Chapter XXVII
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Huang Jun didn't know what to say for a while, but Mr. Wu was stunned for a moment, then his face changed slightly, and then he immediately said casually: "What, what's the problem?" ”
Zhang Houbo said frustratedly: "I know you don't want to stimulate me, but I thought about this problem for a long time before I understood."
Huang Jun said: "Tell me what you know"
Zhang Houbo said: "Actually, at the beginning I really didn't know what was wrong with me, for so many years, I didn't know what would happen to me, I died, and then lived, very weird, but for me, it was also natural, and then I wanted to know why I came back to life, so I have been working hard for this for so many years, until today, until this time, I suddenly noticed that something was wrong"
Huang Jun said: "I think there must be something about you that we don't know yet."
Zhang Houbo nodded and said, "Yes, you naturally see my problem, but you don't know how serious my problem is, in fact, strictly speaking, I only realized this problem just now." www.biquge.info During this time, especially near the day of their resurrection, I found that I couldn't control my emotions, I don't know why I was always inexplicably happy, inexplicably excited, this situation is that although it has appeared before, it will not be so obvious, but this time has appeared very frequently. Sometimes I think, given the current situation, I really don't have a reason to be so excited, but I can't help myself. Moreover, many of the previous actions, including such an active invitation to go down to the bottom of the reservoir and explore, are strictly incompatible with my original intentions. Actually, my original plan was to leave here far away, never to come back, everything here has nothing to do with me."
Huang Jun said: "But you still stayed, not only stayed, but also did a lot of things"
Zhang Houbo said: "Yes, I not only stayed, but also did a lot of things, before I realized what happened, we had come to this point, although I felt strange, but I didn't reflect, I didn't realize what was happening to me, until just now, I noticed your strange attitude towards me"
Huang Jun said: "Oh? But we are no different from you, how do you see that?? ”
Zhang Houbo shook his head and said, "You forget, I am also an adventurer for a year, I also often explore, I have to deal with all kinds of people, if I can't look at the face, I don't know how many times I have died, so I can naturally see that your attitude towards me has changed, and it has become very fast."
Huang Jun said: "But, this doesn't mean anything"
Zhang Houbo said: "You are afraid, you are afraid that I will know the truth? I don't know what you're afraid of, but I can tell you that the more I know, the better it will be for you. To tell you the truth, when I found out that your attitude towards me had changed, I thought you were going to be against me, so I deliberately distanced myself from you, and I thought that I was already in anyway, and it didn't make any sense to be by your side, not only would you not be able to help me, but you might betray me at a critical moment."
Huang Jun smiled bitterly: "You miss us like that? ”
Zhang Houbo said: "It's not that I want to think of you like this, but my experience, my experience of countless adventures with people, I won't give my life to others, but I think so, and when I do this, things have changed very strangely."
Huang Jun said: "What change? ”
Zhang Houbo said: "Do you know? At that time I wanted to stay away from you, but the further I went, the more strange I felt in my heart, as if I had been here before, and I was very familiar with it, as if I had been here for many years, and I was very familiar with everything here, and at the same time a voice told me, turn around, go to you, bring you here."
Huang Jun said: "A voice? What kind of sound? ”
Zhang Houbo smiled bitterly: "Strictly speaking, it's not a voice, if it's really a real voice, then things are a little easier, at least then, the problem is not with me, but in fact it's just a feeling in my heart, as if I must turn around and bring you here, this is a major mission of mine, at that time I couldn't resist myself, I couldn't resist that will, and then I turned around and brought you in."
Huang Jun said: "So at this time, you found out our attitude towards you? ”
Zhang Houbo said: "That's right, I haven't noticed your attitude yet, but because of the thoughts that appeared in my heart, which didn't belong to my will at all, I was very sensitive to everything that happened around me, so I noticed your attitude at that time, but do you know?" I was very conflicted at the time, but when I saw the expressions on your faces, I knew that you may not have any ill will towards me, but you had a strange view of me, as if, as if I was not a person at all, but some other animal, and even, even I found an emotion in his hand, and that emotion was called pity," Zhang Houbo said here and pointed to Mr. Wu.
Mr. Wu immediately said: "You must be mistaken, how can I have such an expression?"
Zhang Houbo said angrily: "Are you still hiding it from me? No, I, no, it's not right, it's not what I think" Zhang Houbo said this, and then shouted, and then Huang Jun and Mr. Wu saw a scene that shocked them, on Zhang Houbo's face, the expression that should have been very angry turned into excitement, and it was a kind of excitement from the surface to the inside, but obviously, according to the situation at this moment, Zhang Houbo could not have such a reaction. Mr. Wu looked down at the time, exactly fifteen minutes had passed.
"Ignore it, continue to talk about your thoughts, tell us everything you know, and we will tell you what we know" Huang Jun sighed and said, to be honest, he admires Zhang Houbo a lot, being able to find out what is wrong with him requires not only a lot of perseverance, but also a kind of self-reflection wisdom.
The expression on Zhang Houbo's face became very strange, but he immediately calmed down again, as if nothing had happened just now, and continued: "In my life, I have experienced countless adventures, I have seen many expressions from other people's faces, some people hate me, some people have no heart for me, but I have never seen pity for me on other people's faces, this is the biggest insult to me, when I first saw this expression on your body, I thought I was wrong, but I seem to have found that I am not wrong, Although you have covered it well, I have realized it, and you have been wary and merciful of me, and I have thought about what has happened these days, and if I had not known what had happened, I would not have been in the mess for so many years."
Huang Jun said: "So, what do you think now?" ”
Zhang Houbo said: "It seems that until the last moment, you are unwilling to tell me the truth, I have been controlled, right?" If my guess is correct, the consciousness that controls me must be that treasure, it is he who controls me to bring you here, on the surface I am the opposite of those who have come back from the dead, but in fact I am also doing things for him, we are just a group of poor worms who are controlled"
Huang Jun said: "No, in fact, they are more pitiful than you because they don't know what happened to them at all"
Zhang Houbo said: "When you say that, you admit my speculation?" ”
Huang Jun said: "It doesn't matter if you admit it or not, you are already convinced in your heart, aren't you?" And, personally, you know that this thing is cruel, but at least, it's not a bad thing, and to be honest, I admire you very much, and if I were in your position, I couldn't have done better than you".
Zhang Houbo didn't speak, but he laughed, the louder he laughed, the louder he laughed, the louder he laughed, the laughter was full of grief and indignation, full of unwillingness, full of despair, and full of a desire and attachment to survival, but none of this could change the facts that had happened.
"Mr. Huang, I know that you are a strange person, I believe that what happened to me, you know better than me, can you tell me, what is I now? What the hell am I? Is it alive or dead, human or ghost? Zhang Houbo finished laughing.
Huang Jun sighed and said, "No, you're wrong, your current state is actually not even a ghost, you are just a wisp of residual consciousness, and then you were used by treasures, I say so, don't be sad"
Zhang Houbo said: "Residual consciousness? Remnants of consciousness? I'm not even a ghost? ”
Huang Jun said: "Yes, this is your current situation, I don't know how to tell you, this kind of thing is difficult to explain to you, although you are out of the absolute control of the treasure over you, but you yourself are just the residual consciousness of your death, that is to say, in fact, you do not exist, maybe your soul has turned around and reincarnated, but now you are definitely not you"
Zhang Houbo didn't answer, but pondered, and suddenly said: "That is, I don't have a chance, right?" ”
Huang Jun said: "What opportunity are you referring to?" ”
Zhang Houbo said: "A chance to be truly resurrected, not to be controlled by people like now, no, even that thing is not even human."
Huang Jun shook his head and said, "As far as I know, there is no chance, but I'm not sure, God will bless you" Huang Jun said this, I really don't know what to say, that expression is like saying comforting words to a terminally ill person, but no amount of comfort can change the fact that this person will die, Huang Jun doesn't want to deceive Zhang Houbo, doesn't want to give him a false hope.
Zhang Houbo said: "I know, thank you, you didn't lie to me, you are very honest"
Huang Jundao: "Actually, I admire you very much, but the facts are the facts, I don't know what else I can do for you"