In the living room, three men were sitting on the sofa, smoking cigarettes, and no one squeaked.

Zhang Qinghai took a puff of cigarette, looked at Qian Si, and shook his head: "Fourth, don't be sad, my aunt is so old, and she is also at the age when she should go."

Before Zhang Qinghai finished speaking, Qian Si interrupted him with a wave of his hand.

"I'm just a brute, really." Qian said expressionlessly, tears still flowing out.

As he spoke, Qian Si snuffed out the cigarette butt, lit another cigarette, and smoked silently.

"Brother Zhang, you should know that my mother and I are both from the countryside." Qian Si took a deep breath of cigarette, and when he saw Zhang Qinghai nodding, Qian Si smiled: "If you can fight to this point, it can be regarded as my family's ancestral grave smoking." ”

He didn't care if we wanted to hear his story, Qian Si smiled and said it to himself.

When Qian Si was in school, he was a naughty child, he did everything to steal chickens and dogs, and because of this, Qian Si was thrown outside to play for almost half of his life.

When he first reached his twenties, Qian Si reacted, and it didn't seem like a way to play like this.

"At that time, I was lucky, and I accidentally got the first money, and then" Qian Si shook his head, his face full of bitterness: "Everything is logical, and I got rich." ”

In Qian Si's story, his business was smooth sailing, without even a little risk, and he made his fortune all the way until two years ago.

That is, in July two years ago, this luck was gone, it seems that God destined his family property to only have this, and he had to lose it in less than a week if he made more money, no matter how he made money, he could only keep it the same.

Let's put it this way, for example, if he had 50 million in his family property before the end of his luck, then after his luck disappeared, as long as his family property exceeded the 50 million, he would immediately have to lose as much as he earned.

"From the beginning of the business until now, I haven't spent much time with my mother." Qian Si pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray, buried his head and smiled bitterly: "I also want her old man to live a good life, earn money, buy a house, I took my mother to the city as soon as possible, good food and drink are provided, jewelry and clothes have never been left behind, but my mother never seems to be happy, and now I know Lu Dao"

Qian Si's tears poured out again, the remorse in his eyes could not be concealed, and his body trembled and said: "My mother just wants me to accompany her more, just wants me to go home for more meals."

"Fourth brother, since you are so good to your mother, why are you afraid of your mother?" I couldn't help but ask.

"After I was scared out that day, I was scared out of the way, and I thought that the ghost looked like my mother, but it was definitely not my mother." Qian Si held his head in his hands, sat on the sofa and trembled: "I thought that ghost was going to harm me, Brother Zhang, you should understand!" ”

Zhang Qinghai looked at him and nodded pityingly: "I understand." ”

"Every circle is not as simple as you see, whether it is an official or a businessman, if there is no vigilance, this person will have to capsize sooner or later." Zhang Qinghai explained to me in a low voice: "Some people are just overly vigilant, the richer they are, the more timid they are, the more powerful they are, the more afraid they are of death, and the fourth child is this kind of person." ”

"You're not?" I asked.

Zhang Qinghai shook his head: "My vigilance is not lower than him, but I am more courageous than him, and cowardice can't do big things." ”

Qian Si didn't care about my Q&A with Zhang Qinghai, he coughed a few times, lit a cigarette and smoked, and said to us intermittently: "If it weren't for my mother taking out my diary and photo album, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to calm down at that time."

"Diary," I frowned.

"Yes, my mother was a semi-intellectual, and when I was young, my mother often taught me to write and made me keep a diary." Qian Si said with a crying and laughing: "It's all about when I was a child, a diary, all written." ”

As he spoke, Qian Si handed me the diary in his hand without any scruples, meaning to let me see it for myself.

After that, I didn't think much of it and turned the first page.

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April 11, fine.

Today, I got up early, my mother made me porridge, it was delicious, and I made fish in the evening, although the fish was a little less, but it was still delicious, and the day passed like this.

April 12, fine.

Yesterday, I wrote my first diary, I can't write a lot of words, my mother helped me write them, and I have to learn a lot of words in the future, so that I can write by myself.

April 13, cloudy.

Today, my mother asked me if I would take care of her in the future, saying that she would not be able to cook for me when she was old, so let me cook for her.

I will definitely take care of my mother and cook for my mother for the rest of my life, and my mother is very happy to hear me say this.

And so the happy day passed.

April 14

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I silently flipped through the diary written by Qian Si, and every time I turned over a yellowed page, I felt a little more uncomfortable.

Seriously, I don't know why I'm so upset, maybe it's a poor old lady's performance, right?

"My mother is finally able to stay and see more of what I am for, I don't know what the hell I do, cherish it!!!" Qian Si raised his hand and slapped himself, crying heartbreakingly: "I'm just a beast!! ”

Seeing this, Zhang Qinghai hurriedly grabbed him and persuaded him to come down.

"I knew that my mother thought of me so much, what business did I have at the beginning?! Busy, busy, busy, I'm busy, I'm busy!! Qian Si sat on the sofa like a girl and cried, and after a while, his voice became hoarse, but he still didn't stop crying, and his tone was still so painful.

The tree wants to be quiet and the wind does not stop, the child wants to raise but does not wait, there are very few people who don't know the Tao of this sentence, but how many people really understand and change their own practices?

There will always be a day when a loved one will pass away.

Before he died, you may not care about going to work, or going to a party with friends, or going out to eat and play with your other half, but when the life of a loved one is over, 99% of people will regret it.

Why didn't you spend more time with your family in the first place?

Whether it is Qian Si or me, in fact, we all have this feeling of regret at the beginning, what he thinks is that he should spend more time with his mother.

And what I think is, I should spend more time with the old man, really

"You little white-eyed wolf, grandpa, when will I be able to enjoy your blessings" The old man often said this to me, with a smile on his face: "When you let Lao Tzu enjoy the blessings, it will be nonsense"

Just as I was immersed in my own memories, suddenly, I asked inexplicably: "Fourth brother, is the old lady important to you?" What does she usually do to you? ”

Zhang Qinghai gave me a strange look, and he didn't understand why I was asking this question.

In fact, I don't know why I would ask such a question, but I am very curious about the so-called mother.

"My mom was nice to me, really." Qian Si rubbed his eyes and laughed, his face was only proud of what he wanted to eat when I was a child, my mother did whatever it was for me, I fought with people when I was a child, my mother never scolded me, even when I skipped class when I was in school, my mother also helped me make fake notes." ”

"Oh, that's nice." I laughed.

As soon as the words fell, I patted my ass and stood up, and said with a smile: "Brother Zhang, fourth brother, I'll go back first, there is still something at home, I have solved this matter for the fourth brother, if there is any trouble, just call me." ”

"Xiao Yi, I'll drive you." Zhang Qinghai hurriedly stood up, but was persuaded back by me: "The fourth brother is still sad here, you accompany him more, I really have something to do at home, no, the time is coming." ”

"Little brother, this time" Qian Si wanted to say something, but as soon as he was halfway through, he was interrupted by me: "You can say thank you, Brother Zhang's friend is my friend, you're polite." ”

"Gone."

I lied to them, well, there's nothing wrong with the family.

I didn't go straight home either, well, because I wanted to be quiet.

I want to be quiet.

"Other people's parents are so kind, yes, my parents are really cruel." I lit a cigarette and happily pressed the road in the direction of the wreath shop, not feeling tired.

"Boom !!!"

As I walked aimlessly, there was a thunderous roar, and a torrential downpour fell from the sky, and in an instant I was drenched in soup.

I didn't plan to hide from the rain, I looked up at the dark sky, shook my head, and continued walking.

The cigarette was already wet with the rain, and no matter how much I smoked, nicotine still couldn't get into my lungs, but I still smoked it with pleasure.

You say that the smoke has gone out, but I still feel choked?

It rained for a long time, really for a long time, at least when I walked from the suburbs to the wreath shop, the rain had not stopped.

"Knock knock."

I managed to squeeze out a smile and raised my hand to knock on the door.

The moment the door opened, a familiar figure burst out, and then did what I was familiar with.

"Can't you bring an umbrella when it's raining" Zhou Yujia looked at me helplessly, tiptoed lightly, and wiped my head with a towel: "The meal is almost ready, you go take a shower first, don't catch a cold." ”

"I know it." I scratched my head, took a step inside, and asked her coldly, "Yujia, do you say that parents are important to a person?" ”

Zhou Yujia was stunned and said, important.

"Oh." I shrugged my shoulders and turned around to go inside, but at this moment, I heard Zhou Yujia's next sentence.

"Although you don't have parents, there are us, grandpa, fat uncle, me, my brother, brother Hai, and many others." Zhou Yujia followed me with a smile: "A lot of people are accompanying you, aren't they?" ”

"That's right." I smiled and rubbed Zhou Yujia's head: "There are you." ”

The reason why I was able to live in this fucking world in this fucking world in this fucking way may be because they are with me, if it weren't for them, maybe