Jiang Xinyu told us the past that she tried her best to avoid, and also clarified the truth about the rumors about the nineteen buildings, but Nie Bingwan's statement in the diary overturned everything we knew before, listening to Nie Bingwan's frightened and frightened voice, we can imagine her panic at that time, what happened may only be clear to Nie Bingwan alone.

Desperate to see what was going on, I pressed the recorder again.

October 3rd, light rain.

He has always been very careful to guard our relationship, and I am like his obedient puppet, always quietly waiting for his next call, but last night I saw ...... in the nineteen buildings

I don't want to think about what I saw last night, I hid under the covers all night shivering, I was awakened in the middle of the night by nightmares and my back was covered in cold sweat, they were also awakened by my screams, and asked me what had happened, but I didn't know how to tell them.

For the first time today, I took the initiative to go to him against his will, and when he saw me standing in front of him, he was very flustered and said nothing, but there was blame in his eyes, and he listened to me absent-mindedly about what happened last night, but he looked around anxiously, like a thief with a weak heart, I hated his expression, he was very worried, but I knew that it was not for me, he was worried that others would see me with him, and that the woman would know about my relationship with him.

He urged me to leave, I was sad no longer because of fear, but because of his indifference to me, and his comfort became perfunctory, and I understood that he didn't really care about my feelings, but was worried that I would attract attention if I cried in front of him.

He promised to accompany me to the nineteen buildings one more time, but during the day he would not go with me, and it was night, and I was tired of the night, and every time I met him, it was always night, and I was like a ghost who would never see the light, and even the explanations given to me were the same.

He still looked like a thief when he came, and he was even more afraid to see the light than me, and I suddenly found that our relationship was ridiculous, and I was disappointed every time I saw him cower.

He took me to the corridor on the second floor, there was nothing, he said I was dazzled, maybe it was because he was by my side, he didn't seem to be scared today, maybe I was wrong, I took him to the place where I saw the person, the window of that place was open, he said maybe I saw my reflection in the light, he explained it like this, I was skeptical, when I walked downstairs, he asked me to go back to the dormitory early, there was no nostalgia in his words, it seemed that he wanted to let me leave in a hurry, to be exact, from his side.

I looked back at the window on the second floor, where I had seen myself last night, and although he kept insisting that I was dazzled, I knew in my heart that it was impossible for the window there to reflect me......

Nie Bingwan's diary is recorded every day, listening to these recordings is like Nie Bingwan's personal memories, no matter what happens every day, she will record it, the time span of the diary is very large, it should be recorded through this pen from the time she was admitted to Hede Medical College, and in the previous diary fragments, we did not find out when this man appeared, it seemed to suddenly appear from Nie Bingwan's side.

And even in the diary, Nie Bingwan was very cautious, after listening to so many of her own accounts, she never saw her mention the slightest thing about this man's identity and background.

October 20, fine.

……

In bed I turned my back to him, he hugged me from behind, it didn't seem to be as warm and throbbing as before, maybe only in bed he would hold me like this, sometimes I can't tell which of his words is the truth, he said he loved me, but now I don't know if he really loves me or loves me in bed.

It's been a long time since the nineteen buildings, and gradually I don't want to think about what happened that night, but I often wake up in the middle of the night from nightmares, and I always remember the events of that night clearly, and the self standing on the second floor and looking at me is so clear, but I didn't tell him, because I believe he wouldn't care, everything in his eyes is my imagination, I guess he thinks that I used this way to get his attention and attention, and I should be ridiculous in his eyes, But he's not in my eyes.

He bit my bare shoulder, but I looked at the contraceptive pill on the bedside, I was very obedient, at least never against his will, he didn't want our relationship to be public, but I was tired of such days, I loved him so I never put any pressure on him, I believed that what he said immediately, immediately or a little longer, and so on, and so on, and the hope gradually became distant in my heart.

So I'm going to end the relationship, he doesn't know that those birth control pills are actually vitamin C that I secretly replaced, I think if I had his child, he wouldn't pass the buck again and again, I just want a result, yes, it's time for him to make good on the promise he made to me, I believe this day will come soon.

October 23, cloudy. The latest chapter Baidu search: crape myrtle i book house.

He told me a good news today, my application to study abroad has been approved, I dare not think back to the days of being assessed, and finally survived, this is really good news, in fact, I don't care if I can go out, just because he will also go abroad with me.

I want to leave here and he and I can be together in a bright and bright way, he has described the future to me, even in a foreign country, as long as he is by his side, everything is not important, I don't expect the future to be good or bad, at least I can hold his hand and snuggle next to him to go shopping together, he said that as long as we work hard, we will have our own house abroad, get married and have children, or raise a puppy, I am so happy to think about it, and I finally made me wait for this relationship for so long.

I frowned, looked at the others in surprise when I heard this, and picked up the list of going abroad again and said suspiciously.

"Since Nie Bingwan mentioned in her diary that the man would go abroad with him, why is there no such person on the list?"

"Listen to it first, and see what Nie Bingwan will record later." The prince said calmly.

October 25, fine.

My good friend hasn't been here for almost a month, and today I secretly tested and found out that I was pregnant, and I thought that I was going to go abroad soon, and this news was a good thing, and I found a way to tell him as soon as I learned the news.

I thought he would be very happy, but I didn't expect the cold expression on his face to make me feel terrible, he asked me why I was pregnant, his eyes were full of anger, the grievances that had been suppressed in my heart completely exploded, I was tired of forbearance and compromise in front of him, and I was also tired of his prevarication and promises that could never be fulfilled, I told him about changing the birth control pill, and his resentful gaze made me chill.

He took me in his arms, those sweet words have lost their effect on me now, I am no longer as drunk and convinced as I used to, he asked me to beat the child, I shook my head resolutely, I knew he cared, I had to keep this child, keep the weight of making him completely mine.

……

October 26, heavy rain.

He called me, Wu Xiao was also next to me at the time, I didn't want to be angry, but I didn't bear it after all, and I quarreled with him on the phone.

In the evening he asked me to meet, it was still Building 19, I went to see that he was upset, I think it was because of my pregnancy, he asked me to kill the child in an almost begging tone, his appearance I looked a little heartbroken, I was willing to do everything for him, I have compromised for him I don't know how many times, never changed back to the half of the results I expected.

So I have to persevere, if I want to be with him, I have to keep this child, but he told me that there will be a medical examination before going abroad, once I find out that I am pregnant, I can't go abroad, he said it is for my good, but I feel that he is threatening me with going abroad, it seems that he has never really understood me, whether I can go abroad or not is not important to me at all, I want to be with him enough.

Wu Xiao didn't know why he came here, and I didn't know if he heard anything, I knew that he had always been very good to me, but I only had him in my heart, and I was quite sorry for Wu Xiao.

October 30th, cloudy.

I saw him walking with the woman, he obviously saw me, but he pretended to ignore it and left, I heard them talking and laughing happily, I couldn't hold back the tears that came out of my eyes when I passed by, I asked for leave to hide in the dormitory alone and cry, I didn't know what else to do, he didn't care about me at all, everything he said to me was false.

In the afternoon he came to me, kept apologizing, but it was still the same words, I had heard it countless times, I curled up in bed indifferently, until he left unhappily I didn't say a word to him, why he could be happy with the woman, why should I suffer this pain, I want to take revenge on him, I want him to know the price of this betrayal.

I asked Wu Xiao to accompany me out, it shouldn't be his, but I really can't think of anyone I know besides him, I drank a lot, thinking that I didn't have to think about anything when I was drunk, but the more uncomfortable I was, the more I thought about him, I called him and was hung up, and the phone was turned off when I called him again, I knew that he was with that woman.

I asked Wu Xiao to take me to the hotel to open a room, he can be with other women, why can't I sleep with Wu Xiao, I think so, I thought I could be the same as him, but in the end I still couldn't do it, I'm sorry Wu Xiao, he is the one who is really good to me, but I actually used Wu Xiao to take revenge on him.

October 31, cloudy.

I heard that Qiao Kewei told people everywhere about the rumors about the nineteen buildings, I had heard it before, but I never believed it to be true, remembering what happened to me in there that night, I went to her after class, and told her everything that happened that night.

Qiao Kewei looked very excited, and said that there were indeed rumors in the nineteen buildings that I could see my past life, and the person I saw might be my past life, and I still didn't believe her words, but she told me that if the nineteenth step appeared at two o'clock in the morning at the steps leading to the basement of Building Nineteen, the wish would be granted.

I saw that Qiao Kewei said so seriously, I thought of him, if I still have a wish, it is to be with him forever, I actually believe it a little, but the basement is a forbidden area of the school after all, and it is forbidden for students in school to approach, and if there is a violation, they will be expelled.

But I still want to try, maybe I can't do anything about him, and I believe that what I have done will not change in his eyes, if there are nineteen steps......

At night, I went to Building 19 alone, according to the method taught to me by Qiao Kewei, lit the candle and sat alone on the steps leading to the basement, fortunately, the lights in the building did not flicker as before that night, but I was still so scared, I wanted to leave several times but I was still a little unwilling, I looked around timidly, there was a dead silence in the building late at night, and I couldn't hear any sound, and the faint candlelight could not illuminate the darkness in front of me.

I heard the bell of the bell tower ringing, and when it was two o'clock in the morning, I took the candle and walked up the dark steps, and when I reached the last step, there were only eighteen steps, and the nineteenth step of Jocove's mouth did not appear.

I was so ridiculous for him to believe such words, I cried while thinking about it, I felt so wronged, and when I went back, I went to the bathroom on the second floor to wash my face.

Looking at me in the mirror, I was so haggard and dazed.

……

November 2nd, rain.

This is the day before Nie Bingwan's death, we all immediately concentrated on listening, Nie Bingwan died at two o'clock in the morning on November 3, what happened on this day is very important to us, the abnormal case in the room, we are afraid of missing any words of Nie Bingwan.

November 2nd, rain.

Wu Xiao is a good person, I also figured it out, he really likes me, he won't make me sad, I want to be with him, it's a new beginning, I have made an appointment with him, today I took him home to see my mother, a few days ago was my mother's birthday, I actually forgot to call her because of that man, I heard my mother's worried voice on the phone, I felt so sorry for her, I believe she will like Wu Xiao.

Qiao Kewei came to ask me about going to the nineteen buildings, I said nothing, I was still a little unwilling when she left, asked her if there was any way to ask about marriage, she told me that I could invite the pen fairy, said that it was very simple and very effective, I didn't ask I didn't know how to invite, she said to be sincere and spiritual, I think I should be sincere enough.

For the last time!

In the end, I'm doing something for him, and since I can't wait for the result he gave, I'll leave everything to the pen fairy to decide...... Actually, I know...... I knew I couldn't let him go.

I persuaded Liang Huiyin and them, Chen Jingya and Tang Jinglei were also willing to invite Bixian, Qiao Kewei said that she had to wait until the evening, but I made an appointment with Wu Xiao to go back today......

"Bingwan, Bingwan, are you there?"

Suddenly, another girl knocked on the door and shouted Nie Bingwan's voice recorder, and Nie Bingwan's diary was interrupted here, but she seemed to have forgotten to turn off the recorder, so we could still hear the recorded voice.

We heard Nie Bingwan go open the door and someone enter the room.

"Have you prepared everything you have prepared?" The girl who came in asked.

"Ready...... You ready. Nie Bingwan hesitated and replied.

"Well, I'll come to you in the evening." The girl who came in said in a relaxed voice. "By the way, please we can also go to Building Nineteen together, you didn't encounter the nineteenth step last time you went alone, let's try again, maybe we can really see it, and whatever you make can be fulfilled at that time."

"Kewei...... Still...... Don't go. ”

Hearing this, we knew that the girl who came in was Qiao Kewei, it seems that we guessed it well, it was Qiao Kewei who taught Nie Bingwan to invite the pen fairy, and Qiao Kewei participated in the invitation to the pen fairy that night, but I don't know why she didn't show up.

"Don't be afraid, we will accompany you a lot, not to mention that it is okay if you went alone last time, as long as we don't say it, no one will know." Qiao Kewei's voice sounded very relaxed, comforting Nie Bingwan. "By the way, you went to Building 19 alone that night, nothing special happened, did you?"

"No, I waited until two o'clock in the morning, nothing showed up, and I went back...... Oh, I went to the bathroom on the second floor to wash my face once, I was really scared, I looked at myself in the mirror, and I felt so haggard......"

"You...... Have you ever been to the bathroom on the second floor to wash your face? Still...... I also saw the ...... in the mirror Yourself?! ”

Qiao Kewei's voice in the voice recorder became shocked and unusually frightened.

"yes, what...... What's wrong? ”

We didn't hear Qiao Kewei's answer, and there was a long silence until Nie Bingwan aggravated her voice and asked again anxiously.

Qiao Kewei's trembling and flustered voice finally came out of the recorder again.

"Nineteen buildings are psychiatric wards, and I ...... because I was worried that the patients inside would see that their appearance was out of control and hurt themselves by mistake."

"So what?" Nie Bingwan should have seen that Qiao Kewei didn't continue, and asked nervously.

"So the second floor...... No! There are no mirrors in the restrooms of the entire Nineteenth Building! ”