I can't remember exactly when or where, but I started to feel the urge to write a book

At first, I was ridiculous at this idea, but what I was best at that time was denying myself

The idea of writing was stifled in the cradle, and I still read novels every day, sometimes even in the afternoon, and when I looked up again, it was already dark outside

Until one day, I started asking myself, why not give it a try? Create a world! I thought it was crazy at the time, but why not? There is no way to know the outcome of anything without trying, just as a prophet who predicted the future would never exist

So I started to write, hehe, I was really stupid at first, I didn't even know how to write an outline, and I didn't know what typography meant, so I still had to print it out and arrange it neatly? Hehe, but it's also very simple, very simple, it's just a hard stuffy writing, constantly writing, constantly writing

Later, I began to learn and grow in failure, I knew the importance of the outline, the importance of the role, and what aspects to design the setting, but I could always usher in the care of failure, the strange thing is that I never had the idea of giving up, I felt incredible, I didn't want to give up, I kept writing, because I felt, how the process of writing a book is, it should be said that it is ...... happiness

My day began to become full, not the decadence of the past, I began to act like a naïve child, giving a strong response to everyone who denied me, no one around me supported me, anyone who heard that I actually started to write novels, either perfunctory response, or dissuasion, and even some simply waved their hands, affectionately said to me: "Let's face the reality, honestly getting a job is not better than anything, what are those useless things, there is no seriousness." ”

My response, which I have responded with, has turned away, and everybody has shown me that the result is often a hundred times more effective than any eloquence, any well-founded argument.

I continued to write that there was a break from work for a while, but during that time, I felt like a person working for work, and I had no hope

Later, I quit my job and started a new round of decadent life.

I don't know the reason for writing again, I really don't know, it's that one day, I opened the writing software, thinking about what I had written before, recalling, and later, I felt the simple happiness at the beginning, as long as I can write, it is happiness

I started to think uncontrollably, I started filling my computer desk with coffee, Red Bull, because I knew, it felt good, the feeling of working hard for a dream

As a celebrity said, dreams are those that make you feel happy no matter how hard and painful it is, and you can feel happy even if you endure hardship

But failure again and again, made my heart more and more impatient, and even had the urge to write a book in one chapter, hehe, at that time, every time I opened a new book, I would think that I would fail, and in the end I even had a little fear, every time I opened the writing software, I would feel fear and heavy head, and my heart was like a big stone

Later, after using a new beginning as an excuse to escape my past, and changing a lot of author accounts, I became addicted to alcohol

I began to forget, the simple happiness and obsession at the beginning, and began to hate, hate myself for being incompetent, and hate God for not giving me a chance

Until the autumn of 2012, I was living like a dead dog, according to our dialect, I really died

I don't know why, I don't know where to start, maybe it's when I'm bored, or I'm just waking up from a hangover or even drunk, I found a lot of inspirational movies, some dancing, some surviving, and some love

After reading it, a thought arose in my mind, why not believe in yourself, why not keep going, why not give more, why ...... If you want to give up your dream, is it because you really don't have the ability, or do you not want to work harder?

Later, I forgot about this thought and continued to live a life soaked in alcohol

Until the end of the year, I met some friends by chance, at first I met in online games, and some of them met in reality, and then every time the server restarts, they would chat a few words, they knew that I was a lowercase, and then they were very enthusiastic and said, "Send it to see!" "I even sent them a little bit of a connection, and later, after a while, no one asked me how the novel was written, and every time I brought it up, they would change the subject, and I knew that they didn't know what to say so that it wouldn't hurt me, and I believe my friends, buddies, think so.

But I have a few friends who keep telling me, "Hold on!" Come on! ”

No matter how many times I failed, they always said that, always trying their best to make me persevere, to this, those two goods said: "We didn't choose to pursue our dreams, regret it, you have to persevere, you second goods, don't give up!" Friends support you! When are you sad, find a friend! ”

Those two goods will always patiently look at the beginning, outline, and give their suggestions I sent to them, and we will laugh at some of my magical thoughts, scolding each other, in fact, it is not very strange, it is nothing more than a small solution that results in sulfuric acid...... Or an upgraded version of a woman with twin peaks, four peaks......

Later, gradually, I began to believe in myself, believing that I could do it, and I didn't need any reason or any basis to prove it, in short, I just did

My second-hand friends also started to tease me, and I clicked 'Duel' in the game, and then became a glorious 'Kikube worker'

Later, because I wanted to code words, I gradually put down the game, put down going out with my buddies, I thought it was a kind of pay for me, but when I couldn't write about the ordinary emperor, I found that they were still supporting me, the first sentence of the meeting: "I didn't give up, did I earn it, waiting for you to drink!" Hahaha! ”

These two goods, hehehehe

But it was so inexplicable, I began to regain the feeling of writing the book at the beginning, and I also began to fantasize about how beautiful I would appear in front of my buddies after I succeeded, how proud my parents were, and proudly handed over the house keys, car keys, and various keys to my parents, and then looked at my parents with great satisfaction and proud smiles

I started telling myself that I could, I didn't need any reason, no basis, no proof, I just could

I kept telling myself that I was going to make it

Now, I just can succeed, it's just a matter of time, I just can succeed, I can

Now, when I arrived at this magic book, I began to write without impatience, and began to enjoy, enjoy the process, as long as I can write, it is happiness, and even sometimes I have finished writing and uploading, or I still think, write another chapter, as a deposit

I started to enjoy it, it was like watching an 'action movie', haha.

As for the future?

Dreams, let me fail, persistence, hard work, the process of hard work, become full of happiness, I don't know why, I still found the beginning, the dream of simple want to persevere, simple happiness, simple persistence, simple like feeling

Dream is to make you feel full of happiness no matter how painful it is, how many times you fail, how hard you work, how tired you are

Dreams, in addition to realization, although there are other functions, but the most important function is the process of realization, and after realization, there is also the time of realization, oops, let's realize it

Dreams, it feels really good! Let's make it happen!

The last sentence, sooner or later, hey, hey, hey