Chapter 18: The Heart Is Like Ice

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Van finally had to turn on the tactical flashlight in the dark hive, and the increasingly strong hive magnetic field seriously affected the perceived visual distance, indicating that Van may have more high-level dormant zergs in the direction of his advance. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. biqUgE怂 ļ½‰ļ½Žļ½†ļ½

But he can only go on hard, and if he rushes back to his original path, he will likely be ambushed by the lurkers, so he can only hope that the other Zerg are still dormant.

The walls in front of the general were all destroyed, the compass in the tactical window of his left arm had long since failed, and the strong magnetic field of the rare earth ore seriously affected the effect of the compass.

Brahma can only judge the direction by relying on the vision provided by his perception ability with a radius of ten meters.

After continuing to advance for a while, Van stopped in front of a wall, and then kicked open the corrupted rock wall in front of him with a rapid dash, and the lightsaber in his hand slashed out, and a collector's insect head volleyed out with bright green body fluids.

Then Van quickly grabbed the joint leg of the other reaper with his left hand and pulled it hard, and his body immediately leaned over, and the arm-mounted lightsaber poured directly into its throat, and this collector did not realize Van until he died.

"Target confirmed, Zerg Collector, Level 3, Target Status, Dead, DA-7D-001 gets 4 points."

As Van gradually deepened, the level of the Zerg that appeared in the perceptual field of vision became higher and higher, and even the collector unit that served as Zerg cannon fodder had at least level 3.

Van gasped softly, and at that moment a sudden breeze came from one direction, which shocked him, which proved that there must be a vent connected to the outside of the hive, so he immediately sought this air current.

After a few moments, a slight light began to appear in the distance, and Van quickened his pace again, and just as Van was about to step out of the nearby hole, he suddenly stopped.

His expression began to hesitate, and he was about to take a step that refused to fall, but he slowly retracted his steps, and then slowly began to retreat in the direction he had come.

His right hand had already grasped the trigger of the Colt python, and his perception vision was opened to the maximum, and finally he slowly retreated to the position where he felt the air flow at the beginning, where he felt a slight flow of air again, and then he took a step forward, and the air flow suddenly disappeared again.

Syllable! The shrill sound of gunfire almost tore through his eardrums, and Van seemed to have no aim, just a random shot from him, because even in his perceptual vision, there were no other creatures around.

But Fan's back had already formed a layer of cold sweat, and the Colt python was tightly held in his hand, with a solemn and terrifying expression.

Suddenly, Van began to tremble, and then the frequency of tremors became more and more pronounced, until finally he released the trigger of the gun in his hand and held his head in pain.

"Come on ... Come... A soft, slow voice echoed in his mind, followed by a fading headache, as if it would ease the pain that Van was suffering now.

"Come on ... Come... The voice is softer, like a mother trying to put her child to sleep.

Van irrepressibly began to recall his childhood, the wonderful childhood before the survival trial.

There used to be so many friends and partners, what a carefree childhood, but when they were thrown into the mountains full of all kinds of Zerg at the same time, that carefree childhood ended completely from that moment.

There was no supply, no assistance, only the survival instinct stimulated in a desperate situation, people eating people, people killing people, these unthinkable things in the old times, but they happened to these children who were not yet ten years old, because at that time, people were always easier to kill than the Zerg.

When the former playmate fell in front of him covered in blood, and all he could do was desperately tear up his body with other children, how many people could bear this terrible and sad scene?

Dead and mad, most children can't bear this naked law of survival, and those who are finally able to successfully kill the Zerg are all walking on the corpses of their former companions.

The sudden betrayal of the partners, most likely, was only due to the uneven distribution of a small amount of food, and at that time life was even inferior to weeds!

The word companion was a ridiculous joke at the time.

Live, and then kill other creatures, whether they are humans or zergs, as long as they can be food, kill them all!

This is the only thing that the cruel reality teaches the Brahman.

Perhaps the only ray of light that appeared during Fan's brutal childhood was Art, a somewhat stupid guy at the time.

With just a piece of other children's thigh meat, Van completely made this stupid teenager at that time follow him with all his heart.

Until the last cruel and difficult battle, Art never betrayed him, and it was Art's silent support along the way that allowed Fan to overcome the killing that he was tired of in his heart again and again, and finally survived this 5-year survival game.

Van couldn't figure out why there was such a simple and almost stupid person as Art, and what made him even more puzzled was that Art actually survived the cruel survival trial in the end.

At the thought of Artfan's cold expression, he finally relaxed.

"Boss!" The sudden sound made Fan instinctively stand up.

Art, who had galloped all the way, looked at Fan excitedly, "Boss! Are you okay! Finally found you. ā€

Van shook his head, his eyes a little tired.

"I knew you'd be fine!" Art smiled brightly.

"Let's go." Van said softly.

Art smiled at Van and turned to the exit of the hive not far away, when a huge gunshot shook the hive again.

Art turned to look at Van in disbelief, the back of his head had been completely blown up by this time, and he pointed at Van tremblingly, as if he had something to say, but then fell heavily to the ground.

There was a rare flash of pain in Fan's eyes, but then he was completely covered by the cold murderous intent, and he lowered his right hand that raised his gun, and then lowered his head.

"I know what you are, and what you're doing means nothing to me." Sanskrit's tone was cold.

In this silent darkness, his words were like a monologue, which made people shudder.

The silence lasted again for a full minute.

"Human, what are you living for? I have witnessed your sins, your hands are full of blood, you have no regard for life, you can even destroy the only ray of light in your heart without any waves, why are you alive! An empty voice appeared in Fan's mind out of thin air.

"To wipe you out completely." Van replied softly.

"Hahahaha! Pathetic creatures, still deceiving themselves until this moment! ā€

"How does it feel to kill your companion with your own hands? Do you really think that's just a fantasy I made you have? O stupid human being, reach out and touch, touch the blood that is rolling out, your sense of touch will not be deprived, so feel your sin! The hollow voice let out an ugly maniacal laugh.

Van slowly crouched down, stretched out his fingers to touch the blood rolling out of Art's corpse, and then he slowly stood up, his slightly trembling fingers revealing his emotions, his eyes empty and terrifying, and a trace of hidden deep fear.

"Human beings are always self-righteous, but they can't afford the consequences. How does it feel to destroy the light with your own hands? You have been repeating this process all the time, no matter how wise you have been. ā€

"Release yourself, why do you have to insist on living in pain, your thinking and mine are now one, what you think is what I think, you can't fool me, and you can't fool yourself."

"Ah DA-EI, you thought of this thing, and you want to use it to solve me? Or is it trying again to continue numbing yourself with it? Numb yourself with growing guilt! ā€

"You coward!" The hollow sound was almost roaring.

"Run, you will only run! You're always running away! You run away from feelings, you think he's bondage, you run away from humanity, you think he's the source of sin, you run away from yourself, because you can never really run away from them! So you are cold, you are insensitive, you are cruel, you are miserable! You confess your sins, you confess the deep pain you feel when you kill other humans with your own hands, you confess the deep fear you feel when you kill innocent refugees. ā€

"So you start camouflaging, disguised with a mask of even more indifference! You vent, to vent with more cruelty and ruthlessness! You are indifferent, and you disregard life with a colder heart! ā€

"You remind yourself that you will always be one of the best of you, that you must do your best in everything and that you cannot be weak in anything."

"Enough!" Van roared, his empty eyes staring at his trembling hands, and there were still traces of blood left on them, which were sins of his own making.

"Enough, yes, enough. What is the point of living in pain and nothingness? Answer me, what do you live for! ā€

Fan's hollow eyes were full of pain, and his hands hung down weakly.

"What do you live for?" He muttered to himself.

"Are you tired? Why do you hold on when you're tired? Why take on responsibilities that don't belong to you! Why run away from your heart forever! ā€

"Come on! Let's raise our weapons and put an end to this never-ending evil! Let the world hear your most primitive cry, and the voice that you will never give into! Pull the trigger! Let's end it all! The hollow voice screamed wildly, and the tone was full of anger and pain, as if at this moment, it was really one with Brahman.

With a trembling voice, Van slowly raised the weapon in his hand, aimed the muzzle of the gun at his head, and pressed the trigger tightly with his index finger.

"Yes, that's it! That's it! Press on! Press on! Life is supposed to be free! The empty voice laughed maniacally, desperately egging on Fan.

Syllable! The roar of the Colt python sounded, and at the same time there was the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground.

Fan's body fell heavily, and a moment later his body was full of liquid.

Heavy gasps were the only sounds in the darkness.

Van closed his eyes tiredly, and at this moment he really longed to sleep here.

A strange Zerg the size of a human head was tightly wrapped around his neck, and the sucker-like mouthparts were firmly attached to the back of Fan's neck, but the Zerg had obviously lost signs of life, and bright green bodily fluids flowed down Fan's neck.

"Target confirmed, Zerg Alienator, Level 5, Target Status, Death, DA-7D-001 gets 500 points."

The huge amount of points didn't arouse Fan's interest in the slightest, and the battle with the alien consumed all his energy, and the ability to transform people's thinking and sharing came from the Zerg alienator, so everything Fan had just experienced was just an illusion in his mind.

But these illusions are clearly indistinguishable from reality, in a sense, they are all what Brahma thinks, and it is through a deep understanding of what Brahma has buried that the alienated person can grasp the loopholes in his heart, so as to destroy Brahma's mind, and at that time it will be easy to transform Brahma into a tool like a walking corpse, or to kill him.

But just when the alien was full of confidence, the muzzle of the gun raised by Van was suddenly pointed at it.

The Alien had been mind-manipulating Van since he killed the previous two Collectors, but it had just woken up from its dormant eggs, and the air flow that Van felt at the time was its breath, which Van had once regarded as a sign of exit.

And this alien took advantage of this to continue to paralyze Fan, but the alert Fanmi was still aware of the anomaly, and the illusions generated by mind manipulation could deceive the eyes and brain, but not the sense of touch, and there was no trace of air flow at the exit that made Fanmi begin to be alert.

So he cautiously retreated to where he had started, where he felt the presence of the air currents again, and this time he did accept the presence of the alien.

So he tried to force the alien to reveal himself with a weapon, but the fifth-level alien seized the opportunity and jumped to the back of Fan's head.

And so its spiritual influence on Van began, but the alien could not have imagined until his death that Van would suddenly break free from its control.

What kind of power does anger produce? Is it the madness of exhaustion or the coldness of coldness?

No one can tell.

Humans can't, and neither can the zerg, this is the contradiction and complexity of human emotions.

The Alien uses Alter to send Van into a frenzy, but it is also because of Alter that Van gains a brief lucid at the last moment.

How did Art's death make Van feel, even if he couldn't tell himself, how could he be easily understood by a zerg?

At the last moment when Van pulled the trigger, he couldn't tell what he was thinking, relief? Evade?

Neither.

When all the emotions that had been suppressed by him in the past were completely entangled in a short period of time, he suddenly woke up.

What's wrong with survival?

Isn't it necessary for a person to exist in this world to survive?

If the premise of everyone's survival is that they must kill everyone else, then how can they be defined by narrow evils?

And is it really all his fault for all this? All these sins must be borne by him?

No! What is wrong is this world, and what is wrong is the narrow world view after the destruction of human civilization!

It's the whole Angel of Death that's wrong!

He's not wrong, he's just trying to live, and no one can live with peace of mind, no matter who it is.

At this moment, his heart was as hard as ice, and his heart ached to the bone.

He discovered the location of the alien.

Then he pulled the trigger, but before pulling the trigger, he turned the muzzle of the gun slightly.

The extreme exhaustion of his mind almost overdrew all of Fan's physical strength, and he finally passed out.

After he fell into a coma, a huge Zerg emerged from the darkness, quietly walked to his side, and then used his eagle-sharp beak to pick up his body, and then melted into the boundless darkness. (The novel "Doomsday Transformation" will have more fresh content on the official WeChat platform, and there will also be a 100% lottery gift for everyone!) Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign in the upper right corner to "add friends", search for the official account "qdread" and follow, hurry up! )