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Indifferent as the wind. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Soft as jade.

In the reflective mirror on the side of the wine cabinet, you can see your appearance at this time, and you still have a fascinating characteristic, and you still look so young.

BELL SINE TURNED, TOOK OFF HIS DARK GRAY JACKJONES COAT AND TOSSED IT ASIDE, AND SLOUCHED BACK ON THE COUCH. He stared at the string of wooden ornaments hanging above the beams leading to the balcony. The blocks were painted in metallic tones of different colours, long or short, presumably to create a so-called uneven aesthetic. The air outlet of the central air conditioner in the living room was above the ornament, and the wooden blocks swirled gently in the breeze, like a group of pathetic dancers dangling their tails in the air.

Zhong Xian felt that he was still young.

It can easily be stirred by the people and things around him, affecting the senses. I can't predict whether the next second will be cheerful or frustrated. My state of mind often seems to be out of my hands.

Still too young.

However, in retrospect,

On the contrary, when he was younger, he was more determined than he is now. Faced with the life unfolding in front of him, he has already thought of a coping strategy - he only needs to stick to his goals with a hard heart and indifference. He was impressed with this approach. Think it's the law of everything.

But gradually, gradually. He discovered that there was no one-size-fits-all rule. The bowels of a man are not really iron. After hardness and coldness, life becomes bleak and confusing. It's like falling into the fog. It's as if there is everything around us, and nothing is clear. In the end, I couldn't even see what I was.

Gradually, gradually, he realized that the so-called success may not be the real success, nor did it bring him the future he wanted. If the human heart cannot see the light, such a life, like an executioner with a knife and axe, staring fiercely and fearfully at the road ahead, in the end, what is the meaning?

But if the law of all is useless, then what law can be followed?

The string of wooden block ornaments was sent by Dake. Recently, Big Tech has become strange.

Dake seemed to have only now discovered that the world of Zhong Xian was monotonous and colorless, and he began to decorate Zhong Xian's office by himself, and also sent some decorations with inexplicable intentions to hang in Zhong Xian's home.

Wherever Zhong Xian turned his gaze, he could see the symbols of the so-called mood that seemed to him to have little meaning. Their only function is to make Zhong Xian feel inexplicable, and have to wonder why Dake has been weird lately.

Zhong Xian has known several girls, girls who want to interfere in his life, who want to change his room in the name of love. Dake has also become like this.

Zhong Xian's thoughts flew far away in a wild way. only to gradually turn back to the people around him. Deng Yi was still looking at him. There was a little evasion and uneasiness in his eyes, but there was still something solid that did not waver in his gaze, and he was determined to see through him.

"Who died?" The bell strings muttered. As if I didn't understand the question. After repeating it twice, he said. "You really want to hear the truth. Well, to tell you. It's me. ”

Deng Yi's brows moved.

"What you see of me is a ghost."

TMD, I'm a ghost. Are you satisfied?

74

The edges of the leaves on the tree were already slightly yellowed, and they swayed overhead, as if they were going to fall at any moment.

Sunlight shines through the gaps in the leaves and shines on the streets. The glass of the car window reflected the scene of the street and shone into his eyes.

It was the end of summer when the leaves had already fallen.

The smell of sweet popcorn wafts through the streets......

The memory of the bell string stopped abruptly here. Thinking of those leaves, he also remembered a feeling. It feels like an iron rod when a headache hits down.

He hugged his head and curled up on the couch.

When Deng Yi's hand rested on his shoulder, he jumped up irritably. After walking back and forth on the floor twice, escape to the balcony.

Opening the balcony window and poking his head out to look out, he wanted to take a deep breath, only to find that there was no crisp air in the center of the city to wake him up, and his nose was only a mixture of late summer warmth and strange smells. But in the north, it's early winter.

As far as the eye can see, to the lower right of him is the wide CZ Street, from such a height, the traffic of cars and people crossing the zebra crossing is like a swarm of ants, it is the rush hour for commuting.

Looking up, there is no chaos in the sky on the ground. There is only one sun, alone but brilliantly brilliant, and the sky is incomparably wide and has no limits. Even though it was already dusk, the light was still shining.

Looking down again, in the evening glow, the window of his apartment balcony stretched to the height of the ground like an abyss, but at this time, he felt that it was not so terrifying......

When Zhong Xian continued to lean out, Deng Yi pulled him back from the window. He was defenseless of being pulled from behind, the force was strong and ruthless, and the thin silk T-shirt on his body felt like it was almost broken, and his body stumbled and almost fell on the latter.

After Zhong Xian stood firm, he turned around and looked up, and found that Deng Yi was looking at him with puzzled and frightened eyes, as if looking at a madman.

"What are you doing?"

"What are you doing?"

"Do you think I'm going to jump?"

"It looks like so."

"I don't want to die." Zhong Xian said in conclusion, turned and walked back into the hall.

Deng Yi followed him back to the living room.

Zhong Xian knew that he had just broken down for a moment, and he was afraid that he had exposed his true self. But now he's quickly back to normal. He won't be affected, he can act as if that moment never happened, don't think this guy in front of you can successfully find a breakthrough. He'll fight him to the end.

"A lot of things aren't as scary as you think." Deng Yi said with concern behind him. This clock string is pausing to fiddle with another string of wooden blocks above the wine cabinet. Later, it was simply ripped off and thrown on the bar.

"Psychologically, no one is not traumatized by childhood. Even if the child is carefully protected. What's more, losing your mother's love will make your life chaotic in the future. I ......"

It was as if he had been hammered his chest. He let himself laugh. "What kind of maternal love is mentioned, inexplicable."

Deng Yi paused: "I found that my expression skills are always very poor when facing you, and I can't understand what I really want to express." I would like to say...... I'm here to help you. ”

"What can I do? It was just a headache, a common thing. The cost of this kind of decoration is only a few dozen yuan. There is no practical value. I really don't know what Dake is doing here, the style is nondescript, isn't it ugly? Zhong Xian simply threw the ornament into the garbage basket again.

"What are your hobbies besides music?" Deng Yi said.

"What? Ask again what is this for? ”

"Your lyrics are pretty good."

"Shit."

"Simplicity is not simple. You also like poetry. Presumably you will have a good impression of Song Ci. ”

"Su Shi? The one who died of his wife? Ten years of life and death are boundless, and I don't think about it. Thousands of miles of lonely graves, nowhere to talk about desolation. Do you think my lyrics are in this style? It's too much of a lift-up for me. Zhong Xian sat down on a chair in front of the bar and stared at Deng Yi, "Want to help me?" He laughed, and he decided to tease the guy. Find out what my problem is. Don't just focus on the superficial stuff. If you really follow psychology, it must tell you that all psychological problems are sexually related. ”

Deng Yi looked embarrassed.

"Do you agree with that?"

"There are some. I think it's because people can't talk about it that it's a problem. ”

"That's where my problems come from." Zhong Xian said maliciously, "I don't have any good feelings about that." Every impulse has the feeling of wanting to die, can you tell me why? ”

“…… It's true? ”

"Can you help me?"

"Tell me about your experience."

"You really want to hear it?"

"Can I listen, can you speak?"

"Which one do you want to hear?"

"How many times have you been?"

"Bring me a calculator." Zhong Xian laughed.

"I also know that showing off is not hopeless. Let's talk about the first time. ”

"For the first time? It's the old rich woman. ”

"What was it like?"

Bell String posed as if she was seriously reminiscing. Thought and thought. "Forget." He said regretfully.

Deng Yi stared at him. He also stared at Deng Yi. "Your first ...... Before you sell it to her, you can always find someone similar to break it first. It's not hard for you. ”

"How's that going to work? What people want is a virgin. I can't break my promise. Zhong Xian laughed again.

"What do you get?"

"A BMW. She is also very trustworthy. ”

"I'm asking you what experience you've gained. How could you have forgotten. ”

"I think we're off topic. If you want to help me, then help me find the reason why I want to die while having fun. ”

"Even if you choose to say it in a joking way, I believe what you're saying is true."

"You're the only one who knows my secrets at the moment. If you want to know me, why don't you dare to try it directly? ”

"You've made a joke." Deng Yi's eyes dodged.

"You can't help me." Zhong Xin concluded. "It's embarrassing to you. How can you help me. ”

"Am I embarrassed?"

Zhong Xian looked into the distance, but he could only see the balcony window: "I do like poetry a little. But it's not limited to ancient poetry. Say a song you listen to. ”

I remember that everything happened in the distant past

I had to go through it again, without hesitation

-- There is no hesitation

We were taken along the way

Or is it for a living? Or to die? No, there is no death, only life.

I have seen life and death: we need no doubt, we have ample evidence

They are very different and frightening

Like death, a new birth brings us pain

We return to our own place, to the land of the soul

Following the heavenly ways of the past will make us no longer comfortable and happy

The Gentiles cling to their gods and pray for eternal life

And I'm happy to die one more time -- without hesitation

Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian in a daze. Do you probably think that this thing without rhyme is poetry?

"Whose poems?"

"A foreigner who died a long time ago."

"Translated from English? The content is very good, it has a religious feel, it can't be biblical. The original book should be quite wonderful from the perspective of English. Translation can't replicate its brilliance. ”

"Luckily, the soul is still there."

"Thankfully, the soul is still there. What do you like about this poem? ”

"Let's be honest. I do not know. ”

"Let's have a drink." Deng Yi took the initiative to propose. Presumably, I don't think there is much progress in this kind of conversation.

Zhong Xin looked at his watch. "It's time to feed your belly again. Go for dinner. There is a good hot pot restaurant downstairs. ”

75

Just sat down in the restaurant. Zhong Xian received a call from Dake.

"Why didn't you go back to the company? Everyone is still waiting for you to have a meeting, where did you go after the negotiations? ”

"The meeting was cancelled. Something to say directly. Zhong Cine stared at the menu.

"The offer has been revised again as agreed in the negotiations. You'll have to take a look. ”

"Take a picture of your phone and send it to me."

"And. European Airlines just said that the first batch of goods will be inspected more strictly when they arrive at the construction site, and he suggested that we buy big brands of goods and transport them into the deck first, and the purpose of the first batch is to prevent random inspections from problems. From the second batch onwards, we will ship our own goods. ”

Zhong Xian groaned: "Has he already produced it?" ”

"Thirty tons is no problem. But he's a man...... I can't believe it. I'd like to go for myself, don't you think? ”

Zhong Xian didn't bother to pay attention to Dake's rejection of European Airlines. As long as there is an opportunity, Dake will always be like this, and if there is no opportunity, it will create opportunities.

"It's nothing if you go check it out. Don't put your thoughts on your face. ”

"I know that."

Zhong Xian put down his phone and handed the menu to Deng Yi. Deng Yi simply ordered a few vegetables.

"It eats like a sheep." Zhong Xian sarcastically mocked him.

"I don't have much appetite."

"You don't like hot pot? You can eat it when it's cold. Everyone is more angry. Just fight poison with poison. ”

"I don't have any interest in hot pot lately."

"Don't like it?" Zhong Xian touched his head and remembered that it was Dake who loved hot pot. "Then we'll shift our positions and eat something else."

"It doesn't matter. I don't have any ideas about anything else. ”

The bottom of the pot was quickly served, and it was a gossip-style mandarin duck pot inside. Zhong Xian actually didn't have an appetite, but he looked enthusiastic, and poured all the mutton served by the waiter into the pots on both sides.

"How much do you have to charge for taking on a case like Xiao Zhu's disappearance?" Zhong Xian asked coldly.

Deng Yi was stunned for a moment. "Do you ask Xiao Zhu, or do you ask about the charge?"

"Fees. I heard that most of the so-called private consultation surveys are scammers. Zhong Xian smirked, "It's rare to meet someone who isn't a liar." I can introduce business to you later. ”

Deng Yi glanced at Zhong Xian: "According to the situation of the case, the fee will be charged after assessment." ”

"How much money did you charge for Xiao Zhu's case."

"I don't want to reveal it."

"The charges are not disclosed? So how do you introduce it? I want to find you myself? ”

"You? Want to entrust me? ”

"Yes. If I also entrust you to find someone. How much money do you charge. ”

"Who's looking for?"

The bell string disturbs the bottom of the pot with a spoon. "You start with the charges."

"How long have you been missing?"

"Many years. More than five years. ”

"40,000."

"Got an offer so soon? Guaranteed to be found? ”

"No refund found."

Zhong Xian put a spoonful of the soaked mutton in a soup spoon and put it into Deng Yi's plate. "Did Xiao Zhu's parents also pay this price? If you can't find Xiao Zhu, do you want a refund? Wouldn't that be a wasted effort? What if Xiao Zhu died? ”

"Just find out where he is." Deng Yi said.

"Meaning, even if you don't find Xiao Zhu, just know where he is. Or know the result of him, for example, death or something. ”

"You think he's dead?"

"It's just a hypothesis."

Zhong Xian suddenly remembered that they had forgotten to order their wine again. I was about to call the waiter, but when I thought about eating hot pot, it seemed that it was not the right way to drink any wine, so I was silent and stopped mentioning drinking.

"Order a bottle of wine." Deng Yi took the initiative to say instead, and waved to the waiter at the same time. After the waiter came over and reported the names of all the wines in the store, Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian hesitantly.

Zhong Xian shook his head and smiled: "It's okay to drink herbal tea." I want to drink and go back to drink after eating. ”

Deng Yi's mobile phone rang at this time. The bell turned out to be the call of a reindeer. Zhong Xian rarely heard Deng Yi's mobile phone ringing, probably he usually turned it to vibrate.

The elk's cry was warm and hoarse, with an eerie sense of remoteness, reminiscent of the Ring of the Ring. "This kind of ringtone, listening to it in the middle of the night, won't be scared to death?" Zhong Xian said.

Deng Yi picked up the phone and answered a few words. His expression suddenly became serious.

“…… Where is it? Okay, go right away. ”

"Is there something wrong?" Zhong Xian asked curiously. Deng Yi's expression could really be described as shocked, he really wanted to know what was going on.

Deng Yi looked in the direction of Zhong Xian, but his eyes fluttered, showing that he didn't pay attention to anyone and everything in front of him. He was in a state of confusion and amazement.

"Yes. Go right away. ”

"Does it matter? Where to go, I'll send you if you're in a hurry, right? ”

Deng Yi hesitated for a moment and said to Zhong Xian: "Xiao Zhu's girlfriend, do you remember?" ”

"I remember it so much. was almost wronged by her and ruined her innocence, how could she not be impressed? Did she call? ”

"It's her colleague. She secretly gave birth to a baby in the hallway of the staff dormitory today. Premature birth. When discovered...... The lives of both mother and child are in danger. ”

Zhong Xian was stunned. Suddenly remembering this girl, he barely recognized it when he saw her the second time. He had only seen her twice. He had never thought carefully about the reason why the two appearances had changed so much, and it was impossible for him to let himself waste any brain cells on this village girl. The second time she gained a lot of weight. And the wide, ugly style of the dress she wears, which is extremely rustic. These changes seem to have found the answer all at once. But at that time, the two young men were completely unaware of this and did not think about it in that direction.

This girl is not yet 20 years old. Keep a terrible secret in your heart and stomach, wait for your boyfriend to come back, and wait to fulfill your promise to marry her. She was so ignorant that she wouldn't ask for help.

Zhong Xian only felt a chill in his back. An unpleasant bitter taste welled up under his tongue. He was the first to stand up. "Let's go. What are you waiting for. ”