As an online novel writer, I spend too much energy on codewords, thinking about the plot, and I am bored at home all day, and I basically rarely have the opportunity to go out.

After a day's writing, I just want to lie in bed and rest, let my brain relax, let my body relax, where do I still have the heart to think about anything else.

My parents often ask me, and my relatives around me often ask me, why don't I get a girlfriend, yes, I'm not a big person, I'm 22 years old, I haven't even talked about a relationship, I haven't even pulled a girl's hand, I also want to ask why, why don't I go find one?

After thinking about it, I suddenly realized that I didn't have much time to spend on falling in love, I had to work, my job was to write novels, and the first thing I did when I woke up every day was to think about the plot of the novel, and then prepare the code words, and when the words were finished, basically the day had passed.

I've been supporting this kind of life for a year, and I find that I'm used to this kind of life, and the first thing I do when I wake up every day is a brain full of novels, and I'm used to sitting in front of the computer every day, either coding words, or reading the results of my own novels, such a sick life, I'm completely used to it.

I often ask myself, why is that? Why do I do this, in fact, there are still many jobs to do in society, and having a girlfriend after work is also a very simple thing, but why did I choose to embark on this path?

But after thinking about it for a long time, I still told myself, because I like the process of writing a story, I like to watch the characters in the book win the reader's love under my description, I like to build the world of fiction in my heart, they are all I have, they are everything to me, I don't know if I can live in this world without them, and if I will still be alive.

Give up and give up, no normal socialization, no girlfriend, every day in the face of my parents' downfall, although I feel uncomfortable, but I still choose to insist, I can live alone, I tell myself, I can do it.

But yesterday I suddenly envied my cousin's life like that, I don't know if it's right to insist on it, but I really don't know what to do, I don't know how to have a girlfriend, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, I don't know all this, I missed the great time to learn this.

Hey~ If you miss it, you will miss it, I want to tell myself that even if I am the only one left in the whole world, I can live well, okay! It's a bit of a self-deception.

Although I have lost a lot for the novel, I have also gained a lot, the support of many readers, which is the best gift I have ever received, you have found me a reason to persevere, let me find the motivation to fight for it, with you, I have this novel, and there will be more works in the future.

At the end of this article, I want to thank you, thank you for your support, thank you for your love, although some words are numb, but I still want to say, I love you, I love my novels, I love the life I have chosen!