Chapter 4: Emptiness After Happiness

After the conversation between the two men, Mr. Kridinska sent a driver to take her to the hotel where she had booked. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. biqUgE。 Info hostel is housed in a small cheap hotel in a prime location in the city centre. The inn is a four-storey building that should have been converted from an ordinary private residence, so there are not too many rooms.

Walking to the first floor of the hotel, she was greeted warmly by the young man at the front desk, who showed him the news of the hotel reservation. The young man took her to the room on the second floor according to her reservation information on the computer.

The room size of the hotel is not large, estimated to be about ten square meters, but there is also a separate bathroom. Although the area of the room is not large, the equipment is also complete, TV, computer, telephone, refrigerator, water dispenser is the same, and the Internet is free. White single bed, white bed cabinet, and a picture frame above the wall, the picture frame is a beautiful landscape painting. The hotel is generally clean and tidy, satisfying.

Qi Luoling came to the house, walked to the sofa, and put down her backpack. When the whole person relaxed, she felt that her whole body was stagnant and tight, and she was ready to take a comfortable hot bath.

Qi Luoling took out daily necessities from her backpack, went to the bathroom to take a shower, changed her clothes, and felt very little lighter.

She sat in front of the bed, and she seemed to have forgotten something. By the way, I remembered that I had to call Liu Shiran, because I promised to contact her as soon as I arrived in Warsaw. She began to use the hotel phone to call Liu Shiran.

"You're in Warsaw, aren't you?" Liu Shiran on the other end of the phone said loudly, and there was a deafening sound of rock music around him.

Qi Luoling frowned, and had to keep the phone away from her ears.

"Yes. I've arrived. β€œ

"What? You've arrived? It's too noisy on my side, I can't hear it clearly, can you speak louder? β€œ

"Okay. Where are you now? β€œ

"I'm watching musicians perform in the Music Square, do you want to come over?"

"I'm too tired today and want to rest early, so I won't come to you. I called just to tell you that I had arrived in Warsaw. I'm going to run errands tomorrow morning, and I'll call you when I'm done, okay? β€œ

"Okay. Good bye. β€œ

As soon as she put down the phone, Qi Luoling lay on the warm and comfortable single bed, her body was as light as a ball of cotton, and before she could think about what happened today, she fell into a deep sleep. Perhaps she was so tired that she didn't even have any dreams, so she slept until dawn before she woke up.

When I looked at the time, I realized that it was already ten o'clock in the morning. She quickly got up from the bed, washed up, and went to the phone.

Qi Luoling took out the contact information of DLA Piper from the innermost layer of her backpack, and then called. The call went through, and it was answered by a young lady with a soft voice.

"Hello, this is DLA Piper, may I have anything to do for you?"

"Hello, my name is Qi Luoling, and I am here in Shanghai, China. I received a lawyer's letter from your firm the other day. β€œ

"Okay, please wait a moment."

The phone was turned into a split number, and Qi Luoling heard a beautiful ringtone, and then a low, slightly magnetic male voice interrupted the continuous ringing.

"Hello, I'm DLA Piper. Are you Qi Luoling from Shanghai, China? He double-checked.

"Yes. I'm in Warsaw right now. I came to Warsaw last night. β€œ

"Oh, okay. Do you see when it's convenient for you to meet? β€œ

"Then it's three o'clock this afternoon."

"Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Qi Luoling tidied up her clothes and prepared to go out for breakfast and a cup of coffee.

At this time, the phone in the room rang, and she picked up the phone, which turned out to be a call from Liu Shiran.

"Are you done?"

"Not yet. We made an appointment at three o'clock in the afternoon. β€œ

"Oh," the other hesitated and said, "Are you free at noon?" I hope we have a meal together at noon. β€œ

Qi Luoling thought about it, until three o'clock in the afternoon, she still had more time left, except for the time when she had dinner together, the time left for going to the law firm was more than enough. So she readily agreed.

Next, Qi Luoling told Liu Shiran the address of the hotel, and Liu Shiran said that he would take a taxi to come over immediately, so he hurriedly hung up the phone.

Thinking that she was going to eat with Liu Shiran soon, but her stomach was so hungry that she stuffed a few biscuits in her mouth.

It didn't take long for Liu Shiran to come downstairs to the hotel, and the two had lunch together. They each ordered a barley soup and a pasta.

Soon after lunch, they found a quiet cafΓ© and sat in, the background music of the cafΓ© was soft music, which made people feel a little shaky in the afternoon.

Qi Luoling asked for a cup of black tea with lemon, and Liu Shiran asked for a cup of coffee. Then, the two drank in silence for a while.

"You see that man?" Qi Luoling broke the silence and asked casually.

"Yes. I saw him. Liu Shiran said lightly, as if she had been waiting for her question. However, the indifference of her expression was beyond Qi Luoling's surprise, and it stands to reason that she should have an excited and happy expression on her face.

"How does it feel?"

"We had sex."

"What?"

Liu Shiran's expression became confused, as if recalling that moment.

"The yellow sunlight gradually filled the room, the light and shadow hit our faces, and the music of our first acquaintance played on the stereo, everything was so beautiful, as if we were back in the past. Dust particles in the air float in the morning sun as if they were still. Every note in the music is as still as dust. When the music was repeated a second time, we began to lean together and kiss. And then we had sex. ”

It took a long time for Liu Shiran to return to normalcy from the dream-like memories.

Qi Luoling stared at her for a long time.

"Don't ask me about those judgmental eyes looking at me, and don't ask me what will happen to this? And don't accuse me from the highest point of morality. ”

Qi Luoling smiled slightly and said, "How can I accuse you?" After all, sex is human nature, not to mention that you have been in love and together before. ”

"You're wrong, we've been in love for four years in college, and we've never had sex at all." Liu Shiran said seriously.

"And what were you doing when you were alone together in college?"

"Memorize English words and read martial arts novels."

"Oh, so what are you going to do now? Who to choose? Who to give up? ”

"If I say it, will you think I'm sick?"

"What's wrong?"

"After having sex with him, I fell from the great physical pleasure, and I felt a strong emptiness that could not be expressed in words. The feeling of emptiness was simply suffocating, and it was so intense that I couldn't breathe. That discomfort and powerlessness made me wish I had never enjoyed the great pleasure that I once had. Then came a strong sense of guilt. ”

"Guilt?"

"Yes, the guilt of my fiancΓ©. The complex intertwining of feelings of emptiness and guilt made me feel like a gray storm that almost destroyed my heart. ”

Indeed, mental pain is far more deadly than physical pain. So what are your plans? ”

"I don't want to see him again."

"Oh"

"I don't know why, the other side is not wrong, on the contrary, he is doing well. And as soon as I think of him, I will think of the huge sense of emptiness and guilt after the ****, and that feeling makes me breathless. Are people strange animals, you say? I tried my best to arrange all this, and in the end all the good feelings disappeared, but I was in pain. ”

"Maybe happiness is just a lifelong dream, and pain is real." Qi Luoling thought for a while and said.

The two fell silent again, each thinking about his own thoughts.

After a while, Qi Luoling looked at her watch, and the time was about the same, so she said goodbye to Liu Shiran and left, leaving Liu Shiran alone in the cafΓ©.