317 He is a part of me
Niannian hugged the phone and chatted for a while, giggling and laughing during the process, which made me a little jealous. When she finally hung up, she asked me, "Have I seen this grandpa?" ”
"No, he's a grandfather." I said, "It's not the same as grandpa." ”
"Oh." She laughed: "Grandpa is good, he said that his house is beautiful, and there are sika deer, and he wants me to play." ”
Sika deer?
I lived where I was a child, and it was free-range, very beautiful, and my eyes looked pitiful.
Of course, my adoptive father said that his house could not be where I lived, and it seems that he really likes deer?
I asked, "What else did Grandpa say to you?" ”
"Say let me take care of my mother." She said, "Listen to your father." ”
There is nothing wrong with this, because until now, Nian Nian has never met Britney head-on. Of course, this can't be luck, but the result of Fanyin's efforts or Britney's avoidance. So what Nian Nian saw was closer to the truth than I was.
So this matter was given up like this, and when Nian Nian and I came out, the family reported that Lin Zhunyi was here. So I received him and chatted with him for a few words, and I felt that he couldn't sit still, so I let him go upstairs.
I was about to lead Nian Nian to the backyard to play, when she suddenly grabbed me, told me to bend over, and whispered, "Mom, I think Brother Zhun Yi is a bad person." ”
"Bad guys?"
"yes, he bullied my sister." She said: "But my sister said that there was no bullying, so I was entangled." ”
"Tell your mom." I hurriedly found a nearby room and pulled Niannian in, asked her to sit down and said to me, "When is it?" ”
"It was that night." She said, "You sneaked away to see your father, I was sleeping when I suddenly heard someone arguing. I thought there was something going on at home, and I was scared and didn't wake up. ”
She was saying she hadn't opened her eyes.
I asked, "So what did you hear?" ”
"It's just a boy...... It should be Brother Zhun Yi. Her memory is as good as her pronunciation, and she always knows how to speak: "What are you pretending to be?" You can follow that kind of scum, why can't you follow me? What does this mean, Mom? ”
I asked, "What else did you say?" ”
"And then it wasn't, because I thought he was speaking in a horrible tone, and when I opened my eyes, I saw that he was kissing my sister. But my sister was crying, so I sat up, and he didn't kiss anymore and smiled at me. She said, "My sister said they were in a relationship, just like Mom and Dad want to kiss." But my father said that if a boy kissed me and touched the inside of my clothes, I had to tell him and let him beat him to death, because only bad people do that. But Brother Zhun Yi still touched my sister, and she cried sadly, is he a bad person? ”
I said, "He's in a relationship with Sister Xingxing." ”
"Can you kiss if you fall in love?"
"That's right." I'll have to ask the stars.
"Then why is she crying?"
"I don't know." I said, "I'll go ask her." ”
"Oh."
Her confused look was cute and pitiful, and I couldn't help but hug her. This little guy really has a heart, and others are right, she is much smarter than me.
Now Lin Zhunyi is upstairs, and the sentence that Nian Nian learned can't make me think in a good direction, no matter how I listen to it, it is insulting. The case is not yet clear, if they are separated now, then I will lose Ah Chang's helper on my side.
But if the stars were really forced by him, it would be too painful.
At this moment, I really regret letting Ah Chang keep Mi Xue in such a tight place, so I really want to change her to evidence and let Xingxing get rid of Lin Zhunyi.
I was absent-minded all afternoon, trying my best to press myself and rush up to question Lin Zhunyi's emotions. During this period, Fanyin called once and asked, "Why didn't you come?" His tone was indeed a bigwig version, but probably because I began to doubt him, so it sounded a little different to me.
Because Fanyin has been talking to us more gently and cheaply recently, and his tone is not very serious, even if he was angry that day, he was not too fierce.
I was disappointed in my heart, but I didn't want to debunk it, so I just said: "Because something suddenly happened at home, Xingxing's boyfriend came, and I didn't want them to be home alone." ”
"Oh." He replied lukewarmly, asking, "What are you looking for me?" ”
"Nothing." I didn't go just to avoid mentioning it, of course, I couldn't mention it on the phone, and I was a little vindictive: "I just miss you, husband, I haven't kissed you for a long time." ”
He didn't speak.
Heh, angry, right? I'm angry when I play like this. He was the one who said he loved me and hid his gangster identity from me, as well as the mentally ill person. He made me suffer so much because of him, but he did nothing for me, and he was the one who still hated me in the end. Now that he is doing this kind of thing, has he ever thought that I have staked my life again and again to make that big gamble, just that I love him?
"Husband?" I continued to ask, "What's wrong with you?" ”
"It's fine." He said in a trembling voice, "My dad talked to me, and I hope to save the stars." ”
"I don't know what you're talking about?"
"My dad said he looked for you." He said: "Things are real, and I want you to think seriously about it and not kill the stars." ”
I didn't speak.
"Spiritual Rain." He said, "Although the stars are not your child, I hope you will be generous this time." After all, she is different from my son, she is before you......"
"What do you call me?"
He didn't speak.
"Did you know?" It is true that I did not hold back, and I should be silent, because after so many years, he has never found this flaw, and I can use it to distinguish it in the future. But I couldn't help it, probably because I suddenly understood that the rice grain was ...... It's really him. I said, "Do you remember why I asked you to call me Lingyu in the first place?" ”
He didn't speak.
I could even feel the awkwardness of that part of the call.
At the beginning, he also called me Lingling because he said he thought the overlapping words were cute. Instead, I prefer him to call me Lingyu, because that's what my adoptive father called me, and in my heart, Lingyu is still a little closer.
I simply continued: "Is it because you hate me that you are like this?" ”
He didn't speak.
"Did you sleep with her?" I asked, "How does it feel?" Was that the first time he betrayed me, or had it been many times, huh? ”
"For the first time." He finally spoke.
It's hard for me to describe how I feel right now.
Before he said these three words, I actually had a glimmer of hope in my heart. I still hope in my heart that he's still that cute and good baby, or that poor kid who is a little selfish but not out of line. I always felt a little sorry for him in my heart, because I really couldn't and couldn't go to the end with him, and I have been planning to integrate him into the first personality for the past few years, and we both deliberately didn't think that he was the original owner of this body.
But......
I never thought he would ...... In my heart, he is the last "pure land" of Fanyin. To me, it's like a piece of jade that suddenly shatters its powder, and all of a sudden, it's all empty.
I said, "Aren't you afraid of women?" How to overcome it? ”
He stopped talking.
"Do you just want me to break up with him, or is someone instructing you?" I said, "Can you tell me?" ”
"Spiritual Rain." He finally spoke. But his tone was still mature and calm, and there was no longer the cute tone of Britney, he said, "You know what? He was created by me. ”
I held my breath and could only be silent.
"He's a part of me." He said slowly, "When you are happy because he is becoming more and more like me, you should understand that I ...... He will become more and more like 'him'. ”
I didn't understand it at all.
He paused and added, "All the energy flows and is fair. The more human he is, the less human I am. The more he loves you, the more I hate you. Now I can tell you these words soberly, but if I continue like this, it won't be long before he and I will completely become the same as each other, because ...... He was created by me. ”
I couldn't listen, I just said, "Did someone instruct you, or did you do it spontaneously?" ”
He didn't speak.
"If someone instructs you, then you have to understand that the other person's purpose is to kill you! I'm going to ruin your family! I said, "Don't get together with them." ”
"That's what he told you?" He let out an unusually harsh, mocking laugh like the original Gangster version: "He's getting stupider and stupider." ”
"It's not." I said, "Britney, I want you to ......"
"I'll ask my dad to talk to you again, and he will tell you about Xingxing's background, hoping you can be more sensible." He said, "Lingyu, I know that you don't love me for a long time, and now I don't love you anymore. I don't want you dead yet. ”
This is the first time Britney has spoken to me like this.
It hit me as hard as it did when I first met my personality.
I even wonder if this is a third personality? How could that cute, crying, honest Britney suddenly become like this?
I didn't even understand his theory.
No one contacted me, and my heart was in a mess, and I didn't want to call the old man.
I still wanted to find the stars, but Lin Zhunyi still didn't leave.
Nian Nian came back from going out to play, and ran to say, "Mom, Mom, my little sister is going to drink milk." ”
I just came back to my senses and looked at my watch, it was indeed time to breastfeed, I hurriedly went upstairs, Lian Yin woke up, she didn't cry, the maid was teasing her.
I picked her up and fed her, and she immediately happily latched on to the pacifier. Nian Nian has no interest in milk since she tasted milk, and at this time she sat on the bed, put her fingers on her feet, and asked, "Mom, are you not happy?" ”
"What's wrong?"
She said, "You look so sad. ”
"I ......," I said, "Niannian, mom asks you a question." ”
"Okay."