Faced with such excitement on me, Lan Xuan didn't seem to have any reaction.

It's just habitually looking at me with her peaceful, warm but calm eyes.

And her eyes seemed to have a calming effect, and the excitement I was just now slowly became calm again, but I couldn't help but light a cigarette and said to Lan Xuan: "Lan Xuan, I found these clues, but they have nothing to do with my nose. ”

As I spoke, I touched my nose.

Lan Xuan is a very respectful woman, and I can see that although she wants to say something, she still tries to listen to me as calmly as possible.

"I know that I am inextricably linked with Nie Yan, and I even got the statement last time that I am very likely to be another form of Nie Yan's existence. I mean, well, resurrecting the dead? I'm not sure but after all, there is a saying called 'life and death grudges', and even in the legend, there is Meng Po waiting to give you a sip of Meng Po soup to make you forget. Lan Xuan, I am Ye Zhengling, I have lived for more than 20 years, and I have always been Ye Zhengling. Judging things this time can be said to be a coincidence, and it can also be said that I have some ability to pay attention to details, but it just has nothing to do with Nie Yan's identity. "I said seriously, carefully and carefully to Lan Xuan.

These are the words that I have been suppressing in my heart, and I want to say but dare not say them.

Because I'm afraid of creating wrong hopes for others, after all, no matter what, I am not the Nie Yan who was dominant, and even had an invincible taste.

I'm just Ye Zhengling, although I will have some fragments of memories from time to time, although I will also recall some things that Nie Yan has learned, although there is still a mysterious power sealed in my body.

That can only show that I am inextricably linked with Nie Yan, but I am still Ye Zhengling.

Before, when I found out, I had a self-identity barrier, but after these days, I found that I had actually thought about it very clearly.

"Zhengling, I understand your pressure. Are you afraid that everyone will see you as the former head of the family, and you just don't have the ability to recover yourself, and you are afraid that you can't bear these expectations, right? Yes, actually, I know that you are Ye Zhengling, not Nie Yan, the former head of the family. I also sometimes give you the illusion that we treat you as Nie Yan. Lan Xuan's words were soft.

As for me listening, I also felt that my heart was gradually becoming more honest and comfortable, and it turned out that Lan Xuan understood in her heart.

"Actually, never. I don't know anyone else, at least not me. If other people think this way, I will try to adjust their thinking as much as possible. Zhengling, and what I can prove is that if I really think of you as the former head of the family, I just need a little time to grow up. I'm not going to make the decision to get the news out there. ”

Lan Xuan calmly explained to me again.

I was surprised, what does this have to do with Lan Xuan's decision? But I didn't rush to ask, I just said the thing that I had suppressed for the longest time in my heart, and I said, "Lan Xuan, since you understand it so well. Perhaps, if I am given time to grow, I may not be able to recover Nie Yan's ability, why do you want to assist me so wholeheartedly? Why do you pin your hopes on me? In fact, for me, if you can't introduce the fact that I am Ye Zhengling, not Nie Yan. I don't care if I don't care about the head of the family, and I can not do it. ”

At this point, Lan Xuan's always calm face has changed a little.

But I didn't care about this change, but lowered my head and whispered, "Really, I don't care." I'm not pretending to be anything, I don't seem to care too much about my own safety, the only thing I care about is that after these days, I am a little reluctant to you and Su Ling, and to the people in this family."

'Smack', I didn't finish my sentence when I heard the sound of the cup breaking.

I looked up, but I didn't know when, the coffee cup that Lan Xuan had been holding in her hand had fallen to the ground, the cup shattered, and the coffee in the cup left dark brown tracks on the wooden floor

I subconsciously wanted to clean up, but Lan Xuan was faint and said a little coldly: "I'll just come." ”

As she spoke, Lan Xuan went to sort out the pieces, and I was a little stunned, even a fool could see that Lan Xuan didn't want to hear what I said now?

But Lan Xuan was also very upset, just a broken coffee cup, and when she was cleaning up, she actually broke her hand.

“tina。” When I saw it, I felt that my heart was also very heavy, and I subconsciously went to La Lanxuan.

Lan Xuan reacted violently and pushed my hand away.

"tina" I called Lan Xuan again, but the person was sullen.

Lan Xuan had stopped putting away the coffee cup at the moment, but sighed, the best again, still looking at me with the most familiar eyes, and was silent for a while before saying: "The head of the family died young in that year, without leaving a man and a woman. But the clues of a qiē and some of the things he left behind told us. The head of the house will come back and reappear. I just don't know in what shape shì. ”

"Joining the family of the demon hunter is like entering another world, whether you can enter or exit, but it is not something that anyone can control. After all, it is not an ordinary so-called enemy that is being faced, and the grievances of life and death are eliminated because they are facing another race, and the hatred is formed. Do you understand? What's more, our ancestors were adopted, adopted, and nurtured and treated wholeheartedly by the head of the family. It can even be said that the head of the family has a life-saving grace for everyone. It's all the more of a constant connection. And the education we received since childhood, the first cognition, is that we are members of the Huo Nie family, and we must be loyal to the Huo Nie family. When we learn to speak, even the first word that many people can call is not father, nor mother, but the head of the Nie family. ”

I listened silently, listening to Lan Xuan tell this qiē, it was like a myth, but it was so real happening in front of me.

"This is the inheritance of thousands of years, and some feelings have also been passed down. If you want to listen, I can give many examples, for example, when other children listened to fairy tales when they were young, we listened to the legend of the head of the family, Nie Yan. Do you think it doesn't look like brainwashing? In fact, it is not the sincerity of the ancestors, but the love and respect for Nie Yan, the head of the family, from the heart, have been passed down. ”

The blood on Lan Xuan's fingers had some shocking feelings, and I silently picked up the paper on the table and wiped it off for Lan Xuan.

Lan Xuan didn't react much, but she didn't refuse me, but continued: "Understand? This qiē? And for thousands of years, we have lived our lives carefully, because we lack the protection of the head of the family! But we have also been passing on a hope from generation to generation in our hearts that the head of the family will come back. We can't accept that, like other families that have lost their heads, we either join another family or re-establish a demon hunter as our head of the house. The Huo Nie family has a great reputation, and we can't afford to lose this person, and we can't accept it emotionally. ”

"And we have hope. You have a qiē of evidence that indicates that you are the head of the house and have come back in another form. Therefore, since it is another form, I can naturally accept that you are Ye Zhengling, not the real Nie Yan For me, you don't need to be very powerful at all, and you don't need to restore the demeanor of the head of the family back then, your preservation is the greatest spiritual comfort. Don't you understand? You actually told me just now, it doesn't matter if you are the head of the family, do you know, at that moment, my heart was cold? ”

After saying these words, Lan Xuan was silent.

And almost never before, her eyes were filled with tears, and she looked at me so fixedly that her face was hot and her heart became more and more sad.

"Lan Xuan, I'm sorry." After a long silence, I held back such a sentence, and at this time, I hated myself for not being able to give more comforting words.

"You didn't feel sorry for me, you didn't even do anything wrong. I'm just emotionally hard to accept, right? Lan Xuan sighed faintly.

"Lan Xuan, I am actually willing to bear the fire of the Nie family, and I actually want to identify with the identity of this family master. I'm just afraid that I won't be able to protect you. Although I don't care much about Nie Yan's identity, there is one thing he has done, I really want to do it, and I care about it, that is, I really want to protect you. Although, this sentence, I said so unconfident. Looking at Lan Xuan's disappointment, I finally said something that had been suppressed for a long time.

I'm a person who doesn't get easy to approach and socialize, but I also know too much the emotion in my own heart.

As long as it is a person or thing that I accept, I am willing to pay with a hundred sincerity, and it is not hypocritical to treat it sincerely, but I understand myself.

And I, who have already accepted Lan Xuan, Su Ling, and even the secret guard that night As for the entire Huo Nie family, I am also accepting it, and I must admit it myself.

Hearing my words, Lan Xuan's eyes had been holding back tears for a long time, and suddenly they fell out, and she choked up and said to me: "Isn't this enough?" And you promised me that you would never mention it again! ”

"I promise you." I solemnly agreed to Lan Xuan, and I suddenly realized that if this was the case, it would be for all the people in the Huo Nie family to hear it, and it might not bring them sadness, but a kind of collapse.

Hearing my words, Lan Xuan smiled, although she was just smiling, she could feel that she was really smiling happily, and it was also from the heart.

The next moment, she wiped away her tears and said, "Then I'll tell you now, why do you want to spread the news?" ”

"Hmm." I was still reluctant, but after some sincere exchanges, my mood seemed to have crossed a big obstacle and completely relaxed.