Zhuangzi. "In the Autumn Water" has a saying: "Gain but not happy, lose but not worry, know the impermanence." ”

The meaning of this sentence is: when you get honor, you don't have to be ecstatic and carnival when you get honor, and you don't have to be sad, sad and sad when you lose it, and the boundary between gain and loss will not change forever. All fame and fortune are just fleeting gains and losses, and this situation of loss and regain often happens, to realize that everything may change due to the transformation of time and space, you can see through fame and fortune, and honor and disgrace are not concerned about it.

During those days, Jiang Xiaohan sympathized with me, sympathized with my relationship with Nan Nan, sympathized with everything I suffered for this, sympathized with my heartbreak; On the other hand, it is sad that I have lost the material conditions I once had, and it is sad that the woman I first met was not her; I wonder if I will be able to live the life I once hoped for in the future.

I could see that the other party was reluctant to change his feelings, but at that time, my heart was not on this at all, but all my energy was focused on the wedding business, hoping to make huge profits through this industry, so as to make up for the deficit caused by the lawsuit.

In the end, Jiang Xiaohan still chose to stay by my side, even if she didn't have those expensive little gifts in the past, even if she didn't go to her favorite Cantonese restaurant for morning tea, even if she didn't give her anything, she would still sleep with me.

At a wedding banquet I was organizing, Jiang Xiaohan met a photographer who came to cheer the groom on. That person was the groom's hair boy, and he played the role of a photographer for free at this wedding. said to be a photographer, but in fact, people are worth more than 10 million, and photography is just a hobby. Look at the long lens like a cannon, plus the full set of photography equipment, you know that this guy is definitely a rich man.

Somehow, Jiang Xiaohan and the other party left their contact information, and then started with text messages, and then made phone porridge, and even flirted with each other in front of me.

"Who, are you annoyed to say those sensual words?" I sat lazily on the sofa and questioned Jiang Xiaohan a little angrily.

"It's just a friend, you're jealous, really." Jiang Xiaohan covered the phone and replied with a blank look.

"Ordinary friends can say anything." I straightened my chapped lips, sat up straight, and warned the other person word by word.

"What's in your way, I didn't sleep with him." Jiang Xiaohan hung up the phone in his hand and asked me rhetorically.

"Why are you like this?" My voice raised an octave. "What's wrong with me, I'll stay with you if you have money or not, what else do you want me to do?"

"Unreasonable!" "What are you talking about, who is unreasonable, you explain it to me, Jia Shu?" Jiang Xiaohan came up and pushed me down on the sofa, pinching my waist with both hands, and forced me to make it clear.

"I know who that person is, and I know that the other party has money, if you think the other party can give you everything you want, you can go to him, don't show me a stinky face." I couldn't hold back any longer, and what I said hurt a little.

"What's wrong with having money? Is it sinful to be rich? Aren't you also desperately trying to make money now, striving to become rich as soon as possible? Is it also wrong to know more rich people? Jiang Xiaohan asked countless rhetorical questions in a row, and I was really angry.

"You've changed so much, it's completely different from what you used to be." I stared at Jiang Xiaohan for a long time, squeezing out this sentence from between my teeth.

"You're still different from before, don't you cherish it after you get it?" Jiang Xiaohan sneered.

Although Jiang Xiaohan still stayed with me for the night that night, they were all together for the memory of the beauty of the past, and they lost the original purity and beauty, and the physical friction alone could not produce spiritual resonance.

From that night on, I went back to the way I used to be, hanging out in nightclubs every night, with different women, but I kept the bottom line of zuihou and didn't touch it.

And Jiang Xiaohan rarely contacts me anymore, I think our relationship is over.

When the Chinese New Year was about to begin, Jiang Xiaohan found me and asked me to accompany her to Tong Erbao to see the fur. I was so surprised that my jaw was about to fall to the ground, the other party's monthly income was less than 2,000 yuan, and he dared to go to see furs, either because he was taken care of, or because he had a fever and burned his head.

And Jiang Xiaohan's answer made me speechless, "I have a class reunion after the year, I want to dress in style, so that those classmates who once despised me in private will obediently shut my mouth." ”

I especially hate women who are greedy for vanity, and Jiang Xiaohan at this time is among the ones I hate. It is said that girls in the Northeast can sell their houses and buy mink coats for the sake of face, and this time I really understood. I really miss Jiang Xiaohan who was happy for a week for a bear hug, but I haven't told Jiang Xiaohan until now that the price of the bear hug is really not cheap.

In the end, I still accompanied her to Tong Erbao, because I was also idle. Although I don't plan to buy anything for the other party, deep down I still hope that the other party can return to the way they used to be.

During the days when I didn't see Jiang Xiaohan, I kept speculating whether the other party would find that man, and I was mixed with each other this time. Happily, I shouldn't have gone to the man, otherwise she would never have come to me to accompany her to see the fur coat; The worry is that I don't have that financial strength anymore, and I'm a bag bag at best.

In the business hall of Tong Erbao Fur Dashijie, Jiang Xiaohan tirelessly walked around one after another, trying one after another, until a silver-white short mink coat appeared in front of her eyes, and she stopped this crazy move.

"This one fits well, how much does it cost?" Jiang Xiaohan twisted his body in front of the mirror, and that kind of lofty look made me particularly annoyed.

"Your vision is really good, this is the latest model, and our family is still on sale, if you want to buy, we can give you a 10% discount." The shopping guide praised Jiang Xiaohan while calculating the price with a calculator, "After the discount, 40,500 yuan!" ”

"Oh!" Jiang Xiaohan replied as if no one was around, and then locked his gaze on me.

"I just came with you." I politely declined the other party's look for help.

"Then I'll take a look." Jiang Xiaohan reluctantly took off his mink coat, glared at me, didn't greet me, left the shop on his own, and then returned to Liaoyang alone. Even when I sat next to her in the car, she didn't say a word to me.

I thought that the relationship between the two of us would be over, but I didn't expect Jiang Xiaohan to stay in my store that night.

I haven't had sex for a long time, and I was so brave under the teasing of the other party that I was so tired that I didn't even want to move my fingers, so I lay on the bed and gasped for air.

Jiang Xiaohan naughtily held my earlobe and whispered: "Jia Shu, you deceived me so hard!" ”

to be continued