After hearing Qiu Shasha call me, I said in my heart that it was just right, she had something to say to me, and I had something to ask for her.

I first went to say hello to Wang Acheng and his son, asked them to eat first, and without waiting for us, I followed Qiu Shasha and walked towards the stern of the fishing boat.

After Qiu Shasha and I walked to the stern of the fishing boat, Qiu Shasha stood by the guardrail, raised her head and stared at the stars above the night sky, without saying a word.

I stood beside her for a while, but finally I couldn't help it, turned my head to look at her and asked:

"Qiu Shasha, you called me over, what did you tell me?"

Qiu Shasha sighed softly, still looking up at the night sky, and said to me:

"Zuo Thirteen, you must not call me by my name in the future, from now on I will no longer be called Qiu Shasha, my name is Tang Xinlei, I am a gentleman, the previous Qiu Shasha She is dead...... Both physically and mentally. ”

"What??" After hearing what Qiu Shasha said, I couldn't react at once.

"I mean, I want to change my identity as a man in the future and continue to live, the previous doll named Qiu Shasha has been killed by Zuo Thirteen, you yourself." When Qiu Shasha said this, she turned her head sharply and looked at me, and I clearly saw that there was a kind of hatred in her eyes when she looked at me!

It seems that she has stabbed her before I blame me, but at that time, do I have any other choice?

"Qiu Shasha, are you still blaming me?" I asked.

"I don't blame you all along, I hate you!!" Qiu Shasha looked at me and said coldly, there was no hint of joking in her tone, I could see and hear that she really hated me at this moment.

Even when I was called by my name, it was changed from the previous "thirteen" to "left thirteen", although it was just a surname, but the relationship between the two of us gradually became distant.

The atmosphere was a little awkward, and I didn't know what to say, so I changed the subject and asked:

"By the way, Qiu Shasha, weren't you dead before? I saw with my own eyes that the yang energy in your body was dissipated, how did you come back to life? ”

Qiu Shasha laughed softly and said:

"The Dragon and Tiger Sect's 'Maoshan Latent Technique' is not the only one you can do."

"You're blown up?!" After hearing Qiu Shasha's words, I understood a little bit why Qiu Shasha had been forcing me to kill her before, and it turned out that I had been planning to blow her up.

The only reason she did it was because she wanted to get rid of the man who had been hiding behind the scenes and giving her orders.

"Yes, I'd rather be stabbed to death by you than continue to be a puppet that has been controlled by others, there is no self-use, there is only obedience in life, obedience, and ......obedience," Qiu Shasha said this, and the light in her eyes dimmed.

"At least you're free and reborn now, right, Tang Xinlei?" I looked at Qiu Shasha and asked.

"Freedom is freedom, and I still have one important thing to do." Qiu Shasha said.

"What's the matter?" I asked.

"I don't want you to know." Qiu Shasha said.

"Then you called me over just to tell me that your current name is Tang Xinlei?" I then asked.

"It's not all, Qingyu still has a few words for me to tell you on his behalf." Qiu Shasha said and turned her head again, looking at the stars above the night sky.

"What words?" I had some doubts in my heart, what did this hat man ask Qiu Shasha to bring me.

"People are self-sufficient, and natural development is the best. There is something called the Six Dust Shadows, that is, people will take all kinds of uncomfortable feelings and all kinds of thoughts as their own. In fact, I am the one who is bright and clear in my own nature. Some people are able to see the light of their own nature, and this light is present to everyone.

In addition, many Taoist ways teach people how to concept, contemplate the mind, and eliminate evil from good. But bad thoughts and bad karma are floating in the air and can easily be picked up by people. People with stronger power can even directly unravel all those evil thoughts, and the path of cultivation must first cultivate their body and mind, only in this way will your heart not be confused by it, and your anger will be eliminated, and people can be at ease and become kings. Qiu Shasha was afraid that I wouldn't understand, so she deliberately slowed down her tone when she spoke.

"A cultivator must first cultivate his body and ......mind," I said silently, and this was the third time I had heard this sentence since I stepped through the door of this Taoist family.

The first time was when the Qingfeng Dao Leader told me, the second time was Lu Yu Lu Zhenren, and the third time was what the hat man Tuo Qiu Shasha said to me. The capital cultivates oneself and cultivates one's mind, but how should this self-cultivation and self-cultivation be cultivated, and how should it be cultivated?

I don't understand in my heart that the strength or weakness of the body can be changed through one's own efforts and learning the Taoist mind, but how should a person's body and mind be cultivated and changed?

Thinking of this, I raised my head and looked at Qiu Shasha and asked puzzledly:

"Qiu Shasha ......"

"You should call me Tang Xinlei." Qiu Shasha didn't wait for me to speak, and then interrupted me.

"I'm not used to it for a while, Tang Xinlei, I want to ask you a question."

"You ask." Qiu Shasha said.

"They are all telling me about self-cultivation and self-cultivation, how should I cultivate it?" I kept thinking about this question, but I couldn't understand it, even though I always wanted to be good, but when the anger in my body rushed up, I still couldn't control it.

"First of all, you have to find the root of the existence of anger in your body." Qiu Shasha looked at me and continued:

"I send you a word, I hope you can remember it. If you say an adult, you will despise it, and don't look at it majestic. The hall is high, the title is a few feet, I have a will, and the Buddha is also. The abbot before eating, hundreds of concubines, I have the will, and the Buddha is also. Drinking with pleasure, driving the field hunting, and riding a thousand cars, I have the ambition and the Buddha is also. In the other, I do nothing; In me, the system of the ancients, why should I be afraid of the other? ”

Hearing Qiu Shasha's last words, I was completely stunned, and I didn't understand the meaning at all, so I had to ask:

"I said Tang Xinlei, can you help me translate this paragraph? I have a limited level of education. ”

Qiu Shasha gave me a blank look, and then said to me:

The general meaning of the passage is: Even if you are full of gold and jade, even if you have a group of concubines, even if you follow like ants, you are like floating clouds to me. Control all the desires, evil thoughts and killing intent in your heart, anger is like human desires and evil thoughts, the longer you exist, the more you will accumulate, and eventually a person will never recover. When encountering something, unless it is absolutely necessary, you must not use killing thoughts or have the slightest desire, unless you want the anger in your body to completely devour you. ”

Hearing this, I gradually understood that although I didn't pursue too much fame and profit, greed has always existed in my heart. Let me completely eliminate my desires and cut off the six roots, to be honest, I can't do it at all.

"I'm afraid I can't do it, as long as I live, I must have desires, I must make money." I looked at Qiu Shasha and said truthfully.

"What? Fame and fortune are so important to you?! When Qiu Shasha heard my words, she raised her eyebrows and looked at me angrily and asked.

I shook my head:

"No matter what choice I make in my next life; But since I have come in this life, I must let my parents spend their old age in peace, I must let my children receive the best education, so that my other half can live a happy life, in this society where no step is spent money, people who have no desire at all can not live at all, and these things can not be done at all without the support of money, this may be my desire, but this is also my responsibility, there is no force and reluctance, so, making money and desire is not whether I want to or not, and it is never whether I want to or not, It's something I have to do. ”

After Qiu Shasha heard my words, she was silent...... It took a long time for her to speak:

"Perhaps, the ghost who gave you the anger on your body has long seen through this, as long as people live, they will never escape their desires and responsibilities, so thousands of years have passed, and the anger on your body still can't be unraveled. When the sky is not shining, the sun and the moon have no light. When the land is scarce, the vegetation does not grow. When the water is not, the wind and waves are uneven. When people can't do it, everything doesn't work. This...... Maybe that's your life. ”

I smiled and said to Qiu Shasha:

"I'm not going to accept my fate......."