"Has it started?" Sitting in the back seat of the military vehicle, Lei Zhe looked at the scenery outside the window and said, the chariots were already parked on the long mountain road, the warships on the sea were ready, and the fighters were from the sky overhead.

"Thirty minutes in time, the time of the apostle's coming, and you have nothing to say?" Misato Katsuragi, who was driving, asked, maybe it was because of the more and more things she was in contact with, she didn't have much thought about the appearance of the apostle, after all, the god of this world was sitting in the back of her car, and a long, long time ago, wasn't the apostle the little brother of this bastard?

"What do you want me to say, do you want me to go to the water angel to discuss, don't come to the trouble of humans? Forget it, I'm too lazy to care about this kind of thing, didn't I say it? It doesn't matter to me who perishes or who survives, whether it is an apostle or a human being, and it doesn't matter if they all die cleanly. Lei Zhe shrugged his shoulders and said lightly, but Misato Katsuragi rolled his eyes, after all these years of getting along, Misato Katsuragi knows Lei Zhe's character quite well, don't look at this bastard always says so easily, what destruction of the world, what human destruction has nothing to do with him, but if you use Katsuragi Misato's words, this guy is a knife mouth tofu heart.

If he really didn't care, why did he reduce the energy generated by the impact in the first place to halve the casualties of the human race during the second impact, and if it really didn't matter, why did he save himself and his father back then?

"I always felt like you were tsundere."

"You're tsundere." Lei Zhe pursed his lips, and then he continued to turn his head to look at the soldiers waiting for the apostle to come outside the window, and then he said: "What do you want me to do, protect the apostles and protect mankind, and then admonish them as gods to live in peace, build a beautiful and harmonious society, and love and help each other." Establish multi-ethnic unity, and then promote intermarriage between different races. Promoting racial integration? You're kidding? Don't roll your eyes yet. These are the goals that I have been working on all along, and in the case of the apostles and humans in this world, do you think the relationship is very chaotic and poor? That's what you don't see more chaotic and worse. I've seen it. ”

What Lei Zhe is talking about is the collapse of the world, if you talk about racial chaos and conflict. What world could be more chaotic than the Honkai world?

"I am indeed the god of this world, but I told you a long time ago that I am the purpose of this god's existence. It is to ensure the normal functioning of the world. Unless there is a special circumstance, then I will not interfere in this world, so what kind of creatures are in this world, whether it is angels, devils, or humans? It doesn't have anything to do with me, each world has its own rules. All I have to do is comply, and to be honest, I wouldn't even be in front of you if it wasn't for what Satan did to me in the first place, and it doesn't matter if the second shock will wipe out humanity completely, and whether you and Dr. Katsuragi will die in this shock or not has nothing to do with me. ”

Lei Zhe was very calm when he said these words, he didn't feel that his words would hurt Misato Katsuragi, because the other party is not so fragile, she has known her for a long time, of course Misato Katsuragi knows Lei Zhe's character, he will not use any lies to deceive the other party when facing those who are related to him or important, he will express everything in the simplest and most direct language, in Lei Zhe's opinion, maybe gorgeous lies can calm the other party temporarily, but the damage will be more serious in the future, Simple and straightforward words may hurt the other person at first, but in the end, they are the easiest for others to accept.

It turned out that Lei Zhe is a simple person, he lives in his own small world, in this small world he has his own things that he insists on, but he also understands that he can't control this small world forever, he must accept the complex and chaotic world outside, his own world is simple and pure black and white, and the outside world is complex gray, maybe this is the common point of all otaku? I like a simple world, simple language, right is right, wrong is wrong, and I don't need to find any reasons and excuses. …,

But the world is not like this, too simple will hurt yourself, too complex will hurt others, and people living in this society often choose to make themselves complicated, to hurt others, and no one is willing to simply hurt themselves, maybe it is because of this too much unsatisfactory and too much pressure that more and more people like to 'stay' at home, maybe in their opinion, what they are 'home' is not a small room, but a 'world' that can make them relaxed, right?

Why do many people like to surf the internet? That's because in the eyes of many people, the online world is very simple, no one here will wear a mask that has been disguising themselves, and the person who appears here is the real self, right? (The above is purely a personal opinion)

"......" Misato Katsuragi didn't change much after listening to these words, and still drove the car, and Lei Zhe was silent and did not speak, at this time he remembered what Asuka said to him not long ago, those words made Lei Zhe a little speechless, and also began to reflect on what he had experienced and what he had done.

In Asuka's words, he is becoming more and more like Lei Luo at the beginning, and Lei Zhe didn't say anything after hearing Asuka's words, because he didn't know much about Lei Luo's affairs, and what he saw through a little dream was what happened later, as for what Lei Luo had experienced, he didn't have a little concept.

"Your current appearance is very similar to the way Lei Luo looked after joining the True God, at that time he changed from an otaku who was originally very 'loving' to the world, to an indifferent, ruthless, and faithful machine, maybe that has something to do with brainwashing, but many things have changed with his own choices, the current true God is completely different from that time, at least the current true God has no 'brainwashing' process, but even if you don't, you are constantly changing, aren't you?"

Asuka's words have been circling in Lei Zhe's head, and he has now become very similar to Lei Luo at the beginning? Is Lei Luo also in the same state as himself at that time, is that he also indifferent to those people and things that have nothing to do with him, and in the face of these worlds he once loved, he has also become dull, and the love in his heart has long disappeared?

From the anxiety when he just crossed over to the magic tower, to the excitement and excitement when he was forbidden by the demon, to the frustration and confusion of the type moon, the re-walking life of Gintama, becoming mature, the selfish calculation of the rebellious Lelouch, the anxiety in Gensokyo, the indifference and ruthlessness in EVA...

Lei Zhe always feels that he has detached himself from his original personality, maybe just like Asuka said, even if the true god does not have a 'brainwashing' system, he is still changing, because he has experienced more and more things, because he has lived longer and longer, and now what he was worried about at the beginning has finally happened, that is, his feelings are becoming more and more indifferent.

Although he still has an undying enthusiasm for the people who are important to him, when he faces those who are insignificant, he will immediately become indifferent, just take the two worlds of "Rebel Lelouch" and "EVA" as an example, if he was the earliest self, he would not use Britannia, the Chinese Federation, and the whole world because of some 'god plan' to do everything.

If it is the original self, if you have the ability, you will definitely help humanity to defeat the apostles and protect the world, instead of being a cold bystander like now, it doesn't matter to yourself, whether it is a human being or an apostle, no matter who perishes, it has nothing to do with you.

Sure enough, everything is related to time and what has been experienced, and now I am no longer the otaku who loved the second dimension at the beginning, the love that has been echoing in my heart has disappeared with time, and it has become dull because of what I have experienced, recalling the various things I have experienced, Lei Zhe finds that he is always moving forward blindly and madly, but he does not really stop thinking about the past and ask himself. …,

"If you continue like this, you will become the second Lei Luo, even if your situation is much better than his, but in the end you will still lose more things, sometimes the more you cherish, the easier it will be to lose, indifference, selfishness, these are actually human nature, but in the same way, mercy, kindness is also an indispensable thing for human beings, you always say that you are a human being, but now look at your body, where are you still like a human being? What is the difference between you and the gods who are high up in the sky? Think about what you pursued in the Uruk era, the reason for your struggle, don't you think that you are now just one of those gods who sit high in the clouds, looking down at the gods, doing everything according to your own preferences, and no longer thinking about the thoughts of human beings..."

"When did you become like this?"

Asuka's last words left Lei Zhe speechless, when did he become what he is now, it seems that since the end of the gintama, he has begun to change to this aspect...

"Lei You, is what your sword is protecting only such a small range? In fact, in my opinion, the scope of your protection should be more extensive, because you have the ability. That was what Songyang once said to himself, and Lei Zhe never forgot this mentor in his life.

"No matter how dark the world is, there are flashes of light that will make you notice, won't it?"

"The things I want to protect are only a little bit, and I don't want to take on the extra things, because I don't have that responsibility, just like Mr. Songyang, you protect the dragon vein, protect the world, are you happy?"

"Do you see the kids?" Matsuyo pointed to the private school students who were playing in the courtyard, and then said, "I protected it, so I'm happy..."