1?????? Do I remember the first day I walked into elementary school? The teacher said to me, "Kids? How happy are you? Growing up in such a peaceful age...; …; ”

I don't understand. Still don't understand what peace is? I don't understand what happiness is.

But today I understand what it means. Understand the happiness of this world in a sad way? And, of course, the darkness of this world.

Isn't everyone going to be the unbeatable hero in a cartoon? Not everyone can burst out with amazing power at the last minute like the heroes in the movies.

That day in 95? Li San'er is carrying the second uncle's body that is gradually getting cold? I didn't know how to cry or even come to my senses, and I slowly walked out of the gate of Lishunde.

Didn't call the police? Because there is no way to prove that the snake master killed the second uncle? Because in the eyes of ordinary people, the second uncle and the snake master have no contact at all.

The day of the second uncle's funeral? I'm wearing a black jacket? A white cloth tied around his waist and a strip of black cloth hanging from his left shoulder? Seeing my mother and two older brothers coming from afar? They walk in the sun? And I'm standing in the dark? I look at my mother? Thought she was going to give me a big hug? Thinking that she would hold me, she stroked my head and said, "Good son is fine...; …; ”

But. All this just thought? She silently passed by me? Don't even have a moment to stay? Not a word? He didn't even look at me for a moment.

Actually, she's been doing this to me for as long as I can remember. I should have gotten used to it? Even in my little heart I already knew that she would do this to me? But today I couldn't help but turn back and shout to her: "Mother! ”

She finally stopped? In the daylight, she turned her head slowly and looked at me with cold eyes? At this moment, I feel as if there is ice and snow covering my body? I heard her whisper, "What do you have to say to your father?" I don't want to talk to you. ”

Then she raised her hand and pointed behind me. I tilted my head to look behind me? Never forget what happened behind you? The one who has never held me since I was born? The man who never even calls me by name wears a big black trench coat? Combing his usual big back hair? Carrying a BB machine around his waist. Walking in those shiny leather shoes.

A cold face that hasn't changed for 10,000 years? A grim look that never seems to change? Is he my father? The second uncle's brother? His name is Wan Jianjun? Chinese New Year's Eve is thirty or seven? Gave birth to me when you were thirty? In my memory all along, he was the busy man of Tianzi No. 1? It's also the coldness of Tianzi No. 1? As if there could be something that would move him? As if he would never smile.

"Daddy."

I shouted.

He walked in front of me? Eyes on me? Then he said unusually calmly: "Did your second uncle call me before leaving?" He said you were going to Beijing to learn art? Your own path you decide? Give your second uncle a ride and then go on the road. ”

After saying that, he took out an envelope from his bosom and stuffed it into my hand? I touched it? It's supposed to be money.

"That's five hundred bucks? You haven't had much to do with me since then? Go your own way. ”

Five hundred? Was it really not a small amount in the nineties? But it's far from enough to buy out the family relationship between us? I pinched the envelope in my hand and silently lowered my head? Haven't been talking? Reaching out and grabbing the arm of his father, who was about to leave? He shouted in a low voice, "Dad? Don't leave me? I want to go home with you. ”

I don't want to drift? I don't want to go to Beijing? I'm scared? When I see so many weird things? When I saw my second uncle fall down and never got up again, I was scared!

I was holding my father's hand? He frowned and pulled his hand back sharply? Then he looked at me with an unusually disgusted look and shouted, "Don't touch me!" Fuck off! ”

Am I standing on the spot? Feeling overwhelmed? Until my father dusted off the sleeves of his coat as if I had really soiled his clothes? Then strode into the mourning hall? That moment? Standing alone outside the mourning hall, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore? Soreness in both eyes? Red circles under your eyes? Tears rolled down his eyes in an instant.

"What's wrong? Lin'er, what's going on?"

Li San'er heard my cry and ran from far away? Hugging me? Gently stroke my head.

"My parents don't want me anymore? Three masters? I don't want my mom or dad anymore? My dad gave me five hundred dollars and didn't want me? Three masters? I don't have a father or a mother...; …; ”

Many parents like to use such words to tease themselves with their children? For example, "If you are naughty, I don't want you." "I'll throw you out if I don't eat again."

It's just that? When all this really happened to me? Tears can't save the second uncle's life? I can't get my parents back.

Ninety-five years? I'm in Tianjin? Seven years old? My second uncle was killed because of my childishness? My father gave me five hundred dollars and severed my father-son relationship? It's just that? I thought it was the saddest time of my life, but I found out later? This was just the beginning of my miserable life.

After the second uncle's funeral? After five or seven? Accompanied by Li San'er, I followed Li Feng to Beijing together? When you get to Beijing? Just in time for a light rain in Beijing? Traces of cold rain wafting in the sky? We took Li Feng's friend's car all the way to the vicinity of Wanshou West Palace in Beijing? At that time, the traffic in Beijing was naturally not as congested as it is today? But there are more bicycles on the road? The buildings on either side are not so high? There are still many old alleys that have not been demolished? We stopped at the entrance of an alley called: West Archway.

"Wan Lin? There is only one family in this west archway? Is this family sitting in my master? Also the great master of our connections? Named Yan Kai? Word envelope such as? The older generation likes to call him Yan Fengru? And our younger generation called him Master Yan. Do you have to know how to do things when you go in? If he doesn't speak, don't you speak first? He won't let you sit and you stand? Remember?"

I nodded? Honestly? Since the death of my second uncle, my impression of Li Feng has plummeted? I used to think he was a big hero, but now I think he's just an accomplice of bad guys.

Got out of the car? I'm carrying my bag and going inside? Are Beijing's hutongs not narrow? Is this very different from the alleys in the south? The narrowest part of the alleys in the south can't even pass people side by side.

Just in time for the rain? The old bluestone slab on the ground was wet by the rain? Particularly dark? Am I cautiously walking on the bluestone slab? Can you see a black gate from afar? Stickers of gold on the door? When you walk in, you can see that this doorknob is also carved quite exquisitely? It is a pair of golden tiger heads.

No stone lions in front of the door? But there is a couplet on both sides of the gate? Zuo Shu: Millennium Emperor Wannian Immortal. Right book: Destiny is determined by heaven and not by heart.

Li Feng motioned for us not to move forward? After tidying up his coat and hair, he walked very respectfully to the black gate? Lightly buckle the golden knocker three times?" Boom? Boom? Boom. "After three sounds? The door slowly opens? But there was no one inside? It's a big black expanse where you can't see anything clearly.

"Why is there no one?"

I asked curiously. Bu Huanji.

Just finished speaking? A candle lit up in the dark? The faint light of the fire illuminates the darkness all around? I can vaguely see an old man standing behind the fire? But you can't see your face clearly? But my psychic eyes saw some strange images.

I see a hint of white air? Spreading out like mist in the dark? It seems to revolve around the old man sitting in the middle? It seems to spread aimlessly in the sky.

I'm looking at this mist? Do they slowly swirl in the sky? Finally in this darkness? Behind this faint candle flame formed a large humanoid object? I rubbed my eyes? Can't help but look up like this? In the depths of this West Pai Lou Hutong? Huge patio-style house in the middle? All this white mist that only I can see has been transformed into a huge, difficult to execute picture? A man in a white robe? An immortal whose body is uncertain and made up of mist!