"What am I missing?" Jia Jing was stunned, and her eyes showed reminiscence. Pen fun and pavilion www.biquge.info

She was sixteen years old that year, and she was already a sophomore in high school, although her family background was very ordinary, she was beautiful, good at studying, her heart was higher than the sky, and she wanted to compare herself with others in everything.

"Why is it that people like them can afford to buy brand-name bags and use the best cosmetics, they never work hard, but they live so well."

"No, I shouldn't think about it, I'm willing to work hard, I'm studying well, I have a future."

"No, no, even so, it's too unfair, they are also high school students, but what kind of thing are they, they dare to despise me, relying on their family conditions to be good, they don't take everyone seriously?"

"I'm going to work harder, but...... Still unwilling. ”

Jia Jing has been in infinite entanglement and pain, these thoughts appear in her mind repeatedly, whether it is staying up late to study, or for poor odd jobs, these subtle breeding things always linger in her heart.

"Xiao Jing, look how pitiful you are, doing all this tiring work, the money you get is not enough for you to change into new clothes."

During the summer vacation, one of her classmates, named Li Yao, came to the shop where she worked.

Li Yao seemed to come to her on purpose, but she remembered that she was not very familiar with Li Yao, and she often heard some bad rumors about Li Yao, and when she was in school, she usually avoided Li Yao.

"Do you want to make a lot of money, and then buy some high-end things, so that others will look up to you?" Li Yao flaunted her name tag, leaned on her ear, and opened her mouth in confusion.

Jia Jing thought about it, and knew what she meant, subconsciously shook her head, and continued to wipe the table, but if she said that she was not impressed, it was false, and she was proud of her good study, but the future prospects could not solve her current itch.

"Don't be so rigid, I used to be like you, just a dirty little girl, go out, others laugh at me ......"

Li Yao continued to persuade, and she didn't know who she learned from, what she said was very tricky, and every word could sting Jia Jing's heart.

"No, you're going to be gossiped about by that." Jia Jing shook and spoke, but still shook her head desperately.

"Don't worry, I can tell you, my boss has long taken a fancy to you, as long as he speaks, no one dares to talk about you, besides, how normal this kind of thing is now, you do it secretly, you can get a lot of money, and you can't suffer any losses, it's definitely a ...... to make money and not lose money."

Under Li Yao's verbal offensive, Jia Jing slowly fell, or in other words, looking forward to a chic and nourishing life, she had subconsciously hypnotized herself.

"I study well, I look beautiful, as long as I promise her, I can raise my eyebrows now, make up for my many regrets, all I pay is my body, anyway, people of my age are said to be young and fun-loving, and it's not a big deal......"

"I don't need to think about it, as long as I do it, I can realize my wish in advance and become the most perfect me that everyone envies."

Jia Jing thought of the end, cheered herself up in her heart, and then she threw away the dirty rag in her hand and resolutely looked at Li Yao.

It didn't take long for her to really do it, and she used her young and beautiful body to accompany the boss night after night.

She took a lot of money, that amount was something she couldn't have imagined before, she looked at the standing in front of her, she was about to be her father's boss at the age, she felt a sour feeling in her heart, she seemed to have lost a lot of precious things.

"If he had known, would he have looked at me?" At this moment, the long-cherished male god of the same class flashed in the bottom of his heart, and Jia Jing lowered his head gloomily.

"But...... It's already happening. ”

She finally lived a luxurious life, but when she was in that envious gaze, there was always a thorn in her heart, and that thorn made it useless for her to regret it......

The scenes that the memory had transformed shattered, Jia Jing woke up suddenly, and looked at Zhong Ning with trembling eyes.

"My life was not satisfactory, I was young at the time, and I didn't know how to have this choice." She muttered as if explaining.

"yes, I already know I regret it, what else can I want?" Jia Jing lost her soul and looked at Zhong Ning with tears streaming down her face, "Actually, I don't want to, licking that man's feet, I still have to laugh very happily, this feeling of being insulted, can you know?" ”

Her gaze dodged something, but around her, there was another round of memory fragments.

The money she got was said to be earned from part-time work, and no one would believe it at all, her clothes became more and more eye-catching, and what she did was finally passed on.

She once cried to the boss, but the boss told her with a cold face that he couldn't help it, and even more, the boss was tired of her and stopped looking for her.

"I'm so stupid, I suddenly became dazzling, how could I not arouse the suspicion of others, I shouldn't have done it in the first place...... It's okay to stop making that dirty money, it's too late to change now, and no one should talk about me anymore. ”

"No, I've changed back to my original appearance, how can they look at me with so disdain and disdain again, and even have a contempt that they didn't have before."

"What should I do, they know that I am tired of being played, what is the matter with this gap from heaven to hell?"

Jia Jing was going crazy, especially when she returned to that shop, she was clutching the dirty rag in her hand, and she had mixed feelings in her heart.

"Why, with my appearance, why do I do such a tiring, dirty and unprofitable job when the money comes so quickly?"

She finally got angry and threw away the dirty rag in her hand again.

Not long after, she appeared in some chaotic places, she let go of her body and mind, and even marked the price clearly for herself, got into Boss Wang's car today, opened a room with Boss Zhao tomorrow, and met a more perverted Boss Zhang the day after tomorrow......

She made a lot of money, and she received more and more criticism.

"No, I'm actually for my pursuit, for my perfect life, those people shouldn't despise me so much, I'm not that kind of person in essence......"

She made the best excuses for herself and believed in them even in the future.

With this excuse, she didn't need to glance at the directions that might be promising, the money that went directly to her hands was the real deal......

"It's all excuses, then, dreams and reality, interests and self-esteem, are confused from the beginning, I erected the archway high, but I can't have it from beginning to end, what do I want?"

As the picture of the memory faded again, Jia Jing found that she had to face herself, and her heart gradually sank to the bottom.

Her eyes became hollow, and she looked at Zhong Ning blankly, either talking to herself or asking intentionally.

"I ...... Lost yourself? ”

Zhong Ning didn't answer, and the room was already silent.

After a long time, Zhong Ning slowly raised the blood blade in his hand.

"Judgment...... You are guilty! ”