Chapter 45: Missing
The two-faced monster didn't seem to pay attention to the sapper shovel in my hand, and just crouched there staring at me. I only heard a sound of hitting the ground, and the two-faced monster baby was directly photographed by me on the other side of the stele.
I gasped for breath and walked slowly over with the sapper shovel to make sure the little thing was alive or dead. But when I got behind the stele, I was stunned. There was no shadow of the two-faced monster baby behind the stele, but there was a woman lying in a pool of blood.
My mind froze in that moment, and I couldn't even think. Instinctively, he walked over to the man and turned her over. This woman turned out to be a big white girl! I can't even think about why I was shooting the two-faced monster baby, but at the moment it was the big white girl who fell here. The only thought in my mind right now is that I killed someone.
People who have never killed anyone will never understand the sense of confusion and fear that comes when you end someone's life with your own hands. Don't look at the pangolins, none of them took human life seriously, but I'm sure they were the same when they first killed someone like me now.
Many things are like this, when you experience it, you will instinctively get used to it, this is the most powerful place of human genes, and it should be the most fundamental reason why human beings can rule this earth.
I struggled to control my emotions and calm myself down. I don't know how long it took before I remembered to try the big white girl's breathing and pulse. She was completely dead, not only was she breathless, but her pulse had already stopped.
I was in a deep state of guilt, even though I was angry that the white girl had done me behind my back, and I had thought about taking revenge on her. But I never had the idea of killing, but now that it's a fact, I can only force myself to find a reasonable reason. Only then can I pull myself out of the deep pool of sin, no matter how absurd and implausible it may be. But only by convincing myself that I have a reason to do it can I free myself from this guilt of killing.
Just when I was about to break down, something suddenly occurred to me, but I didn't grasp the flash of inspiration at all. I tried to recall the thought that had just flashed through my mind, but the more I tried, the more vague the thought became, and at last even I wondered if I had really thought of something.
Just as I was about to collapse, I heard footsteps behind me. I jumped in shock and turned my head to look in the direction of the door.
The person who came was Nangong, and Nangong saw me and also saw the big white girl with a bloody face. She walked over with a blank face and began to examine the big white girl's injuries.
Why didn't Nangong ask me what happened? Could it be that she has already determined that I am the one who killed the big white girl? How do I explain it to her to make her believe me? After all, she's the only policeman here, and if she can be sure that I killed the big white girl by accident by accident, then I don't need to be so afraid.
But Nangong didn't ask me a question and directly began to examine the body of the big white girl, which made my heart suddenly desperate when I was originally full of confusion and fear, why didn't even she trust me?
Just as I was standing there thinking nonsense, Nangong had already checked the situation of the big white girl, she stood up and looked at me coldly, and said, "Did you kill her with a sapper shovel?" ”
She even directly affirmed that I killed the big white girl, and she didn't even ask the reason and what happened. My breathing began to grow heavy, and my heart ached inexplicably.
I adjusted my breathing to calm myself down. When a person is faced with a worse situation, he will feel that all the pain that has been inflicted on him before has become much lighter. This is where human nature is most complex and terrifying, and the human mind will always have to endure only one of the most painful points. When something more painful is inflicted on him, the sudden stimulus will cause him to become numb to the original pain, so that he feels that all the previous pain is bearable, so that all the will and tenacity can be used to deal with the most painful point.
I said to Nangong with an expressionless face: "I don't know why the current situation is happening, I obviously hit the dead child, but I don't know why Li Sha is lying here." ”
When I say this, my heart calmly terrifies myself, and it is an attitude and tone that is completely out of the way. I don't understand why I'm doing this, but I feel like I'm becoming a stranger to myself at that moment.
Nangong didn't say anything to me, she looked at the sapper shovel in my hand and motioned for me to put it down first. I glanced at her and slowly lowered the sapper shovel to the ground.
Nangong looked at the blood stains on my sapper shovel while comparing the scars on the head of the big white girl. Her behavior at this time reminded me that she had always been the cold and capable policewoman, and it also shattered all my illusions along the way.
Nangong put the sapper shovel behind her, looked at me coldly and said, "Hou Yaohua, tell me about your murder." ”
This was the first time she had called my name in the tomb, and she was used to calling me Monkey Six. I pursed my lips and said, "I don't know why the two of us were brought here by that dead kid. When we woke up, the dead kid unleashed a large white snake from another stone room, and the two of us designed to kill it. ”
Just when I was about to say something, Nangong seemed to be very angry and shouted to stop me. Then he frowned and said to me, "Don't talk about things that are irrelevant to the case, first talk about how you killed Li Sha." ”
I sighed and said, "When we were looking for the dead child, we chased it here again. I saw the dead child hiding in the shadows, but I don't know why I became Lisa after I knocked her down. ”
Nangong frowned and said, "Are you saying that you killed her by mistake when you recognized the wrong person?" ”
I shook my head and said, "I can't be mistaken, the two of them are very different in size, I can't be mistaken, but I don't know why it's Lisa who is dying now." ”
Nangong glanced at me with some suspicion and said, "People will hallucinate under very great mental pressure, and although killing people in this situation constitutes a crime, they will not be sentenced but will be forced to undergo psychiatric treatment. ”
Looking at her indifferent eyes, my heart was filled with anger. I'm sure I'm not hallucinating, why did she judge my situation and thoughts directly? The saddest thing about human beings is that they either blindly follow the judgment of others or blindly trust their own judgment.
I began to walk back and forth with some irritation, and as my eyes wandered back and forth in the stone chamber, I finally found the point that struck my mind. However, when I finally discovered this loophole, my heart gradually sank, and a chill came from the deepest part of my heart.