Chapter 33: I Don't Want You to Be Alone
Looking at the slender back disappearing into the forest, I didn't say a word for a long time.
In fact, we all had a very strange relationship along the way, one that was so distant and unpredictable that it seemed so far away and indifferent that it was not so far away.
In the vast rainforest, she and I walked quietly, and when we walked far, I suddenly felt as if there were only two people in the world.
Me and her.
Before I knew it, she had actually entered my heart, but I was a little scared, because the indifference and alienation she often showed made me a little afraid to approach and dare not be hurt by her.
On the other hand, I actually have some inexplicable superiority, that is, I am a human being, a real, living person, and she is not.
She was just a snow suit left by Xue Rui's master, Chi Limei, and the consciousness formed by the fusion of the mysterious worm pool.
She wasn't born for a long time, not even a few months.
In this respect, I actually have some psychological advantages, as if the strange Shu Huang saw the little girl and felt that with a lollipop, he could pull the other party's will.
And yet I was wrong, I was really wrong.
Along the way, I have been carefully avoiding that topic, but every time I am hit, I will turn it over, but I never thought that this question has already been answered in her heart.
She has long been aware of the fact that she is not Chi Limei.
What I didn't expect was that the reason why she persevered all the way was not for anything else, but to live a life that was more exciting than Chi Limei and had no regrets.
From this point of view, she is enough to give birth to admiration in my heart.
But her blood is hot, and am I cold?
Thinking of what she had just said to me, I immediately felt a burst of evil fire rushing to the top of my head, and I wanted to walk up to her and yell at her loudly, saying no, Lao Tzu is not like this, you have to go, it's a big deal to accompany you.
But...... Even if I go, what can I do?
I felt that my head was swollen and painful, and at this time, I saw that she really left my sight without looking back, and I was in a panic, and I didn't think much about it, and I just followed.
I've been chasing, I've been chasing.
I chased after her so much that both feet were sore, and I felt like I couldn't take a step, and I didn't see her again.
Finally, I didn't chase anymore, I turned my back to the sky and fell to the ground.
I clutched my heart, which was beating non-stop, and I felt that the world was spinning, and I was dizzy, so I closed my eyes in pain, but I felt as if my heart was missing a piece and empty.
I was in so much pain that I began to think of scenes between me and her over and over again.
The first time I saw her, she was the high-minded Master Cherry......
There is the gentleness of her suddenly calling me Eighteen Lang......
There are two people who confessed when they went on an outing......
There were two people who walked silently and walked through the woods to help and watch each other......
There is a picture of her asking and answering with me yesterday until she was tired and yawned and stopped......
All the pictures came together, and I suddenly felt that unconsciously, this girl with a magical background, she had unconsciously intruded into my life, although I always consciously resisted, I didn't want to have too close contact with her, but she had already entered my heart.
There is no reason to come in, and you can't get out.
I'm starting to cry......
I forget how long I haven't shed tears, especially crying for feelings, when I have begun to gradually adapt to that hellish society, to adapt to those girls who have been transformed by real society to no longer be pure and lovely, to learn to act on the spot, to learn to adapt to the love that I have forgotten, I have never cried again.
I thought I wouldn't cry for any women anymore, but only now do I realize that it's just because those women haven't come into my heart.
The more I cried, the more sad I became, and I couldn't help but grab my fists and slam them on the green grass beside me.
I tried to offset the pain in my heart with the pain in my body.
However, it didn't work.
I don't know how long it took, but I suddenly stopped crying, because I smelled a familiar fragrance again, this fragrance was very faint, as if there was none, but it made me remember it deeply.
It comes from Chi Lishu's body, I think it's body fragrance, but it feels like the smell of her hair.
I don't know what shampoo she uses......
I subconsciously opened my eyes and saw a familiar melon seed face, she I thought she had disappeared suddenly appeared in front of me, and asked in surprise: "What are you doing, so decent, why are you crying like this?" ”
At first, I thought it was because I was overthinking and hallucinating, but when I closed my eyes, I saw that she was still there.
Hey?
Didn't you disappear, why did you appear in front of me again, and the corners of your mouth turned up, did she not show up just now, was she watching my joke?
Thinking of this, I immediately got up, bowed my head, wiped my tears with my sleeve, and said oops, my eyes are in ashes.
She said to me with a smirk, "Would you like to blow the dust for you?" ”
I hurriedly shook my head and said no, tears washed away, there was nothing, no need, it's okay.
She stared at me and said was it really okay?
I nodded busily.
She didn't say anything more, she turned away, and I followed her closely, and she walked a dozen steps, turned around, and asked me what are you doing here?
I said I walked, what's wrong?
She frowned and said You don't want to be nosy, why do you want to come with me?
I ignored her slightly smug smile, lowered my head, and said in a muffled voice: "No, before leaving, Xue Rui explained to me and said that I must take good care of you." The so-called promise is a word that must be fulfilled desperately, if I let you leave alone, what is it? ”
Hearing this, I felt that her eyebrows and eyes were smiling, and she turned around and walked quickly on her own, saying that you don't know anything, so what's the use of going?
I hesitated for a moment before replying, "Even if I can't do anything, I can block bullets for you, and my body is enough." ”
Hearing my self-defeating words, she stopped.
In the end, though, she didn't say another word, nodding her head and walking forward.
The two of them were silent all the way, and she kept following the trail, stopping and stopping, and occasionally whispering a few words to the insects and snakes in the forest, as if she could communicate with these creatures with pitiful brain sizes.
We walked around the woods and seemed to go around in circles, and I didn't understand it at first, but later I realized that we weren't just chasing people.
For some time, we were still being followed.
At first, I was able to hold on, but later, even if I used the methods in the Twelve Methods, my legs were so tired that I couldn't step away, and at this time, she would come over and say that I was a burden, but at the same time she helped me press my legs.
I don't know what's going on, my legs, after her little hands kneaded twice, suddenly felt that the fatigue was reduced by more than half.
At this time, I suddenly thought, if we don't have the money to travel when we go north, I ask this lady to go to the foot bath and press her feet, maybe I can make up enough travel expenses, and it will be a first-class cabin.
Well, that's all I thought.
I really asked her to help strangers press their feet, and I couldn't bear it myself.
After three days of tossing and turning, she finally made the people mistakenly think that we had left with a brilliant arrangement, so she gave up in great frustration and walked eastward in the direction of the Thai-Burmese border.
We followed behind, all the way.
In the evening of the third day, we came to the depths of a valley, and under the sunset, the sunset became very delicate, and there were large fields below, planted with many beautiful flowers, some red, some pink, and some white, each of which was so bright and moving, as if it had the allure of the devil.
I've never eaten pork and I've seen pig runs, and I know that these flowers are none other than the famous poppies.
These flowers bear fruit in two months, and when the fruit is ripe, it is brown, and it is cut and boiled, and through some processing, it can produce lumps of black paste, and these things have a famous thing.
Opium.
Is this really a drug lord's plantation?
My heart was pounding, but with the previous lesson, I didn't dare to show too much fear, just pulled the corner of Chi Lishu's clothes, and said that we should get to the place, there are many people here, and there are guns, what are you going to do, tell me in advance, okay?
Hearing my calm words, she looked at me with considerable satisfaction, and then whispered, "I want to sneak in and see if there are really innocent people inside." ”
I asked then what?
She said as a matter of course, "Then I'll get them out." ”
She said it simply, but I felt a deep sense of powerlessness, and she apparently saw it, patted me on the shoulder, and whispered to me, "You stay here, I'll explore the way, and I'll come back at once." ”
As if remembering something, she suddenly turned around and smiled sweetly at me, saying Don't worry, I won't let you be alone, if there is anything, I will definitely come back to discuss with you......