414 I don't love you anymore
He was silent for a long time, and then said, "Lingling, if what you said is replaced by thoughts, I will definitely fulfill it." ∈ eight ∈ eight ∈ read ∈ books, .≦.o≧ but she can't. ”
"Why can't she?" I asked, "If you think her conditions are not good and then find a good boyfriend, then find someone with lower conditions, and if no one wants to marry her at all, then live by yourself." What's the problem? ”
"That's the problem." "She doesn't have the ability to be independent at all, she's not the kind of child who can control her own life," he said. ”
I asked, "So she deserves to be bullied?" ”
He said: "I said, whether to marry Lin Zhunyi or not is a later story, but she has to give birth to the child." I don't have hope for her future marriage, she is lucky to marry well, and it is inevitable that she will marry badly, and don't forget, she will definitely not be able to achieve any career. I'm afraid that she will have nothing in her old age, and she can't even give birth to a child when she wants to have a child to protect her. ”
"Do you think she must be married?" I asked, "It's too early for you to assert that she must be lonely!" ”
"Lingling, what you said is true, but it's a utopia. In that utopia, the stars do have those rights that you think they are, I don't deny it. But please see the reality first. His tone at the moment was quite calm: "The reality is that her mind is not enough to bear her life, and it is difficult for her to take the road of marriage." Niannian has a strong personality, a smart brain, and can control her own life, although Yin Yin I don't know, but she is the person your father wants to cultivate. But the stars are not anywhere, she is empty and beautiful, and her personality is weak, look at what she does, how confused and confused she is. She has a murder on her, and it is even more impossible for me to let her marry an ordinary person. It was because she was her father that I couldn't let her get rid of the child, because it was the only barrier for her when she got old. Or do you think Nian Nian and Yin Yin can bear her failed life for her? ”
I couldn't speak for a while, thinking that he was a crooked reason, but it was difficult to refute it, so I had to ask, "Are you insinuating me?" ”
"Yes." He replied crisply.
"But I want a divorce too." I said, "I don't need anyone to help me bear my failed life, it's because you don't agree." ”
"Yes," he laughed, "you don't even have the ability to divorce me, why are you talking like this?" If you want a divorce, why do you sympathize with my daughter? Aren't you so determined that you don't even want your own daughter? Lingling, I think the most wrong thing about your father is that he didn't teach you to adapt to local conditions, and you always reasoned with me, but baby, I don't even talk about the law, what kind of reasoning? The law of the forest is the rule of my heart, and the law of human rights is the rule of your heart, and you either follow me or take up your weapon to fight me. You are the kindness of a woman, you can't see reality clearly, and you like to dream. But...... I just like that. ”
His tone was always light and smiling, as if he were saying something that made him happy.
But I suddenly remembered that a long time ago, Old Man Fan had said the same thing. He said that if it was another woman, he would have taken the opportunity to kill Fanyin, and I thought he was praising me at the time, thinking that I was human after all, I was kind, I loved him, and I was different from others.
But I didn't understand until today that those words were all false, they were high hats, and the more I wore them, the more paralyzed I became, and the more my skin was peeled clean.
So I can't argue with him, I think he's right, and at the same time grieve for myself.
After a while, he opened his mouth again: "Angry? ”
"Nope." I said, "I think you're right." ”
"That's not what you mean."
"Because I really ......" I feel like I can't make sense with him, but the pain is real, and I have a ** that overturns all the truth: "I originally wanted to fight with you to the end, and I must divorce." But the stars begged me again, and I felt that I had no chance...... Even if I leave, there is no way to be happy in this life. But she's different, she's so small. I can't say you ......."
His tone was softened at once, and he said, "How can it be? Don't think so sadly. ”
"I can't tell you." I didn't want to hear him at all: "But I don't think you're right." Really, you're not right. You're the same as my dad, for many reasons just to cover up that you don't love the stars, you don't want to think about her, think she's stupid, she's stupid, she deserves to be bullied......"
"I didn't want to hide it." He said, "I really don't love her." I hate her personality the most, and even if I adopt, I wouldn't choose such a child. ”
"It's as if we're willing to have something to do with someone like you."
He laughed, "Su Lingyu, I don't want to irritate you by talking. ”
"Stimulating what?" I asked: "If you don't want to care about her, it's a reason, you just want to use her to stabilize Lin Zhunyi, for fear that the people below will say that you are bullying Lin Zhunyi." Which of your words is not a whitewash? ”
He didn't speak.
I continued: "Don't want to talk to stimulate me? Are you so irritated that I am still under-stimulated? Fanyin, after so many years, it's not that I don't know you at all. You have a strong word now, which is nothing more than proof of your weak heart, and I can't argue with you. I'll just say my position, I'm adamant about divorce, but if you're willing to let the stars miscarry, I'll sacrifice myself to live with you, otherwise we'll keep making trouble. Don't you think I'm a woman? Then you can pick up the baby from my dad and see if you can pick it up? ”
It took him a long time before he asked coldly, "You threaten me with the child?" ”
"Yes, can't I?" I asked, "Do you know why I couldn't listen to your words yesterday?" Because those words sound boring to me, and I know you're just talking about them, because I used to love to hear them. But I don't like to listen to it, I fell asleep halfway through it, don't you understand? It's not that I didn't feel the blood on the bed, but I didn't think it was yours at all, I thought it was mine, because it was always me who bleed between you and me. You're injured, and I didn't hit you, what do I care about you for? The wound on my face was caused by you, don't you and don't care? ”
He was silent.
I wiped my tears, feeling a little contemptuous of myself who was still crying, "I was really distressed when I saw you hurt before, and I forgave you for everything at once." But yesterday I really didn't. I don't know if it's cold or what...... I don't love you anymore, and I want you to understand that I don't love you anymore. I'm not making a fuss, and I'm not going crazy. I didn't mean to make this call to you at all to be persuaded by the stars, I really felt that this kid was pitiful, as pitiful as I was. I feel that the reason why she has come to this point now is also my responsibility, when you are not there, I also think about sacrificing her, using her, and not using the only chance to save her, I feel very shameful, when I think of how cute she was when I was a child, I feel that all my silence before and what I did were completely inhumane, and I was a mother in vain. So I want to discuss with you, if you really don't want to leave, I can continue to stay in this marriage, be the kind of person you want to be, and replace her. ”
Only then did he speak: "Then tell me, why did you kill the steward of the little family?" ”
This tone was wrong, and I asked, "Didn't Lin Zhunyi tell you?" ”
"I told you." "But what about the evidence? ”
"Do you want to say you didn't actually do that?" I asked, "I saw the video with my own eyes!" ”
"Don't quarrel with me yet." He was very calm: "Explain things to me." ”
Although I was angry, but this matter was about the agreement to sell the family, so I said it carefully, and emphasized at the end: "I was angry at the time, but now I don't care, I hope you don't think about it......"
"Alright," he interrupted me irritably, "I didn't do what you care?" ”
"The second personality does."
"He didn't do it either! I fought with them on the first day I went, and then the wound collapsed and I almost didn't even save my life, how could I bother to play with women? He asked, "Who gave you the video?" Pu Lan? ”
I'm a little confused: "The person on the video is clearly you, where in the world can I find someone who looks exactly like you!" ”
"Don't you care?" He first sneered, then ordered: "Answer the question." ”
"It's him."
He sneered: "What a waste of my liver." ”
"Cumbersome." I said, "I don't want to find out whether this is true or not, and the reason why you make me feel cold is not because of ......"
"I want to investigate!" He said angrily: "The little family said that my wife killed their steward for no reason, so she has to ask me for an explanation!" For this matter, Zhun Yi and I both ate guns! Investigation and investigation and investigation found that all the orders were given by you, all the reasons were said by you, and you have no evidence at all! And the people who want to kill me! ”
I was so yelled at him that my ears were numb, and it took me a while to come back to my senses: "But I saw the video with my own eyes." ”
"Does that have to be real?" He roared, "You want me to make your version in three months, okay?" ”
I said, "But when you came back, it was all swollen!" ”
He sneered: "Then tell me where you got me back?" Everything is what he Pu Lan told you, everything is, don't you understand what it means? Why don't you believe those who have been with me for more than ten years, but believe in him? ”
"Because he was kind to me and didn't hit me."
He seemed to be choked suddenly, and it took a long time before he spoke: "You only remember that I hit you." ”
"Nope." I said, "I remember you mocking me. ”
"You don't remember when I fought hard for you, forgave you for betraying me, and wrote you a will," he asked disappointedly, "and that's all I remember?" ”
I said, "You finally get it." ”
He didn't speak.
"I don't love you anymore." I said, "Maybe I'm on the wrong side of this, whatever, I'm sorry to you." ”
He seemed to be a little panicked, and his voice was trembling: "Lingling, this matter is obviously your ......"