His attitude of bowing his head just now was just calming things, and at this moment he seemed to really feel that he was wrong, and his demeanor began to become unconfident: "Lingling, I understand what you said, I just think that not hating him too much will make you happier." ”

"Don't you think." I said, "It's my own business." You're not in a position to 'feel' about me. ”

He had no choice but to say, "I'm sorry." ”

"No need to say I'm sorry, just remember to shut up in the future." I said, "If the heir is really me, then I need you very much, and in the same way, I will not let you contribute in vain, you can calculate me, and I can accept it if you win or lose." Because in my heart, we are no longer husband and wife, just partners in interests, I will not intercede with you, and you don't have to tell me. Because of this, you don't want to meddle in my private affairs, and neither will yours and me. I will do my best to refrain from complaining to you about your family again, and please stop accusing me of private affairs. ”

He fully understood this, and his face showed sadness, "Lingling, I have no ill intentions. ”

"I don't care." I said, "This is my private matter, you have no right to participate, and it has nothing to do with whether you have malicious intent." There is only one reason, that is, I no longer have a husband and wife heart for you, I just can't divorce. ”

He stopped talking and just looked at me.

I could tell that he didn't hide his sadness at hearing this.

I have never been a strong person, and I have been led by these people all my life, but this is not right, people who have no position cannot be happy. I always sympathize with others and think about them, but I can't be "great" willingly, and make myself like a resentful woman, who can blame me? I'm to blame, of course.

The bed in this room is a double bed, and looking at Su Yiming's posture, it seems that he doesn't plan to let us divide the room. Of course, Fanyin and I appeared in a loving appearance, so naturally there was no reason to sleep in separate rooms.

So I didn't rush him, and operated my own wheelchair to rummage around the bookshelf. There were still no good books, and after a while, Fanyin also came, pulled one from a high place, and handed it over.

I took it, and it was a cloth book that I had stopped reading.

Puzzled, I looked at him. He replied, "Only this is what you like." ”

I didn't speak, I flipped it open. I haven't seen this book, probably because it's being put so high that you have to tiptoe to pick it up. Its appearance is not very obvious, not like the colorful color commonly used by children, but a very dull dark green.

When I opened it, it was very old, and the pattern was just some fruit, the kind for one or two-year-old children.

I finished it in two clicks, and again there was nothing to do.

Fanyin was looking for the book he wanted to read, and his expression seemed to be very like, and he had already walked out of the loss that he had just been reprimanded by me, and his eyes were shining.

I didn't disturb him, put the cloth book in the gap of the wheelchair, and went inside.

The bedroom also has a terrace attached where you can sit and drink tea, and occasionally a bird that is not afraid of people will come over. But in the past, I had to go up the stairs, so I couldn't go there, so I had to lean on my wheelchair to see the location.

The view is naturally quite pleasant, and naturally it can greatly improve my mood. After sitting like this for an unknown amount of time, I felt much calmer, and when I opened the book again, I thought that I had never seen anything with children in this house. Toys, early education books, fairy tales...... None of them, this is the only one. Servants certainly don't put their stuff on my bookshelf.

I haven't asked about his condition since I came in, and no one has told me about it, and frankly, I'm actually a little concerned in my heart, but Fanyin has been advising me like that, but it makes me very rebellious and doesn't want to be said by him. Now that it's quiet, I'm holding the book, and my mind is constantly thinking about the last time he said it to me on the phone. He said he had taken care of me too, but I don't remember.

When I think about it, I can't help but feel sad again.

It wasn't long before there was a knock on the door outside, and before we could answer, there was a thud of running outside.

Fanyin immediately went out, and I hurried over. When she saw the visitor, she had already been hugged into her arms by Fanyin, the two of you kiss me, I kiss you, it seems very intimate.

When I saw that they did not see me for a while, I did not go over, but looked at them from this side.

It's only been a few months since I saw her, Nian Nian is obviously taller, her hair is long, she has two delicate braids, and she wears a small flower card on her little head, matching her little flower skirt, like an elf coming out of the forest.

I looked at her lovely face, and most of my anger from not long ago had inexplicably diminished, and I couldn't help but feel guilty: I was really a failed mother, who had planned to make my child happy, but I also had a problem with her. Even she can't tolerate it, and I should really go to see a psychiatrist.

Thinking like this, Fanyin let go of her, and Niannian looked up at me, as if she wanted to run over, and looked at Fanyin with a timid expression.

Fanyin smiled and whispered something in her ear, and she pursed her mouth. Fanyin pinched her face, took her hand and led her over, and said to her, "Say." ”

Nian Nian still pouted, looked at me, and looked up at Fanyin.

"Say it." Fanyin said to her, "Didn't you tell your dad last time?" ”

She remained silent and drooped her head.

I asked, "What did you ask her to say?" ”

"She wants to apologize to you." He laughed and said, "But she didn't dare." ”

I asked, "For what?" ”

"It's ...... last time"

"I didn't ask you." I said to Nian Nian, "Tell Mom, what do you want to apologize to me for?" ”

She looked up at me, fiddling with her fingers, and seemed terrified.

"Is it because I told your father about my mother and Uncle Pu?" I asked, "Want to apologize for this?" ”

She finally spoke, and it was very difficult: "Hmm. ”

I didn't speak.

After a while, she opened her mouth in a small voice: "Mom, I know I was wrong, I'm sorry, you don't want me." ”

I said, "Mom didn't say she didn't want you." ”

She looked up again, and her watery eyes looked at me, and it was very murderous for a child to make such an expression, and she said, "It's me who is not good, Mom...... Don't be angry. ”

I have a lot of great ideals to tell her, really, when Su Yiming said that I would call her when she came back, I still felt that I had to make it clear to her. I'm thinking about telling her about the consequences.

But now I regret it, I can't stand her talking to me in such a tone, I can't stand her looking at me with this expression.

I know that she doesn't think she's wrong in her heart, in fact, from her point of view, she wants her parents to be around, so she wants to tell Fanyin the news of my "mutiny", so that Fanyin can be prepared to "maintain" her home. She's not wrong at all, and she's smart. What's wrong with her? I chose her life for her. I chose a mentally ill father for her, and an incompetent mother like me for her.

What's wrong with her?

She came to apologize, but she was just afraid of losing me.

Thinking about Fanyin's words during the day, I felt even more distressed, and I couldn't help but say, "Mom is not angry with you." ”

She looked at me and didn't believe me.

"Mom is not angry with you, it's because Mom's leg is broken, and she has to stay in the hospital all the time and can't come to see you." I had no idea how to handle this properly: "You don't have to apologize, you didn't do anything wrong." ”

She looked at me, then at Fanyin, blinking her eyes and looking puzzled.

I guess I'm surprised why we say different versions.

I said, "You don't have to apologize, just come over and let your mom hug you." ”

She immediately slipped over, and as soon as I reached out to pick her up, she threw herself into my arms.

I hugged her tightly, and I wanted to cry a little, but I tried my best to hold it back.

Probably because I hugged her very tightly, she finally believed some and put it in my arms and said, "Mommy ......"

"Hmm." I couldn't help but kiss her little head. Seriously, maybe the negative feelings brought to me by this room are too strong, just for a few seconds, I thought that it was not Nian Nian who was standing in front of me, but myself. I kissed the top of her head and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"I thought you didn't want me anymore." She said, "You've been angry for so long. ”

"It's not." I hurriedly explained: "Mom really doesn't want you, you see that Mom still can't walk." ”

She immediately broke free of my embrace, looked down at my legs, and reached out to gently touch my knees. It was wrapped so tightly that it looked very serious, obviously very different from what she thought, she didn't dare to touch it again, looked at me, and said anxiously, "Mom, are you still in pain now?" ”

"It still hurts," I couldn't help laughing, because her expression made me feel very warm, "It doesn't hurt now, because when Niannian's little hand touches, I don't hurt." ”

She looked at my legs again, her thin eyebrows slumped, and her little face was full of anxiety and helplessness.

I asked, "Are you coming back from your grandfather?" ”

She nodded and said, "But I can't see my grandfather, he's been sleeping." ”

I wanted to ask, but I saw Fanyin standing next to me laughing. Suddenly, I felt a little annoyed, so I didn't speak again.

But Nian Nian himself said: "Grandpa has been sleeping for several days, and no one is allowed to enter that room." I will not be allowed to go in. ”

It seems to be the ICU?

I was puzzled when the fan on the side said, "He's still in the ICU." ”

I couldn't help but glance at him and asked, "How many days has Grandpa been inside?" ”

"It's been nine days." She said smartly: "The bad aunt who said that my father beat you has come and wants to go in, but Uncle Su will not let him in." There were also seven aunts who came, and a couple of uncles I didn't know. She snapped her fingers and said, "There are five uncles I don't know." Uncle Su did not allow them to come in. ”

Fanyin rolled her eyes, smiled, and said to me, "You elder sisters are really well-informed. ”