Chapter 798, I am still the same me
The enchantment was still in the old place, but before I could go in, Xi Lin dragged me aside and whispered, "It's not too much for someone like Chen Dapeng to die a hundred times, you haven't done anything wrong." ”
"But I killed! Whether or not the person I killed should have died a long time ago, I feel that my behavior is abnormal, and I must find out why! I said.
"So you decided that the reason was with the Soul Bell?"
"I've considered other possibilities as well. But now......" I suddenly realized the crux of the problem in the middle of my speech, so I quickly changed my words and asked, "Do you think I'm suspicious of the two old men?" "Brother Yajima.
Xi Lin was silent and did not answer.
"I promise, I have absolutely no doubt about the meaning of the two old men, but I want to make sure what is affecting me. If it was really caused by the soul bell, then it must be that I lived up to the old man's expectations. I tried my best to take care of Xi Lin's emotions and said.
Xi Lin also sighed after hearing this, and then frowned and said: "I don't know what to say, I was really repulsed when you said that I was like a vampire hunter before, but then I also thought about it carefully, and what you said also has a certain truth, just from my position, I ......"
"I understand, you should be angry, it's me who doesn't have a brain when I speak." I said.
"Nope. Not your problem. Xi Lin shook his head vigorously, and then he seemed to want to say something, but it seemed that he couldn't find the right words to express his thoughts for a while.
"Forget it, let's just get over it." I patted Xi Lin on the shoulder, and then said with a smile: "I'll go in first and talk to the old demon, and I'll come out in a while." ”
Xi Lin nodded, and then followed me into the enchantment.
As soon as I entered, I noticed that the old demon was already standing next to me, and was staring at me in surprise.
"I got a soul bell from the Seventh Master, you should be able to see it, right?" I asked.
"I can see it, but this result is still very surprising to me, it is said that you should not have such a high qualification, it is better to give it to Fan Po than to give it to you!" The old demon commented very shamelessly.
"It doesn't matter who the bell should be given to anymore, now I'm more concerned about it. Does this bell distort people's personalities? I asked straight to the point.
"Twisted? Hmph......" the old demon snorted weirdly, "I don't think it's distorted, but it magnifies what was already in the soul." What kind of person are you originally, and after taking the Soul Bell, you are still the same person as before, and some subtle changes can be ignored. ”
"That's not a small change anymore. I killed someone, and I didn't even hesitate. I said with a straight face.
"Have you never killed anyone before? Think before you answer! The concept of 'killing' is not the same to us as ordinary people. The old demon reminded me.
"If the Dementor is a dementor, I've killed it. But that was a very special situation, he was not really a living person, just a superfluous personality that should not exist......"
"Excuses!" The old demon interrupted me stiffly, then walked over and stared into my eyes and said, "What do you mean redundant?" Who says that's redundant? You're just looking for a reason that you can psychologically accept for your murderous behavior, and to put it bluntly, you're making excuses! Now you just don't want to make those excuses anymore because you're more decisive than before. ”
"Fruit...... Decisive? Is that decisive? "I doubt the old demon's words.
"Isn't it?" The old demon asked with a smile.
"What about you? How did you get to where you are? When the old man handed you the Soul Bell, what were you like? "I turned the conversation to the old demon.
"Well...... I have to think about it. The old demon rolled his eyes and recalled, "I should have been fourteen years old when I got the Soul Bell. At that time, my idea was very simple, that is, to be the first, to be the strongest, because only by becoming the strongest can all the bad guys be punished. Subdue all the bad guys. ”
"But then you changed." I said.
"Yes. I have changed, and people will always change because of the various things they have experienced. The Soul Bell will only make these changes more significant, but they will not change the essence of who you are. Sometimes, though, you'll lose sight of the small, but crucial, things that change you so dramatically that the Soul Bell makes you lose more and more of your sight. ”
"For example?" I asked.
"For example, a small thing that disappoints you, or a certain sentence that you overhear, in short, is those inconspicuous trivial things that keep happening around you. For me, I thought that if I became the strongest, I could punish all sinners, but then I realized that just punishing sinners was useless. ”
The old demon head shook his head, and then continued: "My neighbor is a thief, and my apprentice used my reputation to cheat people out of money in the name of exorcism when I was on a trip. It's not a big deal, but it made me realize that evil is everywhere, and even if I become the strongest, evil still exists. ”
"So your goals have changed?" I asked.
"Yes, I'm disappointed in myself because of the existence of these 'little evils'. So I started to focus on making myself stronger, which was not what I wanted, I just wanted to use it to distract myself from the fact that I couldn't eradicate the evil. However, unconsciously, the distress and disappointment became unimportant, and how to make myself stronger became the only thing I wanted to pursue in my heart. So tell me, is it the Soul Bell that really changed me? The old demon asked.
"So you're trying to say that the Soul Bell is not the source of change, it just amplifies the truest thoughts in your heart. In fact, even if you don't have a soul bell, you will change, but you will ...... Slow? I asked.
"It's going to be a lot slower, and even before I become negative, maybe someone will find the problem and correct my negative thoughts in time. But the Soul Bell will make you see the essence of your soul up close, it will make you ignore all excuses, and your soul will be disappointed with the world, and you will be disappointed with it, and there will be no room for maneuver, because everything is coming too fast. The old demon replied.
I nodded as I pondered the old demon's words.
Xi Lin also came over at this time and patted me lightly on the shoulder, and then said to me in the tone of a passerby: "You did the right thing, your starting point is always good." Killing is wrong, but it can also be right in some special circumstances - such as to save innocent lives. You are so that innocent people are not threatened by Chen Dapeng, there is no need to hesitate to kill people in this situation, your soul has not changed from beginning to end! ”
"You are really impermanent, so you almost read these words in ancient poems." I said to Xi Lin with a smile, and at the same time secretly relieved in my heart.
I don't need to think deeply about what the old demon said to me, now that my mood has improved, I hope I can maintain this state to crusade against the Huang Dao monk. As I thought before, a good mood can only be good for the next crusade.
I thanked the old demon, and then walked out of the enchantment with Xi Lin and Fan Po.
Fan Pochong sighed at me, and then smiled helplessly and said: "My will is still not strong enough, I am still easily affected by some small things, such as if you take the Soul Bell, I will still be jealous, this negative emotion will definitely be amplified after getting the Soul Bell, and I will also be driven crazy by it." So my cultivation is not enough, and I have to continue to work hard. ”
"Then I wish you success." I nodded in response, and then asked what the leather armor and dagger were for.
Fan Po didn't give a clear explanation for this, he only told me that it was the two impermanence old men who told me to give it to me and Xi Lin, in short, we just put it on, as for what role this thing can play, we can only wait until we really fight with the Huangdao Buddha and the two Hades.
Although I don't want to bet on this unknown possibility, the two impermanence old men are not at home, and I don't know when I will be back, and I really don't know what to do, so I have to look back at Xi Lin.
Xi Lin means that we take the things first, and if the crusade does not start immediately, then we will go back to the Impermanent House and wait for the two old men. And if the situation allows, we can also deliberately postpone the crusade, after all, it is not a matter for a few of us, and there are also the elites of the festival who have passed together, and we can't let everyone take their lives to accompany us on the adventure.
I also agree with Xi Lin's idea that if you want to crusade against those foreign gods, the safest way is to ask the two impermanence old men to come out in person.
So when I took my things and exited the Yin and Yang Realm, I was already thinking about the details of postponing the crusade. But when Xi Lin and I walked out of the basement of the research institute, Weiwei hurriedly ran over to me and said, "Xiao Ai has found Chen Dapeng's sister, let's act tonight!" I've got all the people in place! ”
"But we didn't see impermanence, and it's better to delay the action for a few days." I said.
"Delayed?" Weiwei's brow furrowed into a pimple, and she paused for a moment before she asked again, "How many days do you want to delay?" ”
"I don't know this, no one can say when the old man will come back, we can only wait in the Impermanence Curie, there is no other way to contact." I say.
"And what if they don't come back for a week?" Vivi asked anxiously.
"Wait until next week?" I replied tentatively, but I could tell from Vivi's expression that something must have happened.
Wei Wei shook her head and said, "I'm afraid we won't be able to wait for a week!" Yesterday there was a big incident, a total of thirty-six cities appeared in the Huang Dao Buddha manifestation incident, all those who want to get benefits from the Huang Dao Buddha need to stab in the chest first, as a result, a total of one million people pierced their chests with knives last night! One day, one million! We don't have time to delay! ”