Lin Zhunyi said: "I didn't force her, this time the two of us want to get back together." ”

Father Fan nodded, this is the same as what he investigated, Lin Zhunyi has always been trusted by him, "I hope she can be happy now, and when she starts to suffer, the person closest to her can tolerate her, help her, let her rely on, and even vent." Zhun Yi, this may be difficult for you, after all, this is how your mother left, I don't think you will be able to stand it. ”

"But no one else but me has a position to do this, right?" In fact, Lin Zhunyi wanted to say "willing", but he still replaced it with a relatively moderate "position", but the reason was simply because he was an elder. In fact, Lin Zhunyi has always been dissatisfied with his attitude and approach to the stars.

Fan's father said, "This question has to be asked to herself. And this time I asked you to come, because I want you to think about it first. ”

Lin Zhunyi said: "Thank you for such kindness. ”

Father Fan heard his voice and looked at him with some deep meaning.

Lin Zhunyi continued: "These words will offend you, but sir, you are much better to me than to her, she is still your daughter after all, and she really shouldn't always sacrifice her interests for others." I think this should be up to her to decide whether she needs me or not. ”

Fan's father said: "Even if you don't marry Xingxing, in my heart, you are no different from my biological son now." ”

Lin Zhunyi knew that this sentence was not adulterated at all, although they and the Fan family were two surnames, but the ancestors and fathers were very close, although he did so much to Fanxing, the Fan family still forgave him. This time the Fan family had an accident, Lin Zhunyi never had a bad heart, in fact, Fanxing treated him like that, he had a position to choose to leave when they were in difficulty.

Father Fan was silent for a while this time, and said, "In my heart, your weight is heavier than the stars. So I'll let you choose first. ”

Lin Zhunyi asked: "Then why did you cancel the wedding before?" ”

"In my heart, I don't want you to be by her side." He said, "That's too cruel for you. Although you didn't say it, I know that you love your mother very much, and you haven't known much about her illness and didn't expect her to leave suddenly. If one day you wake up early in the morning or come back from a business trip and find that your wife has turned into a corpse, you will not be able to bear it. Zhun Yi, you grew up watching me, I know you won't be able to stand it, not to mention that you have hurt the stars, even if the stars themselves no longer blame you, once she commits suicide, you will fall into self-blame. With your stubborn nature, you will definitely be crushed by this self-blame. ”

Lin Zhunyi imagined that picture, as if he had been pricked by a needle, although it was not painful, but it was very sudden and defenseless. Just like when he suddenly saw his mother's corpse that day, her corpse was not ugly, she walked calmly, because she had been planning for a long time, she had long wanted to die, and depression left her world with only pain.

I can't stand it, who can stand it?

But will he be able to bear letting the stars die in someone else's house?

Lin Zhunyi said: "If I have to choose first, I want to stay by her side." “

The matter of the transfer was not followed because most of the Fan family did not support their reunion, and Lin Zhunyi was informed of this by Fanxing, and her face was full of indifference at that time.

Lin Zhunyi asked her who told her, and she said, "It's Aunt Su." ”

"Oh."

"She said she didn't want me to get back together with you, she thought I was too stupid to do this, and hoped that she would consider a transfer after a while, and that we would seriously consider this matter for a while." Fanxing snorted softly when she said this: "No matter how bad you are, you can't compare to my father, this matter is definitely not her decision." ”

Lin Zhunyi said: "Don't worry, I'll discuss with Mr. slowly." ”

"When am I in a hurry?" After she said this, her gaze suddenly changed, and she stared at him, "You've seen my father." ”

"Nope."

"Lying." Fanxing asked, "What did he say to you?" ”

Lin Zhunyi didn't know how she heard it, but since this was the case, he said: "I just talked about work, he said that he persuaded me to stay before, I insisted on leaving, and now I want to come back, he thinks it's very bad." ”

"Lying." Fanxing said again: "You must be talking to him about me and you." ”

Lin Zhunyi stretched out his hand and tried to hug her to change the topic, but she pushed him away and said, "Say, what did you talk about?" The more this happened, the more I realized that there was a problem. ”

Of course, Lin Zhunyi couldn't tell her these words, but since it was said that it was not advisable to blindly hide it, so he held her hand, looked into her eyes and said, "Don't ask, I don't want to tell you." Just remember that no matter what happens, I'll always be there for you. Even if it is death, I will follow you closely. ”

Fanxing was stunned for a moment, then suddenly smiled and said, "It turns out that he said this to you." ”

Lin Zhunyi looked at her in amazement.

"What do you want me to do?" Fanxing asked with a smile.

"Nothing."

"Although cooking rice is not very delicious, it is still good to eat, and the rice is adulterated with medicine, and of course the taste will be different." "I don't know why the doctor thought I really had this disease, maybe I was pretending to be too much," Fanxing said. ”

Lin Zhunyi didn't discuss it with her, but held her hand and asked, "Then have you tried to stop the drug?" ”

"What if I stop taking the drug and suddenly commit suicide?" Fanxing said, "I'm not ready. ”

Lin Zhunyi didn't speak.

Fanxing became impatient: "Can you not look at me like this?" It's like I'm pathetic. ”

Lin Zhunyi still didn't speak, and reached out to hug her into his arms. The stars suddenly rebelled and struggled non-stop. It had been a long time since he had forced her like this, but he didn't today.

The more she struggled, the harder he worked.

There is always someone who has to be soft, and Lin Zhunyi has always been a person who can persevere to the end.

She slowly gave up the struggle and leaned her head into his arms.

I was really unwilling to be hugged by him like this, she thought like this, but her eyes began to sour.

In fact, she couldn't figure it out, why did she get sick? It's all mixed up with Lin Zhunyi, what's so painful?

Lin Zhunyi felt that her body was trembling, and it was rare for him to be so emotional: "Just cry if you're sad, I won't laugh at you." He kissed the top of her head, and for the first time he felt like he could relate to her emotions.

She cried for a long, long time on this day, for many years, she hadn't cried like this for many years, including being raped by him at the beginning, and being forced to marry him again and again by her family, maybe it was because of this that she got sick, she endured her anger, sadness and pain, and gradually got used to them, and even ignored them. She thinks she's happy in this way, but in fact they need to be vented and expressed.

Later, when she calmed down, Lin Zhunyi asked, "Are you not uncomfortable at all?"

"Sometimes I feel like I want to die," she said, "and I still think it's a joy to die."

Lin Zhunyi was very distressed, but he didn't know what to say.

Fanxing also saw it and said, "Don't look like this, it looks more like depression than me."

"I'd rather be the one I have." He said.

Fanxing wondered, "What's the difference?"

"You'll be happier than I am." After all, she hated him for so long.

Fanxing couldn't help but laugh: "When you said this before, I wanted to praise you for being self-aware, but now that you say this, I will say that you are specifically sarcastic about me."

Lin Zhunyi got up: "Is it because you love me now?"

Fanxing immediately said, "No!"

"You're a little too excited." He said with a smile.

"Not really," she calmed down, "You'd better not be overconfident."

"Well, don't dwell on that." He laughed a little and said, "Is that why you don't want to marry me?"

"Of course not, you wouldn't mind that."

"How do you know I don't mind?" He raised an eyebrow.

"If you don't love me, it's enough to marry me, if you love me......" she said here, and was slightly silent for a few seconds, looking at him and saying, "It's enough to marry me."

He was slightly moved, what Father Fan said was not right at all, she was not stupid, not at all, on the contrary, he felt that she was very smart, she knew him so well.

He asked, "Then will you marry me now?"

"I don't want to." She said.

"I want to try to stop taking the drug, but then I probably won't be able to control myself from committing suicide," she said, "and if you get married, you can't take such a risk."

He said, "Then don't stop."

"I can't be sure of its authenticity without stopping."

Lin Zhunyi was silent.

Fanxing asked, "You don't think about playing tricks, do you?" Don't waste your efforts, even if my grandfather stands on you, he can't beat my dad and Aunt Su. ”

Lin Zhunyi said: "I don't play tricks, I listen to you."

Although Lin Zhunyi said so, if he really can't play, then he is not Lin Zhunyi.

He went to find Grandpa Fan first, and the old man really said that although things were a little difficult, he must find a way, but before he could come up with this solution, something happened first.

At that time, Lin Zhunyi was going back to work, and Fanxing went to his house two days ago, she said that she was helping him pack his luggage, but in fact she didn't move anything. But it's no wonder that she, the responsibility lies with Zhun Yi, because although he won't be there for too long this time, he is more reluctant than ever, he doesn't sleep for long, he will always be awakened by the hallucinatory gunshots, and when he opens his eyes, finding that she is still in his arms is the only way to let him relax.

He kept asking for her, he was a not very emotional person, and only when he had it most deeply in this way could he really feel her, and it made him feel safe.

Because of his excessive demands, Fanxing fell asleep on the road on the morning of the day he went to the airport to see him off, so Lin Zhunyi did not rush to get on the plane, but sat in the car with her, wanting to stay with her for as long as possible.

Later, when it was completely too late, he decided to get out of the car, but still secretly kissed her little mouth that had been a little swollen by his kiss before getting out of the car.

As soon as she touched it, she immediately opened her eyes.