I fumbled for the oil and re-lit it. The inside of the small temple was restored to light.

I played with the kitchen knife in my hand and asked Mr. Lu, "Then the two of us." Do you want to kill yourself? ”

Mr. Lu smiled awkwardly, then turned his head, looking at his appearance, obviously reluctant to die.

I laughed and said, "In another hour, when your disease strikes, you will definitely have to beg me to kill you." ”

Mr. Lu asked me, "Do you still want to kill yourself?" ”

I said lightly, "I've always wanted to kill myself. Reincarnation is too bitter. ”

The expression on Mr. Lu's face suddenly became very strange, he looked at me with a smile and asked, "What kind of suffering method is reincarnation?" ”

I looked at him puzzled: "Don't you know the pain of reincarnation?" Underfed, poorly clothed, frail and sickly. Blinded. The physical pain, the psychological pain, is too much...... What's more, our memories are never erased. Death is not the end, but the beginning of the next round. There is no end to this pain, and there is no hope in sight. Every time I think about it, I shudder. ”

Mr. Lu's face was cloudy under the lamp. His eyes were staring straight at me, and he could see that I was hairy all over.

I said with some panic: "Mr. Lu, don't scare me, I'm not even afraid of death, am I still afraid of you?" ”

Mr. Lu retracted his gaze and asked faintly, "Zhao Mang, I suddenly remembered a question. ”

I asked, "What's the problem?" "Honest craftsman Yangcai.

Mr. Lu said: "Reincarnation is painful, and this is what the Buddha said. After he came up with this theory, he sued us. If you devote yourself to the Buddha and cultivate hard, you can transcend reincarnation......"

I nodded and said, "That's right, that's right." It's a pity that the two of us don't have wisdom roots, and we have never reached the realm of Buddha. ”

Mr. Lu nodded, then hesitated and said, "Have you ever wondered if the Buddha would be wrong?" ”

These words made me panic for a while: "Mr. Lu, you have been reading Buddhist scriptures all your life, and now you suddenly sue me, the Buddha is wrong?" ”

Mr. Lu waved his hand and said, "I didn't express it well. I mean. The Buddha thought that reincarnation is very suffering, so should we follow him? ”

I was stunned. Faintly. I feel that Mr. Lu's words seem to have leaked something. I was like a person who was rushing in the dark at night, groping for a long time. I never found my way, and suddenly, there was a little fire in front of me.

I excitedly said, "Go on, don't stop." ”

Mr. Lu shook his head and said, "I didn't know how to think of this just now. Maybe I just talked about the world and thought it was fun in the world, and it didn't seem to be so painful. ”

Mr. Lu couldn't think about it. But his words showed me the way. I stood inside the room, pacing back and forth. He kept saying, "The Buddha thinks that reincarnation is very suffering, should we think so?" The Buddha thought that reincarnation is very suffering, should we think so? ”

I walked around the room a few times, then picked up a piece of charcoal from the stove and wrote it on the wall.

First, the Buddha believed that reincarnation is very hard, so it is necessary to practice hard to attain Nirvana and become a Buddha and get rid of samsara.

Second, the bull-headed horse face thinks that reincarnation is very bitter, so he banishes us here.

Third, we think that reincarnation is very bitter, so we should listen to the words of the Buddha and recite the sutras diligently.

Fourth, if we want to get rid of samsara, we can only recite sutras, and there is no other way.

When I had finished writing this, I crossed them out with charcoal. Then a sentence was marked:

If this method doesn't work, we won't be able to reach the state of nirvana. It means not being able to get rid of samsara, it means suffering all the time.

I deduced step by step as if I was doing a mathematical proof problem, and came to a conclusion: we can't escape, we can only suffer here.

Mr. Lu kept looking at me silently. At this time, when he saw that I had come to such a desperate conclusion, he couldn't help laughing, and he said to me, "You were writing and drawing on the wall excitedly, what do I think you have learned?" The result is such a sentence. ”

I waved my hand and said, "Don't worry. I haven't finished writing yet. ”

I moved to another wall. Started writing again. This time it's short. It's just two sentences.

One, the Buddha thought that reincarnation was very suffering, and we don't think so.

Second, reincarnation is not bitter, why should we do everything possible to escape?

Then I started staring at the wall in a daze. The charcoal in his hand couldn't help but draw a circle on the words "reincarnation is not bitter".

Mr. Lu walked up behind me, stared at these four words, and said slowly: "In life, there are joys and sorrows. For so many years, we have been worrying about how to escape from reincarnation, without thinking about it, in fact, the world is also very interesting. ”

I nodded and said, "yes." Over the years, I often didn't have enough to eat and not have enough clothes. Desperate to get out of this situation, I scratched my ears and cheeks. In fact, when I think about it, I have seen a lot of things by begging along the streets and walking through the streets and alleys. Secrets, gossip, no one knows better than me. When the storyteller told the story, everyone listened to it with relish, but the stories were far from what I had experienced. ”

Mr. Lu also snorted: "If you say so, I also think that I have not lived in vain all these years." Although I have been riddled with illness, I still feel that I have been infinitely useful when I look back on such a rich experience. ”

I said, "From the beginning, we were bewitched by the bull's head and the horse's face. Every time they were reincarnated, both of them would intimidate us and tell us how we would suffer in the next life. Actually, I think there is a side in the world that is not bitter. ”

The two of us say a word to me, as if we are cheering each other on. Dig hard into the joy of life.

In the end, Mr. Lu said with a smile: "The memories of the two of us have not been erased, do you think this is immortality?" ”

I also smiled: "It turns out that this is immortality, and the two of us still want to escape from reincarnation, isn't this a hard time?" ”

At this time, a gust of wind suddenly came from outside, which directly blew down the small temple.

My body was crushed by the masonry, and blood flowed out. Immediately afterward, the wind and rain fell and drenched me. It's a terrible feeling.

I opened my mouth and silently picked up the rain from the sky.

Mr. Lu next to me asked me, "Zhao Mang, what are you doing?" ”

I laughed, "I suddenly found myself a little hungry, just in time to catch some rain to fill my stomach." ”

Mr. Lu laughed: "Wonderful, wonderful." ”

I heard his voice tremble a little, and when I turned my head, I saw that Mr. Lu was rolling in the mud.

I knew in my heart that Mr. Lui's illness had flareed up again. I asked knowingly and asked, "Mr. Lu, what are you doing?" ”

Mr. Lu said: "It's raining, I'm a little cold, just shaking the curtain and shaking the poison tube to rejuvenate the song!"

I laughed: "Mr. Lu, you can really comfort yourself." ”

The pouring rain poured down on us. Mr. Lu and I laughed loudly in the rain.

After a while, the rain gradually stopped. Immediately afterwards, the dark clouds also dispersed. A bright moon appeared in the sky.

In the moonlight, I saw a mess. The small temple was completely destroyed.

I pulled myself out of the bricks and staggered to my feet.

Mr. Lu also got up from the ground and stood beside me.

I saw that everything in the little temple was destroyed. Only two futons remained. Placed on the ground upright, spotless.

I limped over. Reaching out and touching the futon, it was actually dry.

I sat down on the futon, breathed a sigh of relief, and said, "I'd love to see the bull and horse noodles now." ”

Mr. Lu sat next to him and asked, "What do you see them doing?" ”

I said, "They sent us brothers to suffer in samsara. But instead of feeling pain, we have been blessed with misfortune and reaped the benefits of eternal life. If they had known, would they not have smoked from the seven orifices of anger? ”

Mr. Lu clapped his hands and said, "Yes, yes, what you said is very right." ”

The two of us sat on the futon for a while. I suddenly said, "Mr. Lu, do you feel that something seems wrong with the sky today?" ”

Mr. Lu said: "There is something wrong, but I don't know what is wrong. ”