When "Gu Zhenren" was blocked, I had a hard time.

During that time, I had severe insomnia, a bad mood, and too much stress. Every day, they will bask in the evening sun to increase melanin secretion. Usually, I move a small bench and sit in front of the window.

"The Little Prince", "The Ordinary World", "The Kite Runner", "The Moon and Sixpence...... Almost all of these books were read during this time period.

Pretty!

Sometimes I hide my thoughts, and sometimes I am moved to tears.

One day, I looked up and suddenly found that my life has always been full of sunshine and beauty. Darkness and pain are more from the self-exile of the soul.

It's like a stand-in boy who has the ears of a bat monkey and suddenly feels the sound of nature and experiences the beauty of nature.

All difficulties are no longer difficulties.

This experience prompted me to think: what is the value of literary works?

No one's life can be smooth sailing. Life is not easy, there are many tribulations, many twists and turns. I was fortunate to be able to see these works, and when I was in pain, they were like lights in the darkness, giving me the strength to break through the mental barrier.

When you think about it, it's actually a very romantic thing.

In the time that I don't know how many years away, far away from where I now live, there was such a person who had woven a lantern with his or her own painstaking efforts and put his or her spirit and soul into it as a lamp. Then it is thrown into the long river of human history and floats on the river.

People who are lucky enough to see such lights, whether he (she) is in the upper, lower or middle of life, whether it is turbulent waves or beautiful scenery. This light can bring him (her) a touch of the heart and feel the beauty in it. Or love, or the pursuit of dreams, or the reflection on life, or the search for truth.

Man is lonely, man life is limited, man is very small, the whole human race is actually very fragile, we have been living on the earth. A single virus has the potential to disintegrate an entire human society. Ethnicity, culture, and geography have alienated people, even today, with the development of the Internet. Such lights, however, cross these barriers.

Those who make the lights tell others this way, across races, religions, geographies, and the margins of time: I have lived, I have thought this way, and I have been moved this way. This is my light, and I especially hope to be able to use this insignificant light to bring as much help to others as possible. Even if it is just a little touching, it is the greatest comfort in life.

Perhaps, this is where the value of literary works is reflected.

In fact, when I wrote "Gu Zhenren", I felt this way. I communicate with readers, and the happiest time is not when readers say they feel good about which chapter they see, nor when they discuss the setting of Gu worms. Instead, I remember that a classmate said that I wanted to learn from Fang Yuan his spirit of never giving up, and I drew strength from "Gu Zhenren" and got a good score in the final exam. My family was in hardship, my parents were divorced, and I used to feel that my life was terrible, but I found new hope in Fang Yuan's perseverance.

The ancestors had a word that was created very exquisitely - it was called seeing the sages and thinking together.

These past creative experiences and life experiences triggered my impulse to create "Infinite Blood Core".

It's not so much about writing a book as it is about lighting a lamp.

Even if the light of this lamp is extremely weak, I want to do my best to help some of my friends, who may have suffered for a time of darkness and pain like me. Bring them some strength.

What I hope is that when we encounter difficulties in life, when we are misunderstood, spurned, and disgusted, when we are deceived by life, when we are tormented by our dreams, and even when we make mistakes that we can't forgive ourselves, I recall the roar of the substitute teenager-

"I'm not a needle gold. ”

"I'm not a genius either. ”

"I don't have a noble bloodline in me. ”

"I'm not a Templar. ”

......

"My original memories have been erased, and now my memories have been instilled by others and are still mutilated. ”

"You all know your names. ”

"I'm not as good as you, because I don't even know my name. ”

......

"We are born ordinary. ”

"We are ostracized and hated. ”

"We were betrayed by our loved ones. ”

"We are never treated fairly. ”

"We have sinned, and we cannot forgive ourselves. ”

"We were spurned, exiled, wanted, ridiculed. So what?"

"Shouldn't we think about it?"

"Shouldn't we do it?"

"Reality has made us so miserable, life is so bad that we can't bear it, we can only be better if we think about it. ”

......

No matter what, we should pursue the good in life.

The sun is actually there all the time.

But do we look up?

This creative concept began to sprout in the later stage of "Gu Zhenren", and the writing of "The Legend of Human Ancestors" brought me a lot of inspiration in my life. When "Gu Zhenren" was blocked, he was clearly aware of this. When it came to "Infinite Blood Core", it was my official attempt and development.

In this way, we can live up to this life.

Encourage you all.

August 30, 2020.