What‘slifewithoutwhimsy?

Act 1 - Preface: Who needs to remember Junben's loneliness

A girl I liked once asked me, "Do you like competition?" ”

"No," I subconsciously denied, "I just think it's more fun to play with her." "Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info "Just kidding, my brother is too good to practice, and what he pays attention to is forgetfulness."

"Really?" The person across from him asked rhetorically.

Of course it is, Jing Zhi-chan is lively, generous and cute, and the most important thing is that it is very sunny, which can just heal my gray and cold heart. When I'm with Jingzhi, I can clearly feel that I'm not so gloomy, but it doesn't seem to be to the point of love~~

However, after a few months of separation, when I was confused and depressed, I would always think of Jing Zhichan's eternal vitality. Maybe I just want to talk to someone, and gradually, I'll message her during dinner, message her when I'm at KTV, message her in the car, and I don't care if she replies or not.

Then I found out that I really liked her, and it seemed that there were many people who found out about this fact before me. Wangcai has expressed this question several times, and I remember that one conversation was like this:

"You don't really like competition, do you?"

“？”

"I don't think she's a good fit to be a girlfriend."

"Hey!" At that time, Guangguang smiled heartily: "Friend, you are still too narrow-minded, I think such a girl is suitable for marrying home." ”

“............. seriously？ ”

At that time, the miscellaneous family just thought so, and said so, there was nothing else in it. Who knows if I'll really like her?

In "Historical Records", Fan Zeng commented on Liu Bang and said, "When Pei Gong lived in Shandong, he liked gorgeous clothes, and he was so beautiful", I also have a lot of favorites, beautiful girls, beautiful scenery, gorgeous singing and dancing, beautiful strings, and a lot of things I like. There are many girls I like, but there is only one one who loves. I like people who are beautiful or at least better than me in some way, but they don't have to be girls. It's like a muscular man or something, I also feel very loving.,A long time ago, I thought that the complete Salu was very handsome.。 After thinking about it for two weeks, I realized that I was in love with her.

Need a reason to like someone? Don't need it?

Of course, you need a reason, if the words are tasteless and the face is hateful................

All in all, it took me a long time to determine that I was really in love with her, and it seemed like a boring drama.

What does it feel like to fall in love with someone? Sweet, joyful. Bitterness, suspicion, jealousy, longing, all kinds of good things when I miss her, but if she ignores me when I get close, the feeling of loss and gloom will make people crazy. I feel uncomfortable about gains and losses.

When we met in July, the feeling of discomfort became even stronger. As soon as I stopped, I would miss her, and I would start to see her more often in my dreams. Clever smile, beautiful eyes, I often sketch in my mind her bright teeth and bright eyes looking forward to the look, this is really hateful, you must know that the ambition of a certain family is high and clear.

After a few days of this fascination, I couldn't help it, and then I ran to see her again. Of course, the miscellaneous family will make up an excuse to say that there is something wrong here, and come to see her by the way. Then she asked me what was the matter with coming here? ............. I swore that I would try not to lie again, so I was speechless. When she asked the question again ten minutes later, I vaguely said that someone was leaving to see her one last time. After saying this, he was ashamed and wanted to find a hole to get into. Mustache, boy! You've said you're not going to say these meaty things anymore, what about your iron ambitions?

Next, I hurried away under the pretext that something was wrong, and then regretted it as expected. You know, this is what you have said over the years.

I once lied to myself that if I couldn't see it, it wouldn't exist, but in the next few days, I didn't think about tea and dinner, I was depressed, and I was depressed for no reason. My mother saw it strangely and asked me if I was losing weight by not eating.

Weight loss? Mouth beard! Although there are one hundred and fourteen miscellaneous families, they have always been tired of eating. People live in this world, the most important thing is to eat, how can I lose weight, and where do I need to lose weight?

So why do you keep skipping meals?

yes, why? When I slept in a daze at night, the question struck my mind like lightning, and the answer hit my head like a mountain, and I woke up suddenly.

Why? Why else? Lovesickness!

It turns out that this is the legendary lovesickness.,Carefully experience this feeling.,It seems that there's jealousy and sadness or something in it.,But maybe it's like this.。

I used to be a carefree happy otaku, reading novels, playing games, and watching movies every day, and she was the one who made me fall into such a situation. Now even my favorite novels and games can't relieve my depression, but I can still have fun when I read my favorite novels.

I tried to get in touch with the girl I liked before.,The other side probably sensed my insincerity.,After a few words, they said they were going to play games.。 Then you just go and turn off your phone, what kind of feeling. Hmm, is the best way to forget an old love is to find a new one?

Act 2 - Broken: I am lovesick and self-defeating

A long, long time ago, well, three months ago, I wanted to show her a better image. So I ran every day, hoping to get fit and lose a little bit of weight. Three months later, I came out of the pharmacy and weighed it by the way.

Well.

Hey?

I'll go!

The miscellaneous family has weighed another six pounds, and now it is 140~~

In "The Dust of History", when the protagonist learned that Xiaoyi was going to get married after she went back. The author writes this passage:

No matter how beautiful the relationship between others and you is, in fact, they are just fellow travelers for an occasional period in the road of life

After that, there is always a way to go.

But I don't want to be like this with you, I don't want to see you once every six months, I don't want every call to be just a few minutes. I hope to see you every week, I hope to see you every day, even if every time we meet is on the road, even if every time I am incoherent, I will feel very comfortable when I see your hearty and bright smile, and I will become more optimistic and positive.

Every time we go shopping together, I think: wind, wind, let's stop time in this moment.

I like you, do you like me too?

It's a question, but I don't want to ask it, and I don't want to have no chance to get together once every six months.

Well, most of you don't have that feeling. Only a boring and sentimental guy like me would have that kind of feeling, maybe I'm just a dispensable passerby in your world. But it's love, and I pressed my right hand on my left chest, feeling every heartbeat. Strange feelings run through the veins, just love.

Time and space are the most powerful forces in the world, and no one can guarantee what the future holds.

The only thing I can guarantee is myself (doubtful).

Then I spent a few more days analyzing why the miscellaneous family would be sad, and after a week of deliberation, I now came to the following conclusion:

One: Time and space are the biggest killers, and we can only see each other two or three times a year with thousands of kilometers between us. Even if she had the slightest affection for me, it would be wiped clean by this hateful time and space. Well, according to my conservative talent, the miscellaneous family can hold on for five or six years without wavering~~ no pressure.

Two: Thinking that she might be with other men, jealousy spontaneously arises! It's really strange, the girls I liked before are all married, and I don't see any feelings from the miscellaneous family. Maybe the miscellaneous family just looks amorous, but in fact it is very ruthless?

Three: I definitely like her more than she likes me. My ideal love should not have a little flaw, although I am getting older, the idealistic factor is still deeply engraved in my bones (by the way, my idol is Wu Zixu). When I love a girl, I don't take other girls seriously. Idealist, I want the people I like to do the same to me, it's really hard.

Time is the world's biggest killer, what will happen in the future? What I'm hoping for now...... Forget it, just wait and see.

Act 3 - Urgency: Strike when it's time to strike

A certain family likes you alone for about a year. Not only do I say this to myself, but I also say this to the guys with whom I have a good relationship, and I also say it to the girls.

It's all good when I think about you, but when you ignore me, I'm so sad.

In the past few days, I have been growing sadness, sorrow, jealousy and suspicion in my heart, reflection and doubt have been constant, narcissism and low self-esteem have recurred, and it is almost driving me crazy. Did I say the wrong thing?

I like you from the depths of my heart, and although this emotion may be humble, my love for you is no different from the purest love in the world. (Hey, boy, you said that to a girl last time)

But......................

It didn't make sense to say any of this, and the moment I woke up, it occurred to me that I didn't say those three words, and I didn't do anything too frivolous (doubtful). So, it's normal for you to do it, because how you want to be, how you love is your freedom. There is no oath between you and me, you and I are free. It's true for you, and it's true for me.

I once told someone: I have no regrets in my career. At that time, Anping laughed at me, I was bragging, and after thinking about it, I had to smile and say that it was just an ideal, but I still have to say, I really want to do so.

I don't regret it, at least I don't regret it at all in liking you, that bright tooth and bright eyes are worth loving.

You naturally have your own reasons for doing that, so why bother thinking about it, why bother asking.

I hope you can love me as much as I love you, or I can love you only half as much as I love you. If you can't do it, then buddy will be 3~~

I decided to confess directly, even if I was rejected.

I hate muddling and dwelling. How can a mother-in-law and a mother-in-law be done by a big husband? Even if I feel sad, I will only put it in my heart, and then say to people with a smile: Young man, do you want to have a shot?

Although it would be sad and sad to be rejected, there was a vague sense of relief after making a decision. The dice have been thrown, and the result is "Does God throw the dice?" "Well, you are God now?

In that case, I will continue to like you, but it will not be the kind of love that you have to love. Hey, author, you've said this sentence many times~~

What the future holds, who can say? What I can do is to change myself a little bit and move in this direction for the better.

Well, in the evening, lie on your side and watch the strange light in the sky. The sky is vast and pure, as beautiful as an oil painting.

Act IV - Epilogue: There is always a meeting in thousands of rivers and mountains

Finally waited for her to hear back, well, twenty-four hours later (doubtful).

"Poof"?

What does that mean? Laughing, or a smile that feels more pleasant?

But it's nice to see you so energetic.

Speaking of "poof", I just saw a song "Linjiang Immortal", and that is the feeling of "poof".

The full poem is as follows:

This is a person from the back mountain, and he occasionally sits in the front hall. Drunken dance through the pavilion half a book, sitting in the well said that the sky is wide.

Dazhi drama fame, sea bucket blessings and misfortunes. When it comes to shyness in the bag, he angrily points to the mistake.

The last sentence is really a divine twist. When I read this, I couldn't help but smile, Mr. Ding is also a very interesting and loving person.

Well, this poem is called "Self-Deprecation", and it suits me perfectly.

I wanted to tell her in person that I liked her, but since we haven't seen each other recently and haven't had a chance to meet each other, forget it.

Well, it's sad to be upset, but it's just sad, just get used to it.

Not self-evident,

I don't see what I see,

If you don't kill yourself, you have merit.

Not self-conscious.

The husband is indisputable, so the world can not fight with it.

- Kouhu, I think the miscellaneous family can be rescued again.

- Huh? Guest, you're very handsome!

I look more than ten years old, I hate it........... Well, the light ones are not bad.