Li Muyu listened to Hu Ze's words, and couldn't help but look at Hu Ze's eyes a little strangely, but Li Muyu's eyes were naturally skipped by Hu Ze. Hu Ze ignored Li Muyu, just lowered his head and continued to look at the book in his hand that seemed to never finish.

Li Muyu smacked his lips, and couldn't help but ask Hu Ze again: "Have you really not been afraid?" Even when you were young? ”

Hu Ze raised his eyes and looked at Li Muyu, and moved the corners of his mouth: "Yes." ”

"That's?" Li Muyu continued to ask.

Hu Ze put down the book in his hand, his eyes lowered, and he seemed to think about it. When Li Muyu was a little impatient to wait, Hu Ze spoke, his voice was a little low, and the story he told was a little cold.

"I didn't live here when I was a kid. It's a little bit of a remote city, but there's nothing I want to remember too much, and I can't bear to think about being seen as an alien.

The city was not big, and most of the people lived there because of a large company in that city, which may have been the habit of those days, and the whole city was like a huge living quarter.

However, every household in the city knows that the whole city has its own life network, which is also an advantage under that system. However, it is precisely this characteristic that makes people unable to look up in the whole city once they are considered outliers. Not to mention fitting into the circle there. It's like if you go grocery shopping, the grocery seller will talk about you in a whisper after you leave, pointing fingers at people behind your back.

And I was treated so specially. Hu Ze's face couldn't tell whether he was happy or sad, but when these words came out, Li Muyu could still feel Hu Ze's own pain. But Li Muyu couldn't help but wonder, how could Hu Ze be regarded as an outlier?

Hu Ze is not like Qin Yao, nor like himself, at most, he is a little bolder and a little harder, but so what? Li Muyu was puzzled, but he didn't say anything to interrupt Hu Ze, Li Muyu knew that since Hu Ze was willing to speak, he would naturally tell the matter completely.

"My father died when I was very young. It was an accident that happened while at work. Although the unit subsidy at that time gave my family a lot of subsidies, it was a drop in the bucket for a family where my mother was seriously ill in bed and I was a child who didn't know anything.

As a result, within a few years, my mother also died, and my mother died a painful death, and she did not close her eyes until she died, because I knew that she was worried about me, worried about how to live in this world without me. But who can stop death from coming?

After my mother's death, the company arranged for me to be fostered in someone else's home, and the family had no relationship with me, and because there were some bad things about my parents' death, the family was also very angry with me. As for the word 'home', I didn't feel that way at all. They didn't pay any attention to me other than what I ate and drank every day, and maybe they would be happier if I died. When Hu Ze said this, his eyes couldn't help but dim a little.

Li Muyu can think of how much pressure Hu Ze faced when he was a child. Hu Ze said that because of the death of his parents, others have some bad things to say about him. Others may not be able to understand it, but Li Muyu knows what this sentence means.

When he was a child, Li Muyu was also hard-fated, so following the arrangement of his ancestors, Li Muyu's parents left Li Muyu to go out to work, because Li Muyu was afraid of his parents. At that time, Li Muyu complained about this, but now that I think about it, it was this arrangement at that time that allowed Li Muyu to still have a complete family.

But what about Hu Ze? Hu Ze's life is harder than Li Muyu's, and even the death of Hu Ze's parents, Li Muyu can't help but speculate that it may really have something to do with Hu Ze's life. So after Hu Ze's parents really passed away, what will other people say about Hu Ze?

Hard-hearted? Freak? Scourge? Presumably, if it wasn't for the company's arrangement for Hu Ze to go to that family life at that time, no one would be willing to take Hu Ze in at all. Hu Ze also said that the system of that city, after word of mouth, Hu Ze naturally couldn't get rid of the title of disaster star. At the very least, most of the people in the city will look at him differently.

Li Muyu looked at Hu Ze, looking at Hu Ze's forever cold face, and his heart couldn't help but feel a little understandably gloomy.

Hu Ze paused for a few moments and then grinned at the corners of his mouth, revealing a smile that was certainly not good-looking. Hu Ze shook his head, took a deep breath, and spoke again.

"That's how I lived in that family. They usually don't let me into the house, and when I rest at night, my bed is in the hallway outside the door, and I later learned that only dogs are like that.

The family was very afraid of me, and really kept me away like a disaster, and even for so many years, the family did not touch me. Hey, but that's good.

But I didn't have any memories of that place.

At that time, in the big market, there was a butcher who sold pork, surnamed Zhang, who was a butcher in that era, and selling pork was a good livelihood, because in the era when food and clothing were difficult to guarantee, being a butcher would naturally make others envious.

I usually like to wander around the big market, so naturally I know the butcher surnamed Zhang. Later, I kept calling him Uncle Zhang.

Uncle Zhang was not a fat man in my childhood memory, and even as a butcher, he was thinner than the others, but he was thin and had an awe-inspiring face. Most of his face had been burned by fire in his early years, so one can imagine what he was like.

It is precisely because of his appearance that people in the city rarely communicate with him too much, just like me, he is also an excluded person. But it is precisely because of this that I am very close to Uncle Zhang. In other people's mouths, the reason why we are close is precisely because things gather like and people gather in groups.

At first, I knew Uncle Zhang because I saw Uncle Zhang dismembering a pork rib there, and "Water Margin" described the ability to chop meat in Zhenguanxi, but compared with Uncle Zhang, I think there is still a bit of a gap. Not to mention the ability to chop meat and only chop fat or only fine meat, the ability to debone from the pork is something I have never seen at all.

Uncle Zhang saw that I often watched him chop meat, so he also had some different kind of care for me, sometimes secretly called me into the butcher shop, took out a few meat buns for me to eat, by the way, and oil residue, that was my favorite food when I was a child.

Now that I think about it, maybe I could have been a butcher. Hu Ze said, and a gentle smile finally appeared on his face.