It took a long time for the computer to reply, and it made my heart fall all at once. The next chat made me even more disheartened, Tan Min was on the computer, always answering me coldly and occasionally one or two sentences.

Although I also knew in my heart that I was not in her eyes at all, just a passer-by who had a relationship, I couldn't bear the pain of loneliness. Every time I called a long list, I always waited for her reply, but every time I was disappointed.

I found that she was only interested in discussing Buddhism with Tan Min when she talked to me, and when it came to other things, even if she occasionally replied, it was a polite 'oh' word.

In my heart, I actually have an inexplicable hatred for her, but it is this kind of hatred that I can't really feel that makes me haunted Tan Min even more.

After grinding in the hotel room for a few days, it was not until Tan Min said that she was going to go out with her classmates again for an autumn trip, and this painful ordeal came to an end temporarily. At the moment when she was about to go offline, I mustered up the courage to ask, "Xiaomin, do I have any hope of pursuing you in this life?" ”

Tan Min replied quickly this time: "Brother Mo, you're not joking, are you?" It is your right to pursue me, and I have no way to take it away; To accept or to refuse, that's my right. ”

At that moment, I felt like my whole person was about to collapse, and the only hope that supported me was that she didn't completely reject me. I replied curtly, "Xiaomin, then tell me, what do I have to do so that you can possibly accept me?" ”

Tan Min replied quickly: "Brother Mo, don't be angry! I'm joking with you! Can I not answer your question? ”

In fact, I understand that she didn't want to answer positively because she had a good heart and was afraid of hurting me. But I won't give up every opportunity easily, so I quickly asked, "Xiaomin, if I enter the official career, or have a lot of money and a successful career, will you accept me?" ”

The other end of the computer was silent for a while and said, "Brother Mo, I'm not a snob. Your topic is too heavy, and I can only answer you like this: I like a positive, idealistic and responsible boy. As for what you said about your career, I don't have much of a good impression of being an official, and besides, no matter what I think, you don't seem to be an official! ”

She hit the nail on the head at once, and in fact, I admit that I wasn't interested in getting into the job. I just said this, and it was only because many girls envy the power of being an official that I said it casually as a bargaining chip. The promise that Lonely Lotus made to me, to be honest, I don't dare to believe it easily.

My real purpose is to find out if Tan Min would like me if I were rich. Under my repeated urging, Tan Min then replied: "Okay, if you have a lot of money, then I'll think about it, but you have to treat me to eat and have fun first!" ”

Of course, I understood that she was making a good joke on me, but how could I let this opportunity go? I immediately replied, "Okay, Xiaomin, then it's decided." Last time, I said that if I made a fortune all of a sudden, I would invite you to take a road trip, and you promised to do so, but you can't be fooled! ”

Tan Min replied: "Okay! Brother Mo, hurry up and work hard to make a lot of money! I'm going down, I hope you will inform me as soon as possible and invite me to go on a road trip! Bye-on-a-blah! ”

I was extremely disappointed and said goodbye to her, and watched her avatar go dark on QQ. I know that Tan Min has no feelings for me at all, and she is not a person who is greedy for money and snobbery, so answering me like this is actually just perfunctory to me. Maybe she didn't want to hurt my self-esteem, but the best explanation is that she had a good impression of me and gave me a hope to encourage me to struggle.

I sat in front of the computer in a daze, thinking about Tan Min's voice and smile. Suddenly, I felt the black lotus of desire in my heart appear in front of me again.

Since this black lotus is rooted in my heart, the black qi on my forehead is hidden. Although it floats in front of my eyes, I have always wondered if it is real, or if I can only feel it myself, and no one else is completely visible.

That black lotus turned into the golden armor god general I had seen, no, although the appearance was the same, but the golden armor became black armor, and the demon-subduing golden pestle in his hand also became a black ** tooth that exuded cold.

I asked, "You...... How did you become like this? ”

The black-armored god general roared: "I am the protector god general of the King of Fudo Ming, thousands of incarnations, Mo Xun, don't stare at that woman named Tan Min, you will not have any results." Approaching her will bring you endless disaster! Remember! Remember! ”

My heart cooled suddenly, and the sense of loss in my heart had completely replaced my fear. I cried out in despair, "God, what is this for?" Why can't I be with Min? ”

The black armor god general said with a tiger face: "Mo Xun, you are one of the worldly incarnations of the King of Fudo Ming, and Tan Min's previous life was the inky blue giant snake wrapped around you!" You have to get rid of her, that's the right way! ”

I was unwilling to wait for the question, and the black armor god suddenly disappeared, only the black lotus of desire slowly swirled in front of my eyes. The figure of the lonely lotus flower suddenly appeared in my mind, and my heart was suddenly full of desire.

The black lotus of desire disappeared again, but my desire-longing became stronger, and even made me forget the pain of missing Tan Min for a while.

I quickly pulled out the iPhone she had given me from my pocket, hoping that the bell would ring and that her text message or her phone would appear on the phone. However, except for the time changing a little, the phone never rang.

After a few more days, there was still no news of Lonely Lotus. I was so frustrated, and at the same time angry, I thought she was lying to me.

After a few puffs, I snuffed out the cigarette butt and began to balance my mind a little. I found myself the idea of self-deprecation: she was just a lonely, thrill-seeking rich wife, what's the big deal? What's more, she's still so old. What makes me even more psychologically balanced is that my machismo prevailed, and I didn't suffer a loss, not to mention that I got a valuable Apple phone for nothing.

Two women, one is the goddess of innocence that I dream of in my heart, and the other is a stunner that brings me endless desire and extreme stimulation, and at this moment, they seem to have disappeared from my life. A sense of loss came over me, and I sat stupidly in front of my computer when the phone rang.

I was pleasantly surprised, and my first thought was that Lonely Lotus had come to me, but the surprise was only fleeting, because I immediately recognized that it was not the sound of a mobile phone, but the phone inside the room.

I got on the phone, and the call was from the main desk downstairs. The gentle voice of the waiter on the phone reminded me that my prepaid room fee was due, and if you still want to continue your stay, please go to the bar to pay the fee.

It was only then that I realized that the salary I received, excluding the cost of travel and the cost of staying in the hotel for the past few days, was only the last 500 yuan left on my body. No, I can't live anymore, I have to find a way to get in.

Almost in desperation, I left the small hotel. Where do we go from here? The path in front of me is actually very simple, and there are not many options. Either I go back to my hometown, get the forgiveness of my parents and the village chief, and collude with them to do something unscrupulous, and I can quickly get a lot of money and have the capital to pursue Tan Min.

It seems that waiting for the lonely lotus to bring me good luck is just a fool's dream. I smiled wryly and decided to return to my hometown. But I was still scared in my heart, I didn't dare to rush back to my hometown directly, but just sat in a small town 30 kilometers away from my hometown.

When I arrived in a small town not far from home, my heart settled down a little. Looking at the remaining 400 yuan, it is enough for me to spend several days in a cheap hotel in this town. What happens in a few days? I haven't figured it out yet, but I know in my heart that I'm going to have to quietly return home and become a part of the counterfeit drug production and sales from now on. When I think about it, my heart is filled with guilt.

After settling down in a small hotel, I couldn't bear the unbearable loneliness anymore. There was no computer in the humble room, so I gritted my teeth and took out the iPad that I had never been willing to exchange for cash. Although I know that there is not much Internet fee on it, I still want to see Tan Min's beautiful QQ avatar after opening it.

Of course, the result was disappointing to me, the avatar was gray, Tan Min really traveled, and it won't be online for the time being. Alas! Although the black-armored King Kong warned me not to approach Tan Min, I couldn't let her go in my heart. Even if that King Kong's words are true, as long as I can be with Tan Min, even if it is true as he said, it will bring me endless hardship.

Driven by this desire, I involuntarily opened a group of Buddhist students. Anyway, I have nothing to do when I am idle, enter that kind of Buddhist group and learn more about Buddhism, this is the only topic that Tan Min is willing to communicate with me.

After watching others chat for a while, I was immersed in the atmosphere that Buddhism rendered. I think I might really be a person who is related to Buddhism. When I saw that some lay people said that they often went to the monastery to meditate, my heart suddenly moved: I don't have any money on me, not to mention the two women in my heart, and the entanglement of family affection and justice, why don't I also learn from those laymen to go to the monastery to meditate, maybe I can completely understand and no longer worry?

When I heard that there was a famous temple in the nearby mountains, I was determined. Leaving the inn, I called an illegal motorcycle, drove into the mountains, and came to the gate of the monastery.

The mountains are full of green trees, and the whole temple is hidden in it, and in this sultry early autumn, it brings me infinite coolness to my heart!