A gust of majestic wind blew away the rich bloody aura, Qin Hu turned his head to look at me, a resolute and rough face was a little white, but the fierce aura in his eyes was still strong, that might be my delusion, his eyes stared at me, making me like pins and needles, his chapped lips were slightly open, and his voice was weak: "Do you think I shouldn't do this?" ”

Although his voice was weak, the fierce aura that came to his face was a little suffocating.

I tightened my grip on the handle of my gun, pursed my lips, stubbornly raised my head, and stared straight into those fierce eyes without speaking.

"We are soldiers."

He suddenly said something that I am familiar with, yes, this sentence, she once said, the female commander named Zhang Yingying, there is a picture of her flashing in my mind, very clear and very vague, but she has never done such a tragic thing, she is a soldier.

"We should protect them."

He continued, sighing, his lowered eyelids closed with his lower eyelids, as if he was so tired that he didn't even have the strength to open his eyes: "There are 200,000 people here. ”

He opened his eyes, struggling, there was pain, powerlessness, helplessness, and the things contained in those eyes were enough to make a living person have a mental breakdown, and there was the blood of thousands of people on his hands.

"We're protecting them"

The green tendons on his neck and forehead swelled and squirmed, his face was dyed with a sickly flush, and his low and heavy voice weighed down a little breathless.

"There are less than 8,000 troops in the entire base." He suppressed his breath, very hard, as if he was roaring silently, roaring: "We can only do our best to protect them, and at the same time hope to mobilize them to protect themselves and help us resist those impending pathogens, the zombies in your mouth, this is not helping us, but helping themselves." ”

I still stubbornly raised my head, but it seemed to be a thousand weights, and my neck was a little sore and stiff.

"They feel like we're imprisoning them, we're using them, we're using them as cannon fodder, we"

He was suddenly silent, his voice a little hoarse, like coals in his throat.

Click!

There was a crunching sound in my neck and spine, a faint sound, but it was infinitely magnified in my mind, and my arrogant and unclean, foolish and ridiculous thoughts were gradually cracking, was I wrong? But how could I be wrong? I didn't do anything, did I? It's right to kill people, is it the wrong person who wants to stop the killing?

"They captured my soldiers."

He continued to speak, as if to vent the unhappiness suppressed in his heart, as well as the depression and guilt after killing a thousand people: "The soldiers who protected them beat them to death, and some people did not think it was wrong, and even tried to threaten me once to blackmail me and get them out of here. ”

My head was getting heavier and heavier, so heavy that I couldn't keep it high no matter how hard I sucked.

"I never want to stop them from leaving, I can let them leave the base at any time, but not to send them to safety, in the base, I can guarantee that they will die behind us, the transport plane is limited, the personnel are limited, the time is limited, we can't guarantee whether we can stop those pathogens, but we can guarantee that we will never have a deserter, even if it is a mental breakdown, suicide, it is also death on the ground, no one will escape" He roared in a low voice, like a wounded beast, his eyes were scarlet.

I don't know what kind of state I am in now, am I repentant? No. Is it shame and embarrassment? No. But actually, I'm not that noble, am I? I'm just a hypocritical gentleman, I'm just judging this general who has caused thousands of people to die at gunpoint with my first instinct, I'm afraid, I'm just afraid that he didn't take human life seriously, and I'm afraid that I might be one of the thousands.

"If I am silent they will become even worse, they will think that we are paper tigers, they will organize more, even the entire survivors of the base to resist us, we did not die on the battlefield against those pathogens of the public enemy of humanity, but died at the hands of those who protect us, did I do something wrong?" He looked at me in a low voice that seemed to be whimpering silently. I know that this is just my delusion, he is a soldier, an iron-blooded soldier, who will only shed blood without tears.

His eyes were moist, he lowered his head slightly, raised his hand, wiped it, and his voice was a little hoarse: "The wind is a little strong." ”

My heart was a little blocked, like it had pressed a boulder, heavy.

He seemed to be much more relaxed, and his demeanor returned to normal, but the frost-white hairline of his sideburns spread up a few centimeters, and his face was pale and haggard, like a seriously ill old man, but he stubbornly straightened his back, like a needle of the sea god, steadily, inserted in the survivor base.

I closed my eyes, I don't know whether the emotions churning in my heart are sad or sad, I am still a little person after all, except for that thing, I am also a villain, a person who focuses on his own interests and preferences, he will be angry because of his own interests, and he will deceive his selfish villain under the guise of high righteousness. And this general named Qin Hu, he erased the small characters with iron and blood, wrote the soul of the soldier, and wrote the word character. He is a hateful but admirable person, but I don't like his style, if I don't like it, I don't like it, I'm a small person after all.

"Burn all the corpses."

He glanced at the corpses in the pool of blood, turned around with heavy steps, strode with a long stride, straightened his back, and walked away.

I dragged my stiff body, tired and depressed, and followed him step by step, until he told me to go back to rest, and then I fell asleep on the bed.

I had a dream, I dreamed that I suddenly became a general in the base, I rubbed the face that looked a little rough in the dream, it seemed to be Qin Hu, yes, in the dream, I became Qin Hu, but I didn't realize that I was in a dream.

In my dream, in the dark night, the breeze was blowing, and I watched the crowd of people surging in front of me, their faces were hideous, and the green tendons on their foreheads and necks were bursting up, and they were roaring, but their voices were unreal. This scene is very familiar, it seems to be the scene of last night, those people are shouting, they are not criminals

I was a little scared, I couldn't help but tremble, I don't know why I was afraid, in the dream, this emotion emerged very inexplicably, even more depressing and heavy than in reality. I couldn't help but want to retreat, because the crowd of rioters in front of me was like a hideous zombie, as if it could swallow me up at any moment. I quickly turned my head in fright, and subconsciously looked to see if there were other people around me, hoping to give me the courage to give me some security.

However, I was shocked when I turned my head, it was a face that I was very familiar with, it was the face I saw every day when I looked in the mirror, yes, standing behind me, he looked at me with an angry face, scarlet eyes hateful to me, as if I had done something angry to make him hate me so much that he wanted to eat my flesh and blood.

In the blink of an eye, the picture changed, behind me was an endless group of corpses, they were dancing their teeth and claws, the pain as thin as needles in their white eyeballs revealed a strange excitement, they stretched out their claws, just a centimeter away from reaching my feet, I was standing on the narrow wall, on the other side was a group of people, it was the same people last night, they were smiling hideously, looking at me coldly, I cried out for help, hoping that they would reach out and pull me.

However, their response made me despair, and some people were sneering and saying, "Jump down, they will only eat you, and if you eat we will be safe." ”

Others angrily accused me: "Do you want us to die with you?" Your heart is truly vicious, selfish, and ugly. We don't want to die with you, but we want to die, and you will die yourselves. ”

Others ridiculed: "Selfish fellow, aren't you trying to protect us?" Why don't you jump down, as long as they eat you, they won't eat us anymore, but why are you talking differently than you do? Not only are you a hypocritical and selfish liar, but you are also a coward, and you are embarrassed to protect us. ”

I cried, "Can't you just help me?" If they eat me, they will definitely eat you, and I can command the army to resist them, and if you save me, you will save yourself. ”

"Fart, I see you're obviously a coward, and you say something to save ourselves." They yelled at me, and one by one they lunged at me, stretched out their hands, and pushed me down

I woke up screaming, subconsciously fluttering my hands and feet on the bed, the feeling of being entangled by those zombies in my dream, it turned out that I was just wrapped in a quilt I gasped violently, rubbed my face, full of wet and sticky cold sweat, it turned out, it was just a dream.

I tried to empty my brain, and I opened my eyes and looked at the incandescent lamp that had not been turned off all night, and I was a little dazed. Is this dream trying to tell yourself? But why didn't I understand it at all?

It must be almost dawn, I rubbed my somewhat dry nose and turned my head to look out the window, it was still pitch black.

PS: Mobile phone code, there should be a lot of typos, but it is very troublesome to modify the typos, and after the things at home, go back and modify them one by one, well, the number of words is a little small, and I'm sorry.