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The day she gave birth.

She didn't bring anything she liked and didn't buy anything.

So, I decided to bring some friends for her.

Even if it's just me, she'll be happy.

Even if it's just me and I don't have a present, I can celebrate.

But...... I still want to do something for her.

Talk to the girls in the neighborhood.

Said there was a nice garden, delicious snacks, and a little weird girl.

Invite them to the upcoming birthday banquet.

The girls, all of them just smiled in embarrassment, and no one said they wanted to go with me.

Let's talk about it with my usual playmates.

They all teased me and said that this guy actually has such a good relationship with girls.

I tried all the people I could think of, but all of them were rejected without exception.

When I was rejected by my last friend and was ready to find another way, it was already twilight.

Her birthday party should have ended a long time ago.

There was no face to see her.

Dragged heavy steps on the way home.

In the footsteps of one person, tears couldn't help but welled up.

Because, I like her very much.

I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night.

After my father fell asleep, I ran out of the house alone.

I felt that I didn't attend her birthday banquet and had to apologize.

I feel that I didn't give a raw gift, and I have to apologize.

But really, none of that matters.

I just wanted to meet her.

When I go to meet her, she always smiles at me and says I'll see you tomorrow.

Her home was shrouded in darkness, with no light, like an ancient castle occupied by ghosts.

From the usual gap in the hedge, I mustered up the courage to get in.

Because it was already the middle of the night, I couldn't see my fingers in the courtyard.

It's as if everything has fallen silent.

Tables, chairs, and flower beds seemed to have been replaced with something else.

The chirping of insects gradually grew louder and louder like the noise of a machine.

"Kotomi."

He shouted softly into the darkness.

"Little Qinmei, Little Qinmei...... Kotomi Kotomi. ”

There was silence, and it felt like even if I waited any longer, she wouldn't show up.

I noticed that there was a slight gap on one side of the glass sliding door.

I opened the door. Walked into the room gently.

It's darker than the courtyard.

It was as if it was a house that had been vacant for a long time, and the air was cold and dreary.

Walked softly into the depths of the room.

The guilt of doing something wrong is mixed with the indescribable uneasiness.

In the few short days since I came, why does it seem like decades have passed here?

Is it all a dream?

Will you never see her again?

Smell of something burning.

I heard a small sobbing sound again.

…… It's her crying!

I hurriedly followed the sound and ran over.

The steep staircase stretched endlessly as if it were deliberately embarrassing me.

I pushed open the door that came to the end.

She's inside.

Slumped on the floor, just sobbing vigorously.

In front of her. A lot of things that looked like books were burning.

Orange sè flames. It dances like a ghost.

The fire must be extinguished!

I ran to the kitchen, filled a glass of water and poured water on the fire, running up and down the stairs over and over again.

But not only did they not extinguish the fire, but even the carpet was burned.

I gritted my teeth. Repeatedly fetch water to extinguish the fire.

Just when I almost thought it was no longer possible, the adults I didn't know rushed into the room.

They took off their clothes and slapped vigorously before they finally put out the fire.

And she was crying all the time.

Covering his face with his little hands, he cried vigorously.

As if in addition to crying. Everything else has been forgotten.

I kept her in the way.

Because I think playing with fire is going to make adults angry.

Adults pick up charcoal-blackened confetti.

Then he bent down and said to her gently.

"This one isn't, so don't cry anymore because it's all for you......"

But she didn't stop crying.

Everyone showed a very regretful expression.

What happened, I can't possibly know.

But...... It's just that there is such a feeling:

The smell of tobacco, the white apron.

Nice patio and that incredible girl......

All of them are gone.

I haven't been to that house since.

Playing with the boys in the neighborhood again.

The matter of the courtyard and the girl, never remembered again.

Before you know it, you forget it.

Why forget?

Why......

……

Dream?

This is. Dream?

Over here...... What is it?

A voice came from nowhere.

Sounds never heard before.

However, it is so nostalgic.

Slowly, slowly open your eyes.

…… Ah, right.

I see.

It's a dream.

It was when both of them were children.

It's a time when the whole world is just a small piece of happiness.

It is a time when we do not yet know what grief is.

I knew I was going to wake up.

Because there are still things that must be done waiting for me.

I'm going to meet her.

The girl who is still crying alone in the room.

So......

I slowly opened my eyes......

"Awake?"

Familiar Girl ......

"Perhaps...... Maybe it's still in a dream. ”

Kotomi was standing in front of me, smiling at me.

Facing the same courtyard as it was then. Stand there smiling.

Dreams seem to extend into reality.

The difference is that in reality, she is now smiling happily.

"I always remember it...... The boy who got lost and walked into the courtyard. Play together, read books together. Hide and seek together, chase and play together, one and a half, eating the snacks made by my mother......"

"I like that boy very much...... So...... I've been waiting. ”

After Kotomi finished speaking, she looked at me quietly.

Waiting for my answer.

So...... It's my turn this time.

Now I remember it all.

At that time, Kotomi's favorite text.

A conversation that the two of them have read over and over again, and they will remember even if they don't read a book......

It always started like this then:

"You got here on a time machine, right?"

"Ah......h

Kotomi's eyes widened.

She looked at me in disbelief.

And I, just silently waiting for her next words.

Then, Kotomi followed.

"Well, my dad invented it."

"So, you're here a lot?"

I asked.

"It's been many times, because this is my favorite space-time coordinate, and I don't get bored of staying here for a long time, and everything I see here is so beautiful."

Like when I was a kid.

"What I saw the day before yesterday was a rabbit ......"

"Yesterday's was the fawn......"

"It's you today."

As he spoke, he smiled very happily.

I know that she has never changed, but she has traveled a long time to come to me.

"I'm coming to pick you up."

I held out my hand.

I held out my hand to the little girl who had been waiting for me in this room.

"Come on......"

Go out into the outside world.

Go where everyone is waiting for you.

However......

Kotomi covered her face with her hands.

"I know, I know...... Even if we do this, nothing can be recovered, the clothes are different, the violin is gone, the hair accessories are not like this, Peng Yejun and I are no longer children, and my father and mother will never come back. No matter how many books I read, I can't be a person who makes a sè, no matter how many pages I cut off, what I have done cannot be undone......"

"I don't want to be in a world like this, I don't want to be in a world without my dad and mom. Why am I here? I'm the only one who stays? I'm going with you...... With Mom and Dad, get on a plane...... Sink to the bottom of the sea together......"

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