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A spark streaked by, and a wisp of green smoke emitted from the cigarette butt and smashed on the wall in the distance, and the scattered sparks finally annihilated on the ground, leaving only an unextinguished cigarette butt quietly drifting away the smoke.

"Hey" Yang Tian held the back of his head with both hands, leaning against the stone wall behind him, the sky was full of stars, the summer night was still warm, even a little hot, the breeze blew, rolling up the sound of rustling leaves, everything seemed so quiet.

In the distance, there were a few laughs from time to time, and the sound of basketball hitting on the concrete floor, and under the slightly dim light, a group of young people enjoyed their time unbridledly, and no one noticed the lonely figure in the darkness in the distance.

It's been a whole week, it's been a week.

Yang Tian silently closed his eyes, recalling the picture from 7 days ago in his mind, and a bitter smile rose at the corner of his mouth

"This is" Yang Tian sat on the chair in a daze, like a sculpture, and sat stupidly for a long time, his mind was full of those bloody pictures, and the screams of his teammates were sad and painful.

The heart-rending shouts made Yang Tian deeply immersed in the former battlefield, unable to extricate himself from the eyes in front of him, and the dazzling computer screen was still open.

Archive 1, is it loaded?

Looking at the text printed on the computer, looking at the countless zombies wandering in the background, Yang Tian's eyes widened, is this a dream? If it's a dream? Why is it so true? I really made myself miserable, if it wasn't a dream, then I, why did I come back here.

"Yang Tian, haha, you kid arrived first!" A hand stretched out from behind, with a slightly excited voice, met again after two months, the roommate dragged the suitcase, and as soon as he entered the door, he saw Yang Tian sitting in the chair, and wanted to pat Yang Tian's shoulder very enthusiastically, but what the roommate didn't expect was that Yang Tian's figure suddenly burst out, and he grabbed his outstretched hand

Yang Tian, who was immersed in astonishment, didn't hear the voice of his roommate, didn't hear the click of opening the door, and didn't even hear the sound of the suitcase pulley rubbing against the ground, but when the person who came reached out to grab him, Yang Tian finally woke up, subconsciously grabbed the hand of the person who came from him, his body was cleverly reversed, and his shoulder hit it fiercely, looking at the person who fell in a table, chair and bench, Yang Tiantan stepped forward and punched the back of the comer's head

"Yang Tian! You are crazy! The roommate shouted loudly in dismay, and Yang Tian's fist stopped in front of the comer's head, less than ten centimeters

"What are you going to do?" The visitor turned his head and struggled to get up from the overturned table and chair, looking at Yang Tian who was frozen in place with his fist outstretched, with extreme dissatisfaction in his tone.

Looking at the strange and familiar face in front of him, Yang Tian was stunned for a long time, and finally, a smile appeared on his face, smiled apologetically, came to the computer, and looked at the date in the lower right corner, there was no change, and he was already a little vague about when he left here, but in his memory, like the date, there was no change in the slightest.

"Finished checking in? I heard that we have changed supervisors this semester? The young man felt the oppressive atmosphere in the room, thought of Yang Tian's strange behavior just now, did not dwell on the matter of being knocked to the ground, and cautiously opened his mouth, wanting to break the heavy atmosphere, but there was no echo from Yang Tian, in the room, there was only endless silence, and Yang Tian, who behaved strangely in the eyes of the young man, kept staring at the computer screen stupidly

"Listen, I'm sorry." After a long time, Yang Tian finally spoke, and before the young man could reply, Yang Tian had already closed the computer, threw it into the cabinet, and walked out of the door, leaving only a young man cursing silently.

On the street, young men and women carrying luggage and dragging suitcases walked, chatting and reminiscing, and a few chuckles came from time to time. The trees swaying in the wind on both sides of the road, the breeze gusting, the dazzling sun still radiating its scorching light, everything seemed so beautiful.

Stopped, stopped, looked at the group of young people with sloppy eyes, no more pale skin, no cloudy eyes, no longer full of roaring voices in his ears, and no longer crying and screaming on the street, the strong contrast made Yang Tian a little at a loss.

Now, Yang Tian finally got what he longed for the most, but he sadly found that he was so incompatible with the world that once belonged to him. The laughter in his ears seemed to be laughing at himself, intertwined with the unprovoked roar in his mind, deeply stinging Yang Tian's nerves.

Picking up the phone, one familiar voice after another appeared in the telephone receiver, everything was telling Yang Tian that this was not a dream, perhaps, this was a real dream

Like a wounded hedgehog, Yang Tian survived carefully, trying to make himself appear normal, perhaps, silence was the best way, but Yang Tian was really powerless

Sobering up from the memory, Yang Tian leaned against the stone wall with his back, covering his face with his hands, ironically, whenever he closed his eyes, the dark world was full of scenes of blood and corpses

The painful days did not pass away as Yang Tian imagined, he always thought that those heavy memories would always slowly dissipate in the passage of time, but Yang Tian was wrong, very wrong, the dazzling picture became clearer day by day, closing his eyes, his eyes were full of Rebia kneeling on the ground, leaving hope for himself to survive at the cost of burning his life, the huge and hideous head, the sad roar that inadvertently diffused from his throat, and the scene where the rich blood in his mouth soaked himself.

The moment the consciousness dissipated, the vague voice in his ears became more and more clear at this moment, it was Kelly's cry full of worry, tearing at Yang Tian's heart every minute and every second.

Yang Tian couldn't bear it anymore, he opened his eyes suddenly, the poignant pictures in the darkness dissipated instantly, trembling his body, Yang Tian took out a fruit knife from his waist

Obsessive-compulsive disorder? Or is it delusional?

Yang Tian smiled bitterly, rolled up his cuffs, and looked at the crisscrossing scars on his forearms, but why did such a picture remind him of that Gerald? The father who was covered in wounds and fed his baby with his own blood

"Grass" Yang Tian cursed in his mouth, the sharp tip of the knife slashed fiercely on his arm, his mouth was covered, and his mouth was filled with bloody breath, and he had no deep desire in his heart, but Yang Tian sadly found that this liquid full of fishy smell was so delicious that he was addicted to it, and he was powerless to quit.

"I'm really going crazy" grabbed his head painfully, staggered to his feet, walked back to the dormitory, slammed the door, and the familiar and unfamiliar faces in the room subconsciously looked at him, and the dormitory, which was originally full of laughter, disappeared the moment Yang Tian walked in.

Faces and eyes looked at each other, and the people in the room turned their heads one after another, absentmindedly looking at the computer on the table or the books in their hands, pretending to be so that people like Yang Tian could see through it at a glance

"I can see through it, if it's Han Jingyi, you" Yang Tian muttered to himself and stopped suddenly, and the roommates were obviously not surprised by Yang Tian's neurotic appearance, no one talked to him, no one spoke.

Sorry to bother me. Yang Tian sighed softly in his heart, turned around and walked out of the dormitory, closed the door, and stood outside the door in a daze, looking at the people coming and going on the stairs, feeling confused for a while

In the dormitory behind him, a warm voice gradually came out, stinging Yang Tian's eardrums and urging Yang Tian to step away from his lost legs.

Perhaps, he is really not suitable here, when three days ago, in the dead of night, Yang Tian sat up from the bed with a thud, sweating profusely, and shouted in his mouth, 'Get out of the way!' You're going to die! At that time, the sleeping roommates woke up one after another, looking at Yang Tian with a haggard face and sweating profusely, no one dared to accuse him of disturbing their rest, but their eyes contained complex emotions, with a trace of jealousy, a trace of doubt, a trace of panic, and even a trace of fear. The tense atmosphere made Yang Tian put on his clothes and left the dormitory, looking at the dark night in the sky, the same as this time, he didn't know where he should go.

Yang Tian didn't want to admit that he was depraved, but in fact, he really was.

Every day I am crazy to vent in the gym, and there is always a white flower on the bed in the hotel at night.

In the past month, Yang Tian has clicked the same number every time he comes, not that he is in love with the old or that he is in love with a note. female, but for him, everyone is the same, just a tool to vent.

To Yang Tian's surprise, when he slept with her for about the 7th time, the panting woman hugged her body tightly and whispered in her ear: "I love you." ”

Finally, Yang Tian let himself be exhausted day and night, and pressed the thoughts and longings that were integrated into the bone marrow to the minimum, but now he let a soft word ignite the dynamite keg, thinking of Kelly who shared weal and woe with him and wanted to rub herself into her body, and remembered the gentle and stubborn Devonie who was willing to wait for herself, of course, there was also Han Jingyi, who paid silently for herself and did not ask for a trace of return, but she easily failed to live up to the promise she made, Yang Tian silently closed his eyes, Crazy sensation again to get up love? What is Love? Going to bed is such a pure thing, don't be tainted by love. Love is too heavy to bear.

Yang Tian is not stupid, she said this, maybe just to ask for an extra piece of paper with numbers, or maybe she said it to different people too many times, and the opening of the habitual surname was just an uproar in Yang Tian's heart, but she could no longer be silent.

Time passed slowly, Yang Tian had more and more wounds on his body, and there were more and more times when he inadvertently fell into conjecture, every day he didn't see anyone, a classmate accidentally saw Yang Tian's muddy figure outside the school, and finally couldn't stand Yang Tian's behavior, this classmate who was quite good with Yang Tian called Yang Tian's family, in fact, this classmate tried very hard to enlighten Yang Tian to Zeng Xiang, but he couldn't see half of the effect, so he had to be angry and let Yang Tian fall, but his heart became more and more worried, this time, finally, He picked up the phone, but not to the teacher, but to the man who had picked up the two of them together and left a phone number, Yang Tian's cousin, who was also the only family member of Yang Tian here

On the dining table, the wine and food were abundant, and the gentle and graceful sister-in-law glanced at Yang Tian worriedly, and left silently, while the nearly 30-year-old man sitting opposite Yang Tian was also silent, his eyes swept over the scars that inadvertently leaked under Yang Tian's collar, and the man secretly made a decision in his heart, maybe it was time to inform Yang Tian's parents, and perhaps, it was time to take the child to see a psychiatrist.

There were full empty wine jars on the table and on the ground, and the man's words on the side finally began to get to the point, pointing to Yang Tian's wound, and whispering in a joking tone: "Who did it?" Mixed with someone as a little brother? ”

"No, I accidentally scratched it." Yang Tianxia subconsciously pulled the collar with his hand, but he didn't want to, and the cuffs of his raised hand fell, revealing dense scars.

"Why masochism? Do you have this kind of perverted mentality? Brother? The man still spoke lightly, and it was not difficult to hear a trace of worry in the joking words, and there was a little seriousness.

"I'm a patient in your eyes, you feel like I'm hopeless, maybe you'll go to the toilet, of course, maybe you'll be conservative and call my parents after I leave, maybe you're still thinking about how to convince me to go to the hospital for a check-up." Yang Tian raised his head and poured a can of beer, and glanced at the man with a vague look.

The man was slightly stunned, he was seen through, what he said was almost the same as what he thought in his heart, and the young man in front of him, who seemed to be harmless to humans and animals, when his eyes swept over his eyes, he actually had a feeling of being seen clearly by **naked, which surprised the man!

"Don't tell my parents, I don't want them to worry, I'll cooperate with all your arrangements." Yang Tian shrugged his shoulders, threw away the empty wine jar, and said softly.

"Maybe I'm mentally wrong, paranoia, or something else. Obviously, my self-control is very good, you can rest assured, I won't hurt you, and I'm not your opponent when it comes to fighting, am I? Yang Tian shrugged his shoulders, looked at the thoughtful man in front of him, and chuckled: "Cousin, are you satisfied with this answer?" ”

The man frowned, still thinking about how to convince this cousin, but he didn't want the young man opposite to seem to have a certain understanding of his own condition, but to the point that he didn't go to the hospital, at best, he went to see a psychiatrist and thought about how to get rid of his cousin's abuse habit.

"Paranoia, obsessive-compulsive disorder" Yang Tian pouted and smiled, opened a can of beer again, and gently placed it on the table, with self-deprecation in his tone: "Maybe, what kind of bullshit syndrome is more suitable for my current situation, it's ridiculous, how could I get infected with this kind of thing"

The man smiled dumbly, looking at the familiar and strange cousin in front of him, I don't know how he became like this, maybe, he really has a mental problem, as for what kind of syndrome, the man scoffed, of course he knew what Yang Tian said, but a young man who is so young and under the protection of his parents every day, how could he have been on the battlefield, and how could he have experienced all kinds of cruel and cruel torture.

"You are nothing more than a young man who has been contaminated with vices, maybe in your opinion, the pressure from your parents and family makes your weak heart unbearable, so you choose to escape, choose cowardice, you just want to immerse yourself in your own world to vent and escape responsibility! Or is it a thrill from which girlfriend? A little little thing makes you decadent like this! You don't have to go to the doctor at all, I'll be able to tell you! The man said in a deep voice, picked up the beer and poured it up, looking at Yang Tian, who was silent with his head bowed, the man frowned again! There was no rebuttal, no words, not even an angry expression, Yang Tian seemed to be immersed in his own world again, deaf to everything.

Excitement from a girlfriend? She does constitute a strong stroke in my life, without her, maybe I would have been lost in the vast sea of corpses Yang Tian had a beautiful face in his mind, the corners of his crystal mouth were slightly raised, with a warm and intoxicating smile, as if he was keeping his promise and waiting for his return.

"Drink!" The man probably felt that his words were too heavy, and he didn't know what to say at this time, so he had to pick up the beer and put it to his mouth.

Yang Tian also picked up the beer, but the memories in his mind were out of control, too many pasts, too many pasts, too many good memories made Yang Tian have nowhere to escape, despite the killing, despite the confusion, although in that world, survival is often more cruel than fate, but Yang Tian had to admit that life outlined with blood has become the main theme of his life, he has fallen too deep, unable to extricate himself, unable to help himself.

"Brother, ask you a question, please make sure you answer me honestly." Yang Tian suddenly spoke, his voice with a hint of hoarseness.

The man's face was solemn, he had never thought that people's eyes could be mixed with such complex emotions, and after a long silence, the man spoke: "I promise you to listen to my arrangement, and I will answer you honestly." ”

Raising his head and pouring down a whole can of beer, Yang Tian flattened the can in his hand, lowered his head, looked at the crisscrossing scars on his arms, with a hint of confusion in his tone, and asked in a low voice: "Why is life so painful, or is it only when you were young?" ”

The man's face was stunned, and he blurted out words that seemed to comfort him, but he remembered the promise just now, Yang Tian's eyes, and his own life in this world.

There was silence in the room, the atmosphere was oppressive, and even the sound of the woman watering the flowers in the living room could be heard clearly

"You promised, you will answer me truthfully" Just as the man was about to speak, Yang Tian suddenly spoke.

After hesitating for a long time, the man sighed softly and said slowly, "It's always like this." ”

"Where did you go?" On the phone, it was the cousin's angry voice, and when he woke up in the morning, Yang Tian was gone. Luckily, his phone was still on.

"Go back to school and say hello to your roommate." Yang Tian silently spoke.

"I think you should come back now, or, where are you now, I'll pick you up!" The man spoke eagerly.

"No need, after making an appointment with a doctor, just come to the school dormitory to find me." Yang Tian hung up the phone, and entered the devastated bustling city on both sides of the street.

Every minute, every second, to survive in this prosperous world, is a cruel torture for him, every soldier's cheer in his mind, every promise promised, is tearing and torturing Yang Tian's heart.

Looking at the people coming and going, people who don't know what to pursue Yang Tian laughed at himself, he was in that world, he was once so out of place, looking for the direction when he came, when he really returned to the beginning, he sadly found that he was still incompatible with this peaceful and prosperous world, and everything about himself had been left in that cruel fate composed of blood and minced meat, perfectly integrated together.

"Why bother, why bother in this world that doesn't fit in, I've changed once, but I've changed too deeply, and I can't get back to my original appearance." After passing by with many people, Yang Tian's sloppy eyes slowly became firm and took a step!!

In the dormitory, there was still a depressing atmosphere, but Yang Tian didn't care anymore, opened the cabinet, and slowly started the computer.

On the screen with a black background, Yang Tian clicked on the icon that changed his fate.

Do you want to load archives1?

Yang Tian paused, looked at the familiar option, moved the mouse to the square, and paused.

"For me, this world should be the place where the Hell Pass is really transmitted, the Heaven Pass, it's not worthy of the name." In a low whisper, with a hint of bitter smile, the slightly trembling fingers, after a brief hesitation, lightly clicked

『End of the book』