We stayed overnight at the guesthouse. www.biquge.info The next morning, when the sun was rising, we took a taxi to the cemetery on the outskirts of the city.

The time to sweep the tomb does not have to be so strict on the day of Qingming, generally the first three and the last four can be, and the place where it is wide is said to be the first seven and eight are effective. Therefore, the time when we came was not on the day of Qingming, but two days in advance. First, I asked for leave a little earlier, and the boss was more actionable, and I set off very quickly, and secondly, maybe I also had some shadows in my heart, afraid that I would meet someone I didn't want to see at home on Qingming Day.

Although I am not sure whether my two uncles still recognize his eldest brother, whether there will be any other person to visit and take care of my parents' graves during the Qingming Festival.

Speaking of which, the time of the Qingming Festival is the brightest time of the year. The green willows in the city are like silk, the flowers are dense, and the bees and butterflies are fluttering, which seems to make the mood unconsciously lighten.

This is a contradictory thing, it is clear that the sacrifice is a sad thing, but the customary commemorative activities are chosen at such a time, so the memorial and outings are often linked together, so as not to go out twice. When I got on the taxi to the cemetery, I couldn't understand how I was in the mood to go out if I was here to sweep the grave.

Anyway, I didn't, and I was a little worried that when I saw my parents' tombstones, I couldn't help but have an emotional breakdown.

However, when the light passes, and people gradually accept the fact that we will be separated forever, perhaps the sorrow will gradually be healed by time, and there will no longer be so much pain, but only blessings and thoughts. In another year, two years, ten years, twenty years, when I come back here after the next Qingming and the next Qingming, it may be a different mood.

I remember that a person named Gao Zhu wrote a poem in the Song Dynasty, and I felt a little stunned when I read it at the time, but now that I think about it, the melancholy feeling is even clearer.

There are many cemeteries on the north and south hills, and the Qingming Festival sweeps each other.

The paper ash turned into a white butterfly, and the tears and blood stained into a red cuckoo.

The fox sleeps on the mound at dusk, and returns to the children at night in front of the laughing lamp.

If there is wine in life, you must be drunk, and a drop of it has ever been to Jiuquan.

At the moment of the sacrifice, people were so sad, but after the sacrifice, they all laughed in their own way. Once a person dies, everything is empty, and nothing can be controlled.

The deceased is gone, and the living have to move on, it is not that the love has decreased, this is just a law and inevitability. But for the deceased, maybe their own life is all for themselves, and they can't expect the people they love to keep themselves on the tip of their hearts all the time.

However, this is also the meaning of the Qingming Festival. Push aside all the shackles of the world, take some time, and think about them wholeheartedly.

This time, I didn't bring the paper money that was to be burned when the people visited the graves, because it was a public cemetery, and it was forbidden to do so. I just bought a bouquet of flowers and brought a bottle of my father's favorite drink. I went there today, mainly to wipe down the tombstones, clean them up, and then talk to my parents there.

Doesn't it mean that although people and ghosts have different paths, thoughts can be conveyed to them through time and space?

Before I went out, I deliberately changed into a black suit. Liqing only put on light makeup today, and she also coiled up her long curly hair, which was another charming. I suddenly realized that she rarely wore such a plain color, and that the black dress and plain cover were not her liking. Although she didn't say anything, she was not careless and confused in this matter, which made me inexplicably very moved.

I left home after the funeral and the cemetery, so I knew very well the location of the tombstone. When I stepped into the cemetery and looked at the location of the tombstone from a distance, I was surprised to find that there was already a person standing in front of the tombstone.

I didn't expect that there would be other people besides me who would come to visit the grave, because my parents' funerals were so sloppy and deserted. I cried and protested to my second and third uncles, but no one paid attention to me at all.

And the coldness and ridicule of my uncles at that time will never be forgotten by me.

The man was standing with his back to me, wearing a small black trench coat, not tall, very thin. I walked a distance closer and recognized it from the back, this was actually Lu Jiaxing, the cousin of the third uncle's family.

Jiaxing is five years younger than me, and he is only going to university this year. Among all the brothers and sisters, Jiaxing is the only one who is still close to me, probably because in the family besides me, Jiaxing has the softest personality.

After I left the city, of all my relatives, only Jiaxing called me. He couldn't do anything but ask me where I had been, how I was doing, and if I needed money.

He was a student himself, and he didn't have the ability to be self-reliant, but he did his best to solve my urgent needs and make my life better. At that time, I had just settled down at the bar, and my heart was still very chaotic, and when I heard Jiaxing's voice, I felt my nose ache for a while, and I used all my strength to restrain myself and not let the tears fall.

"Jiaxing ......" called his name from behind me as I approached him. I heard a slight tremor in my own voice.

Jiaxing turned his head and saw that it was me, he was stunned for a few seconds before he came back to his senses, and a smile slowly appeared on his face, and he shouted: "Brother Shining!" ”

It's only been more than two months since I saw him, and Jiaxing seems to have grown a little taller. He was originally an introverted boy, but at this moment his eyebrows seemed to be dyed with a touch of melancholy, making his description even more melancholy, not at all like a little boy who was only seventeen or eighteen years old.

I saw a bouquet of white calla lilies placed in front of my parents' graves, and a fruit bowl offering was placed.

"Jiaxing, thank you." I said it to my little cousin from the bottom of my heart.

"Brother Shining, I'm sad." Jiaxing bit his lip, "I can't do anything, and I can't figure out why they are doing this, I'm sorry Brother Shining......"

I quickly stopped him.

"What do you have to say sorry for? It has nothing to do with you! ”

"No, Brother Shining, my dad is also ...... I begged my dad, but no one ever cared about my words......"

I understand that he is talking about the third uncle. My father has four brothers and sisters, and my father is the eldest and inherited the family business very early. Now that my father is gone, the second uncle has the final say in the affairs of the family. The second uncle is a strong man, and I have been afraid of him since I was a child. The third uncle is not as strong as the second uncle, and his sense of presence is relatively weak, but after my parents' accident, he firmly stood on the side of the second uncle.

Sometimes I wonder how much the second and third uncles must hate my father to do things so desperately at such a moment. In the past, I could only feel that the relationship between their brothers was cold, and those deep-seated contradictions were completely unknown and unthinkable to me.

"Brother Shining," Jia Xing lowered his head slightly and whispered, "I don't know when I will be able to come and visit my uncle and aunt next time, because I am also leaving." ”