Chapter 34: Grief
Jiu'er fainted on the ground, Xin Yi's whole body suddenly relaxed, it seemed that she was a little overworked, and after slackening, she actually sat on the stool with some unsupport.
Her expression was no longer as amazing and charming as before, but it was full of confusion and sadness, looking at Jiu'er who had fainted on the ground and was silent for a long time.
I was also stunned on the bed, I thought about many possibilities for being discovered, and the only thing I didn't expect was that Xin Yi would make a move on Jiu'er, just for a 'stranger' me.
After all, she is not the Xin Yi I remember now, and what she experienced in the dungeon, I can only guess, but I have no way of knowing.
In reality, she and Jiu'er are a good match in the eyes of others, and for herself, even if she is not, Jiu'er is good to her, and they also have a deep relationship between them.
Shoot for me? That's just something out of logic.
I couldn't think of a reason, so I didn't want to, but lifted the quilt and the curtain and stepped out of bed.
Xin Yi looked up at me, and I looked at her, and there was a brief silence in the atmosphere between them.
I didn't know what to say, but I picked up a painting from the ground, and in the painting was me as a teenager, a back, looking back, frowning slightly, with some impatience, but helplessly looking behind.
Once, did I look at Xin Yi like this?
"Shall you go? I'm not skilled in dreaming. In a few moments, Brother Jiu'er should wake up. "Just as I was looking at the painting, Xin Yi spoke, she was reminding me to hurry up, she made such a move, it doesn't mean that I am safe.
"I'm gone, so what are you going to do?" I held the picture in my hand and asked subconsciously. What will Jiu'er do when she wakes up? I'm worried.
But I didn't want to, Xin Yi didn't answer my question, but lowered his head and looked at Jiu'er, as if talking to himself, as if asking me: "You say, why do I do this again and again?" Two days ago, it was true in the fighting ring, and it is true today? I don't know the wolf man, and I don't know you. But why should I break Brother Jiu'er's heart again and again? ”
Xin Yi's confused appearance makes me feel distressed, in fact, the fault of this matter is not her, from all the facts expressed, she seems to have subverted her memory.
I sighed softly, walked up to her, crouched down, looked at her, and asked in a low voice, "You really don't know me?" ”
Xin Yi looked at me, sometimes frowning, sometimes confused, and finally shook her head, she fell into emotional self-blame and guilt, but deep in her soul she couldn't forget how she felt about me, and she was pulled into all her actions, and it would be very uncomfortable for anyone to be in this state.
I didn't want to hide anything from Xin Yi, so I simply held her hand, her hand instinctively retreated, trying to break free, but I didn't give her a chance, just held it harder.
Unexpectedly, she was confused for a moment and let me go again, but she couldn't help but struggle a little and said helplessly: "What do you know? Can you tell me? You see, like now, I don't want to refuse you pulling me, but I don't know why, it's so uncomfortable. ”
"It's very simple, because I am not who I am now, and the wolf man you met two days ago is not me." I told the truth in one sentence.
Unexpectedly, Xin Yi was shocked all of a sudden, and it took a long time to digest my words before he said, "You mean, you are also a wolf?" But whether it's a wolf or now, it's not you? This sentence is very tongue-twisting, and it seems that Xin Yi also took a long time to organize the language before saying this sentence.
I nodded, and for a while I didn't know if I should tell the shocked Xin Yi some truth?
But Xin Yi grabbed me as if he had grasped a life-saving straw, and asked eagerly: "Then tell me, did we ever know each other?" Like you said, we not only know each other, but we grew up together. Are you a fox too? Did anything happen between us? I'm sorry, I was injured more than half a year ago and can't remember everything anymore. I vaguely remember the previous years, I was with Brother Jiu'er, but I can't remember the specifics. ”
The more Xin Yi spoke, the more anxious she became, and I just looked at her blankly. Although I already knew that her memory was messed up, gone, and I couldn't remember everything. But have you forgotten everything? Have you forgotten the thunderstorm night when she and I first met as a child, grabbing a wet rag doll and knocking on the door?
Forget, I was playing crazy next to a group of children, and she was squatting under the tree in a daze, talking to herself with Xiaohua Xiaocao?
After forgetting the familiarity, she followed me, silently pitiful? Have you forgotten that at the station where I was taken away by Master, she was chasing the car, and I threw her a formation symbol that I carried with me?
A lot, a lot? Even though she remembered how she felt about me, those memories were gone. And those memories are very ordinary to me, until Xin Yi went to this dungeon, until Xin Yi forgot it, I didn't know how precious they were.
I thought that I couldn't shed tears when the sky fell, but under Xin Yi's anxious and painful appearance at this moment, my eyes were red unconsciously, I held Xin Yi's hand tightly, put my head on her knees, and several tears fell like this.
Xin Yi's somewhat cool hand slid down my cheek and wiped away my tears, I couldn't help but look at her with hope, she looked at the tears on her fingertips, and said more and more confused: "Can you tell me?" Why is this happening, as long as it's you, I'm happy when I see it, no matter what you look like? Why do I rejoice when you are happy, and now that you are crying, I want to cry too? You are in danger, I instinctively want to help you, even if it will break Brother Jiu'er's heart and make the clan unhappy, I can't resist myself? ”
I didn't answer Xin Yi's question, wiped away my tears, put the painting in my hand in front of Xin Yi, and said to her, "Then can you tell me?" What's so good about this kid? Do you want to forget? Actually, up to now, I don't think he's good at all, and he thinks that in the old days, he should have been better to you. ”
"You know him?" Xin Yi was suddenly excited, and his hands almost subconsciously grabbed me: "Tell me, where is he?" ”
I opened my mouth to tell Xin Yi the answer, but I didn't know why, a huge sense of entanglement that I didn't dare to face Xin Yi was eroding my heart. In the face of Jiu'er's kindness to Xin Yi, I feel guilty and inferior. In the face of Xinyi, I thought of Wanwan, and blamed myself for being sad and struggling.
At this time, Jiu'er snorted as if she had a premonition.
Xin Yi's face changed, let go of me, and said to me, "No matter who you are now, let's go?" Brother Jiu'er is about to wake up, there are many elders and big people in the dungeon living here, once something happens, you can't escape. ”
I also knew the seriousness of the matter, and I didn't have time to tell Xin Yi about our past, so I said to her: "I got the news that in just a few days, you will be judged, and then you will be tortured, is it true?" ”
"Is there such a thing? I don't know. The only thing I know is that since the incident in the fighting arena, the elders of our clan have begun to urge me and Brother Jiu'er to get married, and the days are just around these days. I don't know if I can delay this matter, after all, the elders closest to me are also very uncertain. I, I don't know why I'm saying this to you? Xin Yi was helpless and confused.
I frowned, unable to figure out the connection between the two events.
But time was pressing, so I said to Xin Yi, "I'm not from the dungeon, and my only purpose in coming here is to take you away." If you want, find a way to contact me, I will live in the XX inn of XX place in this Qinglong City. I don't have time to go into detail about the question you want to ask, I can only tell you that your past is definitely not what your people told you. Your name is not Tiansi, your name is Xinyi. ”
I don't know why, in the end, I couldn't tell Xin Yi my identity calmly at this moment, that feeling of being scared to face it, because I didn't even understand the position of taking her away. She is a fox clan, a sky fox. Beside her, there is a man who admires her, who is kind to her, and who is a nine-tailed fox who matches her so much. Moreover, there are her people.
"Xinyi?" But Xin Yi didn't know what I was thinking, just muttered the name, and the whole person fell into deep thought.
I couldn't delay any longer, stood up, looked at Xin Yi deeply, and said to her: "No matter what choice you make, and then what will become of the future because of this choice?" Your position and mine's position will be very different because of this future, but you remember, I am here today to say only one word, and I will never make a move on you, never. Even if it turns its back on my faith and protection at that time. ”
My words made Xin Yi cry inexplicably, she looked up at me and said, "I don't know what you're talking about?" I don't know why I'm crying? But why do you and I have to go against each other, and to the point of doing something to each other? ”
Her words reminded me a lot, the long-ago Nie Yan and Wanwan, and now me and Xin Yi.
"Because of fate." I turned around and walked out of the room, just explained to Xin Yi so simply, then looked at her face and said to her, "I don't know what will happen when Jiu'er wakes up?" But you promise me that you must protect yourself. Otherwise, this dungeon will be messed up because of me. ”
"Don't worry, I'll be fine. Jiu'er, Brother Jiu'er, he won't care about me in the end. As long as he doesn't know who you are, everything will be fine. Xin Yi hesitated for a moment and said this to me.
I nodded, and with an indescribable sadness, walked out of Xin Yi's room.