Xun Keran unconsciously drew circles on the paper.

The murderer was found in the case, Bai Ling almost recovered, and the required evidence was packed and sent to the corresponding departments, although there were other cases waiting for her to continue working, but those were not as good as her release at the moment. The back of the printed white paper was covered with various graffiti by her, and a few drops of cocoa milk tea that had been accidentally spilled. She threw away the colored pencils and got up and walked to the window next to her desk. A thin layer of ash had accumulated on the windowsill, and the color of the leaves outside the window had changed again when she had never noticed.

It's rare that she's so pure as now, and she's usually like many people around her, busy investigating cases non-stop, one after another. Even in the middle of the case, there is a moment of trance, whether it is useful to do all this, the crime never stops, and there will be no one less victim because he has found a murderer. And these thoughts were only for that moment, and the next moment she was running in a hurry, and there was no room for deep thought about it.

The night before, she watched the American drama called "True Detective" all night, and in those long, slow shots, the only reason that supported her not to sleep was that she was the same as the protagonist in the play. He may be an alcoholic, he may be violent, he may be disrespectful, he may be indifferent to his family, but even if you and I are not saints, there are always things that cannot be forgiven as a person.

For example, sexuality-abuse-treatment of children.

That kind of pain, even if you just look at it through the LCD screen, will make you feel like the blood is flowing backwards, the oxygen is being withdrawn, and the anger is empowered.

But you can't do anything.

At the end of that episode, when the black policeman faced the camera and said that as a child who had been sexually assaulted and grew up, he still had the choice to take a path of justice, Xun Keran sat alone on the floor, as if he could see the picture of the murderer cutting off Guo Yufeng's genitals and stuffing it into his mouth in the gym, what kind of mood was he going to have, remembering the lines in the TV series "Don't give up your life because of this", while cruelly staining his hands with other people's blood.

Those who have been traumatized since childhood, accompanied by a life of constant disgust for the world and themselves, are there really other options?

Those people use other people's immature bodies to satisfy their own momentary excitement, and thus ruin other people's lives, and finally scream and scream in pain, look at themselves, and die under the poison of the other person's hatred.

But he couldn't get even the last shred of sympathy.

The knock on the door sounded a second time, and Xun Keran reacted, "Come in." ”

When the door opened, it was the director who appeared in sight, but Coco suddenly felt that his eyelids jumped, and a bad premonition arose.

The director hooked his hand, and Coco followed out the door, only to see that there was a deputy team leader in the corridor.

"It's been sent to the infirmary, let's go this way." The deputy team leader took the lead and walked in front, but he couldn't understand what he said.

The director has a slightly obvious beer belly, and he still walks with the appearance of a brisk walk in his early years, but he is a little gasping when he speaks, "Hang Chengsheng, is the mastermind of that case, I don't know if it was pretending or really having a sudden mental problem during the interrogation, self-harm hit the wall, his forehead was injured, and he ...... in the infirmary."

The infirmary was located in the northern corner of the police building, and it was only a two-minute walk from Coco's office, but to her surprise, there were many people standing at the entrance of the infirmary, both in uniform and non-uniform, except for the big one.

"Director, didn't you say that Da Xuan is in charge of the interrogation?" Coco asked in a low voice.

The chief did not reply, but motioned for two police officers to accompany Coco into the infirmary.

This is not the first time Xun Keran has faced a suspect in a criminal case, but as soon as she entered the room, she suddenly shivered.

The infirmary was small, and in the middle of the mobile bed sat a man, one hand cuffed to the iron bar at the head of the bed, with undried blood on his forehead, and his eyes had never taken off her face from the moment Coco entered the door.

"Hang Chengsheng?" Coco put on medical gloves from the shelf next to her, she didn't have to look at it, she could feel the eyes tracking her, Coco turned around and subconsciously looked at the other policemen in the room, some of them were just familiar, but Xue Yang with a serious face was also there, which made her heart calm down a little, although the weird feeling that made her goosebumps never disappear.

The cotton swab on Coco's hand gently wiped the blood on Hang Chengsheng's face, an action that made her almost close to each other.

Hang Chengsheng's gaze was frank and direct, "You are Xun Keran." ”

The atmosphere in the room suddenly became tense, and Coco even saw Xue Yang's footsteps moving from the afterglow, and almost rushed over.

Coco turned her head to look at Xue Yang and seemed to understand something.

"They say you're the forensic doctor who discovered the scent of photographic paper." Hang Chengsheng seemed to have seen enough of his prey, and kept trying to arouse the idea of Xun Keran to speak.

Coco was silent and cleaned up the bloodstains and simply dealt with Hang Chengsheng's injuries.

"I can't eat people, so you don't want to talk to me?"

"You can say whatever you want in the interrogation room," Xun Keran looked at Xue Yang, "The trauma is not serious, go and report it, it's best to take him to the hospital, maybe there will be a slight concussion." Turning around, Xun Keran put down the bandaged things, and while taking off her gloves, she wondered why the director called her, there is a resident doctor in the infirmary, and there is no need to collect evidence, why......

"I grew up relatively young, and when I was in junior high school, many people thought I was a primary school student. I read that the book says that there are two kinds of people in the world, good people and bad people. I don't think so. ”

Hang Chengsheng paused, "There are two kinds of people in the world, bad people, and me. ”

Xun Keran faced the wall, and Hang Chengsheng behind him turned his head to her back, as if talking to himself, more like talking to her alone, although there were more than two people in the room.

"My mother is dead, and although she doesn't speak, her mother who can cook for me is gone. And then there's the never-ending pain. The guy I call Dad doesn't do a good job, and the boss often scolds him, and I can tell how long the boss scolded him today from the length of time he hits me every day. ”

"Later, he got tired of it, he didn't beat me, and for a while things became very weird, our elementary school and junior high school were in the same building, and the senior people liked to block me on the way out of school, and they said several times that they would take me to play, but when they came home late, they would be beaten, and my father seemed to like me for a while, and he beat me very little, and he would touch my face. I was happier than having eaten enough and that the scars on my body had not been cracked back up. ”

Xun Keran slowly turned around and found that Hang Chengsheng was speaking, raising his head and laughing softly.

"Until one day he saw me walking with a senior boy, and he grabbed me by the ear and dragged me all the way home on the ground."

"Scolding the slut and SAO, tearing my clothes into me."

"The strangest thing is that I can understand what he means by the words he scolded me."

"It's only the fourth grade of elementary school."

One sentence at a time, no one bothered Hang Chengsheng's words, and no one dared to speak.

"The older classmen probably followed me and saw this from the window of my home, and the next day, the boys at school started spitting on me and dumping the contents of my school bag from the fourth-floor classroom, and then it progressed to the point that during the day I was choked by the neck and ate the in the men's toilet at school, and at night I was poked into my body by someone called Dad called Daddy, and if I screamed or begged for mercy, I would be stabbed in the back of my hand by a thumbtack."

"Being able to pass out in time is the happiest thing for me. That means the day is over. ”

"Finally I went to junior high school, and the man who finally called my dad died."

"It's not in vain that I've put so much effort into it."

"I was adopted by my uncle, who looked like Sven."

"My family's genes must have been broken, and since then I have believed that no matter what kind of person it is, as long as it is my blood relative, it must have inherited the broken genes. For example, an uncle who wears glasses and has a wife and a daughter. He didn't like it at all when Dad did those things to me. ”

"He likes something else."

Coco lowered her brow, and she could faintly hear the slight sound of electricity coming from the camera somewhere. She didn't know if Hang Chengsheng didn't know that there was filming, or if he didn't care at all.

"Like poking me underneath with a live wire, and then happily watching me react to being electrocuted."

"Or a lit lighter roasting the soles of my feet, smelling the half-cooked smell of human flesh being grilled."

"Until what he did to me was discovered by my aunt, I watched without a reaction as they quarreled, fought, and my aunt walked away with her daughter."

"Then I knew it was just beginning. Sure enough, he blamed me for all the fault. ”

"He started asking me to host different 'uncles' and make me serve different 'uncles' with a smile on my face."

"Whether it's tying me up, whipping me, dressing up as a girl or watching me get played with by a dog, it's child's play for me."

"Ten years."

"I'm finally an adult."

"I'm so happy that I can finally start, mine, life."

……

Hang Chengsheng was silent for a long time, and his lowered gaze returned to Coco's face, this time he got the look he had been expecting.

Coco looked at him with a complicated and tangled gaze. Time flowed silently in the eye to face, and the policeman standing on the side couldn't help but look at Hang Chengsheng, and then at Xun Keran, almost suspecting what message the two were communicating with their eyes.

Coco also turned a thousand times in his mind, this case has lasted several months from the beginning to now, and he almost went to the end of the investigation several times, and finally found the truth in a twist and turn. But at this moment, I don't know what to say to this person. I can only instinctively ask the only question that comes to mind, "Why are you telling me this?" ”

Hang Chengsheng turned his head sideways and made a conclusion a little ridiculously, "They didn't tell you why they came here." ”

The police looked at each other, but no one dared to come forward and shout to stop.

"The condition for me to confess is to meet you."

"Me?" Xun Keran narrowed his eyes slightly, "You saw it, do you have any feelings?" ”

The man named Hang Chengsheng just looked at her steadily, his expression slowly and almost unchanged, scanning Coco's body from top to bottom. A feeling of slowly eroding was conveyed from every place where Hang Chengsheng was watching, and Xun Keran suddenly felt that all this was boring. She turned to put away her used things, threw away the blood-stained medical gloves, and threw away the mask. She had also guessed what kind of person she would be if she caught the murderer.

But she rejects these strange murderers, and casts a curious gaze at her with the thought of "who the hell discovered the criminal genius me".

This feeling only made her feel sick. Because of this, they regard what they do as an achievement.

Hang Chengsheng watched Xun Keran throw everything down, turned around and walked to the door, couldn't help but be stunned, and blurted out, "I think I did the right thing." ”

Xun Keran's footsteps did not stop.

"If it's you! What would you do if you grew up like I did! ”

The footsteps stopped abruptly a meter in front of the door, but Coco still had his back to the man, but he sank.

"Don't tell me, you didn't think about revenge. How refreshing is revenge, all the pain is returned to the other party. Hang Chengsheng's tone was intoxicated, it was the backlash of a soul oppressed by pain, and even the policeman standing on the side seemed to feel that it sounded very reasonable.

"At least, I'm not going to kill people." Finally, Xun Keran turned around and looked at Hang Chengsheng head-on, "It's going to be cool, but there are many kinds of revenge, grow up, be a person, find evidence, let everyone who has hurt you go to jail, let other people who are hurting others also go to jail, protect others and no longer follow in your footsteps, it doesn't mean that you have the right to take other people's lives, you can't say that you encourage others to kill and abuse, it's justice." ”

One step at a time, the forensic doctor Coco stood half a step away in front of Hang Chengsheng, "Murder, in my place, is never justice." ”

The river of anger flowed slowly but surely, and how much sorrow melted into it, quietly became a cold past. Occasionally, a boiling heart or two rushes into it, trying to turn the river into a boiling flame, but in the end, it is often only overwhelmed by the vastness of cold reality.

Hang Chengsheng leaned forward and looked at her from a distance from the tip of Coco's nose, "You know, some people deserve to die. ”

"What about Bai Ling?"

"Who?"

"The policeman who was sprayed in the face with cyanide by you in the hospital, he is 27 years old, he has never met you, he does not have any pedophilic tendencies, he has not caused irreparable trauma to anyone, you tell me, why did he deserve to die?"

Hang Chengsheng blinked slowly, licked his lips with the tip of his tongue, and his eyes drifted away.

The sneer on the corner of Coco's mouth was the same as always, "Because once you kill the first person, you will no longer be different from those devils." The death of innocent people at your hands is only a matter of today or tomorrow. ”

"So, you have nothing to be proud of, Hang Chengsheng." After Xun Keran finished speaking, he saw the person in front of him raise his eyes, his eyes flashed with a strange look, and he opened his mouth to say something that made everyone present stunned.

"No wonder that man said you were special."