"I used to be a very sound person, not only in the upper body, but also in the lower body." Kuroko made himself laugh when he said what seemed to be a yellow joke, then took a puff of his cigarette and said, "Later, because of a big trouble, my hand disappeared, you should know a little bit about it, right?" ”

I nodded: "I don't know much, Brother Yi told me something." ”

"Well, when I still have this hand, my relationship with my ex-girlfriend has always been very stable, and the parents of both sides have also supported our relationship, and in about half a year, it is estimated that we will all be able to get married." The cigarette in Kuroko's hand was almost lit to the cigarette holder, so I didn't speak, I just reached out and grabbed it, and then handed him half of my cigarette.

He smiled, took his cigarette, and continued smoking.

"But after I became Yang Guo, everything was different."

In the dark, Kuroko's expression looked a little blurry, and there were flashes of fireworks on his face, as if he was laughing.

He leaned on the pillow, smoked silently, and never spoke.

It wasn't until he finished smoking that he sighed: "My story is actually quite boring, back then."

"Don't be in a hurry, wait for me to light a cigarette." As I spoke, I pulled out two more cigarettes from the other end of the sheet.

In the darkness, Kuroko stared at me motionlessly, the corners of his mouth twitching.

"Aren't you out of smoke?" Kuroko asked me tremblingly.

"The cunning rabbit is still three holes, not to mention that he is as witty as me, how can he do it if he doesn't hide more inventory?" I scoffed.

Kuroko scolded angrily: "Don't talk nonsense, bring me a cigarette." ”

"Pumping so fast, you're not afraid to smoke you to death"

Being interrupted by me like this, Kuroko's mood seems to have eased up a bit, and I can see earlier that Kuroko is really uncomfortable, so I just want to distract him.

Sure enough, Kuroko's mood was indeed eased by me.

From sadness to reverse, it quickly turned into a desire to suck me to death.

"There are a lot of people who pity the disabled in this world, but how many people really treat the disabled as normal people?" Kuroko's smile was very self-deprecating: "Seeing a person with a missing arm, who wouldn't look twice?" Even if he has a pitiful heart for this person, if he lets his daughter marry a Yang Guo, this"

"Her family doesn't allow it?" I asked.

"It's not just her family." Kuroko's eyes were a little dazed: "Except for the people on my side of my family and Brother Yi, almost everyone disagrees with my marriage to her, including herself." ”

In the midst of Kuroko's narration, I slowly quieted down, and my expression was inexplicably complicated.

Really, I don't know what expression to use to face Kuroko's story.

This story has to start with the first time Kuroko went out to meet the girl after losing her arm.

"I can still remember that it was a sunny day." Kuroko squinted her eyes slightly, as if she was afraid that the sunlight in her memory would sting her eyes, and her voice was very low: "Because of some troubles, I haven't been in touch with her for a long time, and she was quite surprised that day when I suddenly called out." ”

I listened quietly to Kuroko's words, not saying a word.

"She was very happy before we met, and she cried on the phone, asking me where I had run during this time and whether I didn't want her anymore." When Kuroko said this, her smile was full of happiness, as if the scene of the day was in front of her, and her tone couldn't help but get excited: "That day, I was afraid that she would be sad to see that my hand was missing, so I specially wore a long-sleeved jacket, like a fool, stuffed all the empty sleeves with things, and then stuffed the cuffs in my pockets."

"Speaking of which, I do seem like a fool." Kuroko laughed.

I didn't say anything and continued to listen.

"As a result, when I met her, the first thing she said was, where are your hands?" Kuroko smiled and said extremely calmly: "I looked down and saw that one section of my sleeve was deflated, no wonder she could see it." ”

"How did you answer?" I asked.

"I had my leg amputated in a car accident." Kuroko shrugged.

"Did she cry?" I asked again.

"I'm crying, crying so badly, I'm so distressed." Heizi smiled: "I accompanied her home once that day, and brought a lot of gifts to her parents, Moutai, cigarettes, clothes and shoes, although I hadn't debuted at that time, I was never short of money, and the bank deposit was still there." ”

I nodded and motioned for him to continue.

"Her parents have always liked me very much, and they almost took me as their own son, but when I went to her house that day, it seemed that everything had changed." Kuroko sighed: "It's not cold to me or anything, it just doesn't seem to look at me right." ”

At this point, Kuroko changed the subject and continued to talk.

"I've been getting along like this for about a month, and I think there seems to be a bit of a gap between me and her." Kuroko smiled: "It turns out that she always likes to talk to me and talk about trivial things, but at that time, she didn't tell me about it anymore, and took care of me as a disability every day, so that I could rest at home more"

I opened my mouth to say something, but I couldn't say anything when I saw Kuroko's smile.

"Suddenly, one day, her parents came to me privately and said they wanted to talk to me."

As soon as the words fell, Kuroko fell silent, and bounced the cigarette that burned to the cigarette through the window, and the smile was still there.

"Her family should have asked you to break up with her, right?" I asked.

Kuroko nodded.

"Just because you're missing a hand." I asked again.

Kuroko nodded again.

"! What are you afraid of with less hands?! You're not missing JB! I scolded angrily: "If you have less feelings, you can't be worthy of their daughter, right?!" ”

"Xiao Yuan." Kuroko's voice was a little hoarse: "You remember, there are things that are not what the parties want to do, they can do it." ”

I didn't understand what Kuroko meant, and shook my head.

"During that time, many people who have seen me are muttering behind their backs, saying that I am not worthy of her, and that if she marries a cripple, how unjust will she be in this life?" Kuroko smiled: "Actually, I quite agree with what they say, and I also think that I am not worthy of her, so I plan to give her all the best of me, so that she will be happy in this life."

Maybe Kuroko really couldn't suppress his emotions, and when he said this with a smile, his tears couldn't stop flowing.

"Oh, I'll go, why is it still windy on this big night." Kuroko rubbed his eyes and pretended to be calm and said: "To be honest, she and her family don't dislike me either, but why did they do this, it's very simple, they can't stand the eyes of outsiders, and they still have the kind of rotten mouth that doesn't make a big deal when they see the excitement." ”

"Because of this, she broke up with you?!" I couldn't believe it: "Are you sure she doesn't dislike you?!" ”

"You probably didn't dislike me." Kuroko shrugged her shoulders, smiled indifferently, and continued to wipe her tears: "I took the initiative to break up, and she cried very badly at that time, and I feel distressed when I think about it." ”

"Could it be that you misunderstood her?" I was a little worried: "If she is determined to go with you, and you break up with her, won't that?"

Kuroko interrupted me, and there was a faint hint of relief in his eyes full of vicissitudes.

"Maybe it's because I'm disabled, and a lot of times, I'm more sensitive than the average person." Kuroko smiled: "Before she cried, that is, when she heard me mention breaking up, I saw the word happy in her eyes, and there were some contradictions, maybe she didn't think about whether to break up with me or not, or maybe she was reluctant but none of this mattered." ”

"Is she getting along with someone else now?" I digressed from the subject.

"I'm already married to someone else, and I'm quite happy." Kuroko laughed: "I didn't go on the day of her wedding, I'm afraid I'll cry out and be embarrassed." ”

"," I gritted my teeth.

"Some things can't be explained by the words right and wrong, she is really not wrong, really, isn't that the reality?" Kuroko said self-deprecatingly: "I can feel it, she loves me very much, loves me as much as my parents, but who would have thought that this kind of love is not as fucking as realistic as it is?" ”

Afterwards, Kuroko and I were silent for a long time, silently looking at the starry sky outside the window, and no one spoke.

Half an hour later? Or an hour?

I don't remember exactly, except that he yawned and I when I spoke.

"Brother Kuroko."

"What's wrong?"

"Actually, she wasn't killed by the hand you lost."

With that, I slowly lay down, covered the quilt, looked at the ceiling with complicated eyes, and muttered in a low voice.

"She was killed by the gaze of outsiders."