Chapter 5: The Rejection of Love
"His music always reminded me of the love-hate relationship I had when I was younger. The intense feelings of pen & fun & pavilion www.biquge.info are like a surging tide coming to me, wave after wave. Every time the tide recedes, it heralds the return of even bigger waves. My whole life was drained by this intense emotion, until I could no longer move. ”
Cui Zhiyou's voice came from behind her, with the dark or shallow light and shadow on the shadow spy screen, like the dialogue in the movie, like the beginning of a prologue.
"I once loved a woman deeply. The first time I met her, it was a summer, the sky was a little blue, and the sun was as clear as an unfamiliar virgin. The golden sunlight shone down from under the gaps in the dense foliage, and hit her round and smooth face, and the holy light shook my heart and I couldn't take my eyes off it for a long time. That's how obsessed I was with her. ”
"She's not in love with you?"
"No, I think she should like me. I quickly launched a fierce pursuit, she always held back at first, and as time went on, she also liked me. We watched movies together, listened to music together, and on weekends we drove to the countryside to play. ”
"She's your first love?"
"No, I met her when I was thirty-five. At that time, I was already married, widowed, and had a child. ”
"Is she young?"
"No, she just looks young. At the time, I thought she was just a girl in her twenties. ”
"Think? She hid her real age? ”
"Yes. When I knew all the truth, all the good things became so dark and ugly. ”
"All the truth?"
"Yes. At that time, I was deeply infatuated with her and was willing to give up everything for her. I crave closeness to her. I like to kiss the warm and soft lips, caress the delicate and smooth arms, and hug the thin and soft waist. Her crimson cheeks were covered with a dreamy hue, and I plunged my tongue deeper into it, releasing my passion and love in the hot entanglement. Her misty eyes filled me with passion, and I rubbed hard against her, reaching into her corset, and exploring gently. But when I made any further movements, she suddenly reflexively sat up, stopping me from moving any deeper. She just stared at me like that, like a timid deer, and her eyes were so helpless. My heart also became overwhelmed. She straightened her clothes and said to me, I'm sorry. I smiled and hugged her tightly, maybe she wasn't ready, I loved her so much and was willing to use love to control my desires, and I was patient enough to wait for her acceptance. ”
"Later, we were together for six months. Once, a TV series was playing about a 17-year-old girl who fell in love with a young boy and tasted the forbidden fruit. Despite the use of contraception, the girl became pregnant. Because she was so young, she had to give birth to her child to a foster family. Seeing this, her eyes turned red and tears fell. I laughed at her, I was too easily moved by the plot. Looking at her pear blossoms with rain, I felt pity, and I hugged her tightly. Then I started groping every part of her body. We've been together for so long, and we've all experienced everything except the last step of blending. Because I love her so much, I want to enter her body completely, not only as a physical need, but also as a psychological one. It is a symbol of love for someone who loves each other, and I hope that she will give her whole heart to me, which is a trust in me and a recognition of me. ”
"She unsurprisingly rejected you this time?"
"Yes, the first rejection, I just thought she wasn't ready, and the reserve of women made me love her even more. But then she kept refusing, and I was unsettled and troubled. I don't understand why she keeps rejecting me. Many times, when I asked her why, she turned red and seemed to be more uncomfortable than me. “
Qi Luoling was silent all the time, and suddenly asked, "Mr. Cui, the past may be a hurdle that she can't cross in her heart." “