Chapter 90: Cowardice
I don't know how I responded to him in the end, he left, I don't know if it was because my mood was too depressed or if his steps were heavy.
She walked in, not curious about what I was talking about with Qin Hu, but reminded indifferently: "Your friends are waiting outside, but I didn't allow them to come in." β
"Let them in." I closed my somewhat sour eyes, and then opened them again, and there were already three or four people standing beside the bed.
Lin Haiming, Fang Zheng, Liu Zhihong, and Chris Garno. There was eagerness, worry, and nervousness in their eyes.
"Brother Zhou, are you okay?" Lin Haiming said with a smile.
"Who is Brother Zhou? What could it be? At most, a day or two of recuperation will be a dragon spirit and a tiger, right? Liu Zhihong looked at me with a strange smile, he was always out of tune, but I knew that this guy was not muddy.
"Didn't you say that your father would notify Middle-earth to come to your rescue?" I looked at Chris Garneau.
Hearing my words, his expression flashed a trace of embarrassment, but he showed a kind smile: "I said Zhou, you still like to hit people so much, we are friends, aren't we." Before I could speak, he asked, "How are your injuries?" It's hard to imagine what happened to someone as strong as you could have been so badly injured. β
I don't doubt that this guy's unnutritious concern comes from the heart, he seems to have a request for me, it should be that he wants to climb from me to leave the base, I glanced at the other three people, Fang Zheng, Liu Zhihong, Lin Haiming, who can say that they are not without purpose? But I didn't care, actually, I wanted to leave the base more than them, I didn't want to stay here for a moment, so I understood them.
"I know what you're coming to me for."
I glanced at them, and I said it so bluntly, except for Liu Zhihong's extremely thick-skinned expression that you saw through it, the other three people all looked a little embarrassed.
Although Lin Haiming still has a polite smile, the blush of shame on his face is very conspicuous, he is indeed a simple young man, I understand him, he is his classmates, Uncle Lin's father and son rely on. As for Fang Zheng and Liu Zhihong, I have a good impression of them, although Fang Zheng seems to be the kind of person who is very urban, but he has always behaved very well. Although Liu Zhihong is not in tune, he is also a reliable person.
I didn't think too much about Chris Garneau, he was a little uneasy at the moment: "Listen to Zhou, I know we had a conflict, but I have already apologized to you, we are friends, if you have any grievances against me, you can say it, I apologize to you, oh no, I want to be the same to him." β
As he spoke, he pointed at Lin Haiming: "I want to be your little brother." β
After that, he also bowed respectfully to me and said, "The younger brother meets the eldest brother, and I hope that the eldest brother will abandon his previous suspicions and forgive the younger brother for offending the eldest brother." After speaking, he bowed to Lin Haiming again, and stammered a little in Chinese: "Little brother is the first to come... β
"It's a newcomer." Liu Zhihong added with a disgusted face.
"Oh, it's a newcomer, it's weird." Chris Garno nodded obediently.
I couldn't cry and laugh, his crepe but with an exotic accent of Chinese listened to my heart awkwardly panicked, this blue-eyed guy is really capable, his skin is simply a little thicker than Liu Zhihong.
"What about me? It's called Brother Liu. Liu Zhihong raised his chin.
"Oh, hello Brother Liu, take care of me, take care of me." Chris Garno smiled humbly at Liu Zhihong, to be honest, I really admire that he can pull this face.
"Okay, don't make trouble, tomorrow's plane is coming, you can come to me." I tried to wave them away, but I found myself wrapped in bandages and unable to move.
"Huh?"
After being sluggish for a moment, they reacted, several people clenched their fists, almost cheered, and one by one they held back their excitement and their cheeks were flushed as if they were constipated: "Brother Zhou, you have a good rest, we will come to see you tomorrow." β
"Big brother, thank you for your magnanimity and life-saving grace!" Chris Garno bowed to me with an excited face, and I really wanted to snarl at him that he wasn't dead yet, and that he didn't need such a big gift.
"You're so generous."
After Lin Haiming and the others left, she walked in quietly, her tone was cold, but she revealed a bit of sarcasm.
"What's wrong with me?"
I really hate this woman's attitude, no matter what she does, it is wrong in her eyes, I can imagine how Zhou He himself avoids her, no one can stand her temperament.
"The boarding places for these friends of yours originally belonged to someone else, and because of your friends, you deprived others of hope." She said nonchalantly.
Chi Guoguo tore my fig leaf bloodily, and his sharp words like knives instantly stabbed me, and a violent emotion instantly surged up, and he immediately retorted sharply: "Don't stand on the moral high ground and point fingers at me, you are very tall?" Then why do you care so much about me? Why don't you care about the soldiers who died in battle, and care about the wounded soldiers? Why don't you stay by their side? Who are you to say that about me? What do I do to you? Do you have what it takes for you to let them go back alive? Am I selfish? Am I depriving others of their right to live? And what about the soldiers who died in battle? Why don't you save other people, why don't you save me? β
I am like a hypocrite who has torn my face, and after being annoyed and angry, I have completely exposed the nature of selfishness and hypocrisy, I am not talking angrily, I just want to find a reason for the decision I made, my voice is very loud, but it seems very unconfident, typical of the color of the inward.
"Zhou He!"
Her lips trembled at my rebuttal, and she held back the tears rolling in her eyes, and her voice trembled a little: "You're a bastard!" β
"Am I wrong?"
I closed my eyes, I couldn't bear to look at her, my voice unconsciously lost a little confidence, and I found a seemingly perfect reason for my selfishness: "Everyone has a balance in their hearts, the direction of the balance tilt, always the person close to them, selfish, but just to make a choice that is beneficial to themselves, no matter how iron-faced people are, everyone is like this, so don't use this kind of words to provoke me." β
yes, who isn't selfish? If Qin Hu had no selfish intentions, would he send me and Qin Yan out of the base? Will he promise me for Qin Yan that if I take good care of his daughter, he will help send those friends of mine to the plane together? Qin Yan has no selfishness, will she still stay by my side with a tired face, does she care about me so much?
"I'm sorry."
I opened my eyes and looked at her in some surprise, yes, I heard you right, she actually apologized to me.
"No... it's fine." I suddenly felt a little overwhelmed, and I really didn't expect her to apologize to me.
Her mood seemed to have regained her calmness, and she stretched out her hand and wiped the tears on her face as if nothing happened: "If there is nothing to do, I will go to rest first." β
"Wait a minute."
Something suddenly occurred to me.
"What else?" She asked, retracting her cold face.
"Have you ever seen a man and a woman? An uncle with a scar on his face, and a beautiful girl. β
I asked out loud, but when I saw her sharp eyes, I immediately realized that my 'beautiful' adjective was a little redundant, this woman's jealousy was too great, and I didn't know what psychological trauma she had suffered. Oh yes, I remembered, Qin Hu told me that when Qin Yan was born, her mother died, based on what happened, I don't know, but it should be this incident that gave her a psychological shadow, but unfortunately I am not a master of psychology, and I can't go into her heart to enlighten her.
"It's just a pretty girl without you and an injured uncle who used to help me." I pretended not to see her sharp eyes, and quietly slapped her on the back, just hoping that she could speak well, I really didn't want to quarrel with her.
"You don't have to say nice things about me." She replied coldly, obviously seeing through my thoughts, but her eyes softened a little, and it was undeniable that my kung fu was really good, although it damaged my status as a gentleman.
"I haven't seen it, what else is going on with you?"
She was armed again with that disgusting gesture, and her expression was cold, perhaps it was just a means for her to protect herself. And what about her? I think of that female commander named Zhang Yingying? Why does she always have an indifferent expression, it seems that except for the mission, there is nothing worth her caring about.
"Remind the host that the fleet escorting the exiled criminals has entered the channel ahead of schedule, and it is not possible to confirm the arrival time for the time being."
"It's okay, you go and rest first." Hearing the sound of the star core suddenly exploding in my head, I smiled stiffly at her.
"Oh."
After she left, I sat up sharply and asked the suddenly awakened starcore, "Aren't there still a few days?!" β
"The Star Core does not have the authority to determine the exact date of the criminal's exile." Star Core responded to me without the slightest guilt, but my angry lips trembled: "I don't know the exact date, you are a fart." β
"Please respect the core."
Call! Call!
I gasped, and there were almost 10,000 grass and mud horses whistling in my heart: "I respect you? Can you respect me a little? Don't toss me anymore, okay? Do you want me to die or what, I just got good news, you're going to wreak havoc, it's endless, you, what kind of trick are you playing. β
Silent.
Starcore didn't pay any attention to my irrational accusations, I felt like a punch on the cotton, trying to vent, but the fear in my heart did not diminish in the slightest, but more and more exposed my inner fragility and cowardice. In fact, they are going to come after all, whether they come early or late, they have to face it.
Cannibal freak babies, diseased zombies, invisible Cologne, powerful cow prisoners, huge trappersγ»γ»γ»γ»γ»γ» these terrifying monsters are enough to make humans desperate, what terrible monsters will come this time? I don't know, but I'm afraid. All the way, I was like walking a tightrope, my nerves were tense all the time, I was afraid of death, but I was always struggling on the brink of death, I thought I would be safe if I stayed in the base, but what happened yesterday? What is on the horizon? I've had enough.
I clenched my fists, sharp nails piercing my palms, who the hell had made this world like this?!!
I wanted to rant angrily, to vent, but it didn't work in the slightest.
Escape?
"I'm leaving the base tomorrow, and if I go back, I'll find a place to hide, and hide well."
There was a cowardly voice in my ear talking to myself, and it said to me, I don't want to face those things, no one wants to face those things, no one likes disaster and death.