Chapter 135: Leaving Home in Case of Change
Looking at my dad's tired face and red eyes, I knew something might be wrong. I asked him www.biquge.info pen "Fun", but he didn't say. Just took out two bottles of beer from the refrigerator, then tried his best to squeeze out a smile, and said to Zhang Yufei: "This is my son's girlfriend, I don't know if you came back today, you didn't cook any good dishes, you are tired, take a good rest!" ”
After that, regardless of whether we were resting or not, he picked up a bottle of beer and started drinking it alone. I looked at my dad at this moment, for some reason, I felt that he was much older again, and I looked at the morning sun, and there were a few more strands of gray hair on his head, and I didn't know where my mother had gone, so I asked him, where is my mother?
My dad didn't say anything, just took a sip of wine, then took a piece of paper from his pocket, I took it, and five big words came into my eyes.
Critical Illness Notice!
It turned out that my grandmother's diabetes had worsened into uremia, and my mother was in the hospital with her at the moment! Now my grandmother needs dialysis, which costs tens of thousands of dollars a month.
My dad was drinking and his nasal voice was getting worse, and he said that he really wanted to give me a reassuring environment for me to get married and have children, but because of my grandmother's illness, he really couldn't hold on, and he really couldn't come up with so much money. He was ready to sell the house he left for me to marry in the future. After speaking, he asked me a little silently: "Son, you don't blame Dad, that's Dad's mother, I must be her!" ”
After listening to my father's words, my mind went dark. What happened to my grandma? How did she get sick? I hurriedly asked my dad which hospital my grandmother was in now. After my father told me, I didn't say a word, so I took Zhang Yufei and took a taxi to the hospital.
My grandma is really sick, and at the moment her bedside is surrounded by my mom and my uncle and my aunt! Looking at the old appearance of my grandmother on the hospital bed, my heart couldn't help but tingle, I thought that my good days had just arrived, but life was far from being as smooth sailing as we imagined. I thought my future would be bright, but I didn't expect that what was in front of me at the moment was pitch black!
I once swore to myself when my grandfather died that I would protect what I cherished from now on, and not let them leave me! But can I really do it? For the first time in my life, I had questions about myself!
In the face of heavy economic pressure, in the face of birth, old age, sickness and death that everyone will experience, I now realize that in fact, we are so small, there is no shortage of you in this world, with you or not, you can't change anything!
My mother tried her best to calm down after seeing Zhang Yufei, and then smiled and said, "Is this my daughter-in-law?" It's beautiful! ”
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I didn't listen to what Zhang Yufei said again, I just slowly walked to the roof of the hospital, lit a cigarette, inhaled deeply, and didn't spit it out, the spicy feeling from the lungs made me a little dizzy, I looked at everything around me that had been blurred, I fell to the ground unconsciously, and my grandmother's voice and face kept coming from my mind.
She always loves me the most, and she smiles every time I come back, but I know that every time I leave, she secretly wipes her tears and says to my dad that she hopes I won't lose weight when I come back again! I remember when my grandfather died when I was a child, my grandmother used to tell me that everyone will have that day, but when that day came, I still couldn't accept it!
Unconsciously, I actually found that I was crying, and this time I cried so moving, because I felt that I might not be able to make a difference in my life, because after losing again and again, I found that I was so powerless!
In the evening, my grandmother woke up, she was skinny and her eyes were blank, but when she saw me, she still smiled, and I understood that this kind of laughter is called love! I held back my tears, then smiled a little and said to my grandmother, "Grandma, whatever you want to eat, I'll buy it for you!" ”
My grandmother opened her mouth, but she didn't say anything. My mother pulled Zhang Yufei over and said to my grandmother: "Mom, look, this is Xiaogen's object, your eldest grandson has a partner, you can hold your grandson in the future!" ”
My grandmother heard this, but she couldn't speak, she just took Zhang Yufei's hand and stroked it vigorously, I knew that she was afraid that she would not see her in the future, so now take a good look at her granddaughter-in-law!
Seeing this, I walked out into the hallway, where my dad was smoking cigarette after cigarette. I asked him how much would it cost for his grandmother to see a doctor?
He said weakly that he would need at least 200,000! He is going to buy the house and take my grandmother to Beijing for treatment, after all, there are the best medical conditions, and my grandmother will live longer there!
I looked at my father in front of me, this man who was over half a hundred years old, at the moment his hair was grayer, and there were more wrinkles on his face, the heavy pressure of life may crush his backbone, but it could not overwhelm his love, thinking of this, I secretly made a decision, and then returned to the ward alone!
The next day, when the sun was just rising, when the first rays of sunlight came through the window, my mother woke up, and she found a letter left at the bedside, the content of the letter was very simple, "I'm leaving, you don't have to worry about the money, I'll raise it, I'll live in our house for a while, she is very good to me, I hope you treat her well." ”
At this moment, I was at the railway station in Hailar, looking at the city that gave birth to me and raised me, I was suddenly very reluctant, I wanted to leave Wuhan and live in Hailar for the rest of my life, but I found that it didn't seem to belong to me here!
Obviously at the most brilliant age, but he has to carry a heavy burden. Although I know that my parents will definitely raise the money, and they want me to be happy, I don't want them to worry about this at such an age, and I have to grow up after all!
When I was younger, I wanted to grow up quickly, so that there would be no heavy homework, no scolding from my parents, and no criticism from my teachers. But until now, I realized that growing up is not about getting older, it means that you have to take on some responsibilities. Means what you're going to lose!
Seriously, I hate myself now, I can't achieve anything, I want to be awesome but I don't have the capital. I laughed, got on the train, and left the snowy Hailar! Leaving the hometown I just came back to!
At the moment, my mind is very messy, I don't know what I rely on to make money, what I am good at others, but in the end, a person slowly appeared in my mind, his obscene face, windless and automatic mustache, obviously a Taoist priest, but wearing a watch and tie! There's only one way out now!
Thinking of this, I looked at my hometown that was gradually moving away from me, and silently muttered in my heart, Changchun Guan, I am here!