Chapter 58: The (New) World of the Heart

"Do you regret it?"

Shinji Ikari sat in the seat of the train, I don't know why, his thoughts were a little confused, and the train window was also blurry, dazed, I didn't know where to go, I didn't know what was coming, and Shinji Ikari didn't think about it all this, he just sat in silence.

I don't know when, Misato's shadow appeared in front of him, Misato asked.

"Regret...... I don't regret it, as long as my uncle can survive, I can do anything......" Shinji Ikari muttered with his head down.

"That'...... What about us? ”

At this time, Misato's figure also appeared in the carriage and stood in front of Shinji Ikari and questioned him.

"What about us?"

"What about us?"

“…… What about ......?"

“…… ......"

Gradually, the staff in the nerv, Bless Ryoji, classmates, and everyone appeared in the carriage, and they all asked such questions.

"I don't know...... I don't know...... I don't know...... I don't know! ”

Shinji Ikari covered his ears violently and yelled, "I don't know! I don't know what to do, but, but, but...... But to make me give up Uncle Roger, it's impossible! ”

"People are cold, they only care about themselves, can you be gentle with me?" Shinji Ikari looked up at the figures of everyone in front of him, but no one spoke, just looked at him quietly.

"That's it, you just look at me like this, even if it's a smile, it's a perfunctory smile, if I can't drive eVa, won't you smile at me anymore, won't you need me anymore?"

Shinji Ikari lowered his head again and said dejectedly, "Everyone is like this, all of them are like this, it's just because I can drive eVa that I need me, right?" But Uncle Roger is different, it's not that he needs me, but I need him, he told me a lot, he made me realize a lot, gave me the courage to face everything, and gave me hope that I could face the cruelty of the future, but, but, ...... But if there is no Uncle Roger in this world! I don't want this kind of world anymore! ”

When Shinji Ikari said this, these figures gradually faded away, and gradually disappeared into the carriage, and the paleness and nothingness outside the carriage became more visible, and even the carriage gradually became a little unreal.

At this moment, a cold voice said, "Is this your choice?" Shinji-kun. ”

Shinji Ikari raised his head again, and saw a person who hadn't appeared before, Ling Boli, she was still the same Sanwu, but I don't know why, Shinji Ikari seemed to be able to see a sadness in her eyes, an inexplicable emotion, which made him stand up, but gradually, he sat down again, and just said: "I'm sorry, Li, I didn't have time to eat the dinner you prepared for me and my father, I'm very grateful to you, and ...... I'm sorry I couldn't save you, but I, I'm to you, I'm ......"

Shinji Ikari said this, and was silent, while Ling Boli shook his head and said, "No, it's okay, Shinji-kun, I want you to live happily without driving eVa, it's your choice, so ......"

Ling Boli also gradually disappeared in the voice, and once again only Shinji Ikari was left alone in the entire carriage, and suddenly, another female voice sounded.

"Stupid Shinji, if this continues, our agreement will not be fulfilled."

Shinji Ikari looked up sharply and saw Asuka standing in front of him, Asuka was no longer as arrogant and indifferent as before, but looked at him gently, just looking at him like this.

Shinji Ikari's tears flowed violently, he wiped his tears, and he didn't know if it was shame or what, so he didn't dare to look at Asuka, but just lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... I didn't fulfill our agreement, I didn't do it because Uncle Roger ...... Uncle Roger is no longer here, this world, not with courage can realize wishes, not with courage to achieve hope, people's indifference, the cruelty of this world, will not change because of you, I really want to travel with you after peace, I really want to see everyone's sincere smiles, I really want to ...... I want to, but I don't dare try anything more, Uncle Roger...... I, I've ......"

"It's okay." Asuka was the only one of them who could act again, and with a gentle smile and tears in her eyes, she silently walked up to Shinji Ikari and wiped his tears with her hand, fading away as she spoke.

“…… I wish there would be peace, then, we ......"|

“…… I ......"

Tears welled up in Shinji Ikari's eyes, and he cried and shouted, "But this world is not just about courage, I can't ...... it"

"That'...... Just do it again! ”

The appearance of a voice made Shinji Ikari stop all his movements violently, and he trembled violently, trying to keep his head up, and then he saw a familiar figure.

Roger smiled heartily, stood in front of him and said, "Boy, I don't remember how I taught you to give up." ”

While speaking, Roger walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder with his hand, but Roger's hand crossed his shoulder and did not touch him at all, and Roger still smiled and said: "This world is indeed very cruel, hopes are dashed, dreams are trampled, but ...... So what!? ”

"The so-called courage refers to the fact that you are in despair after failure, and that you have been defeated, and at that time, do you dare to stand up again and start again! Remember what I asked you when I first met you? So now, I'll ask you one last ......"

When Roger said this, his figure was about to disappear, and the last thing Shinji Ikari saw was the last voice coming out of Roger's disappearing mouth.

"Do you have a dream?"

Tears slowly flowed from Shinji Ikari's eyes, and he used all his strength to shout loudly, "Yes! I have a dream! I want Mom, I want Dad, I want a peaceful world, I want everyone to get along well, I want everyone to smile at me from the bottom of their hearts, I want everyone to be gentle with me, I want to be needed by everyone, I want to support them, I want to ...... I have a dream! Uncle Roger! ”

In an instant, the carriage vanished, and all the nothingness around it began to dissipate, and white light burst from Shinji Ikati's chest, and then illuminated everything......

Shinji Ikari sat up from the bed violently, he touched his face, his face was wet, and it seemed that he had just cried, it seemed that there was something in the dream that made him cry so much, but he couldn't remember it anymore, the things in the dream...... What did you dream about? It seems to be a cruel, terrible, cruel thing, but it is so warm......

Just when Shinji Ikari was in a daze, suddenly the alarm clock at the head of the bed rang, and he was so startled that he hurriedly put on his clothes, freshened up and ran downstairs, and sure enough, he saw the back in the kitchen, it was...... His mother, Yui Ikari, is preparing breakfast for him.

"Wake up, hurry up and eat, it's getting late." Ikari Yui looked back at Shinji Ikari and smiled softly, and then continued to get busy there.

I don't know why, seeing Ikari Yui's smile, Shinji Ikari was very moved in his heart, he was a little inexplicable, because the scenes he could see every day actually made him feel like crying, but now was not the time to think about this, he hurriedly came to the dining table, picked up a piece of bread and began to eat, and at the dining table, there was a man who was holding a newspaper and reading it.

"Shinji Ikari ......," the man said in a tone of nonchalant indifference.

"Ah, yes, Daddy." Shinji Ikari hurriedly replied.

"You didn't pass the math, but don't stay up too late and remember to set the alarm clock earlier." Ikari Gendo said in such an indifferent tone while reading the newspaper.

"Yes, yes......" Shinji Ikari hurriedly bowed his head and said, I don't know why, he suddenly felt a little afraid of his father...... Isn't he already used to his father's tone?

Suddenly, at this moment, a woman's voice came from outside the door, "Stupid Shinji! It's almost late! If you're not ready, I'll go to school first! ”

Shinji Ikari was taken aback, and hurriedly took two slices of bread, as well as the lunch box and schoolbag on the dining table, and said, "Then I'll go first, Asuka is already at the door......"

After saying that, he ran to the foyer, and behind him, Ikari Yui's voice said, "Wait for your sister to go to school together!" Leigh, it's okay to have your hair like that, it's okay. ”

All of this......

All in the eyes of four people in the distance, Roger, Ah Xing, Shaw, and Edwin? Van Cleef, the four of them all watched all this silently, and Ah Xing said, "From an electronic point of view...... The world is real, not some fantasy or virtual reality, nor is it formed by the light of the mind...... It's incredible, but, I don't have any memories of all this in my head, I just remember that at the beginning of the mending, a huge Limpoli emerged from the ground......"

Speaking of this, Ah Xing looked at Xiao, but Xiao didn't look at him and said, "Don't look at me, I know you're looking at me, don't think I know what's going on, I'm sorry, because of the distance, me and Edwin?" Van Cleef was the first to turn into orange juice, and luckily we didn't become an apostle. ”

Four people, no, three people, because Roger died before that, and the last impression of the three of them was that a huge Limpoli had emerged from the ground, and then all the human beings, some of whom had become orange juice, and the other had become apostles, all of whom had rushed from all over the earth to the final dogma, and then, they found themselves standing by this ordinary Japanese street, and saw Shinji Ikari and them.

"Hahaha, I don't remember either, I'm dead, right? It's great to be able to be resurrected. Roger laughed, ignoring the fact that Ah Xing next to him was already pale with anger.

"You bastard!" Ah Xing directly grabbed Roger's neck and said, "Did you know that this would happen in the end?" Those who enter the final dogma will directly become apostles, and those who do not will recover after completion, even if they become orange juice and die? You bastard, don't put your face away!! ”

At this time, Shinji Ikari and a girl who looked very much like Ikari Yui walked out of the door, and standing outside the door was Asuka with a forked waist, although it was a forked waist, but Asuka looked at Shinji Ikari's eyes very gently.

Ikari Shinji heard the laughter outside the street, it was a very hearty laughter, as if something had been touched in his heart, he suddenly left the two girls and rushed towards the street, while rushing over, his tears had naturally flowed out, but when he rushed over, there was no one in the street, I don't know if it was an illusion, he seemed to see the pillar of light, but he didn't remember anything, in the end, he could only stand there alone, only in his chest......

The indescribable emotion seemed to turn into courage, incomparable courage, which made him look back at Asuka who was running after him, and he yelled: "Asuka, Asuka, I, we...... When we grow up, let's go on a trip together!? ”

Asuka's face turned red and she was about to get angry, but seeing the tears on Shinji Ikari's face and his expression, I don't know why, her heart softened, so she just snorted and turned her head, but a voice reached Shinji Ikari's ears......

"Hmmm......"

"Tourist ......"