Chapter 6: I don't want to have regrets
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After Lin Shixuan discussed the details of the action plan with Mu Zihan in detail, he took his pile of reconnaissance equipment and left in a hurry.
As for Mu Zihan and I, after Lin Shixuan left, we hastily coped with dinner and went back to our rooms to rest.
However, lying on the bed, I couldn't sleep for a long time, and Fang Ling's words rang in my ears over and over again during the day.
"Especially you, Qin Siyuan, let alone you. You want to be involved in everything...... You say that you want to have experience or no experience, you have no brains, you have no physical strength, why do you participate in these dangerous actions? Just that curiosity and sense of justice? …… Have you ever really thought about the people who care about you? ”
Hey, although I don't think it's as useless as she said, and I didn't take it to heart at the time, but now that I have calmed down and think about it, in fact, what she said was not wrong.
Imagine Mu Zihan and Lin Shixuan, although they sometimes have a child's temper, they quarrel over trivial things. However, one of them is the elite of Interpol; One is a mysterious detective who still makes me unpredictable even after getting along with him for more than half a year.
Acting with them gives me the feeling that it is like an online game, where I, a rookie, follow two god-level gamers to play a copy together, and I can't keep up with their rhythm when I'm tired.
"Shouldn't I really be involved?" I smiled wryly and muttered to myself.
To be honest, I don't have any bottom in my heart about this action of investigating the other side manor with Mu Zihan and Lin Shixuan. It's not that I have low self-esteem, but that's what it is.
I'm just an average college graduate and I don't have any special training at all. If it's a normal homicide like before, I can still play it as a mystery game. However, now I am facing a huge and terrifying criminal organization, and even the police and Interpol have joined forces, and there is nothing they can do for a while.
The more I thought about it, the more upset I became, and the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't sleep, so I simply sat up from the bed, and for the first time in my life, I had the urge to drink.
By the way, I remember that the bottle of wine that Mu Zihan took out from the room in the morning, after pouring a glass for Lin Shixuan, the rest was placed on the desk. With that in mind, I got up and put on my pajamas and left the room to get a drink from the office.
However, when I opened the office door, through the faint moonlight falling from the window, I saw that in the dark office, there was actually a figure sitting at Mu Zihan's desk, with his back to the office, looking out the window, and on his right hand, he was holding the bottle of wine I wanted to pick.
"Who are you?" I asked, a little scared, and at the same time wanted to turn on the lights.
"Don't turn on the lights, it's me." At this time, Mu Zihan's voice came.
It turned out that this figure was none other than Mu Zihan. I saw him stand up as he spoke, looked back at me and asked, "Siyuan, can't you sleep too?" ”
"Hmm." I walked over to him, stood beside him, sat down on my desk and said, "Why don't you turn on the lights?" Want to be scary? ”
"Scaring you? That's embarrassing. It's just that today's moonlight is so beautiful, it's a waste to turn on the lights. Mu Zihan said and directly picked up the wine bottle and took a sip of wine, and handed the bottle to me and said, "Do you want to take a sip?" ”
"It's almost Mid-Autumn Festival, and of course the moon is beautiful." I smiled and took the bottle from him, not minding that he had just drunk it, and took a sip of it.
However, this wine is so strong, after this sip, I only feel like another flame, burning directly from my throat, slowly spreading into my stomach, so that I still can't help coughing violently, and I can't help but say, "This wine is really unpleasant." ”
"Siyuan, you're really just a little ghost." Mu Zihan said and took back the wine bottle from my hand, took another sip and said: "Someone once said, watching the cherry blossoms at night in spring, looking at the stars in summer, enjoying the full moon in autumn, and the first snow in winter, how can there be wine that is not delicious?" If you still find it unpleasant, something must be wrong with you. ”
"You're the problem, I didn't expect you, you're still an alcoholic." Maybe it's because I drank that sip of wine, my whole body is hot now, and I can't help but say something in my head: "I just want to get a good night's sleep when I drink alcohol." Just now, my mind was full of what Xiaoling said during the day, and I couldn't sleep. ”
"Hey, actually, I've been thinking about whether to take you with me this time." Mu Zihan said: "Last night, the shot of the 'Butterfly Mark', if it wasn't for the deliberate deflection of the 'Butterfly Mark' to threaten me, Siyuan, you would be dead by now." ”
"Death is death, what am I afraid of." As I spoke, I took the wine bottle from Mu Zihan's hand, took a few more gulps and said, "Aren't you and Lin Shixuan human?" Won't you die? You are not afraid, why should I be afraid? Although I don't have enough experience and ability now, I can practice and learn. ”
"Who told you I wasn't afraid? It's just that I have to do it, otherwise I will regret it for the rest of my life, in which case, I would rather die. Mu Zihan smiled bitterly and said: "I can say that I am alone now, I just want to bring to justice all the 'butterflies' that have harmed my family." To put it bluntly, I just want revenge. It is precisely because of this that I am always avoiding Xinyan intentionally or unintentionally. Because, to deal with the 'butterfly' organization, I also have no bottom in my heart. In case I had an accident, I didn't want her to be hurt unnecessarily. ”
Before I could speak, he continued, "But, you're different, you have family, you have friends, and... Fang Ling. Although, now it seems that the relationship between you and Fang Ling is only more than friends, and lovers are not enough. However, I can see that Fang Ling is gradually accepting you. After saying this big string, Mu Zihan took the wine bottle from my hand again, drank all the remaining wine in one gulp, and said, "So, I think, this operation, Siyuan, you should not participate." ”
After listening to him silently, I looked up at the bright moon outside the window, my mind seemed to be suddenly much clearer, and I slowly said to him: "Zihan, I understand what you said, and besides, I have been hesitating just now to withdraw from this operation." After all, the truth is indeed as Xiao Ling said, whether it is experience or ability, I am not qualified, why should I participate in such a dangerous operation? However, I can tell you now that my decision is this: I would rather die than quit. Because, I don't want to leave such a huge regret in my life. ”
After that, neither of us spoke again, just looked out the window together. It wasn't until the end that the sky began to turn slightly white, and Mu Zihan dropped the sentence "whatever you want", then turned around and went back to the room. And I went back to my room, and began to fall asleep, and my heart suddenly became indescribably steady.
(To be continued) (To be continued.) )