We stayed in the Heavenly Master's Mansion in Longhu Mountain for a few days, because everyone was thinking about a lot of things, this Taoist blessed land, known as the first fairyland in the world, also had no intention of playing, and now there is nothing to do, Ye Qingyu and Lu Qingmei took us to enjoy the beautiful scenery of Longhu Mountain.

When parting, Han Yu and Fang wanted to continue to stay in Longhu Mountain to talk about the Tao, and after saying goodbye to us, they went back to the temple to worship the Buddha directly.

"The green mountains do not change the green water for a long time, and there will be a period after everyone takes care of themselves today." Han Yu stood at the mountain gate and said with a smile to us.

I thought that people like me who are used to seeing life and death should be able to be able to separate, but when I really want to separate, I suddenly feel a little at a loss, and everyone has never thought that one day they will go their separate ways, and I feel a little melancholy and loneliness, and I want to say something in the end but I still don't say it.

I went back with Gu Xiaoxiao and Yun Duruo, and told Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi all the causes and consequences of the matter, I think I should really let go, and there was no more stubbornness and persistence, when I told Xiao Lianshan that I planned to go back with them, I finally saw a relieved smile on his wrinkled and old face again.

Gu Xiaoxiao follows Gu Anqi, has no desires and no desires, she explained to Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi that she wants to study Buddhism and Taoism, Xiao Lianshan did not stop the happy agreement, Gu Xiaoxiao has always been obsessed with the teachings of Gu Liancheng and Gu Anqi, Gu Anqi should also know that Xiaoxiao is extraordinary in this regard, and does not interfere with her decision to let her choose.

Yun Duruo and I both know that Gu Xiaoxiao is going to find it, Yun Duruo said that he is dedicated to the Buddha and now there are more Gu Xiaoxiao around him, I don't know if he can still be pure and have few desires, I smiled and said to Yun Duruo, Xiao Xiaoxuan can do his grandfather Gu Liancheng's true biography, especially physiognomy, since she sees that he is difficult to break the dust, I am afraid that this Buddha is really not easy to cultivate, but these things all depend on fate, Taoism pays attention to the destiny of heaven, Xiaoxiao can be so sure that she and where to go do not need us to worry.

Time passed day by day, and slowly I found that the original ordinary life was not as difficult to accept as I imagined, Yun Duruo almost never mentioned the past in front of me, and gradually I almost forgot the things that had happened, and occasionally remembered some bits and pieces, after a few years, Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi's bodies did not deteriorate, but got better and better, Yun Duruo and I lived a very comfortable life every day, at least all the things I longed for would be realized.

Before that, I always thought that these four words were perhaps the biggest and most unrealistic fantasy, but I don't know why after I came back, I slowly found that everything around me seemed to be unusually smooth, and it was just right to describe it with my heart thinking that everything came true, and it was not one thing, it was everything, but everything I expected would be realized naturally and easily.

I never thought I was a lucky person, but now even I am sometimes surprised that I have no regrets in my life when this day is like this.

The only thing that makes me unhappy is that I don't know when my memory started, and it slowly became a little worse, and I easily forget some things, such as the past events when I lived and died with Han Yu and them, I always have to think about it quietly alone to remember some bits and pieces.

Those memories should have been unforgettable, I remember Xiao Lianshan once told me that I must have my own memories to wait for my old age to live in vain, I once had memories worthy of my pride, but now I am a little panicked to find that I am slowly forgetting all this.

It may be that the comfortable days have passed for a long time, and I have somewhat longed for the unbelievable past, but everything around me can make my wishes come true, but this one is something I can't control, I tried to chat with Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi, and they always seemed to be deliberately avoiding the past, even if Yun Duruo seemed to forget more than me, I even found that when I talked about it together, her expression was very hesitant.

It seems that everyone is out of place with me, only I can still remember the past, at first I was a little nostalgic, but after a long time, I can only keep these words in my heart, I think they don't want me to remember what happened.

Gradually, I didn't mention it in front of them, the days were still very comfortable and beautiful, all the people really wanted things to be like that, I could hardly find a thing that made me regret, but the longer it passed, the worse my memory became, at first I just couldn't remember the past, and gradually I found that I couldn't even remember a lot of things that happened yesterday.

I woke up from the night, covered in cold sweat and unsettled, looking back at Yun Duruo who was sleeping next to me, she was sleeping like a sweet and pitiful person, I gently covered her and was walked outside alone, I didn't smoke again for a long time, took a deep breath and choked into my lungs, covering my mouth and not daring to cough out.

I can't remember when it started, I always woke up in the middle of the night like this, I rubbed my forehead and couldn't let the piercing pain subside a little, the cold sweat on my body was even more cold and biting in the night wind, I looked back at Yun Duruo who turned over on the bed, there was one thing I pressed in my heart for a long time, I didn't dare to say it, in fact, I couldn't tell whether it was my own problem or something wrong.

I don't know when it began, every time I woke up in the middle of the night, I suddenly couldn't remember who she was when I looked at the sleeping woman next to me, that face was clearly very familiar, but I had to stare for a long time before I remembered her name, I don't know if it was the same yesterday, because I don't remember yesterday's events, maybe the memory faded seriously, the more I looked at everything around me, the stranger it became.

And I always heard a faint sound in my ears, which was faint and intermittent at first, but as time went on, the lingering sound became more and more complex and clear, disturbing my mind and making it difficult for me to calm down, until today I finally heard what it was.

Sutra!

The voice that has been lingering in my mind is to praise the Buddhist scriptures in the dark, I don't know why I hear these voices, I asked the people around me, no one can hear them, I even suspect that I have auditory hallucinations, but the sound is real and clear, the original Buddhist scriptures will make people peaceful and quiet, but the Buddhist scriptures I hear are like a mantra constantly filling my mind, lingering and making me feel painful.

This reminds me of it, I suddenly found that I haven't seen anyone else for a long time, I just remember when I was separated, Han Yu said that there would be a period later, I had promised to visit other people, at the beginning I was looking forward to the scene of everyone meeting again, more than once I mentioned to Yun Duruo about going back to see them, she and Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi will always have many reasons to delay, and gradually the original expectation is slowly wiped out in such delays.

"Go see Han Yu and them." Early the next morning I didn't use a negotiating tone, I tried not to forget my original intention, in fact the sutra that gave me a headache made me a little sober, but I didn't tell anyone.

Yun Duruo, Xiao Lianshan and Gu Anqi should not have planned to let me go back, but this time my attitude was resolute, Yun Duruo finally went back with me, the first place to go was Dushan Yin Temple, I hadn't seen Han Yu for many years, and standing at the door of the Yin Temple had a feeling of returning to my heart like an arrow.

Pushing open the door of the Yin Temple, everything I saw in front of me changed a lot more than I imagined, I came here once, giving people a feeling of loneliness, loneliness and gloom, but now the Yin Temple is full of spring, those flowers that I asked Han Yu and he is not even known to him are blooming one after another, and the bright sunlight shines down from the patio and falls in the courtyard to give people a very pleasant feeling.

I suddenly found that I couldn't remember the last time I saw the sun, as if I had never paid attention to these casual things, and I was wondering if I saw Han Yu walking towards us from the courtyard, I had thought about the scene of reuniting with him, but I never thought it would be such a scene, and it even took me a long time to be sure that the person was Han Yu.

He wore a decent robe, his hair was coiled into a bun, he was a Taoist but he was used to seeing his casual appearance, now he is a little unaccustomed to his dress, he seems to have changed a lot, even the smile I am familiar with has lost its original uninhibited and free, but more calm and ethereal, he is smiling opposite me like an empty teacup, I can no longer see his cynicism, behind me Fang Xiang slowly came to the two of them are unharmed, but I found in my heart that there seems to be something missing.

The joy of reunion after a long absence was reduced a lot on Han Yu and Fang Xiang's faces because of the detachment and indifference, and it could be seen that Han Yu was very content with the status quo, and when they were separated, I was still worried that his sex would not be able to endure the loneliness of this Yin Temple, and now it seems that my worries are completely superfluous, but I have more or less gains and losses in my heart, and I feel as if I have some life with Han Yu before, and this life makes me feel like something between me and him, and I have never been able to treat each other as before.

The four of us chatted for a long time that night, but I don't remember what we talked about, I even forgot when I left, the long-awaited repetition eventually turned into a disappointing party, I pressed the loneliness in my heart, maybe the person who really didn't let go was me, at least Han Yu and Fang Xiang lived a very stable life in this Yin Temple, and even felt that my appearance disturbed their tranquility.