Time flies, and fifteen years have passed in the blink of an eye. Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info As we grow older, we remember more and all kinds of people and things, but we also forget a lot of things that we thought would be remembered in our hearts.

Since my sister died, we have moved. The diaries were also kept inside the old house. Suddenly one day they come back into your sight, and it's a mixed feeling.

[May 16, 2002: Sunny

I was teased by my classmates today, they said that they were all surnamed Qiu, and my sister was the first in the school every time, and I was always at the bottom. Why? They always compare me to my sister? 】

[May 17, 2002 Sunny weather

My sister beat me again today because I broke his doll, and what is good about a broken doll, she knows how to bully me. Mom is also a piandan sister!

I cried all day, and my sister smashed my car.

I thought it would be nice if my sister disappeared one day. I can get all the love from my mom and dad. 】

My heart was pounding, how could I have such a thought back then.

[May 18, 2002 weather: light rain

I hate my sister, she is always better than me, with her as a foil. I can only be the one who will always be scolded, and she scored a double 100 points in the exam today.

She also sued Mi that I skipped class, and I was scolded by my father.

I hate my sister, why doesn't she die, if she dies, my parents won't scold me. 】

Is this what I wrote? My eyes were fixed on the crooked diary, as if I had an impression. I can't believe that I would have such a thought, that I would curse my sister to death? How could I be so vicious! This must be fake, this is not a diary I wrote!

Suddenly I scanned the date again: May 18, 2002!

And May 19th is my sister's death day, and I will never forget that day.

Suddenly, an image flashed through my mind of a bottomless sewer with no manhole cover in front of me. I gave her a sudden!

No! No way! It was my sister who fell down carefully, and it was an illusion just now! Definitely! How could I kill my own sister in a fit of rage!

I shook my head desperately, my brain feeling like it was going to explode.

"Step! Trample! "Suddenly I heard a sound of heavy footsteps.

"Step! Trample! Trample! "It's getting closer, and the sound is getting clearer.

"Boom! Boom! Boom! "My heart was beating wildly, and I just turned around in great pain.

Suddenly, I saw a pair of sticks hit me in the head.

The sky was full of stars, and I couldn't see the person in front of me. Consciousness began to blur, and then he fell to the ground with a heavy blow.

In the middle of the night on 19 May 2002, my parents had not yet returned, and it was pouring rain. My sister picked up a basin that had just been dragged into the house, turned it over and put it on her head, and rushed out.

My sister was busy going back and forth between the kitchen and the hall, and finally she was done, but she was completely soaked.

Outside the window, lightning and thunder roared, and I was so scared that I kept crying.

The parents didn't come back, and the sister, who was already restless, finally got angry: "Cry! Just know to cry! What else would you do but cry! ”

After my sister finished yelling hysterically, she kicked me with two feet.

I was frightened by my sister's momentum, and I stopped crying in an instant, but the tears were still rolling in my eyes.

Soon my sister realized that she was a little excessive, and said softly: "That, I didn't mean it, aren't you looking for your parents?" I'll take you. ”

On a rainy night, there was no one on Lingshi Road. My sister took my hand and hummed a song as she walked.

I carried the huge plastic bag on my head and watched as the rain dripped and fell on the bag in a graceful arc.

In the dim light, the colors of the rainbow are refracted.

It's beautiful! I'm going to keep that aura.

I cautiously reached out and gently tore open a hole to let the rainbow in for a short rest.

"You've got a donkey's hoof on your head! You're going to have to tear it open a good plastic bag. Stupid! How can I have such a brother! "My sister noticed my stupidity, and her brow furrowed, and she had a look of disgust.

The rain was getting heavier, and I kept my head down and didn't speak, letting the rain blur my vision.

There was a lot of water on the road, reflecting the color of the lights.

Layer upon layer, it is a colorful fairy mountain. When the rain falls, it is a delicate flower. They are alive and kicking elves, welcoming a new journey.

I was a little stunned and let out a "Wow!" Yikes! Laughter.

"Stupid, it's hopeless! All day long, it's either giggling or talking to yourself! How can I have such a brother, shame! ”

"Little girl, hairy boy!"

Ahead, my mother shouted loudly, and there was some surprise in her tone.

Hearing my mother's voice, my sister snorted coldly at me and walked quickly in the direction of my parents.

A trickle of water flows into a circular underground world in front of it, which is a small waterfall.

My mother told me that there are 18 floors in our world, and each floor is a bustling world. The round black hole is the entrance to the next world, and it would be good if my sister wanted to go down, and she would go to the next world, so that I could get all the love of my parents alone. Without her, my parents wouldn't have scolded me anymore; My classmates won't laugh at me anymore, and no one will rob me of anything anymore.

A voice appeared in my head: "Push her! Push her down! Push her! 】

Once sinful thoughts are initiated, they are not easily extinguished.

I rushed up, with all my might, and pushed in the direction of the sewer.

"Ahh ~" My sister looked at me incredulously and quickly disappeared into this space.

My sister's eyes are forever fixed in my mind, and it is an extremely complex look, with anger, sadness, heartache, and resentment......

"No!" The mother's heart-rending voice was heard, and she fainted.

Without my sister's cynicism, I suddenly suffered from gains and losses.

I suddenly realized that I didn't hate my sister much, and she wasn't so cold to me.

Once, I was bullied by two older classmates, and my sister scuffled with those two without saying a word.

Although she is taller, she is a girl after all, and she was pressed to the ground and slapped by one of the boys.

Her face was swollen and the corners of her mouth were bleeding. The next day, he still took a stick to get justice for me.

I began to blame myself, to assume the scene of that day over and over again, and to start repeating the story of that day in my heart over and over again.

I began to excuse myself constantly, and eventually it evolved into a memory of my sister falling into the sewer herself.

My father beat me up and wanted to take me to the Public Security Bureau. Later, the mother pleaded bitterly that her daughter was gone and that she could no longer watch her son die.

Then we moved and stopped telling anyone what had happened. The only photo of my sister at home was also burned by my father, who said that she should never have this daughter.

Although he has a hard mouth, he doesn't know how many times he has secretly cried under the covers.