"How do you have that idea? Before, you despised me for caring about treasures regardless of my situation, and now you are actually indiscriminately analyzing and dying."

Qian Yuan got up from the ground and brushed her wet hair back "Actually. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info。。 I was in the water and remembered some unhappy things, and now I think about it... Rather than being tortured by that incident all the time, it would be easier to die. I did have this kind of self-abandonment before, but I never took any substantive action because I didn't have the courage to face death, and now ... I wish I was dead."

The doubts on Zhang Chen's face became heavier and heavier, how could a girl in her twenties have such thoughts? What terrible things did she go through?

Although two people are strangers, meeting each other at this time and circumstance can be regarded as living and dying together, just like a person meeting a fellow countryman in a foreign country, whether the two have known each other before or not, they will have a sense of intimacy, not to mention this terrifying world full of mysteries and crises.

"I don't think you should think so, everyone has bad times, no one's life will be perfect, life ... Not everything has to wait until you lose it to know how to cherish it."

"Really?"

"You don't have to believe my words, but you can ask yourself in your heart, no matter how difficult it is in ordinary life, when you come to this hellish place, do you miss the ordinary?"

Qian Yuan was silent... Zhang Chen's words can be said to be a wake-up call, reminding her of relativity.

Yes, maybe I have experienced despair and pain, but these are not enough to make myself truly ruined, even if I reject my mother at home, refuse to forgive her, and even hate her, but every time I am in danger, the first person I think of is her! After all, apart from her mother, she has no other relatives in this world, no matter what she has done, no matter whether she forgives her or not, she still loves her mother deep down.

Seeing that Qian Yuan fell into deep thought, Zhang Chen's expression also became a little melancholy, "Actually, to tell you the truth, I have also encountered terrible things, which are not something ordinary people can imagine... Whether you can see it or not, I suffer from depression and have tried to commit suicide several times, but every time I am about to touch death, the coldness ... That fear ... ”

looked at Zhang Chen deeply, his temperament and eyes at this time completely changed, this good-looking boy, he always thought he was an ordinary peer, and the two of them were forcibly sent to this place together, but I didn't expect him to be very similar to himself... Maybe the experience is different, but the kind of disappointment in everything in the world revealed in his eyes now actually has a feeling of empathy.

"Maybe we can share a story?" Qian Yuan pursed her lips and smiled.

"What? Over here? At this moment? ”

"Anyway, I'm not in a hurry to find a way out, let's take a break"

There was one detail that the two of them had only noticed now, and that was from the time they came to the ship and then ran away and finally entered this place... I only feel tired all the time, but I don't feel hungry! However, this is not enough to cause panic, because if you estimate carefully, it will not be more than a few hours, although it is impossible to determine the exact time.

The two sat down cross-legged face to face, and there was a great sense of sitting and enjoying themselves, but if Xi was here at this time, he would definitely silently send some praise to the two of them, you must know that as a human being, as long as you encounter one or two incredible scenes or events in the half-soul world, there are many people who immediately have a mental breakdown and go crazy, in fact, it is not that you are required to overcome all fears, and that is not realistic, because no matter how powerful a person is, when he encounters a mysterious and uncontrollable situation, he will be somewhat afraid and worried. But how much time it takes to get used to it is a question, which is called mental quality. Often, those who have had great psychological trauma and terrible experiences are more likely to accept the truth and respond to the saying that everything that cannot defeat you will make you stronger.

Zhang Chen stretched out his hand and made a gesture of please, "Lady first?" ”

Qian Yuan is not the kind of girl who twists and turns, on the contrary, she has a very simple personality, "Ahem, what should I say?" Actually, the first half of the story is very bloody.,If you laugh at me, I think it's normal.。。。 Two years ago, when I was not yet 20 years old, like many college students, I didn't pay much attention to my studies, and I was busy with falling in love most of the time."

"At that time, I was very naïve, really naïve, I felt that I had the whole world when I had a boyfriend who seemed to be good, and I wanted to give everything I had to him, and then I accidentally got pregnant"

Zhang Chen smiled bitterly and touched his nose, "This... Pretty normal, huh? Are you desperate for this? ”

Shaking her head, Qian Yuan's gaze fell again, and her tone was very flat, "No, no, it's just a little helpless, and it hasn't reached that point yet." If you think what I said before is normal, then being aborted by your own biological mother by poisoning is not so common, right? ”

"What?!" Zhang Chen grew his mouth and looked at Qian Yuan in disbelief.

With tears in his eyes, he forced out a smile of embarrassment: "That's right, yes, yes, yes!" I had the same expression at the time, but it was many times stronger than yours."

I took a deep breath and continued, "I didn't have a father when I was a child, my mother raised me single-handedly, and in my eyes, she was my role model, that kind of elegance and temperament, I can't learn after imitating it for a long time." It's just that what I didn't expect was that she would be able to deal with things without being shocked to that extent! ”

When I told her about it, she was really surprised and annoyed, and promised me ... Will handle this in the best way possible, I believe it, because I said how helpless and overwhelmed I was at that time. And in the middle of dinner that night, the sharp pain in my stomach made me instantly understand what she meant."

Speaking of this, Qianyuan couldn't control her tears anymore, sucked her nose, choked up and said, "When I knew I was pregnant and confessed to her, the child in my belly was almost three months old... At first, I thought it was because I didn't pay attention to the diet rules, and even the ordinary vomiting and swollen body didn't remind me... And do you know what her demeanor was at that time? Still so calm, still like that... Calm. She said。。。。。 This is the best option for me, and this method is to make sure that I don't get overwhelmed by the overflow of motherly love! ”

"My mother, when she saw me gritting my teeth and enduring the pain and the indifferent eyes when I was studying abroad... I didn't know her for a moment! I'm not even sure who this woman in front of me is?! Ha~~ It's really a fulfillment of a saying.,Even biological parents or children can't fully understand each other.。。。 ”

Xiao Yihong defended her daughter's life in her own way, not hesitating to make this decision, risking that she might be hated forever, but also desperate, and Yang Qianyuan's world completely collapsed from that moment on... As he said, it was then that she realized that she knew too little about her mother...

Zhang Chen did not stop the crying Qian Yuan from continuing to cry bitterly, but chose to be a qualified listener and continued to listen carefully to her sharing on the side, "What about later? ”

After about half a minute, Qian Yuan eased her breath and swallowed her saliva heavily, "I still haven't figured out how I feel about my child, at that time I was just a little girl who didn't know anything, and I didn't have much sense of responsibility or anything, in fact, if she asked me to do this, I would take out the child myself, but what makes me sad is... How could she take such a measure without regard for my feelings and safety? I don't understand... How could my mother, who used to dot on me like that, do such a thing to me! In the past two years I have tried to understand her countless times, but now I find that I can't... I just can't do it。。。。。。。 I didn't talk to anyone, including the child's father, and I haven't been in touch with him since. ”