My name is Lin Xuan, I am 22 years old, I lived with my grandmother (grandmother, local dialect) in the countryside until I was 18 years old, and I was only allowed to go home to live with my parents after I was 18 years old. It's not that my parents can't take care of me when they go to work, and it's not that they want to send me to the countryside to live and cultivate their sentiments, my grandmother told me, this qiē is because my parents beat me and hope that I will grow up safely so I have to do this, but since I became sensible, I slowly found out that there is another reason for this, and this reason still makes me creepy.

When I was a child, my grandmother always took me with me, and we lived in a small town called Longyan Town, which is not big, but the population is quite large and prosperous. We lived in a brick house next to the town, with dirt and rat holes. But the strange thing is that since I can remember, I have the impression that there has been no activity of rats, and it stands to reason that my house is a brick house, and there are rat holes in the house, but I have never heard of rats, not once, but I have seen snakes many times.

One summer day, the weather is hot and can scorch people, the bed is hot and can't sleep, the family milk on the ground to set up a floor, the home of the ground is soil, spread on the mat, it is very cool, through the mat I can feel the slightly cool land, the cool air penetrates into the skin is very comfortable.

In the haze, I suddenly heard a rustling sound, rubbed my eyes but saw that the grandmother had already woken up, so I wanted to sit up to take a look, but the grandmother's eyes quickly pressed me, signaling me not to move. I lay down with my head tilted slightly, and the rustling sound moved in my ears, twisting the tip of my heart,

I often listen to the old people at the door tell stories, cow gods and ghosts or something, I love to listen to these, but I am also afraid, in the evening, I will always sit on a small stool, listen to the old people say some mysterious things, head resting on knees, every time I hear something scary, I reach out to cover my ears, but there will be some terrible words into a fish that slips through the net and floats into my ears, that feeling, very exciting and terrifying, just like now, I want to cover my ears and pretend not to hear, but I dare not move, my grandmother has a high authority in my eyes, she does not move, I didn't dare to move. The rustling sound was getting closer and closer to my ears, I closed my eyes in fear, and after a while the rustle was far away, and I sat up with a flick of it, and saw a thin tail at the door, it was a snake!

The grandmother patted my back gently and comforted me carefully: "Xuanzi, it's okay, it's a house snake, it's not harmful." ”

I took my grandmother's arm and hugged her, raised my head and asked, "Grandma, is it because we don't have rats in our house because of snakes?" Is there a Xiao Ming family? I don't think there are any rats in his house, and the holes in the house are all snake holes instead of rat holes? ”

The house milk pursed her lips, and then said with a smile: "Xuanzi is so smart, if you don't hurt it, it won't hurt you, see you later, don't move, just wait for it to swim away, you know?" ”

I nodded my head in understanding, and I didn't know what "later" was at the time...... At that time, I was just a very ordinary little girl, with snot, pigtails, two front teeth leaking when I laughed, fishing for lobsters, cicadas, and dragonflies with my friends in summer, and building snowmen and snowflies with my friends in winter, the only difference from other children is that I have slender bones, standing among my peers, the tallest and most slender one must be me, my hair and nails grow very fast, and all year round are cold, white and tender, not only do not tan, but the sun shines, and the skin becomes whiter and brighter, There is another obvious feature that makes me the king of children, that is, I am very tall, soft, and very powerful, and the world of children is very wonderful, and I can be worshiped for all kinds of reasons. For hair and nail problems, my grandmother has always emphasized that my protein absorption is good, and my thinness is due to the fact that the nutrients have grown into my nails and hair.

I was born on Chinese New Year's Eve. The mother is waiting for birth at the grandmother's house, the customs of the town are very interesting, that is, several families take turns to eat Chinese New Year's Eve dinner together, from this house to that family, so lively, just when eating at the grandmother's house, the dishes are on the table, the mother is about to give birth, ten days earlier than the due date. So my birthday was the youngest among my peers, two hours old. After giving birth to me, the evil fortune teller told me my fortune, and the guide zhì mother packed up and returned to the city with my father before the confinement was finished. Since I was weaned three days after I was born, I was fed a spoonful of rice soup from my family since I was a child, and I never ate milk powder at that time, just rice soup. When I grow so big, my most envious thing is that people celebrate their birthdays, not only am I not birthdays, but my grandmother is not even allowed to mention me in front of outsiders, and boiling more eggs on Chinese New Year's Eve is to celebrate my birthday. Especially after school, many classmates have birthdays, and I only have a share of gifts, in fact, I just want to receive a few more happy birthdays on my birthday, I just want to tell myself that I am not a sin in this world.

After seeing the snake that time, I haven't seen the snake with my own eyes for a long time, and I occasionally heard that someone nearby, as soon as he lifted the quilt, a large group of snakes was there, and he fainted in fright. What I saw more was the snakeskins on the backyard wall, the grandmother planted some lentils at the foot of the courtyard wall, and the vines of the lentils climbed up the courtyard wall, and the full side was very beautiful when it bloomed, and it was very cute when many lentils were hung, which made people sigh at the miracle of life. Just under the thick layer of leaves, when I picked the lentils, I saw many snakeskins, wrinkled and shriveled, with clear lines on them, and my grandmother would quietly take them to my uncle to make medicine every time, so that I would not make a noise.

My uncle's name is Xiao Yin, graduated from a medical university in Beijing, majoring in traditional Chinese medicine, and after graduation, he went to see an outpatient clinic in a local traditional Chinese medicine hospital. My uncle didn't leave when he came back later, and opened a small hospital in the town, which caused a sensation in the town, and there was a reason why he gave up his bright future and returned to the village. As for the reason, this is exactly what I want to know, but every time I ask the reason, my grandmother looks sorry, as if there is something unspeakable, and I can't bear to ask any more.

If you want to ask me who I like the most, there is no doubt that it must be the family mother, then who is the second place, that is, the uncle, if the parents know their ranking in their daughter's heart, they must be very understanding in addition to jealousy, no way, the child's heart is very big, but the world is very small, and when he grows up, the world becomes bigger, but the heart becomes smaller. My heart can fit a lot of people, such as the grandfather who sells sugar gourds at the entrance of the kindergarten, the little friends who play with me, the grandmother who picked peaches for me, and even the beggars who beat the gong and sing at the door of my house during the New Year's holidays and ask for money, I remember them, but the world I really live in is only my family, and the only people who can really care about it are those who wander around in my world all day long, set up values for me, accompany me to see that this is the cold and warm of the world, and tell me interesting life stories.

In my opinion, the only regret in my uncle's life is that he has no children, and his aunt has never heard of a baby after many years of marriage. My uncle had no children, so he naturally loved me in every way, and poured all his love for his niece and his love for the children he couldn't give into me, and he liked to hunch me on his shoulders, take me to pick mulberry fruits, plums, apricots, and take me across the vast sea of people to see the dragon lantern. On summer mornings, he went to the fields for a turn, and when he came back, there were a lot of raspberries on the bedside table where I was lying, and outside in winter, it was snowy, and he walked more than ten miles, picking up the thick layer of snow, digging up the herbs that were buried deep in the ground, and when he passed by the pancake stall, he always had to buy one or two, and when he came back, he knocked on the door of his grandmother's house, and took out the pancakes that were still hot from his arms.

I didn't know about my uncle who was hiding from my family, I only knew that my uncle and aunt had not come out for many years, until that time, when I saw it with my own eyes, I didn't know what kind of inhuman torture my uncle had been suffering for so many years.

When I came home from school that day, I didn't see my grandmother, so I went to my uncle's hospital, which was only 100 meters away from my grandmother's house, and the clinic was on the side of the dirt road leading to the village, not far from my grandmother's house. That day, the sun was still in the sky, and the hospital was closed, this situation, I know, there are always one or two days a week when my uncle's hospital is suddenly closed, my grandmother told me, my uncle is going to go outside to collect medicine, the hospital only has one doctor, I can't open the door, I don't think much about it, this time it seems that my uncle went to collect medicine again. So I turned around and went to my uncle's house. The front yard was quiet, the gate was hidden, I suspected that no one was at home, where would the milk be, could it be in the vegetable garden on the other side of the river, I pouted, and ran in vain. But just as he was about to leave, there was a slight moaning sound from inside, and a faint call from Xiao Hei.

She pushed open the door and saw the first thing in my life that hurt my heart. My uncle, the uncle who took care of me in every way, the uncle who gossiped before and after, the revered uncle who was high up and respected was lying helplessly on the ground, full of convulsions, and still chanting words in his mouth, my aunt and my grandmother were holding his head alone, holding his feet alone, and I was at a loss when I suddenly came in. At this time, my uncle in convulsions seemed to sense that someone had come in, and when he looked at me, I was so frightened that I couldn't move, and that look was like a sharp sword in the darkness stabbing straight at me, and I suddenly felt cold, and I didn't know where to put my hands and feet, and that feeling was engraved in my mind for a long time, and it was chilling to think about.

The grandmother shouted: "Xuanzi, you go out!" ”

I originally felt that the whole world had been turned upside down, a shining star had fallen, and then I was scolded by the usually gentle grandmother like this, and I immediately cried, "What's wrong with my uncle, my grandmother, is my uncle sick?" ”

The grandmother gave my aunt a look, let go of my uncle's foot, stood up and dragged me out, the more I thought my uncle was dying, and the louder I cried, "Uncle, uncle! Woo~"

"Mom, don't scare the child!" My aunt also rushed over to persuade her.

The grandmother still dragged me, "No, I can't let Xuanzi have a little contact with this world!" ”

"Uh...... Forehead......" Uncle's moans came again, and he began to sing one after another.

"Mom! He can't take it anymore! You don't care about anything else! My aunt ran back and pressed my uncle.

The grandmother had no choice but to let go of me and enter the back room, "Meow~" When she came out, she was holding a black ball in her arms, I wiped my tearful blurred eyes and recognized the black, little black, the cat!

I saw my aunt pick up a shiny knife from the table and rush over, as if it had been prepared for a long time, Xiao Hei lay meekly in the arms of the grandmother, the aunt picked up its tail and cut it down with a knife, "Meow~~Woo~~" The long roar suddenly sounded, Xiao Hei kicked on all fours in the arms of the family milk, struggling desperately, the foreign milk imprisoned it, the aunt held the bowl, pinched the tail of the little black and began to squeeze the blood, the blood dripped into the pure white bowl, mixed with the water and scattered, there was a cruel beauty, the blood dropped five or six drops, the milk finally put down the little black, it swayed, Ran.

They sat on the ground with their uncle, the amplitude and frequency of their uncle's convulsions had gradually decreased, but they kept rubbing their hands, the aunt patted the uncle's clothes, the grandmother poured a little boiling water into the bowl, shook it, and brought it to the uncle, the uncle was vaguely aware that he was going to open his mouth, and then tilted his head and drank it all......