allergic to animal hair. When I raised Mixiu, she didn't live with me. Whether it's Mixiu or Meatballs, the process is very happy, and the ending is unforgettable. They treat me, not just animals. They healed me. ”

"Have you ever been in a relationship?"

"Why are you asking this again? Of course I did. I'm 25. Isn't it abnormal that you haven't talked about it? ”

"According to the survey, some people have never met love in their lives. Thrill-seekers or marriages do not mean love. Who have you really loved? ”

"Of course...... I love it now, too. I have a girlfriend, really. ”

"Girlfriend." The bell strings repeat. His gaze crossed Deng Yi to the empty villa hall behind him. "I actually think your mother likes pale gold, so earthy ......"

Deng Yi nodded. "Agreed."

"You're pursuing her?"

"Who? Belch...... Girlfriend?"

"How did you meet?"

"It's my mom's friend's daughter. Grew up together. ”

Zhong Xian nodded, intending to get up from the couch. Deng Yi stood up and walked forward, took a towel and wiped it on the left side of Zhong Xian's face, probably Zhong Xian's face was stained with soil on the grass.

"You lie still and ask me for a long time, it's time for me to ask you. I'm doing something very important tonight on a very important occasion. My father was out of town, and he asked me to attend an event for him. As a result, your call came at the right time. I was talking with a microphone next to me. ”

"Ah, I'm sorry. You can skip it. ”

"I can skip it. But...... I took it. Originally, I would turn off my phone at this time, but at that time, I was doing a live event and using my mobile phone number to draw a lottery. I went up on behalf of my father to draw the second prize winner—and after the host said to start, the first person to call me was the winner. Then your call was the first to come in. After Deng Yi finished speaking, he laughed first. The more you laugh, the harder you laugh, and the laughter rolls onto the carpet.

"What a coincidence." Zhong Xian couldn't laugh: "You can completely ignore my phone, didn't you look at the number?" What did I say on the phone?"

"You really don't remember?"

"I don't remember. I guess I didn't say anything. Please really believe that the negative effects of that medicine are getting worse and worse for me. I won't...... Won't eat it again. Zhong Xian didn't have any confidence in what he said. Although the negative effect is severe. But he had become more and more familiar with the effects of the drug, and he could easily get temporary pleasure from taking it. It's like taking drugs.

Seeing that Deng Yi was silent, Zhong Xian asked again. "Did I say anything? Probably make you feel ashamed, and make your father's employees feel like you have a mentally ill friend. ”

"You said on the phone that you had a terrible thing to tell me."

"I still remember that. But I guess I didn't say anything. Did I say that?"

"You said it...... You're almost yelling on the phone -- 'I love you. I know it's scary. But I love you. ’”

Zhong Xian coughed, almost choking on the air he breathed. After a long while, he couldn't hear Deng Yi speak, and he was embarrassed and didn't know what to do, so he could only knock his head repeatedly. "This damn medicine. I'm really mentally ill. Schizophrenic. ”

"You should be thankful for this negative effect. I can't remember what I said, I'm so lucky. It's a pity that those who hear it can't forget it all. ”

"There's no way I'm going to say that." Bell String shook his head. He understood why Deng Yi had been lukewarm when he looked at him tonight. It's really contemptible to do this kind of thing.

Deng Yi finished laughing and laughed again.

Zhong Cine covered his face with a sofa cushion. "Just take it as a joke. Where my face goes. ”

He saw through his fingers that Deng Yi stopped laughing, picked up his phone and looked at something.

"When the negative effects of medicine appeared, I might not even be able to tell whether I was a human or a ghost, a man or a woman. I won't take this pill again. ”

"No more promises, no more explanations to me." Deng Yi spoke. "How could I take that seriously. I just thought something must have happened to you. Who knows you're just taking the wrong medicine. ”

Zhong Xian sat up straight on the couch. "That important event of yours...... What is the activity? Is it over now?"

"Nope. But it doesn't matter. I don't like to be there either. The only trouble was that my girlfriend was right next to me at the time. And my father's assistant. Tomorrow, probably my father will find out about it. My girlfriend's parents are also eventful people. You caused me such trouble, I won't have a good time in the next month, you should feel guilty about this. ”

Zhong Xian raised his head and glanced at Deng Yi, he barely had the courage to look at him again. "You can say that a friend is joking with you, this kind of thing, it's not difficult to improvise. Your girlfriend wouldn't have that much heart, would she? ”

"She won't. But my parents would. Especially my mother. I've let her down enough. ”

Zhong Xian was a little puzzled: "You are so good." What are they disappointed about?"

"You don't understand. I'm Adou who can't be helped. This is what the whole family says about me behind the scenes. I don't like business, my mother is more competitive. She forced me to give up what I wanted to do and study for an EMBA. Forced me to join my father's business. But my father and uncle discussed it from the beginning. Whichever child has the ability to use whichever one is capable. The two uncles had 5 sons. My father was the only one. And I'm the least talented. I've never been in their circle. Ever since I was born, my mother had high hopes for me, but she pushed too hard. Caused my childhood to start with autism for ten years. It also makes me very disgusted with business. Five cousins, each of them can dump me on a street. I will never inherit my father's business no matter what. I just do what I can and what I want. I don't care, it's just my mother'......"

Deng Yi paused excitedly, probably speaking too quickly. Apparently this was something of great distress in his heart.

"Your mother has been pushing you. She doesn't want you to be left behind in this family cake. Zhong Xian added for him.

"I can't do it." Deng Yi said. "Sometimes I wish I could do it for her. My father was fine. He doesn't push me. He grew up as if I didn't exist. ”

Instead, the bell strings came to the spirit. "There are five strong contenders...... Yes, it is difficult. However, it depends on where you want to go. Your father and two uncles, who is the number one?"

"My father."

Zhong Xian suddenly laughed.

"Laugh."

"You have the right time and place."

"Definitely. My father regarded my uncle's five sons as his own sons, but I looked like one who picked them up. You don't know what he did to me since I was a child. I was left naked in the snow alone, saying it was to exercise my will. Don't give me money to use. When I became an adult, I thought I could spend his money, and said that I could only spend what I earned. He never did this to his five cousins. You know what everybody thinks? said that because my father was so powerful, he took away all the essence of his genes, so I had no business talent. And my father ...... Don't approve of me anyway. ”

"I have a different opinion." Zhong Xian's eyes brightened. "Have you ever wondered...... All right. Let me break it down for you. Your father always said that he didn't like you the most, but liked your five cousins, didn't he? He has always been very strict with you, so strict that he is not very kind, and you are a rich second generation, but you have no money to spend, right? In the garage in the basement of your villa, there is a Porsche. Is it yours?"

"Hmm." Deng Yi nodded. But he immediately shook his head. "It's just a car. My mother's. ”

"Do you want to inherit your father's business empire? You tell me the truth. ”

"Say what inheritance. My father was in the prime of life. What do you want to do with this?"

"It's impossible for a family like you not to think about this problem? Your mother has been pondering since you were born, do you want to deny it? What she fears is that your father's last effort did not fall into your hands, but gave it to your cousin. ”

"Don't divide my family. My cousin was very good to me. Why are your eyes so bright? What are you excited about? Let's be honest. I don't consider myself lucky. If I am in such a condition in an ordinary family, I can be regarded as an excellent person. In our family, I was about to become a negative textbook, and I did what I wanted, and in my mother's eyes, I was like mentally retarded. Deng Yi smiled self-deprecatingly. Do what you love, be friends with the people you like, and love the people you want to love. Free. I will be content to be poor. ”

"That's when you've never been poor." Zhong Xian said. "You feel like you didn't spend your father's money. But you're never short of money. You have no idea what poverty is. You don't know what it's like to be really short of money. ”

Deng Yi didn't argue with him. "I want to be free, that's right."

"Do you think that by being content with poverty, you can be free? You know what is the reason why people like us desperately want to get rich? People who are born poor think that with money, they can be free. ”

"Forget it. Speaking of which, they're all talking about me. Deng Yi said. While you're in your right mind, talk about you. ”

"You said you had autism?" Zhong Xian thought and said. He had to admit that he was really excited to learn about Deng Yi's background. As if he had been injected with a heart booster, his brain was not only normal, but also began to function. No matter how Deng Yi confides in his 'unfortunate' growth history. Zhong Xian felt that it was a dreamlike paradise.

"It was my mother's fault. My father was also an accomplice. Because I have 5 wonderful cousins, they have a terrible growth plan for me. Because it was so cruel, I was scared out of the rigorous training process when I was five or six years old. Don't mention that. Deng Yi said, his clear eyes looking around. Zhong Xian stared at him intently.

"You don't look like someone who has autism." He pointed out directly.

Deng Yi's gaze turned back and fixed on Zhong Xian's face. "That's smart. I came up with a trick when I was six years old, feigning my illness and rebelling against the free exploitation of me. Don't let my father know about this. He finally gave up on me, thinking that if he forced me again, he would force me to death. So give up. Pinned his hopes on his cousins. ”

"Okay. You haven't answered my question yet. Don't you really want to be the ultimate heir? Do you really want to be a normal person?"

Deng Yi nodded again. "Even if I wanted to, I wouldn't be able to."

Zhong Xian bent forward from the sofa and looked at Deng Yi seriously. "As long as you want. can do it. Will you believe me?"