"What about you? Why did you come down with me in the first place? Do you feel sorry for it? ”

Jingkong looked at me deeply and said, "That day, as soon as the abbot announced that he was going to draw lots, I felt strange. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info When you stupidly held up the lot, I saw that the abbot's eyes were so complicated, and I didn't feel good in my heart at that time, and I felt very guilty, and I felt that you were all for me to do this, and if the abbot didn't know about the events of that day, I guess there wouldn't be that one. ”

After speaking, Jingkong lowered his eyes and looked at his hands, looking at his infinite regret.

I leaned over and hit his arm with my shoulder, comforting him: "Don't do this, I don't blame you, don't take it to heart and torture yourself!" ”

Jingkong nodded lightly, "um", a smile hung on the corner of his mouth, much more relaxed, put his arm around my shoulder and said: "You have been different since you were a child, you are smart and clever, and you are liked, and you are the most painful abbot in the temple." You were only thirteen years old at the time, and you were still so young, and when you went down the mountain alone, the abbot must have felt uneasy in his heart. I thought he would be much more at ease if I followed...... Moreover, I myself can't really rest assured that you are a little thing. ”

I pushed him, not convinced, "Just because of this unrelated matter, Master has to go to such great lengths to drive me down the mountain?" Not really, right? It must be that you are thinking too much. ”

Jingkong was a little unconvinced, and looked at me, "Then you can tell me, why did he make that one, it doesn't make sense!" I have been following the abbot for more than ten years, and although you are together all the time, you don't necessarily know him as well as me. I just have a feeling that the abbot is definitely doing this with you, and it should be said that he has good intentions. It's a pity that his old man is gone, and he can't verify it. ”

For a moment, we were both silent.

After a while, Jingkong glanced at me, and when he saw that I was wilting, he said, "The abbot's kindness to you is really unparalleled, if it weren't for the fact that his old man is too old, and he spoils you so much, everyone will wonder if you are his own."

This guy actually learned to joke too, and I went up and punched him, "Did you talk like that?"

As soon as he grabbed my fist, he looked at me with a melancholy expression and said apologetically, "I'm sorry."

I didn't care, "What's there to be sorry for?" Besides, it's been so long, why do you remember it?"

Clearance nodded, "yes, it's been so long. I thought about how much I liked you as a little junior brother at the beginning, and I was still very angry when I saw Yaochen being good to you. ”

Jingkong sighed when he said this, but immediately waved his hand to me and denied: "I'm not jealous, I'm just afraid that you will be snatched away by her if you are not strong-willed." ”

I laughed and teased him: "You don't have to explain, what do you explain?" The darker it gets. ”

"Okay, Pure Heart, why are you still so bad, let you talk about me!"

The clearance pounced on me and squeaked me, and I laughed and fell on the zen bed kicking and kicking to avoid him.

After making a fuss for a while, he deliberately let the headroom occupy the peak. After getting the cheap, he sat up straight with satisfaction, not wanting to look gloomy again in an instant, lowered his eyes and said, "Hey, I didn't expect that in the end, I was the one who broke the precepts." ”

At this point, the clear air's face showed a look of pain.

I took his hand and tightened it.

He raised his head suddenly, stared into my eyes with some eagerness, and said, "What I told you at the beginning was true, I really wanted to be with you forever, and my goal in life at that time was to protect you forever."

"I believe it."

Jingkong suddenly smiled bitterly and said, "Actually, I thought that I would be able to return to the temple after a year and a half of traveling with you, who would have thought that people's fate would change from then on."

I was speechless for a while, yes, it was like a node, not only did his fate change, but why wasn't my fate? Perhaps, this was our fate in the first place, right?

After immersing myself in my past thoughts for a while, I remembered to ask him, "Senior brother, didn't you decide to stay with Yaochen?" How did you get here again?"

Jingkong sighed, "Since we separated from you that day, we have settled in Ye City. used the golden beans you gave as the capital and opened a tofu shop. Yaochen grew up beautifully and became a famous tofu Shih Tzu, and our business was very good, but it also attracted some ruffians and hooligans.

Yaochen knows how to spell and can always rectify them, but nothing happened. But later, Yaochen became pregnant, and her spells became less and less effective as the months increased. is often bullied, not to mention, and the business is also much worse than before. ”

Speaking of this, Jingkong was silent, lowered his head, rubbed his hands together one by one, immersed in unbearable memories and couldn't extricate himself.

I was about to comfort him, but he suddenly raised his head and looked at me with a look in his eyes that was both tangled and painful.

"Pure heart, do you think I'm particularly useless? I can't even protect my own woman. ”

This question may seem simple, but it is actually very difficult to answer. Let's say no, he obviously has a hurdle in his heart, and he can't get over it himself; Let's say yes, if his self-judgment is confirmed, he will always be condemned in his heart, and I am afraid that this life will not be easy.

I had no choice but to throw out a topic and divert the conversation, "Senior brother, no, didn't you say that you opened a tofu shop and Yaochen opened a tailor shop?" Why did you only open a tofu shop?"

As a child, Jingkong followed my thinking, put aside the question just now, looked at me innocently and said, "After renting a house, the principal is only enough to open a tofu shop."

I regret this, I shouldn't have listened to him at that time, what kind of entanglement, how good it would be to leave him all the golden beans.

"And then?"

"Yaochen is a demon, I am a human, it stands to reason that we can't have offspring, but she just has it. I was actually a little scared in my heart, afraid that she would give birth to a monster. But Yaochen insisted on keeping this child, and she must give birth, and her attitude was very resolute, so I also let my heart go with her, anyway, as long as she was happy.

When she was pregnant, she was very good, but who knew that it was very hard when she was born, she had a difficult birth, hemorrhage, and she didn't have time to take a look at her son after giving birth, and the person was gone.

I also blame me for not thinking well, at that time, I saw that she couldn't give birth and was so anxious that I couldn't find a midwife, but I didn't expect her to return to her original form after she died, and the midwife was so frightened that she screamed and fainted on the spot.

At that time, I was so grief-stricken that I had the heart to go with Yaochen, but my son's cry woke me up. That's the only blood and blood between me and Yaochen, can't let him just lose his mother and father, right? Without his parents, how can he live such a weak life?